*I do not own Inuyasha*

Rated: M

Warnings: Sexual themes, Mild Language

Characters: Sesshomaru, Rin, Jaken, Ah-Uh, OC's and dead Rin.

Summary: Rin suffers in her time of lonliness while Sesshomaru reflects on his one mistake,

Word Count: 2375

A/N: I can't thank all of you individuals for reveiwing, some are just reading others are caught up. But thank you guys so much! I will finish as soon as possible! ^-^

Rin

It all seemed like a dream, a horrible nightmare that I would soon wake up from. I was hoping I would wake up, end up in Sesshomaru's arms and he'd kiss me telling me it was all a bad dream and be the Baka he was. But instead I never woke up, was this kind of a sick joke? Was Naraku making me suffer? What did I do to deserve this!?

It has been three weeks, three weeks since my feet touched the bottom of that well in the feudal era.

Three weeks since the familiar touch of blue light that always surround me.

Three weeks since I last heard Kagome and Inuyasha's voice.

Three weeks since Sesshomaru had stared at me with love in his eyes.

Three weeks since my fantasy world and I entwined.

And now I am here, back in school. I caught up, everything was going good. I had almost all A's in my classes. But I…I didn't know how to feel, every day seems to be another chain keeping me from Sesshomaru.

I tried and tried again to go back, but instead of feeling the familiar space surrounding me I felt the hard dirt ground touch my feet.

I sighed as the familiar thud echoed throughout the shack. It was almost too familiar, I hated it. Everything seemed wrong, my eyes began to after and my hands curled into fists. 'Why can't I go back! I miss you Sesshomaru! Please…'

"Rin! You'll be late for school!" I heard Oba-san call and I wiped my tears away with the sleeve of my uniform and started climbing up the used ladder. This was too familiar, this schedule was often repeated.

Wake up, well, school and then well again.

I got up and closed the door from the shack before walking away from the shrine, with that empty feeling in my chest once more. I missed him, it was now too normal to not feel his fingers graze my skin, for his lips not to purr my name.

I saw Akira and Yuji and plastered a small smile on my face; all these thoughts about Sesshomaru had me downed. Akira looked at Yuji and they both looked at each other. "Hey Rin!" Akira attacked me, wrapping her arms around me and giggling, 'They are trying got cheer me up…' Rin thought sadly before untangling herself from her friend's grasp.

"Come on, let's go to school." I said before walking away from the befuddled pair.

Sesshomaru

The demon Lord rested in the same pool he has always seemed to find comfort in, the moonlight shone on him highlighting him in a glaze of silver. But the great Youkai was more concerned about the women in his life then about the dangers surrounding him.

I cannot believe you did that! His inner Youkai raged on angrily, but Sesshomaru tended to ignore him, the situation didn't make it any different.

'Rin…my Rin…'

Flashback

Sesshomaru watched in horror as the soul of his late wife lay there, her body slowly began to fade as the body was overcome by the futuristic Rin. "You….do you want your wife back?" Sesshomaru snapped out of his trance and glared angrily at the woman before him.

'She did this…' Sesshomaru thought angrily, his inner demon was silent, having mixed feelings about which one to pick. But it came clear, my wife…my mate, my world was gone, all because of this one.

Sesshomaru turned around and faced Rin, his hand reaching for Tokijin, a sword conceived of hate. For some reason, the sword seemed to be stronger and lighter than ever. He lunged, but it confused him how Rin had no trace of fear, instead she leaped away from his mid-way slice.

But Sesshomaru growled as his Han-ani and his wife placed themselves in front of Rin, and the Akuma sureiy grabbed Rin and hauled her away, Sesshomaru blocked Inuyasha's vertical slice and they continued to clash swords as he noticed the Konketsuji woman had disappeared as well.

Sesshomaru threw Inuyasha to the side and raced towards the well, 'Rin will not escape me…she CANNOT get away!' Sesshomaru roared in anger as he shoved both Kagome and Kohaku out of the way and looked down the well.

Sesshomaru caught the scent of her tears and saw her horrified face before she disappeared, leaving the well as empty as ever.

End of Flashback

Some part of him died that day, whether it was her trust, their love, his sanity. This was unknown to him, but Sesshomaru stood up, the wind sweeping his silver hair into the air.

You must speak to Rin again, your late wife is dead! You are a fool to have done that! Sesshomaru winced at the truth the beast spoke. So Sesshomaru slipped on his clothes and walked towards the well. The imp squawked at the sight of his lord.

"S-Sesshomaru-sama! Uh-where are you going..?" The imp asked cautiously, but that's when Sesshomaru disappeared from sight in a ball of light, leaving the imp alone with the dragon once more.

'Will she still forgive me?' Sesshomaru stared at the well, but when he fell in, his eyes widened as his feet touched the well ground and the noises of the world did not fade, instead they continued. His eyes narrowed as he leaped up once more and stared at the well from above.

'Someone sealed it..' Sesshomaru concluded before removing his sword, Sesshomaru's sword clashed with the barrier that has made itself visible. But the barrier rejected him, forcing him back but Sesshomaru used this momentum to bounce off a tree and slice the barrier once more, a small opening was made but it was too small.

Sesshomaru's feet touched the ground once more as he stared at the well, the barrier disappearing from sight. 'Who has put this up?'

Rin

"Higurashi!" Rin looked at the angered Yuki who stomped her way to the girl. "You aren't paying attention Higurashi! What the fuck! The tournament is in two weeks! I need you in your top shape so we can get first place again," She growled and I looked away.

