Chapter 37: Control

A/N: I apologize for not having this out sooner; I just haven't had any time to finish it up and post it, I hope that you all like it and I will try to update as much as I can.

Jeremiah's POV

"Well it definitely could have been worse, right?" asked Jacob

"What are you talking about, "Could have been worse". Dude that was great, I mean a few weeks ago he almost ripped my fucking head off and now he is almost in control of everything," responded Seth

"Will you two shut the hell up for a minute so I can think?" I asked

"Sorry," both of the mumbled

I groaned, I didn't mean to get angry at the guys I just wanted to be in my own little head for a while. I needed be strong so that I didn't break, I needed to be strong for my family.

"No, I'm the one who is sorry I shouldn't have blown up at you guys. I'm just stressed," I said as I looked over at the passenger side and saw my son slumped to his side with his head on the door.

"Nah, we get it man. He is our family too, I mean I know he is your son but he is my nephew and Jake has always seen him as a member of his family so we get it. I mean for all the shit that we have seen in our lives this one tops the cake. I mean no one would ever think that there would be a vampire/werewolf hybrid," he said

I just sighed, that was the only response that I could give the two of them at the moment. I was worried about what I would tell Leah, yeah she has gotten a lot better at it over the years but when it comes to Chris she has no control over her emotions.

Jake and Seth agreed to come with me for the sake of backup and to watch over him while we talked.

As soon as we got back to the house, I could smell dinner coming from the kitchen. Leah was home and so was Bianca, I heard her voice; it looks as though she was helping her out with dinner. I pulled into the garage and parked next to Chris' car.

I walked over and opened the door and pulled Chris into my arms, Jake and Seth had gotten of the car and were now in front of me. They opened the door and Seth called out for Leah

"Oh my God," she said as her eyes met mine and then traveled down to our son

"It's not that bad, remember that thing that he is going through well he made a lot of progress today and he is only knocked out because of how tired he is," said Seth as he had his arms on each one of her shoulders. He didn't come out and say it because Bianca had joined us and I saw the color leave her body

"Is that true?" she asked me

I nodded

I could tell that she was holding back sobs, I shrugged towards his bedroom and she followed so did Bianca. Jake and Seth looked at me then went into the kitchen,

We slowly and quietly walked up the stairs and went into his room. I placed him gingerly on his bed, and then Leah and Bianca got him out of his clothes and into so shorts and a shirt. Leah then left the room, I didn't know if it was too much for her or she was getting something for Chris. It was just Bianca and I with Chris, I could see the look on her face, she really did love my boy, not just the "we are best friends and we love each other", no this was "I am in love with you" kind. Was it kind of nice to see that my son someone looking at him like that. Then I began to feel guilty about all of this, she had no idea what was really going on.

"Bianca I know that we are being unfair to you by not telling you what's going on. Know that it isn't anything horrible but it isn't something that we as a family want to broadcast to the world. We are just different, very different and although you should know that we all trust we can't tell you what's going on not because we don't want to tell you its because we believe that it is best we leave that decision to Chris. If he feels like telling you the secrets of this family then we support him completely and also if he chooses not to then we support that decision as well," I told her

Leah had come back into the room; she had a tray where there was a pitcher of water, some aspirin, and a few cold compresses. She placed it on the table that next to his bed

I looked back at Bianca and our eyes met, she then nodded as she took the compress and placed it on Chris' forehead.

I felt Leah at my side

"Outside now," she whispered to me

I nodded and I followed her out the door

We went downstairs and my eyes met those of Jake and Seth who where in the kitchen eating. I shook my head, I knew that they wanted to be apart of this conversation but it needed to be just us. Not soon after we were in the backyard, I looked out into the trees that were the entrance to the southern part of the forest. Hell 90% of this town was forest, but I digress.

