After Edward retrieved my clothes, and I got dressed again, I was feeling a little better. The shaking has worn off, leaving me with just a empty feeling in my stomach. I think I was physically scarred from the whole experience.
It was Edward's fault, and I take partial blame for not telling him, or at least reminding him about my past. I don't know if Ill be able to go in the water for a while now. My body just isn't physically capable.
The chime that I heard when I arrived, vibrated around the house, making my head look up at Edwards bedroom door. Where did Edward get to? He said he was getting me a glass of water five minutes ago.
I listened closely, as the door opened and a very loud female shriek filled my ears. My eyes widened from the sound, and I wanted to laugh at how much excitement there was in her voice.
"Where is she? Is she here!" The girl screamed.
Must be Alice. Well, I didnt think she was going to be such a hyperactive person. I stand up, walking on the trips of my feet as I looked down the hall, to where the staircase is. I took a risk, taking very small steps to get to the end of the hall.
"Yes she is here, calm down will you, she doesn't need any more reasons to run away from me."Edward warned her. What is he on about? I wonder as I carry on sneaking. Its not like a place like this could possibly have creaky floorboards.
"Oh no, what did you do?" Alice ask, it sounded like she asked that question regularly. I put my hand on the wall, helping me to look down the staircase, at the front entrance.
A short girl, coming to the height of Edward elbow, stood in my line of sight. Her hair was in a windswept way, short, spiky, and black. She had on a school uniform, a white dress shirt, with a black and green tie, along with a black skirt and knee high white socks, with her black ballerina shoes. She had the most amazing back pack, black leather with spikes on it.
You could definitely see the Edward influence in her.
"I fucked up. I did something I shouldn't have." He sighed, raking a hand through his hair. His sister sighed, putting her hand on his shoulder. Just by watching them I could see there brother and sister relationship was strong.
"You didn't cheat on her did you?" Alice asks worried. I listen for his answer, though I know he hasn't...you never know.
"Of course not." He says immediately.
"Okay, well that's good. I mean, you've never had a girlfriend before. I know there have been a few girls, but you've never stuck with just one." Alice, told him proudly, but Edward with still in a state of self loathing. I need to show him I'm fine otherwise he wont stop worrying. It's all he seems to do, just worry about me. He was so happy before I freaked out.
Its a little daunting knowing how special I am to them. I'm nothing special, not much of a friendly person, definitely not the type of girl you want to bring home to meet your parents. Yet here I am, in a fucking mansion, with a guy I have dragged into a hellish mess. What am I doing?
"You're going to love her Alice," Edward grins. I smile a little at that.
"Well, let me meet her then," Alice demands, nearly jumping from excitement. Before I could move back and go hide in Edwards room, Alice spotted me standing there near the top step, her eyes grew wide, before she burst out with a shriek.
"Oh my God! Bella-" She calls, making her way towards me, jumping up each step with an unnatural speed. I looked at Edward, who smiled watching me, as I was rooted in place at the top of the steps.
"Oh, you're so pretty, and oh my look at your eyes, what I would give to have those eyes," she squealed wrapping her arms around my waist, but she wasn't done there."You smell like chlorine, did you guys go swimming? Edward!You should have waited for me. I love to swim. Oh! I have to show you my bedroom."Alice squeals looking like an excited puppy.
Oh, boy.
"Right, um, so you're Alice then?"I question, but really is there any need to ask.
"Yep,"She says popping the 'p'.
"Right-"I nodded awkwardly, crossing my arms."Well it's nice to meet you."I tell her is the sort of thing you say to your boyfriend's sister, right?
"Awe Edward I love her! She is so cute."She squeals turning to him.
Cute? Me, and the word cute do not mix well together. Cute was something you called a puppy or a kitten, not a girl who was part of a gang that traded and sold drugs. I was far from fact she should be terrified of me.
"Let's go to my room, I have the perfect make up for you." Alice said, grabbing my hand in her tiny one. For a fifteen year old girl she was certainly more hyper than I ever was. She acted like a ten year old. If it wasn't for the fact that she had curves and breasts I would have thought she was ten.
"Um- Edward?" I said. Looking at him, with questioning eyes.
"It's your choice, I've got to talk to my mum about some stuff before we leave anyway."He shrugged, leaving the option in my hands. I wish he wouldn't have, because I feel like I have no choice but to go with Alice.
"Right-" I nodded, turning to the excited pixie. "Lead the way Alice."I told her, and let her drag me back up the rest of the stairs.
Her room was something out of a little girls dream. As soon as you walk in, in the centre of the room is a four poster bed with those frilly white curtains around each post. She has pink bedding and pink carpeting to match. the room was basically a mixture of pinks and whites. Two bean bags, a shoe organiser on the wall, a large chest, two doors, a swing made for a princess and lets not forget the human mannequin which had various amounts of clothing and pins stuck to it.
