Chapter 37

(Bella's POV)

He was so timid. He barely could bring himself to show me the movie he had picked out. As Sonny watched the movie he picked out, I watched him. He sat about six feet away from the television with perfect posture, like a little statue. I couldn't help but smile as I watched him. I had been so caught up in just watching him that I didn't notice the movie had end until he stood. Sonny's graceful movements could put Edward's to shame. His movements reminded me of a classical dancer mixed the gentle grace of grazing doe.

"Bella, when is everybody coming home?" he asked softly, his bright golden eyes shined in the dim lighting.

"Soon" I whispered looking out the window, the rain was splashing down.

Sonny moved to my side and took my hand. I blink away the tears that would never come and smiled down at him. He was so young. Did he really understand he would never grow up? This very thought had been plaguing me for a while now. Even though I knew he was dying when I met him; I still couldn't help but think of what his life might have been if I hadn't bitten him. Maybe he could have had a couple of months or years of a normal life. Biting softly into my bottom lip, I tried to push the thoughts from my mind.

"Why do you always look so sad?" Sonny asked staring up at me.

His question caught me off guard. I'd been doing my best to hide any sign that I was upset. Had I really been doing such a pathetic job of it? I thought for a moment of how I could answer him. Sighing deeply, I knelt down to Sonny level.

"I'm sad because my life is changing very quickly and I'm not really ready for it" I said.

It wasn't the total truth, but how could I tell him I hate myself for being a monster? I was still having trouble explaining that to Edward. Every time I even try to talk about it to Edward, he would start telling me over and over again that I was an angel and angels could never be a monster. He just didn't understand that as much as he saw me as an angel, I could never see past the fangs and the memory of all the thoughts that spun in my head right before I bit into Sonny's throat.

"Oh, I guess I understand. My life is changing a lot too expect I'm happy cause I've got you and big family now" he said smiling.

Sonny's smile could light up the darkest room. It was one of those smiles that are infectious, because soon I found myself beaming just as brightly as him. Suddenly, it was like every unhappy thought I had melted away with just one of his dazzling smiles. Esme was right I already loved him like he was my own flesh and blood.

"So I take it your happy with us?" I asked as I fluffed his hair.

"Happy? I'm beyond happy. I never dreamed I'd have a family let alone one as amazing as this one" Sonny smiled brightly.

"Good I've been so worried you wouldn't like being here with us" I said honestly.

Then as if not knowing what I was do until I did it, I pulled him into a hug. His small arms wrapped around my back and he rested his head against my shoulder. Something in that moment changed in me. In that moment I realized as much unhappiness I felt was nothing compared to the happiness I could feel if I'd just let it in. I had a big family that would do anything for me, a boyfriend who was as understanding as he could be, and was trying his best to make things right for me again, and then there was Sonny my personal ray of hope for myself. Maybe there really was hope for me to be truly happy with my new life. Slowly, I pulled away and stared into his shiny golden eyes.

"Thank you Sonny" I whispered

"For what?" he asked a confusion played across his angelic face.

"For reminding that I have a wonderful family here" I said smiling.

Smiling brightly Sonny wrapped his arms around me again. For a moment I was frozen in shock but then I relaxed and folded my arms around him. I pulled away again and ruffled is sandy blonde. He laughed happily until I stopped.

"So what do you want to do until everyone gets home?" I asked still smiling.

"We could watch another movie…but this time you have to watch it too" he said.

He was very perceptive for a young child. I couldn't believe that he knew I hadn't even been watching; he never once looked at me while the movie had been playing.

"I…I was watching it" I lied in shock.

"You did not. You were watching me the whole time" he challenged.

He looked a little scared as he spoke as if he was afraid that I'd be mad at him because he was challenging what I said. I never wanted him to be even slightly scared of me so I quickly admit he was right.

"Ok, I promise I'll watch the movie too this time. Go pick out another one" I sighed.

Any sign of fear vanished from Sonny as he ran off to find a new movie. With in a few second he was back standing in front me hold The Lion King DVD in his hands. I took the movie from him and put it on for us to watch. Sonny disappeared from the room for a moment and reappear with a pillow. He put the pillow on the floor next to him and sat Indian style next to it. As the movie started I lied down on my stomach and propped my head up with my hands while my elbows rested on the pillow. Smiling I watched the movie just like I promised.

(Edward's POV)

As the last key echoed off the churches wall I noticed nearly three quarters of the church was crying. Alice and Esme both were drying sobbing into handkerchiefs while Jasper and Carlisle comforted them. Rosalie didn't wear a veil not that I expected her to cry but to my surprise she had her head resting on Emmet shoulder looking truly sad. I had been expecting to see her expressionless or at least a fake look of sadness. Her feeling towards Bella had truly changed. She really did see Bella as a sister. I stood silently from the piano bench and took my seat besides Alice.

"I never heard you play her lullaby more beautifully" whispered Alice.

I couldn't bring myself to say anything in response. Slowly, Alice moved from her seat to the podium in the front of the church. Bouquets of flowers crowded every inch of the front of the church. Alice moved carefully around a large bouquet that sat near the podium. She stood before the podium for a moment. Carefully, she pulled off her veil and placed it in front of her. She took a deep breath and began.