"What happened out there?" she asked

"Umm well for one he was able to control his transformation," I told her

"God, did he attack any of you?" she asked

"That's the second part of it, he was able to control that as well. At first it took him a while to make a movement, my guess is that he didn't want to risk the chance of attacking one of us but once he was able to center himself he was able to make movements; he ran, he attacked a tree on my order of course. He even showed some abilities," I told her

"What ability?" she asked without hesitation

"Umm he was able to pick up on the conversation that Jake and your brother were having," I told her

"So he was able to talk with them even though they were in their wolf forms?" she asked

"No, he was only able to listen. I don't know if he is able to just communicate with the pack or if it extends to everyone else; a lot of the unknowns comes from the fact that he hasn't developed those skills yet and once he does then we'll know or at least we will have a better grasp on it," I told her

"Oh, anything else?" she asked, she was so quite that I knew that I had to comfort her the best I could. I took her in my arms and just held her, she didn't cry; the news was bad news or even good news for that matter, it was just confusing news.

"He is so strong and so fast; probably stronger than anyone I have ever met and he is almost as fast as me or you or even Edward for that matter, remember he has so much bulk on him that to be able to run as fast as the rest of us means that he has some serious speed on him. The reason he collapsed was that he had exhausted all the energy he had left, I blame myself mostly, I mean I might have pushed him a little too hard, I was just trying to see what his limits looked like. So if you are angry with me then I completely understand, ' I told her

"No, it's not your fault. It would have happened eventually better now that he is in a safe environment as oppose to during a fight with a enemy that is trying to kill him. Maybe he will be able to increase his stamina so that he can stay in that state for a while longer," she told me

I didn't respond because I didn't need to she was right, it would only come in time. I went over to one of the chairs that was in the patio area, she followed of course taking a seat on me.

"Will he be okay?" she asked eventually

"Yes, there was no damage to his body, he just needs to rest. All we can do now is wait and see," I told her

"What about Bianca?" she asked

"That is up to Chris, if he feels that she is ready to let her than that is what's going to happen and if he feels that she or more importantly he isn't ready than we will have to support that decision as well. Look I know that Bianca is a trustful girl and we shouldn't keep these secrets from her but its Chris' secret now not ours. We will be each other for eternity, God willing but Chris' life is barely starting and he needs to find the one that he is going to be with and if he thinks that Bianca is the one than he will tell her," I told her

"Weren't you the one who kept on riding me for trying that push those two together?" she asked me

"I know, look I always thought that those two were like siblings and that is what Chris has always told us but I saw the look on her face while you were getting stuff for Chris. And I know that their relationship has definitely changed, I mean whether or not something comes of it I don't know but I can tell that she is in love with him," I told her

She nodded

"Yep, I have seen that too," she said

"Which is why I have had this change of heart about the whole situation, I mean I have always felt that it should be up to Chris to decide whether or not Bianca should know but now I know that their relationship is vastly different than what it had always been known a," I told her

"Yea, I tend to forget how old he really is don't I? I mean he is feels acts so much older than he really is, I mean a boy his age shouldn't have to deal with what he has to deal with. And for that matter; me and Seth and Jake and the rest of the guys shouldn't have had to deal with what we went through; neither should Bella or any of the Cullens. We all should been able to lead normal lives where life and death doesn't mean what it means to us," She said. I know that all the pain that she had endured was pouring out

I just let her sit on my lap; she needed this time in her head, she was never very good at getting past things but maybe this time would be different. It didn't make her weak it just made her human and that was something that I always loved about her because in essence it made me regain some of my humanity just by being around her.

"Wait you don't think that the statement means that me wanting to be a regular human that I somehow regret ever being with you?" she asked

"I don't think anything beside the fact that you want to be a regular human and that is understandable. I mean I wish that I was still human that I could have lived a normal life but even as a human I didn't have a normal life right; in college when I was in my teens, then I was in the military and finally the C.I.A as a hitter so I didn't exactly have a normal existence. You did for some period of your life sure that all ended when what happen with Sam happened. At least we can be grateful for the fact that Chris had 16 years of a normal life, which is probably longer than he should have. Wanting to be human and normal is not something that you should regret; and for that matter wanting the same for your brother and all of your friends is a nice thought. All of the Cullens should have had their families with a lot of kids and eventually when they reached a certain age they should have been able to die peacefully. The same for the pack, I mean I know that Sam and Paul have been able to stop the transformations and are able to age and have some semblance of a normal life. But the truth is that for any of us who still supernatural we aren't going to have a peaceful death, it will be bloody and tragic, it just comes with the job. And for my own selfish reasons I am glad that you aren't going to do that because I can't live a life where you are not by my side.," I told her

"Damn, that was a good answer," she told me

I just shook my head at her, I think most times that she is trying to test me but it was overridden by the fact that she is no longer thinking about the problem that our family is dealing with.

