A/N: So hey again! I'd written this chappy down but I forgot to post it...few had a field trip yesterday and i'm still recovering from all that fun...damn I'm tired! Anyways, I sortofish (that's sort-of-ish not sort-o-fish =P) like this chapter...it was nice writing it...also one of my friends gave me their experience on kissing cause I NEVER have...=P sad really but oh well, just makes my writing better...i think...anyhow this chapter is dedicated to him out there who i haven't met yet...i know it's stupid dedicating a chapter to someone who you don't actually have but oh well...MACARONI AND CHEESE!

37. Valentine's Day Blues and a Big, Black Dog.
Draco's P.O.V

Dear Journal,
I'm feeling completely wretched now, because of what I said and Draco isn't going to forgive me...only one way for me to express it, the way I know best,

It's the only thing that pierced my heart,
It's the only thing that spearheaded my barricade.
And I wept tears of blood and pain,
And I wished I'd never live again.

I held a knife and brought it down,
I held another battered shield;
I didn't, couldn't think of it like that,
I didn't, couldn't think our fate would be sealed this way.

I wished those words I said away,
But they came back and haunted me,
Night and Day.

I wish I could make my fantasies real,
I wish he'd know this terrible
Misery I feel.

I chartered grief,
In my heart so deep.
And then I held my head
And all I could do was weep.

Because I was stained,
Because my heart was tainted
Nothing could ever numb this pain,

Nothing, Nothing, Nothing…

~ Maya

I just stared. I still hadn't given her, her necklace back...an invisible barrier had been erected between us. This poem just made it worse. Her eyes were bloodshot and she refused to eat. How long would this go on for? I needed to do something...but that song…

Just thinking about it sent a wave of emotions coursing through my veins…anger, pain, frustration and most of all, sadness. I couldn't sleep. It haunted me throughout the day and throughout the night as well…and now this.

I shut the book tightly.

Today we were supposed to go to Hogsmeade…

I think I'll skip…being anywhere close to Niveria has been hard.

Niveria's P.O.V

I started down the stairs, just to see Draco at the bottom. He looked as terrible as I felt.

His face was deathly pale and gaunt. His blonde hair was limp and lifeless as he himself was and his eyes? The ones I loved the most? They'd lost all life to them and were dull, sad eyes…as sad as the weather outside. It was like the world was mourning for us…

His mouth opened and closed, but no sound came out from them. It killed me to see him, like this or not. I brushed past him, my breath catching in my throat where our shoulders had met. But it was gone. All gone. We were done…

I shoved my hands into the pockets of the green hoodie I was wearing over my gray shirt. It was probably the only vibrant thing about me. I met a worried looking Demi, Rina, Kapila, Raiyne, Dawn, Alisha and Leah outside the Slytherin tower. Fyre had ditched us as usual. My heart contracted painfully as I saw her and Blaise looking as if they hate each other, but in reality being totally in love…she still hadn't told us…

We walked down to the Great Hall and I, as a habit it had become, toyed around with my food, not really eating it at all. I cleared my throat and Demi, Kapila and Rina looked at me apprehensively. I had taken to being quiet, teary-eyed and on the whole a being who was meticulously surrounded by a depressing aura.

"Guys, I don't want to sow you guys down…go without me…I'll come" I was disgusted at how feeble and weak my voice had sounded with the lack of use. They just nodded but Rina hung back.

"Niveria, I'm there you can talk-"
"Just go."
"But-"
"I said. Go." I hissed. She looked a little taken aback. I just glared and went back to 'eating' my food. In reality, I wanted to be alone…sure after two weeks I should've been over him…but the way in which he broke up with me…it was just too much…

I didn't bother to hide the tears as I walked out of the Great Hall and out into the ground. I walked to the smelly owlery, looking for Farren, my snowy white owl. Nalanda had brought her along when they came. I gratefully accepted her touch as she let me pet her. She had been, undoubtedly, mad at me for a long time because I had to leave her behind.

"What am I going to do, Farren? I'm still completely and totally in love with him" I whispered. She just looked at me with her amber eyes, wise and understanding. I petted her head once more and turned.

Draco.

Two times today. Two times I had to see him face-to-face. Two times…God truly hates me, despises me more so than he ever had before.

He looked faintly relieved and grinned his lopsided grin. How much had he heard? He was teasing me. How utterly horrible. I glared through my tears and ran past him. His attempts at catching hold of my hand failed but I couldn't believe he'd try to after everything.

I rushed down the stairs to the nearest exit out of the castle. Walking quickly in longer strides I made it out of the castle and found myself standing in front of Madam Puddifoot's. Remember what I said about God despising me? I couldn't have framed it any better.

