Song: Alone In This Bed
Band: Framing Hanley.
37. Alone.
January 25, 2015
Two months and nine days. Two months and eleven days since he last saw her. Touched her. Heard her voice. Looked into her green eyes. Felt her arms around him and her sweet but hot kisses.
Two months and nine days since he last saw her. Two months and eleven days since he last saw her. Held her. Heard her voice. Listen to her adorable little giggle and her bright green eyes compliment her brown curls.
He missed them both. Just as much as, well, everyone else.
Jake stood in front of Kitty's locker. He knew her combination so the door was opened and he just looked on the inside. There were a bunch of Cheerio's pictures and high school logos. Glee pictures were all over the door part, mainly of her and Jake. There were a few more of him and her during the summer in California. The summer where their relationship took a large turn both negatively and positively. Kitty learning to deal with the pain of her childhood home, but their relationship becoming better. Yes, they argued for a long time, but now they're strong. Something Jake had never felt with a girl ever since he started to date.
Jake shook the thoughts off, just as Becky came up to him. "Coach Sue said to get out of the hallway, BITCH!"
Jake rubbed his head as he walked down to Glee club where they had practice. Although he didn't really focus in class and sat there the entire time. He left fifteen minutes early and sauntered down the hall with his bag swung over his shoulder.
"This fucking sucks." Jake muttered. He passed a glass case that held trophies, pictures, medals and other things in sports. There was a single picture of Kitty under the sign that read Sophomore MVP Of the Year—Kathleen S. "Kitty" Wilde. Jake smiled but then frowned looking at the date. It was taken three weeks before Kitty began to be abused again. Jake checked down both hallways before pulling out a bobby-pin Marley lent to him once and twitched the end inside of the lock.
He opened the glass case and took the picture out. It was a head shot type picture too. "I miss you Kitty. Where are you?"
Jake then looked up to the ceiling, looking passed it. "Would it kill you if you just helped her out, Princess chick? Like seriously, what had she ever done to you? I don't think she's swore at you or anything. Wanna just help her?"
Waking up without you
It doesn't feel right
To sleep with only memories
It's harder every night
Sometimes I think I can feel you breathing on my neck
Tonight I'm reaching out to the stars
I think that he owes me a favor
It doesn't matter where you are
I'll hold you again
(Jake holds the picture closer to him, walking down the empty hallways).
I wish I could hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed
Not tonight, not tomorrow
(Jake opens her locker and finds one photo of him, Kitty, Ryder, Marley and Kathy in the photo on some bench taken a few months ago).
I've got the feeling that this will never cease
Living in these pictures
It never comes with ease
I swear that if I could make this right
You'd be back by now
Tonight I'm screaming out to the stars
He knows he owes me a favor
It doesn't matter where you are
You'll be mine again
I wish I can hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed
(Jake in choir as Glee kids ((including college visitors)) watch from the chairs).
What about the plans that we had
We'd been crazy not to go
Meet me in capeside
(Rapid memories appearing in his head of Kitty and him, laughing and smiling).
I wish I can hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed
Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed
Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed
By the end of the song Jake was on the verge of tears. Everyone in the room clapped, though Jake could give two shits right now.
"Jake—" Will began to say.
"Honestly, fuck this!" Jake yelled.
"Jake!" Will shouted.
"It's been almost two months, Mr. Schue! Two months since we've lost Kitty and Kathy!" Jake yelled. "I'm honestly just...just...just over it! I'm done!"
"Done with what?" Brittany asked, confused as usual.
"I'm done of hoping she comes back!" Jake screamed. "I'm done of praying and not getting a damn answer, I'm done with dreaming they'll come back." Jake picked up his backpack and began to leave the room.
Down the hallway Jake was nearly out of the school when he turned around and heard Puck and Finn running after him. He stopped, but rolled his eyes.
"What?" He asked.
"Jake, look man we get how your feeling—" Finn began.
"No! No you don't! You have no idea what I'm going through!" Jake yelled.
"Yes we do!" Puck yelled. "Look whenever I look at Kathy I see Beth. Literally, I see Beth with brown hair. I miss that damn kid."
"And Jake we've all known Kitty since she came to the school," Finn continued. "We're all friends with her and love her like a sister. We get how your feeling."
"No you don't," Jake said and began walking away. Puck grabbed his backpack. "Let go!"
A few things fell out of his backpack. Including a long, silver box, a pink teddy bear with a white bow on its ear and a red heart on its belly. and two cards. The trio just looked down at the items.
"Who those for?" Finn asked.
"They were for Kitty and Kathy for Christmas gifts." Jake muttered, picking them up. "A bear for Kathy and something nice for Kitty."
"What is it?" Puck asked.
"A necklace. Seriously in September Kitty and I went to the mall and and she pointed out this necklace she wanted. So a week later Ryder and I went to the mall and we made a deal. He gets the necklace and I do his Saturday chores and yard work until I pay him back. September until the end of October."
Finn opened the cards and read them. "These are good."
Jake ripped them out of his hands and slammed them back into his backpack. "Yeah well, whatever, I don't give a shit...no point anyways."
"Bro, they'll be back. I know it." Puck said. "We get how your feeling—"
"Nobody gets how I'm feeling! It's deeper than anything..." Jake screeched, his voice beginning to crack. "I love Kitty!"
"Yeah I know. We've heard you say it." Puck said. "And you said to me that you've said that to other girls before."
"No, no this is different." Jake said. "With Kitty it's different."
"Funny, think you said the same thing when you tried to get together with Innocent—"
"Puck, shut up!" Jake yelled.
"How different then?" Puck inquired.
"Like with other girls I just see us dating, but with Kitty...it got deeper than usual. Like," Jake rubbed the back of his head. "Like I had a dream once. Kitty and I were married and we had three kids; two boys and a girl. And then I dreamed us of older...like gray hair older...sitting on some porch watching our grand-kids play in the front yard." Jake's voice continued to shake a bit.
"And I look like some nasty piece of shit as an old man, but Kitty still looks the same as she looks now. She'll always look that way to me. Never a wrinkle or saggy body or anything. She's my perfect world." Jake bit his mouth. "But I'm going to be alone forever now."
"You won't be alone, Jake." Finn said. "Kitty and Kathy will come back."
"Yeah and if they don't I'll be alone."
"Bro, not saying they won't come back... but there are plenty of babes in the world."
"Nope." Jake said. "Not like Kitty. Not like Kitty at all."
"Damn, you really love her, don't you?" Puck questioned.
Jake nodded slowly. Before he knew it he felt some water works sliding down his face. He wiped them off quickly, but it was too late. He saw Finn coming to hug him when Jake flipped him the finger. "No, No! I don't need that. I don't need a hug."
"Well what do you want then?" Finn asked.
Jake lost it. "I want...Kitty!"
Jake sobbed after that, falling to his knees and dropping his backpack. He felt Puck wrap a hug around him withing seconds as Finn sat next to him, too, and placed his hand on Jake's shoulder. With no spoken words, they told Jake it'd be all right.
Jake wanted to believe them.
I needed to have some Jake in here, and I couldn't decide if I wanted Puck or Finn to comfort him. So I added both.