Stranded in the Middle of Nowhere Chapter 37: Losing Grip: Dragan Rush, a lost fanfic

Here's the next chapter. It's Dragan centric. Hard to write his flashbacks. Enjoy! I don't own Lost.

A blonde woman sat on the edge of a dock, bored. She had been there for the past two hours checking names off lists and it was really annoying her. Suddenly she heard her name being called out.

'Ivy!' she turned around and smiled. There was one of her friends walking towards her. They hadn't seen each other in almost a year. Ivy walked over and hugged her.

'How are you?' Ivy asked,

'Good. And you?'

'Good. Been travelling. You can go onboard. Actually, sit with me so this nightmare can go quicker,' the woman nodded and sat down. A few minutes later a brunette walked over.

'Name?' Ivy asked,

'Isabella Grey,'

'Ivy Widmore. Pleasure to meet you,'

'Widmore? Is that the guy who recruited us?'

'Yes. You can go on board now,' she said.

'It was nice meeting you,' she smiled as she got on board.

'That was the ninth person who said 'Widmore? Was that the person who recruited us?' it's so annoying,'

Just then a man walked over.

'Adrian, hey,' Ivy asked,

'Hey Ivy,' he smiled, 'how's your cousin?'

'She's great,' she answered, 'you can go on,'

'Thanks,'

'How do you know him?' her companion asked,

'Works for my uncle,'

'Right.' She smiled. The two girls talked for a while before a woman with black hair walked up to them.

'I'm reporting for duty. Evelyn Hale,'

'Hale…Hale…' Ivy murmured moving her hand down the list, 'ah, yes. I'm Ivy,'

'Nice to meet you. Do I just…?' she asked gesturing to the ship,

'Yep. Go aboard,' Ivy smiled,

'Wow. She was eager,' her companion said. Ivy nodded in agreement as a van pulled up and a man jumped out and made his way towards them. Ivy got up and walked over by herself.

'You got him?' Ivy asked,

'Yes,'

'Just let's do it quickly,'

'Why now?'

'Not everyone is here. The less people that know the better,'

The two grabbed the old man from the back of the van and hurried him onto the freighter. A few minutes later Ivy came back out again.

'Who was that? Why did you have that guy?' her companion asked,

'That was Malcolm. We had him because my uncle wanted him,'

Just then a proud looking woman walked up.

'Rebecca Mathews,' she said,

Ivy checked the manifest and smiled, 'go right ahead,' the woman, Rebecca, nodded and walked on just as a man walked up.

'I'm Kevin Johnson.' He said,

'Naomi,' her companion said,

'Ivy,' she said, 'you can head onboard. Oh, one of these crates were delivered for you, it'll be delivered to your berth.'

'Yeah thanks,' he said.

The two girls talked for awhile before another man walked up.

'Name?' Ivy asked,

'Jonathan Hayes,' he answered,

'Ah, yes, the guy here to talk to Malcolm, right?'

'That's right,'

'Naomi, take over here for me, I'll be back in awhile.'

'Okay,' Naomi said,

'Come on, Jonathan, I'll show you where he is. I'm Ivy by the way,'

'Nice to meet you.'

Megan watched the man's chest slowly rise and fall in his sleep. She needed him to wake up. Sasha had been a mess for the past two days. Not that she let anyone see it. Megan and Madison were the only people that had seen her crying. And even then she was ashamed of her tears. She would've been here now, like she had been for the last two days, but she was talking to Ben. Just then Dragan moved.

'Dragan?' Megan asked quietly,

All she got in answer was a groan and Dragan's eyes opening.

'Where am I? What happened?' he asked,

'You're in the Staff. Juliet happened.'

'Juliet happened?'

'She shot you. Sasha's been trying to kill her for the past two days. Ben won't let her,'

'Sounds like something Sasha would do,' he smiled, 'where is she?'

'Having a screaming match with Ben,'

'Why?'

'He's trying to get her to do whatever he wanted her to do off the island. She's refusing to.'