Couples were flocking in and out of the colorful little teashop, holding hands. God was mocking me for sure. Fyre and Blaise walked out and caught sight of me. They sprung apart sheepishly but I just waved them off. They looked confused but nodded and walked away. I walked away from the tea shop , keeping my head down so no one could see my evident tears.

P ahead a big, black dog pranced around, earning a few scraps from people passing by. I felt sorry for it and bought tow loafs of bread with all that I had left. I whistled and it bounded to me happily.

"Come here, you…" I said fondly and ruffled his ears. I fed him a loaf of bread and ate one myself. He danced around me happily. Brainwave.

"Come here, will ya…let's have some fun!" I said and put my glowing palm on top of his head, taking a little energy from him to sober him down a bit and to help me change but not enough to kill him. I ruffled his ears again and he began looking a little more perky. First I changed into a mosquito, leaving my clothes and my bag behind. Then, when I changed back, I put them back in and stuffed the bag behind a tree where no one would notice. Finally, I became a duplicate of the dog who looked at me warily. I barked out a hello and explained what happened. He just turned his head around and looked at me doubtfully.

"Come one say something" I said in…er…bark I guess. He considered and then spoke in a slightly deep voice, which sort of took me back because he seemed so young.

"Hello"
"Okay…what's your name…"
"If you tell me where you're from I'll tell you my name."
"Oh I'm from India but I'm a transfer student hear at Hogwarts"
"Oh that's nice…do you know Harry?"
" 'Course I do…but I'm not in Gryffindor…do you know what that is?"
"Yes, it's a house…there are four…Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw and Slytherin…"
"For a dog…"
"I'm not a dog…animagus." He looked utterly honest.
"So you went to Hogwarts? Why are you still in Animagi-form then?"
"Yes, I went to Hogwarts…with James and Lily Potter actually."
"No way."
"Yes way. And Sirius Black, glad to meet you." He added. My breath caught in my throat.
"S-Sirius Black as in m-mass-"
"That was not what happened, and I'm also Harry's god-father so I've no wish to kill him.."
"Okaaay"
"Now I've got to find Harry, if you'll excuse me."
I nodded my doggy head and he pranced off. What. In. The. Bloody. Hell. Was. That. Somehow I had the urge to laugh out at the craziness of the whole thing. I went to the tree were I had hidden my clothes and looked around for the bag. No way. It was gone. Someone had taken it! I panicked trying to work out how I was going to get into the castle. Then I realized that I could transform into a bird. Magic. I'm so stupid.

Within seconds where the black dog had stood, a bird now flew around in frantic circles, trying to locate where the window of her room was. Fortunately, it was in sight (and thankfully open). I transformed back into my original form and went into the bathroom to change my clothes. I could hear my iPod blaring out 'Jar Of Hearts' by Christina Perri. I had just lost my bag and it had all my books and…oh damn! I hurried out clicking my fingers in the process and sending my transformation clothes into oblivion. They would come back when I transform again.

I set about remembering the charm used to summoning charm when there was knock at my door.

"Come in!" I said not even glancing at the door.

Draco's P.O.V

I was utterly puzzled when I found Niveria's bag stashed in a tree. Had she left it? Well, this was a pretty good excuse to go see her so that I could tell her what really happened that night. I love her too much to let her go, and though I've broken her hearts, it'll be repaired in seconds when I tell her the truth. I hope. I walked up the stairs outside her room. I could hear a song blaring through. It wasn't her song, though an equally sad one.

And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

"Well, are you going in or what? She's been heartbroken for days now! I hate you already, don't make me hate you even more." Demi's voice snapped beside me. I just ignored her and knocked the door.

"Good luck…you'll need it" I could hear her murmur as she walked away.

"Come in" Niveria called.

Niveria's P.O.V

Someone's arms went around me and I stood stock still. I knew it was him, it had to be him. He turned me around and I saw him.

Slap!

I don't know what I was thinking. He stumbled back, hurt and clutching his cheek. Christina Perri sang the chorus again and I flicked my wand, turning it up a bit. He rubbed his cheek and turned off the iPod. I could've easily just turned it on but I didn't.

"That was…I deserved that…" he said rubbing his sore cheek. I just turned around and stared out the window.

