Will You Be My End?

"Oh shit" was all I could manage to think as I saw his tall graceful figure stride in.

"I just heard the news and I wanted to make sure you guys were alright…" Kaiba started but stopped when he realized the presence of someone he thought to be dead for the past two years.

There was a light that sparkled in his eyes. A light I hadn't seen for so long. A light that I thought I tarnished that terrible night. He looked as if he hadn't aged, and his build was back and better than ever. The man knew how to take care of himself.

"You're-…"

"Not dead…" I said sternly "No I'm very much a live according to the steady heart beat in my chest. Living, now that is up for debate."

"I'm sorry." Caleb mouthed to me while his back was turned towards Kaiba

"We'll this isn't awkward." Corey laughed sarcastically

I threw the pillow at him without looking and it him square in the face.

"Can we-…"

"No." I interjected, "You told me you'd be happier if I was dead, and I told you to consider me dead. I'm metaphorically dead. Dead is dead. The dead don't speak. Get out, we're fine. We'll manage. Leave." I gritted my teeth and gave my best alpha voice.

"Fine. Anyways I just want you all to know I plan on making an announcement of my support of the supernatural in hopes that all of this will cool down. I was hoping to collaborate and have you join me and announce your true selves." Kaiba said very matter-of-factly

"That's all you Caleb. That's not my life anymore." I said and sat next to Corey.

I could tell that Kaiba wanted to know more but I was trying to pretend he wasn't here.

"You know how much backlash this could cause for both of our companies?" Caleb asked worried

"We are the largest distributors in our fields. They practically have no other choice but to buy our products. If there is any backlash then it won't be significant." Kaiba was very business-like suddenly

"This sounds like a conversation to have in your offices. I don't see why you had to come all the way here to do this." I whined, I just wanted Kaiba out of my house

Both Kaiba and Caleb shot me a glare and I just smiled manically. "She's right, let me think this over and see if I can convince the better sibling to join in. I'll let you know tomorrow."

Kaiba nodded, shook Caleba's hand, and left.

Caleb opened his mouth but I spoke first, "No!"

"But."

"Are you stupid or just stupid? Ousting out selves? People are trying to hunt us down, they suck at it but still. Luckily the real hunters haven't joined in and exposed how to kill us, but no pack has been stupid enough to expose themselves either. As far as I can tell every supernatural creature is in hiding because of all of this. No one wants to come out of the closet on this one. The Argent's aren't going to be the one to start a trend. So again I say no." I lectured

"You're the one that left. You might be an alpha but you're not the alpha of this pack anymore!" Caleb bellowed

I stood up and was prepared to fight, "Excuse you? You want my status come take it from me!"

"Is that what you've been out there doing? Trying to find someone to kill you? Is that your sick way of committing suicide?" Caleb yelled

I stood up straight and looked Caleb straight in the eyes, "So what if it is? What is wrong wanting to go out like a warrior?"

"Well for one, YOU DIE! Two, why would you want to die anyways? You have us; you can still live a life. You lived a life before him." Caleb suddenly got sad and scared

"Because without him I feel like I'm already dead. I've been up and down North America looking for someone to make it official. No amount of killing, drinking, drugs, or sex has filled this black pit in my heart. He despises me, he is afraid of me, and he wants me dead. He was probably living a better life thinking I was dead. I might be alive but I'm not living." Tears were rolling down my face, "This is why I haven't come home. I was living in a state of numb ignorant bliss. Away from him so I didn't think about him. Away from people so I didn't see the constant reminders of him. I've living this life for him." I didn't realize I started crying, but once it started it didn't stop.

Corey stood up and hugged me and I put my weight on him.

"Way to go Caleb. She hasn't been here a day and you bring him in here and break her." Corey hissed

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean too… He just came in because he wanted to talk to both of us." Caleb put a hand on my back, "I'm sorry really it happened quickly."

I let go of Corey and went to Caleb, "I know, I'm sorry too."

I stopped crying and let of my hold on Caleb, "I want to drive. I haven't driven in two years. I'm going for a drive."