"We will make it through all of this Leah, don't ever let doubt and fear poison your mind. You are the glue that holds our family together if you're not there to keep everything in its place then Chris has no hope and me for that matter, I know that I try to be as strong as I can for the two of you but the truth is that over the past 15 years or so I have known that I need you to even make it through the day, as co-dependent as this sound I need you to live. Look just believe in the fact that he will learn how to control himself and in the end he will be able to balance the two ends of his consequence, the beast if you will and the man," I told her

She nodded and then place a soft kiss on my lips, when she let go I place another peck on her lips and I tighten the hold I have over her.

I then heard a few cars pull into the driveway and smelled the guests it was all the Cullens.

"What are they all doing here?" asked Leah, who was just as confused as me

I then heard the front door open and listened to Nessie and Jake who were having a conversation, it seems as though Jake called Nessie who then called everyone else and told them what Jake told her.

"Let's go inside," I told Leah

She nodded and got off of my lap and took my hand as we went into the house, as soon as we got inside Esme was the first one who reached us as always, I let go of Leah as she hugged her and then I went over to Carlisle.

"You guys didn't have to come here," I told him

"Of course we did Jeremiah, he is as much a part of our family as you or Leah are," he said

I nodded and put a hand on his shoulder as I led him upstairs obviously he wanted to see, the doctor in him was about to show its face.

As soon as we entered the room, I saw that Bianca was lying on the bed with Chris curled up into him.

I put my finger up to my lip as my eyes met those of Carlisle; he gave me a confused look.

I mouthed the word love to him, he nodded and I saw the slight traces of a smile on his face. I quietly walked over to the side of the bed where Bianca was. I tapped her on the shoulder she quickly woke up; she was obviously startled.

"Shhh," I whispered

She lightly slapped her forehead and mouthed "sorry".

"Bianca, you remember Chris' uncle Carlisle, right?" I asked her

She nodded

"He is a doctor and he is going to check on Chris," I told her

"Do you want me to leave?" she asked, I knew that she didn't want to go anywhere

'No, I think its best that you stay with him. You seem to have a calming influence on him and I think it is best that you are with him. Just let Carlisle do what he does and then he will leave you two be. But are you hungry or thirsty?" I asked her

"Not right now," she answered

"Okay, well when you are all you have to do is come down stairs and we will have something ready for you, remember you live here too now," I told her as I put as a reassuring hand on her shoulder

"Thank you," she said

I nodded and then looked at Carlisle, I knew that both of them were in very capable hands.

As I headed downstairs I was too wrapped up in hearing what Carlisle was doing to listen the conversation that everyone was having.

"Look it's just a simple question, there is no harm in answering it," said Emmett who had a huge smile on his face.

I was confused; the statement it seems was directed at Bella who was looking very nervous. She looked over at Edward who was shaking his head at Emmett.

"It's okay love, just answer the man; it doesn't matter what the answer will be because I trust whole heartily," said Edward

Bella huffed and looked back at Emmett

"Okay, my choice would be Jeremiah," answered Bella

Everyone looked at me

"What the hell are you guys talking about?" I asked

"Well genius here thought it would be a good idea to play a game to pass the time," said Alice as she glared at Emmett.

"Okay and what's the game," I asked

"Umm we are suppose to go around and say the name of the person that's on your list," said Jasper

"What list?" I asked

"The list of people that you could sleep with without consequences from your mate; its suppose to be celebrities, musicians, artist you get the jest of it but Emmett thought it would be funny if we just did members of the family," answered Edward

"Oh, I mean oh thank you Bella," I said in a confused tone

She looked down and nodded

I looked over at Emmett who was having way too much at the moment

"Alright Bella, its your turn; ask Jeremiah who is on his list," said Emmett

"I'm not playing this stupid game of yours Emmett," I said as I took my seat next to Leah who eating a sandwich.

