Love Struck

Chapter 36 - Battle Of The Blood Part 3 [ Amy ]

Amy's POV

I gently opened up my eyes to find nothing but a dark room around me.

I slowly got up from my bed and walked into the bathroom.

I gently washed my face with warm water and looked up into the mirror.

In my mind I was hoping that Shadow was ok. I don't want to lose him but after what I said to him I think he might not care about me anymore. Its so crazy what love is about. You find the man of your dreams and you think it will last forever until you come across a certain ground where the two of you disagree and it so happens my ground was love itself. Shadow thinks I love Logan and I will admit I almost did before but when I met Shadow I knew Logan couldn't compare. I miss Shadow and I just hope he's ok wherever he is.

I slowly walked back into my room and tossed on my nightgown. Once I was ready I opened my door and proceed down the hall. As I walked down the hall I found a trail of sand and I think some blood along the floor.

I was shocked and slowly I followed it. I didn't know what it was or where it came from, but I knew it had to have been someone in the base. I followed it to Logan's office to find the door bashed open and Logan sitting behind his desk in deep thought.

"Logan!" I shouted as I ran through the door towards him.

Logan broke thought and was surprised to see me.

"Amy! What are you doing here!? You should be asleep!" Stated Logan.

I stopped in front of him and I got a look at his neck. It was red.

"Are you ok?!" I asked.

Logan smiled slightly and replied.

"I'm fine. What are you doing here?"

"I was worried. There's a mess out in the hall leading here and I thought you might be hurt." I replied.

"I'm ok. It was just a little conversation I had with Shadow." Stated Logan.

My eyes widened.

"Shadow!?" I shouted in confusion.

Logan nodded then stood up.

"He came back and confronted me about what had happened in your office earlier." Replied Logan.

"What did you tell him!?" I asked.

"I said the same thing you did. I told him we didn't do it and that we only kissed." Replied Logan.

"What he say?!" I asked.

"He's not sure if he believes us so he said in the morning he wants to talk to us about this whole thing. He wants to clean it up so I agreed." Replied Logan.

"Where is he!?" I asked.

"He went to get some sleep and I can imagine he wants to clean up. He didn't look to well when he came." Stated Logan.

"What was wrong with him!?" I asked again.

"He looked like he crawled out of the sewers and his arm was cut badly along with his left hand that looked broken." Replied Logan.

"So where is he?!" I asked.

"I sent him to Dove's or Nexus's. He is in one of those rooms." Stated Logan.

I quickly turned back around and ran to the door. Before I could leave I looked at Logan.

"Are you sure your ok?" I asked.

"I'm fine. Go find Shadow." Replied Logan.

I smiled and ran off to Dove's room.

I gently knocked on the door and waited for a response.

In about a minute someone opened the door.

"Oh it's you Amy." Stated Dove.

"Hey Dove, I was wondering if Shadow was in there?" I stated.

Dove nodded her head in disapproval.

"Sorry Amy. Shadow isn't here. He must be with Nexus in his room. I have Ghost though if you want to say hi." Replied Dove as she let me she him.

Ghost was on the side of the bed and he slowly got up to approach the two of us.

"Hi Amy." He said in a sleepily tone.

"Hi Ghost. Are you ok from…!" He cut me off with a nod of his head.

"I'm fine. It was stupid about that whole fight. I'm sure Shadow would like to see you." He replied.

"I'm going to Nexus's room next. Do you want to come?" I asked him.

He looked at me then at Dove who stared into his eyes with a small smile then replied.

"I don't think I should yet. I want to give him some time before I talk to him. He wasn't happy anyway."

My eyes widened.

"He came here?" I asked.

Ghost nodded.

"We had another fight and he ran off to Nexus's I think." Replied Ghost.

"What happened this time?" I asked him.

Ghost looked at me and walked back into the room.

"Ghost" I said softly as he got back in bed.

"Sorry Amy. Ghost doesn't feel up to talking about it right now. A lot has happened today. How about tomorrow we get together and talk?" Offered Dove.

I nodded and Dove shut the door leaving me to go find Nexus and Shadow.

I approached his door and knocked. I waited and Nexus came up in his chair.

"Hey Amy." He said.

"Hey Nexus."

"Do you know where Shadow is?" I asked him.

"He was asleep for a few minutes but couldn't so he went up to the roof." He replied.

I nodded and began to jog my way up the stairs to the roof.

I slowly opened the door knowing this was last place where he would be. As soon as I opened it I found Shadow laying on his back.

I slowly approached him and as I walked I found the cuts Logan told me about. He was clean but it looked painful at the least.

He was breathing calmly and staring at the stars.

"Shadow…?" I said carefully.

Shadow looked at me in confusion then replied.

"I thought the meaning of me getting out of your life was so that I wasn't able to see you."

"I didn't…!" He cut me off

"You said not to come see you and that is what I am doing and I'm honestly confused on why you now came to see me." He stated as he looked back at the stars.

"Shadow I…!" He cut me off again.

"Your only here because you feel guilty about what you said to me. You still have feelings for me as I still for you. You want to make things better and honestly I don't know if they can be."

I looked at him in confusion.

"Today has been too much to handle. I almost died, I had sex, I got in a fight with my best friend, and now I was told to get out of my only love's life. I don't think you understand Amy how I feel at the moment." Stated Shadow.

I slowly approach him.

"Shadow I'm sorry for saying that. I didn't mean it. I was just mad because of what you said." I stated.

Shadow looked at me again then slowly sat up onto the edge of the roof.

"Do you know why I said that?" He asked.

I didn't respond.

"I said all that because I was overprotective." He stated.

I slowly approached the edge next to him.

"I thought we had something special together. The moment we kissed I felt my life. I felt something we could have had and then my anger took over and when Logan kissed you I felt like he was my enemy. He's perfect for a women like you Amy. He loves you and cares about you. He has money, power, and hell even the looks. I'm just some asshole who tried to kill you then when I had my shot I blew it away because I was angry. It's just that my past has made me that way. I had to do so much in order to meet you. I had to do things I never thought I would have to go through again in order to save Ghost. I had to do so much just to be sitting here tonight. I know you hate me and I know you had all the right to say what you said and honestly I'm sorry for how I acted but I honestly don't think we can recover." Stated Shadow as he looked at me.

"Why?" I asked.

Shadow slowly got up and looked me in my eyes.

"Because I lost the spark I had once for you. I don't know what it is like to love after all that and I think it's over between us." He replied while beginning to walk away.

I began to cry.

"What are you saying?!" I shouted at him.

Shadow stopped and looked back at me.

"I'm saying it's over Amy. There's no point in loving someone who has nothing to offer." He replied.

"But I have…!" He cut me off.

"I'm sorry Amy, but it isn't you I'm talking about. It's me. I'm not the man that deserves someone like you. You should go ask Logan. I'm not the one for you in this world." He stopped and opened the door.

"Shadow I love you!" I shouted at him as he began to walk down the first step.

Shadow looked back and replied.

"I wish I could say the same for you, but I know deep down I'm not the one meant for you."

Shadow then turned back around and shut the door behind him leaving me on the roof to myself in complete Shock and sadness.