'Sasha, you need to leave the island,' Ben said calmly,

'I've already told you, I'm not going to,'

'You have to. It is important that you do,'

'I am not leaving,'

'Yes you are. That's an order,'

'Do you know what love is Ben? Better question, have you ever felt love? Because when you do and the person you love might die any second, that is Hell. I have watched numerous people go through that, and I always thanked myself for not getting caught up on it. But now I have,' she had tears in her eyes,

'Then why did you?'

'You don't choose who you love Ben. I sure as Hell didn't choose to love or be loved, but I do and I am. And this only just came to me. I am not ready to leave it all behind for a stupid mission,'

'A stupid mission? If this person goes through with it, we will all die,'

'I'd rather be dead if Dragan dies,' she now had tears down her face,

'Then maybe I should give this mission to someone else,'

'Does it look like I care if you give it to someone else?' she snapped,

'Sasha, you are being trusted with one of the most important things to happen since you came to this island,'

'Is there a point to this?'

'Yes, there is. Either you do this and save us all, or you don't and we all die because of it. You could be a hero,'

'Screw being a hero,'

'Sasha, I understand what you must be going through,' he began,

'Like Hell you do! Do you think just because I good friend of yours died that you know how it feels to watch the person you love dying slowly?'

'He's not dying slowly,' Brent said walking in,

'What the Hell has this got to do with you? Actually why are you even in here?' she snapped at him. Really she had been yelling everything for the last minute.

'I thought you'd want to know...'

'That I can kill Juliet? If it's anything else, I don't care,'

'Okay then,' he said before walking out.

'I'm not doing this Ben,' she said, 'nothing you say will make me change my mind,'

'Well, who do you propose I send instead?'

'I don't know. Maddie?'

'She's a doctor. You're a fighter. If she gets compromised she wouldn't be able to hold her own against them,'

'She is a good fighter, though,'

'Not as good as other people,'

'Fine. What about Megan?'

'She never wants to leave the island,'

'Ursula?'

'She's already gone somewhere else,'

'Ari?'

'She's got her son here,'

'Oh, so you'll send someone when the person they love is dying, but you won't send a woman with a child? Great to know that you find it fine ruining a friend's chance at happiness but you will not do anything to a person who hates you. I'm done with this. Figure it out for yourself,' she snapped before she stalked out.

'So you're trying to become a pilot?' Tyler asked,

'Yes,' Dragan answered,

'If you don't mind me asking, why?'

'I've always had a fascination with technology and I thought being a pilot would be cool,'

'yeah, a lot of people think it would be cool, just not much actually try to become one and then only half of them apply themselves to it,'

'I'll definitely apply myself to it,'

'Okay. I guess I'll teach you then.'

Parker lifted her head off the ground and looked around. That was an idiotic thing to do. Why did she throw the computer on the ground? She groaned as a headache overwhelmed her. Just then Desmond ran past. She stood up shakily and walked slowly around, trying to see any sign of Locke, Ryan or Eko. God, she hoped they were okay. If they weren't it would be her fault.

'Wow. Whoever wrote this is deep,' Calypso said. Stacey, Kalub, Shawn, Sophie and Calypso had all been sitting talking when Nat had walked over to them with a thick, black notebook. It didn't have a name on it, so they looked in it. Inside it had some poems, diary entries, and just some quotes. There were even a few sketches.

'Listen to this,' Kalub said, ''I'd rather bleed with cuts of love then live without any scars,''

''When will people understand that words can cut as sharply as any blade, and that those cuts leave scars upon our souls.'' Calypso said, 'that's true,'

'I feel so sorry for this person, listen, 'Never make someone your everything because when they've gone you've got... nothing...'' Stacey said,

'I know what you mean, listen to this, 'Thorns of time against the rose of the world, killing us slowly as my petals fall...'' Sophie said,

'ooh, listen to these lines of this poem,' Nat said, ''As I watched my crimson blood fall down the drain, I started to cry from the pain, the pain of my heart, slowly breaking apart.' That's…..'

'Private?' a voice asked behind them. Everyone whirled around to see Tasha there.