"Come one Bella, I have the perfect shade of blue for your nails." She squealed yanking me towards the bed.
I have no clue why people seemed to like me, children to be more Alice couldn't be classified as a child at the age of fifteen, she sure acted like one. Her peepy attitude unnerved me, she was such an opposite kind of person then me. I was more arrogant and sarcastic, Alice seemed to always be the cheery kind of girl. My complete opposite. If she wasn't Edwards little sister I'm sure we wouldn't get along so well.
"So, I have this midnight blue, or the magenta blue, oh, this is my baby blue one with sparkles, its really nice, or I have this ruby red that I think would look amazing on you." she gushed placing all the nail polish on the bed. I looked down at them, none of the colours really drawing my attention. The midnight blue was pretty, it was the darkest colour.
"Hmm, how about black?" I asked her.
"Black?" She said in diastase.
"Yeah, you cant go wrong with black."I pointed out.
When you though about it, if you made a mistake with any colour, black would always be the dominant colour that could fix everything. It was the prime colour and stood out making a statement.
It looked like Alice does not agree with my fashion choice.
"But its so plain so...boring." She pointed out, her eyes wide in disbelief.
"So?" I shrugged.
"Um. I know I'll do black as the first layer then add a overcoat then I can put some of these gems I've been saving." She got up, rustling though that large chest and pulled out all the tools she needed. Whatever she just said I did not follow one word.
She began with some wooden stick, using the sharp and and making me press my eyes shut from the uncomfortable feeling. Through the whole time she sat there torturing my nails, paying full attention to them, I was bored and uncomfortable.
"Done!" She exclaimed happily, pulling away with the nail polish brush still in hand. I looked down, y eyes popping open at the sight.
Black, shiny, perfectly curved nails, with 3D gems stuck to them. They were pretty, I couldn't deny that, but was it really worth how long I sat here, just for them to be ruined within minutes. I tend to be a very busy girl, which usually meant, my nails broke often and these beauty's would not survive the day.
"Thank you Alice, there beautiful."I told her sensibly, pushing off the bed to stand.
"Wait, were not done, now here comes the really fun part." She says, pushing me back down.
Oh fuck.
"The really fun part?" My voice on the verge of hysteria, as I saw the large box she pulled out of the chest. I dont want to know what else she keeps in there.
"Make up." She announced, slamming the box down next to me, and making the mattress shake.
"Uh, you know Alice, I'm sure Edward is waiting for me, and we have to be gone before your dad gets back." I reminded her, I'm sure Edward informed her.
She suddenly frowned.
"Oh yeah. I've been looking forward to meet you for so long, and he always has to ruins things." She huffs, opening up her make up box anyway. Looks likes she is proceeding, with or without my reminder. But what she said intrigued me.
"How does he ruin things?"I question. I know from Edward he was pissed about her hair, but I mean her hair will grow back and anyway, and it looks cool. Its her body, not his.
"I can't have friends over here, dad thinks there all after our money, or want to come over to steal something. And I cant go over to my friends house either because he always thinks its to dangers because there not 'in money'-" She huffs using air quotations, as she continues taking out certain things from the box. "He says he is protecting me, but hes not even protecting me form any real danger. He did the same to Edward, but that just lead him to acting out even more. I'm really proud of Edward though, he stood up to dad, I could never do that. I mean when I changed my hair, he nearly had a heart attack."
You would have to be blind to see the sadness in here yes. Naturally I felt sorry for her, that she couldn't just be her. But then again, I couldn't help but feel angered, both towards Alice and Edward. I kept my mouth shut as Alice quickly attacked my face.
I tired to put myself in Alice's shoes, but every time I did all I could think of is my own past. I would have given up everything to have a loving father. Someone who wanted to protect me from danger, and not put me in danger.
How could Edward act out against someone who is clearly trying to care for him. Stuff like not being able to see your friends is ridiculous. But now look at Edward, he takes drugs, barley goes to class, hangs out with the likes of me and now is in the middle of what could be a gang war.
Does the guy have no mind at all, I wondered.
"Wow, I wish I had blue eyes like yours there just so, light." She said stunned. She continued to draw what I supposed was eye-liner on my upper lid.
"There just eyes." I shrugged, not really understanding the big deal.
"Pfft..." Alice chuckled at my remark.
Five minutes later she was done, and I was itching to get down stairs and out of this house. They have been very welcoming and everything, but I need to get back to reality. Get back to who I truly was. I wasn't the person to get her nails done and have girl talk about shoes, I was the girl who tried to earn some quick money.
I walked out of the room, Alice hot on my tails and her giddy expression on her face.
"Aren't you going to look in the mirror?" She asked confused, as I started to descend the steps.
"Uh...I haven't really got the time, but it was lovely to meet you Alice, you know and I appreciate the uh-"I stop looking down at my nails. I couldn't call it torture. "The whole makeover thing." I said, sugar coating the truth. I could feel my eyelashes trying to stick together from the amount of mascara she applied.