"You're still the same person in some ways I guess." Caleb laughed

I went to the garage and saw an old favorite of mine sitting there like it was waiting for all this time. I slid my fingertips following is familiar curves.

"Hello my dear, it's been awhile." I beamed "I've missed you."

I opened the driver's door to one of my black Aston Martins and sat in the driver's seat. "Just like old times."

I pressed the engine start button and the car purred to life. I felt the power gently vibrating through the steering wheel and I couldn't help but giggle and grin like a child. I had missed driving probably more than anything. I started down the drive way and took the turn that would lead me to town. I didn't have anywhere in particular to go, I just wanted to be in control of something powerful. I cruised around town but I thoughtlessly ended up parked in front of house I never thought I would see again.

"Why am I here?" I whispered to myself as I sat looking at the architectural design of Kaiba's mansion

I was so caught up in my thoughts that I didn't see a man approaching my car. He knocked on my window and thankfully my seatbelt kept me from jumping into the passenger's seat.

"Excuse me ma'am can you please roll down your window?" The man asked in a muffled voice

I obliged and rolled the window all the way down. "I'm sorry am I illegally parked?"

"No ma'am I just was doing patrols around Mr. Kaiba's estate and wanted to make sure everything was alright." The man said kindly

"Oh I'm fine thank you. I was just admiring the home. Just shopping around for a new house." I lied.

There was a voice coming over his radio, "Check in, is everything alright with the unknown vehicle?"

"Excuse me for a moment," he turned away and talked into the radio "Roger, everything is fine here just a young woman looking for real-estate."

There was a moment of silence then the other voice came back on the radio, "Mr. Kaiba is requesting the make, model, and color of the car."

The man turned back to me confused and embarrassed, "Sorry ma'am but I just want to clarify that this is a black Aston Martin, also what model is it."

I smiled and pretended that I didn't hear the other man on the radio, "Oh no is fine. It's a 2 year old Aston Martin DB 11, onyx black."

The man blushed, "Thank you, please excuse me again." He turned again and repeated the description of the car to the other person.

"Mr. Kaiba is requesting that the driver be brought inside." The other voice said sternly but slightly confused

The man hesitated deciding how the best way to handle the situation would be, but I solved that for him.

"I heard; its okay I know where to park." I said annoyed

The man looked at me confused but I rolled up my window and turned into Kaiba's drive way. I was met by another security man who looked at me sternly and motioned for me to follow. I returned the menacing glare, raised in eyebrow and followed.

The man motioned for me to walk through the door first and the tried to place a hand on my middle back. "Touch me and I'll break all 14 knuckles in your fingers." I snarled

The man jerked in surprised and withdrew his approach, "My apologies, please this way, Mr. Kaiba would like to speak with you in his office."

I knew where Kaiba's office was but I was going to go ahead and play dumb let the brutish man direct me. We stopped in front of Kaiba's office doors and the man went in first. He came out after a few moments and ushered me inside.

"The driver of the Aston Martin sir." The man said curtly and left

"Is it wrong to drive around the neighborhood?" I asked snarky

"Where have you been?" Kaiba asked with genuine concern

I narrowed my eyes at him confused by the concern in his voice, "Canada mostly. Stuck to areas where wolves are native… Have you been expecting me? Did you watch your security camera's because you thought I would just happen to drive here?"

Kaiba smirked and it awoke something deep in my soul, "You're here aren't you?"

"Touché." I rolled my eyes and sat down in a leather chair in front of Kaiba's desk

"What are you doing back?" He asked and clasped his hands together

"Protecting my brothers. This whole exposure of supernatural kind has really sent everyone in a panic. People are hunting down anyone that might be something other than human." I shrugged, "I figured that was self-explanatory."

"You're still as snide as ever." Kaiba smirked again and the twinge returned

"It's worse now, much worse." I said bitterly, angry at the sensation that was trying to come back. "Why am I here? You could have just let me drive away."