'It's yours, Tasha?' Sophie asked softly,

'Can I have my book back?' Calypso nodded and passed it to her.

'Tasha, what does this all mean?' Stacey asked,

'None of your business,' she snapped,

'Natasha…'

'Don't call me that, Anastasia,'

'Answer my question then. What does all of this mean?'

'Nothing, okay?'

'What does this line mean then? 'Too many tears have run down my cheeks, too many times my heart broken, too many scars lie upon my wrists yet I keep smiling.' What does it mean Tasha?'

'What do you think it means Stacey?'

'Well, obviously it means you have cried too much. About who though? Savannah, Josh or Mark?'

'All three.'

'You've been hurt too many times. And you keep smiling though you have – according to that quote – scars on your wrists. So why would you write that? Unless it's true?' her face softened. 'Tash?'

'Stace, please don't,' she begged,

'Tasha, what have you been doing to yourself?' she asked softly.

Tasha slowly moved up her sleeve and took her bandage off. Everyone's eyes widened.

'How long?'

'Started after mom died.'

'Three years?'

'Well, that's when mom died, so yeah, three years.'

'Honey, why didn't you tell me?' she enveloped Tasha in a hug before addressing everyone else there, 'Leave. Now,' they all did.

'You had too much to worry about,'

'Like what?'

'Okay, I didn't want to worry you,'

'Tash, one thing I'm wondering is why Shawn didn't looked shocked when you took the bandage off,'

'He knew already,'

'He knew and I didn't?'

'He came across me in the jungle the other day,'

'You did this the other day?'

'Yes. Just after Ana died,'

'Please don't do it again. Not only could it harm your baby, but it could harm you as well,'

'I promise I won't.'

Sasha walked into the Staff, still angry from her argument with Ben. She quickly walked down the familiar hallway and walked into the room. To her surprise Dragan was awake and talking to Megan.

'You're awake,' she said as she closed the door,

'You seem surprised,' Dragan said,

'I am,'

'Didn't Brent tell you?' Megan asked,

'No,'

'We sent him to tell you,'

'Oh, that was probably when I was yelling at Ben and he walked in so I told him to leave if he didn't come in to say I could kill Juliet, so he did,'

'So are you still going off island?' Megan asked,

'No.'

'You convinced Ben to let you stay?'

'No,' she answered as Ari walked in with one of the radios,

'Sasha, Ben wants to talk to you,' she said passing it to her,

'What?' she snapped into it,

'Sasha, you need to do this,' Ben said,

'No I don't Ben! Get someone else to do it. I seriously can't be the only person you'd be willing to give this mission to,'

'You are.'

'Enlighten me as to why I'm the only one who can do this,'

'If I sent Madison and they found out who she worked for, she'd be as good as dead. Same with Tamsyn, Andrew, Ira and Ari. As well as all the teenagers. Juliet and Brent want nothing more to get off this island. Ursula's doing something else for me. Gabe and Richard are on the other side of the island. I need Megan here, Tom's already off the island, but nowhere near where I need you to go and I wouldn't really trust anyone else with something as important as this,'

'Isn't that convenient? Everyone's got a reason why they can't go,'

'Sasha, I don't think you understand. If you don't do this, every single person on this island will die,'

'I think you've already told me this,'

'Then why aren't you listening?'

'Sasha, just go.'

Sasha turned around and looked at Dragan. 'You sure?'

'Yeah. I'll be fine,'

'Fine, Ben,' she said into the radio, 'I'll do it.'

'Good. They're already letting people on but you need to be there by noon tomorrow. That's when it leaves. I'd suggest you go now.'

Dragan took a huge breathe of fresh air as he surfaced. He had just crashed the helicopter. Looking around he saw Tyler. A dead Tyler at that. He started making his way over there but part of the helicopter went up in flames and a second later there was a burning in his eyes and he couldn't see. He put his hand of his eyes and blindly swam in the direction he thought he had seen land. Twenty minutes later he got there. He collapsed on the sand. He lay there for a good five minutes with his eyes closed before he opened them. He couldn't see. He closed them again before opening them a minute later. Still couldn't see. Ok it was official. Dragan Rush was blind.