"Uh…Niveria…"
"What? You think you can just…just…barge in here-"
"I didn't…you said 'come in' which technically isn't-"
"And just act like…act like nothing happened? Do you know how much-" In a moment he had pinned me against the wall, looking menacing as he towered above me. My hands were on his chest and he took one and placed it on his face. A small electric jolt passed through me as my hand met his sore cheek.
"I do know how much it hurts if that was what you were going to say…" he said quietly."…and I'm sorry…even if it wasn't really my fault." He added
"Not your fault? Not your fault?" my voice steadily rose higher and I snatched my hand back. His blank demeanor didn't change.
"Yes, it wasn't my fault…have you ever thought it liable that Pansy forced herself on me? Did you think of that?"
"Of course I didn't! Why would I when you were undoubtedly angry at me and-"
"I was going to forgive you that night…" What?

I looked up at his suddenly emotional eyes and limp blonde hair. It was the first time I'd seen him close-up in days…his face was ghastly pale and his hair was limp. I could see dark circles forming around the rims of his eyes. It looked like…no way, he couldn't have heard me sing. No.

"D-Draco…"
"Yeah…" he whispered, his lips just a few millimeters away from mine. I leaned in but stopped abruptly.

"Sit down."
"What?"
"Draco, sit down!" I pushed him onto my bed and he looked at me questioningly.
"Can you unbutton your shirt, Draco? " I asked him. He arched an eyebrow. "Just do it, please…"
He looked at me, smirking as he undid his buttons. I turned away so I didn't have to look at him.

"Now what?" he whispered, suddenly in my ear. I squeaked and bounded away from him covering my eyes. His arms were around me again and his bare body…I hesitated to think of it and got down to business.

"I-I need to check if your alright."
"I think I'm more than just alright…"
"Shutup and show me your shoulder." I hesitantly turned around to look at him. He was lean and…utterly sculpted. The faint lines…no no concentrate. I forced myself to look away and examined his shoulder.

I knew it.

Coiled around his shoulder blade was the tattoo of a huge, hissing snake. Thank goodness I didn't go any further by kissing him. That would've done it.

"Hold still, I've got to get this off before it kills you." I tried to act calm but I couldn't help but panic. One wrong move and I could kill Draco.

His body was rigid from fear as I gently eased the hissing tattoo of the snake onto my own body, getting the mongoose tattoo to kill it. Blood was ink and a sudden ripping pain jolted my arm. The snake was washed away with the blood that was steadily dripping from my hand.

"Niveria! You…how…let me get-"
"No! Don't touch me!" I shouted, fearful that he should get hurt. I used my own magic and healed myself as best as I could.
"Why did it-"
"If I had to save you, I need to give back some blood as payment…" I said testing my arm. I glanced back at him, still not wearing a shirt. I blushed and handed him back his shirt…

"Now let me -" I said readying my wand
"Don't erase my memory, Niveria."
"I have to…"
"Can't you…immunize me or something? Can't I be immune to your music?"
"I-I don't think-"
"Please Niveria…"
"You need a part of me then…"
"No more blood."
"Kisses…"
"But I've kissed you plenty of times!"
"I need to kiss you out of my own accord…not that I didn't like you kissing me but I can heal you now…you can't be immune to my music because…" I hesitated.
"Because?"
"Because…because if you're not affected then you'd understand what I feel at that moment…I'd be vulnerable to you and I don't think…I mean-" My lips were instantly captured in his. I didn't even realize how much I needed this. He was the fire to my ice, melting away the pain, the cold hard pain. My hands moved out of their own accord, one resting on that carved chest of his and the other entwining in his hair. The kiss became deeper, more insistent and I leaned in let him pull me close. Our bodies molded into one, soft onto hard-

I gasped for air as he let me go. The kiss left me light-headed and dizzy and I leaned onto him for support. His hands had circled my waist and his chin rested on the top of my head.

"I…wow…I didn't know you could…kiss like that…I…" I was a blubbering fool in front of this Greek god.
"You don't seem to mind me not wearing a shirt anymore…maybe I should stay-"
"No!" I squealed, thrusting the shirt at him. He smirked as I kept my eyes firmly on the ground.

"So, we're alright then?"
He kisses me and then asks me like I've got a choice.
"I'm enslaved by you, I swear…" I muttered. He dragged me onto the bed, such that I was practically on his lap. I scrambled off and sat next to him. He put his no longer limp blonde head onto my lap, leaning up so he could lightly brush my lips.

"I love you Niveria Maya Kadam, and I solemnly swear never to let you go. Ever. I promise"

A/N: ...and when he promises he always keeps it...=) See why I liked it? Oh and one more thing...I can't be updating probably in the Month of August coz I've got exmas (uggh I hate them but it can't be helped!) so don't be mad at me and abandon my story...till then i'll try to finish the 4rth year and Suppi: I'll send you the pdf.