"Bella, we were best friends, or really I was her best girl friend. My brother, Edward, was her best friend. She was unlike any other girl I had ever met. She was selfless. If given the chance she would do anything to help the ones she loves. She couldn't walk across a flat surface without finding something to trip over" Alice paused because a few people chuckle at their own private memories of Bella's clumsiness.

I smiled up at her and she continued.

"There are so many little things about Bella that make missing her even harder…"Alice suddenly covered her mouth with her hand and looked half ready to start crying.

A wave of calmness washed over the entire church. Turn towards Jasper to see him focusing on Alice doing his best to her from crying with out her veil on.

"The way she would blush when she would hear Edward's name; and how she would blush even more when you'd point it out. I'll miss the way she'd look detested when it snow. Leave to a girl with Phoenix Arizona in her heart to hate snow. The way she would defend her truck; that thing belong in a junk yard but she loved it and wouldn't let my brothers make fun of it for one second. But the thing I'll miss the most about my best friend is her laugh. I have this voicemail on my cell phone from her she had called to make plans to go to the movies; in the background you can her Edward. Well anyways, all the sudden she stops talking and just starts laughing. This goes on for almost three minutes. Later I found out that Edward had been tickling her. Last night when I was trying to fathom what I was going to say today I listened to the voicemail over and over again just to hear her laugh. Bella's laughter could always make me smile but now all I have is a recording that makes me cry. My best friend is gone but she has left memories I will hold dear until the ends of time. I can only hope that someday we all can take are place with Bella among the angels" said Alice.

She quickly rushed back to her seat next to me and Jasper. Jasper pulled the veil from her hand and fixed it atop her head just as she burst into dry sobs. Alice sobbed through the last two speakers; Jessica Stanley and Mike Newton. Jessica rambled on and on about how close she and Bella were so close and how she was going to miss her forever. To end her speech she burst in overdramatic sobs and was led off by her mother. With ever minute of her speech I realized just how little Jessica really knew about Bella. Part of me wondered how they ever even became friends in the first place. I wanted kick Mike in the ribs after sitting through what he had to say. It was all about how he wished he got to know Bella better and that it wasn't fair she was taken so soon, but his thoughts said something different. He had been thinking he wanted to get to know her better in a physical way and it wasn't fair that I had been with her, squashing his chances. I was glad when the priest took the podium again. He said a farewell pray and dismissed the church.

Slowly, the church emptied. In the side court of the church we found Charlie, Renee, and Phil standing under a patio covering. Renee had a mix of eyeliner and mascaras streaking down her face from crying. Alice pulled away from Jasper grip on her hand. She produced a handkerchief from her handbag and held it out to Renee.

"Here" Alice whispered.

"Thank you Alice" said Renee, her voice cracking as she took the handkerchief from Alice's pale fingers.

"What you said about Bella was very sweet" said Phil.

"Thank you" whispered Alice.

Charlie was staring away from everyone out at the pouring rain that was beating down on the ground. He looked worn and older then he had only weeks ago. I hadn't noticed before in the church, I was too busy being worried about playing Bella's lullaby, Charlie's hand was bandaged.

"He punched a wall in Bella's bedroom. He came into the hospital yesterday I bandaged for him" whispered Carlisle too low for anyone human to hear.

Part of me wished Carlisle hadn't told me how Charlie injured his hand because I knew it would hurt Bella when she heard it through my thoughts. She was finally starting to slowly piece herself back together. I stood watching Bella's family wondering if letting her into my life was worth the pain that Bella's family was feeling.

"Edward, I just wanted to thank you. The piece you play for Bella was breathtaking. I'm so glad my daughter got to know what its like to be in love with someone like you" Renee said the moment she finished speaking she burst into tears again.

She crumpled onto the closed person, which happened to be Alice. Phil carefully pulled Renee from Alice to him. He brushed back some of her hair from her face and whispered words of comfort to her until she was close to being composed again.

"Are you all coming to the cemetery?" asked Phil as he stroked Renee's arm.

"Yes" answered Carlisle.

"The rain isn't getting any lighter Renee. Its time we leave for the cemetery" said Charlie flipping the collar of his jacket to cover his neck.

Renee responded to Charlie by weeping onto Phil's chest. It a terrible sight to see a mother crying over the loss of her daughter. Esme looked like her heart was breaking. Carlisle held Esme close to him trying to keep her relaxed. Sighing deeply, Charlie opened his umbrella and head to his cruiser. Phil followed with Renee still weeping.

"Come on" whispered Emmet.

The ride to cemetery was silent. When we got out of the car a pop tent was set up over Bella's waiting casket. We all stood around as the casket was slowly lowered into the ground. Once the casket was fully in the ground Charlie picked up a hand full of dirt and tossed down onto casket. That's when he broke down; tears slipped silently down his face as he turned away. When it came time to leave Renee hugged both me and Alice. Before Bella's family got into the cruiser Jasper let a wave of comfort wash over them. As the cruiser pulled away it really hit me that Bella's life as a human was over and now her life as a vampire with me and her new family would really begin.

Author's Note: Ok so I'm thinking the next chapter may be the end. I have no idea if I'm going to write a squeal, because 1) I have know idea what I would write & 2) I don't know if I'll have enough time to write it. Alright so I could use some feedback on what I wrote. PLEASE REVIEW !