Parker stood in awe of what she had just seen. John Locke had taken done a bear.

After she had found him, he had built a sweat lodge and something had happened. He came out and led her into the jungle, stating 'they needed to save Eko.'

Locke had then taken down a polar bear with fire. Talk about heroic.

Now the three of them were just coming out onto the beach. Everyone walked up to them.

'as you should all know by now Jack, Kate, Amber, Michael, Amanda and Sawyer have all gone over to the other side of the island to get Dan, Anyssa and Walt back. They will all be back soon, don't worry,'

'You all should be worrying,' a voice spat from behind Locke. Everyone turned around to see Hurley and Amanda walking out of the jungle. 'It was an ambush,' Amanda continued, 'we were all captured by the Others. They took Amber, Kate, Sawyer and Jack with them and they sent us back to tell everyone not to go and find them,'

'What about Michael?' Kathy asked,

'He betrayed us,'

'He betrayed us?' Stacey asked, 'he was with the people that killed Ana and Brad?'

'Yes. But he was the one who killed them,'

'What?' Tasha asked,

'He killed them to get Walt back,'

'Okay, new plan,' Parker said, 'we go and get them all back,' she looked around for support and saw that people were nodding in agreement.

'We will leave tomorrow, anyone who wants to come, you're more than welcome to,' Locke said,

'You mean any of us can come?' Sophie asked,

'Of course you can,'

'Really?' Hurley asked, 'coz Jack just does like whatever he wants, doesn't ask any of us,'

'I'm not Jack. The more the merrier,'

Sophie opened her mouth but was interrupted by a rustling from the jungle. Everyone turned around to see Adira, Sayid, Dinah, Sun and Jin walking out.

'It trap,' Adira said,

'We know,' Jennifer said,

'You know?'

'Michael led Jack, Kate, Sawyer, Amanda, Hurley and Amber into a trap. They let Hurley and Amanda go and they came to warn us,' Rosie said, 'Michael betrayed us all.'

'Dinah, are you okay?' Calypso asked seeing Dinah rub her temple for the fifth time since she came out of the jungle.

'Yeah, I just have a headache,' was all she managed to say before she became lightheaded and fell forward.

(THIS IS NOT A FLASHBACK. IT IS A DREAM/VISION SEQUENCE)

Dinah's eyes opened but she wasn't on the island. She was on a huge ship. In front of her were three men and one woman. One of the men was old and was tied to a chair. Another man was standing behind him, obviously threatening him. The other man was standing next to the chair, wearing a ring with D.A. initialed on it. The blonde woman was standing against the wall, waiting for them to finish talking. She looked familiar to Dinah, but she couldn't place it. The piercing emerald green eyes seemed like the thing that was familiar, but she wasn't sure. Suddenly someone else was in the room. Brad.

'Dinah, you have to listen to me, you can't trust the man in the chair or the man behind him but trust the man standing beside them,'

'What about the woman?' she asked,

'I don't know. I think you can trust her, but be careful, she might be the enemy,'

'Brad, I don't even know them. What's going on?'

'You must warn them. When she comes.'

'When who comes?'

'Warn them, Dinah. You are the only one that can,' he started to disappear.

'Warn about what?'

'When they come. They're not who they say they are,' the last part was said so quietly it was practically nonexistent. He was gone now. Dinah looked once more at the people, trying to memorize them. Suddenly everything faded out and she was returned to blackness once more.

(END DREAM/VISION SEQUENCE)

Dinah awoke with a start.

'Dinah, are you okay? What happened?' Rosie asked,

'I just saw Brad,' she answered. All the people there widened their eyes.

'You just saw….what?' Shawn asked,

'I just saw Brad,' she repeated. 'He said that we couldn't trust them.'

'Trust who?' Claire asked,

'The people coming to the island,'

'That's impossible,' Tasha said, 'how could you have seen Brad?'