"I told you I wanted to talk at your house and now you're here." He gave the same snide tone

Anger started to bubble up inside, "You didn't want to talk 2 years ago. Why now? Suddenly your ex-girlfriend of what 2 weeks, comes back from the dead and now you want to talk. Actually I shouldn't consider myself as a 'girlfriend' more like your 'ex-fuckfriend'. Here I thought I was getting invited in only to be told to go die again and kicked out. I thought maybe you might get off on telling me to fuck off and die."

I held back my true emotions and sat in my chair with annoyance and displeasure on my face, but in reality I missed talking to him. I just missed him. Seeing him as reminded me why I wanted to live, but he told me that my dead is what would make him happy so I didn't want to let on that I had any other feelings than cold and passive.

Kaiba laughed through his nose and smirked yet again, and I snarled in return. "Where was this girl when we were together?"

"I have been here the whole time, but you kicked me out and you never got to properly meet Bailey." I said coldly

"Shit why did I mention my alias? What the hell am I doing? I need to stop talking or things could go bad." I thought to myself after I mentioned my fake name

"Bailey?" He asked intrigued

I didn't reply but flexed my jaw muscle to keep myself for explaining.

He laughed and rested his chin on his still clasped hands, "You've really changed. I mean of course you look different but act different too. This body language, the mannerisms, the way you talk to me, it's all so new."

"Well it's all thanks to you, you told me to die so I did. This is the new and not so improved, dark Kenzi." I gestured to myself

"Dark?" Kaiba asked and raised an eyebrow

"Well no thanks to you I never really completely regained my humanity after the whole incident. I'm me and I'm heart sober for a year and a half now but it's like three-quarters of me is still stuck on the dark side." I said proudly, I didn't care about getting my humanity back. I didn't feel like there was really a reason anymore. I got just enough back that I lost my blood lust.

"So you haven't killed anyone?" Kaiba alluded

"Define anyone? I've killed a lot actually, lots of vamps, a few windingos, a shapeshifter here and there, even a couple of wolves." I said sarcastically. I knew what he meant but I wanted him to say it.

Kaiba sighed at my run around answer, "You haven't killed any humans?"

"I know you want me to say no, but I can't lie. After you destroyed me and I ran off I killed a few drifters and settled my addiction. Eventually I was able to ween myself off and like I said I been heart sober for a year and a half now. They don't have Heart Eaters Anonymous or I would show you my chips." I quipped "Funny how it was so easy to start the addiction but it's so damned hard to stop it. I couldn't imagined how bad werewolf withdraws would have when I was clean, but once they started it was scary. Hallucinations, shaking, sickness, uncontrollable phasing; at one point I had a tail and my two front paws, talk about awkward."

"How can you joke about it?" Kaiba asked angrily, "You talk about it as if it's normal, and its okay!"

"Because it is normal. It's my normal. And now to me it is a joke, something to go back and laugh about because it doesn't matter how I react it's still done and over with. Maybe it's the only way I can live with myself now. Yeah when it was happening it sucked, I hated every minute of it, but it wasn't me. I could have sat in that prison cell 2 years ago and talked to the stupid doctor, and ate their disgusting grey mush, but odds are that I would be dead and you would have been too. I did what I had to do to get out of there and get to you. It was all for you." I yelled and by the end I was leaning over the desk

"You don't know that. You don't know that they would have killed all of us." Kaiba was now standing too

"You're right I don't know for sure, and I'm glad that I don't. Every day for 33 days I sat in that cramped cell reaching out to you because it was the only way I knew you were alive. As long as I knew you were alive I told myself that what I had to do would be easier. I wasn't going to let you die, I would rather die first." I was trying to speak more calmly but remembering the torture was bringing me to the verge of tears

"I didn't ask you to die for me!" Kaiba bellowed

"I didn't ask for it either!" I yelled back

Kaiba pulled a gun from under his desk and pointed it at my head.

I stopped and glared, "Do it pull the fucking trigger. KILL ME! That's what I've searching for the past 2 years, someone strong enough to take me out. I guess dying at the hands of the man I love isn't the worse way to go."

I grabbed the barrel of the handgun and pushed it to the middle of my forehead and closed my eyes accepting my death. Two tears fell down my cheeks slowly, "I just want to be free…" I whispered and took a deep breath.