'Sesshomaru…I can't focus on anything else…' I thought sadly before nodding. "I'm sorry Yuki-san…" I apologized but she rolled her eyes and separated me from the group. "Look, what's wrong." Yuki asked as she signaled me to sit down next to her.

I did as so and hugged my knees to myself. "My…boyfriend." I said before turning away, this was stupid. I shouldn't be distracted and talking about Sesshomaru isn't going to help at all, I need to get focus…but how?

"Go home," Yuki simply said and I turned to her in shock as she stood up, unable to face me. "And don't come back until your game is back on." She finished before walking away from me, leaving me there.

I stood there in the rain, staring at the well from the Sacred tree that sheltered me from little rain, everything went wrong today. The house is empty, and it's raining pretty hard…but I sensed a disturbance and ended up here.

I didn't know if I was crying, the rain made that fact obscure, so all I could do was stare at the shed. My body began to feel warm and my vision slurred but I let out a small sob before racing ahead, slamming open the shed door I took the first step inside and everything around me pulsed.

'Let me go back to Sesshomaru…! I miss you Sesshomaru! PLEASE!' I jumped in and unconsciously waited for the impact of the hard ground again, but instead I was surrounded by the familiar blue light, immediately a smile lit up my face as I touched the ground.

Looking up I saw that it was raining…even on this side.

I jumped up and began to climb the well, suddenly I felt like something was suffocating me and gasped. 'What's happening!?' I let out a gurgled pant and my body felt so heavy…I kept going, and finally my arm reached the base of the border of the well and I watched as glass shattered all around me.

I winced as I felt it cut my body, the daggers sliced my sleeves and left blood flowing down from my arms. My skirt was left in tatters and my legs were scratched up. I let out a cry of pain as one cut my cheek.

"S-Sesshomaru!" I cried out and the daggers came at me all at once, scraping and cutting my skin but strangely none pierced me. I hauled my body up and landed on the heavy ground panting. My vision doubled but my head turned to the side and I caught sight of a pair of amber eyes watching me.

For some reason, I was scared for a moment but then stopped. Sesshomaru…

The figure stepped out, my eyes widened and I felt happy. He hadn't changed, his silver hair stuck to his sides and his fluff was drenched a little but his Kimono still remained the same, his amber gaze intensified as I sat up painfully, my blood began to pour from my body and I felt light headed.

But I stood up anyway and just stared at Sesshomaru, he slowly began to approach me. I stared at him, panting and leaning heavily against the well. "Come, I shall heal you." He commanded gently as he carried me into his arms and in a ball of light everything faded away, except for me and him.

"Rin, I'm sorry." Sesshomaru murmured, his golden gaze focused completely on me. For a moment all the hurt, the tears…the loneliness came back.

"You're a fucking moron…how could everything we gone through mean nothing to you when you see her." I whispered as tears slipped down my cheeks. The pain was coming back, my heart shattered as a small sob escaped my lips.

'N-No! I spent weeks crying! I'm done with you Sesshomaru!' When we landed the rain wasn't as heavy as before and I stumbled away from Sesshomaru, releasing myself from his grasp. I turned and faced him, his stoic expression never changing.

"You think…it's all okay now!? Just because I came back!" I yelled as my breaths grew ragged and labored. Yea, I was mad as shit! How can he just fucking chose the woman he said he 'got over'!? 'All this time we spent together was ripped away when you put your hand on your sword…to kill me…'

But Sesshomaru made his way towards me, he looked…sad. His hand cupped my face and I watched as his face closed in. "I…I apologize…" He whispered but I slapped his hands away. Talking a few steps back, "No…Sesshomaru…everything we had, the love, the trust…the feelings," My breath hitched as memories flooded me.

"…Died when you…lunged at me…the first time, Sesshomaru, I had to dodge an attack from you that was meant to kill me." I looked down, my bangs shielded my eyes as they watered and slowly I began to cry once more.

But this time Sesshomaru embraced me, the lump in my throat grew larger as it was hard enough not to lean into it, I had to stop myself from wrapping my own arms around him and forgiving him. Instead I grew tense, this touch was now alien. The weeks I spent without Sesshomaru made me realize…just how much I loved him.

"No…stop…" I murmured as I slowly began to give in. But then my wounds suddenly began to sting and I let out a cry of pain before showing him off me. 'I..I can't!' I turned around and sprinted in the opposite direction.

It's over, we were done.

But I felt something grab my hand gently and I froze, already knowing who It was I turned slightly and was met with Sesshomaru's crimson colored eyes. My gaze softened, "Your…Your demon Sesshomaru," I confirmed before looking right at him.

"You hurt me, I don't feel anything anymore." I whispered softly before I concentrated on purifying him, 'I can't feel anything, just stop touching me! It hurts!' My eyes squeezed tightly shut, "Get off me!" I yelled as a sizzling sound reached my hearing and he let me go causing me to fall down in the mud.

I felt Sesshomaru pin my hands by my wrist above my head and I gasped as I felt his weight being shoved onto me. "Rin, please. I'm sorry." Sesshomaru repeated once more and all I could do was stare at him, my face reddening slightly.

"We can't be, you chose her." I muttered as his lips slowly began to approach me. "I made a mistake, I remembered how it hurt to lose her, but it hurt more when I lost you." With that our lips crashed together, my body felt warm as the contact made my body shiver in delight.

'You…Baka…'

Yes I poured my heart and soul into making this, by the end Sesshomaru took control of himself and kissed her, yea. Sesshomaru is an idiot but he is forgiven. This is my chapter for the next week I hope. A lot of words for you guys! Christmas is around the corner so I will try to do a christmas...well, I will let you guys pick that.

Question: Do you want a lemon next chapter?

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