'Look, I know what I saw,' she snapped,

'Ok guys, give her some space,' Rosie said. Everyone nodded and dispersed leaving Adira and Rosalyn as the only people there.

'Dinah, do you have any idea why you collapsed?' Rosie asked,

Dinah looked at her mother who nodded slightly before answering, 'yes. I do,'

'What is it?'

'I have a brain tumor.'

'Oh my God. I am so sorry.'

'Don't worry about it,'

'Can it be removed?'

'Yes. But I should've had it removed by now. Because I haven't I am experiencing headaches, nausea, and sometimes, like before, I black out. But that's usually only at night for some reason,'

'I don't want this to come off as heartless, but how long?'

'Somewhere between two and three weeks.'

'I will try to help you anyway I can, Dinah. I am truly sorry.'

Sasha walked down a street on her way to the harbor. It was eleven forty the next morning. She was cutting it fine. She would've been there an hour ago but she had run into trouble. A couple of men had tried to sexually assault her but she had knocked one out, slit another's throat and snapped the last guys neck. Another man had seen her kill them, but did nothing about it, so she left him. Now she had been making her way to the harbor, mentally remembering everything about 'herself.' Her name was Taliba Yusuf; she was thirty five and was hired to protect the science team. She had been in Israel for the past month, that's why she was arriving now. She walked slowly up to the huge freighter. One disadvantage about fighting those men was that she wasn't fully recovered from her gunshot wound and it had taken its toll on her. She looked around and was shocked to see Tamsyn standing there. The woman turned slightly. Now she remembered that Tamsyn had a twin sister that looks exactly like her, apart from Tamsyn's hair is straight, this woman's wasn't. She walked over to her.

'And you are?' the woman asked,

'Taliba Yusuf,' she replied,

'Ah, yes,' she said after a minute, 'welcome aboard the Kahana.'

Did you all really think I could kill Dragan? I mean, seriously, it would mean ruining one of my favorite ships. And with Dinah's vision I needed someone to, and I couldn't have just anyone have it, so I was originally going to have one of the people who was in the Hatch have the vision then I realized that Parker and Ryan aren't people with huge parts, and it's like, 'why not give it to the girl with the tumor? It can be explained that the tumor is sort of stuffing with her brain making her see stuff.' I also decided to bring parts of everyone's back stories on the island and get the fixed. Hence the Tasha stuff. Anyway, I just want to know some stuff, so be prepared to answer quite a lot of questions:

Who's your favorite Middle section? Why?

Who's your favorite Tailie? Why?

Who's your favorite Other? Why?

What's your favorite pairing? Why?

What's your favorite friendship? Why?

Who do you think has the greatest friendship? Why?

What are your favorite enemies to read about? Why?

Who's your least favorite Middle section? Why?

Who's your least favorite Tailie? Why?

Who's your least favorite Other? Why?

What's your least favorite pairing? Why?

What's your least favorite friendship? Why?

What are your least favorite enemies to read about? Why?

What's been your favorite chapter so far? Why?

What has been your least favorite chapter so far? Why?

Who's your favorite dead person? Why?

Who's your least favorite dead person? Why?

Who's your favorite teenager? Why?

Who's your least favorite teenager? Why?

Who's your favorite adult? Why?

Who's your least favorite adult? Why?

Who do you think is the bitchiest person? Why?

Who do you think is the nicest person? Why?

Who do you think is the most intense person? Why?

Who do you think is the most misunderstood person? Why?

Who do you think is the most annoying person? Why?

What is something you wish I never did? Why?

What is something I almost did, but didn't that you wish I did? Why?

What is your favorite storyline that has nothing to do with the actual story? Why?

What is your least favorite storyline that has nothing to do with the actual story? Why?

Who's the character that you think has the most interesting past? Why?

And finally, who's the character that you think has the least interesting past? Why?

If you did all those, good job! Now finally the preview:

'Jennifer!'

'What happened?'

'That…thing. I think it got them,'

A woman with blood on and surrounding her.

Two people kissing.