She said it was something to do with layers added volume or something, whatever.
"Oh its was my pleasure, it was kind of like you were my friend."She said shyly. I nodded my head slowly feeling awkward standing on there grand stair case.
"Well, bye."I trailed off, moving down the stairs again only to hear her coming along with me.
"I can't wait to see Edwards expression." She beamed, elegantly bouncing down the stairs before my very eyes.
"Edward!" She called, standing on her tip toes, and her hands clutched together behind her back.
I walked next to her, my eyes once again looking at the amazing masterpiece that this house was. How much money did these guys earn?
"Oh won't you stay and wait for your father, he would like to speak with you." Esme called, as Edward and her came into the hall, still in there discussion, Edward did not look pleased.
He chuckled darkly, his eyes burning into his own mothers.
"Oh I'm sure he would love to rip my head off about something, but no way. I'm not having him lecture me today, its not like I give a fuck what that prick has to say anyway."Edward spat, and I saw Alice's enthusiasm decrees rapidly next to me.
"Oh honey, hes just looking out for you, hes worried about you, we both our." His mother insisted.
My heart tightened a little at seeing the motherly love she gave to Edward. If my own mother were alive, would she have been the same? Would she have looked out for me as well? Would I actually have a father who could look me in the eyes with sincerity for once? These were all questions that would never be answered. Yet here I stood, getting a glimpse into what life could have been like. Only Edward wasn't having anything of this perfect family life.
"Well your wasting your time, because I'm fine. In fact I'm fucking great, never been better. So you tell dad to stick his worries where the sun dont shine." He huffed in her face, and my eyebrows narrowed toward him.
He turned towards me, his cheeks flushed, and he froze just staring at me. I was looking at him questioning, trying to figure this all out. How could her be so cold to those who love him. Its so clear to see. Is he blind.
No-one loves me. Not even Leah loves me, and she was the one who I grew up with as a sister. Did I love here... I wouldn't be able to say. What was love any way? A word given to a emotion that books and movies would have you believe is when you can't stay away from them or live without them. I'm fairly sure I could cope being away from Leah, and I could survive without her certainly.
I dont know what I was feeling at the moment, but I certainly know I wasn't happy.
"Edward-"I started, moving closer to him as he watched me with dazed eyes. "Lets just go."I told him.
"Oh sweetie, no look dont let Edward behaviour drive you can stay for dinner, and meet Edwards father-" I cut her off.
"No Esme, thank you, but no. No offence I've had the pleasure of meeting you husband sort of already, and he would no be pleased to see me. I think its about time me and Edward left anyway."I said, hoping that came out nicer then how I said in my head. I may have left out a few profanity.
"Oh," She said quite sadly to see me going,but she gave me a smile. On the inside I was glaring at nothing, my thoughts still running widely and my mood I put my mask on and gave her the tinniest of smiles.
"Good bye Esme, Alice, thanks again."I told her then remembered something. "Alice, about what you were saying earlier, my friend taught me a motto to get me through tough times. So when ever your doubtful just think of this motto. Be true, stay you and do whatever the fuck you want to do." I grinned remembering when Leah had told me that.
Alice smile like a little ten year old girl, rocking on the balls of her feet.
"I will Bella, please come over soon, we can do a fashion show next time, oh and your hair!" She squealed. I bet the clogs were turning already.
"Sure thing." I nodded towards her, walking in the direction of the front door.
No way would that fucking happen Alice, not over my dead corpse, I thought and shook my again I felt sorry she had no true friend to give make overs too. I guess i could spare a hour of my life for her, if I was that bored.
As I walked outside, I wrapped my arms around my waist, feeling the chill of the afternoon air. London, it really is just a could hell hole most of the time. Then again at least we had the easy life here.
The door, slammed shut behind me, and I looked up at the sky, the sun hidden behind masses of rain clouds. It just looked grey and gloomy.
Edward arms wrapped around my waist and his whole body pressed against mine, I could feel him hard against my backside.
"You look so fucking gorgeous, I just want to press you up against my car and fuck you, right here right now." He groan in my ear.
If I was in any mood I would have been turned on by his body and his word, but I wasn't. I was still caught up in today, my mood was not getting any better. I recoiled away from Edward body pushing out of his arms and tuning around. I still had my arms wrapped around myself.
"What?" He question instantly, looking clueless.
"We need to talk."I said seriously my voice coming out in my familiar pissed off tone.
REVIEW FOR ALICE CUTENESS
Now tell me, if you lived in that Cullen household would you cope?
And do you think its right for Bella to be so pissed off toward Edward. He is throwing back in his parents face what Bella always wished for. Edward has parents who actually care for him and he doesn't care, in Bella's mind she would obviously be pissed by this due to her past
I still love writing this book, I just love how the characters are in this :D