"Come on, you're no fun," said Emmett with a pout

"Nope it ain't gonna work on me bro, the only way that I would even consider answering that question would be if Leah is okay with it," I said

Emmett looked over at Leah, who was now taking a sip from her coke.

"Leah please let little Jerry answer the question please," pleaded Emmett

Leah look over at me, I just shrugged I knew better than to say anything

"It's fine with me because I know that Jerry would never cheat on me," she said

"Yes, alright Bella asked Jeremiah," ordered Emmett. I just shook my head this was really fucking stupid and would only lead to problems.

"Alright Jeremiah, who is on your list?" asked Bella

"I don't even have a list," I said

"Just answer the question," barked Emmett

"Fine, look all of you are very beautiful. But if I had to pick I would say Emmett," I answered then I winked and blew a kiss in his direction.

Everyone started laughing, I joined in; he got what he deserved

"Be fucking serious here," he said

"Fine asshole but you got what you deserved. Look in all seriousness, if I had to pick I would say Esme; all of you ladies are very beautiful but if I had to make a choice I would pick Esme," I said.

"Why thank you Jeremiah I am very proud to be your choice and If I had to make a choice I would say that you are my choice, simply because I see all of you boys including Seth and Jacob as my children," she responded

"I am proud to be your choice as well," I told her

"Well damn how about that, you're a popular boy," said Emmett

"Why do you say that?" I asked

"Because all of the ladies picked you but you weren't here so we couldn't ask you what your choice would be, all that is left is Seth and Leah," said Emmett

I looked over at Leah and she reaffirmed what Emmett had just said

"Thank you all, I don't really know what to say but why me?" I asked

"Cause you're hot and you look good in bed," said Rose

"Oh, I see," I said

"Okay, now its Seth's turn; Seth my boy who would be your choice," asked Emmett

I saw the color leave his face, Seth was never a kid that liked to be the center of attention and this was my little brother for all intensive purposes. My first instinct was to protect him but then I felt Leah's hand on my arm. I looked over at her and saw that she was giving me a reassuring look; it was like she was telling me that it was okay, that Seth would be fine.

After a few minutes of thinking it looked like Seth was ready to answer the question

"Umm I mean everyone is so pretty and I would be lucky to find someone like all of you but my choice would be Alice, yea I would pick Alice," said Seth

Alice got off of her chair and skipped over to Seth's chair and planted a kiss on his cheek, she went back to her chair and took Jasper's hand.

It looked like it was going to be a very strange night.

Eventually we went into the living room and played a few more games, well I mean that Emmett forced us to play these games and I didn't have it in me to fight him on it. The ladies put the TV on and started watching a show that I had never seen after 5 minutes of it I knew why I had never seen it because it was a show that I would never watch. Carlisle came down after a while and informed us that what I thought was right, that he was suffering through exhaustion because of how much he needed to exert himself during the transformation and all the tests that I did on him.

After a while a few of us went hunting, those who left didn't want to leave because they wanted to be here when Chris woke up so they went into the nearby forest to find some food.

It was just Leah and I in the living room; we were sitting on the couch watching some TV. Those who were left where in the backyard just hanging out; Esme felt like she should do something so she made Bianca something to eat and then took it up to her.

All we could do is wait, wait for our son to wake up and wait for our son to get a better grasp of his powers so that nothing like this would ever happen again.

Several hours later

Chris' POV

I groaned, my entire body was sore as hell; was it always going to be like this I asked myself.

I knew that Bianca was with me, because she was always with me now that and I heard her lightly snoring. I had no fears about what the future was going to be like for us but it was still confusing as hell because of how quickly it was happening. I saw that there was a plate on the table next to my bed, I guess someone made her some food and brought it up to her because I knew that she had this mindset in which she would never leave my side willingly. I felt her begin to stir and I looked down at her and our eyes met, she blushed and leaned into my stomach.

She eventually looked back up at me and I leaned in and began to kiss her, it could have gone on for hours and I wouldn't have grown tired of it.

Eventually she took her lips off of mine

"Hi," I said

"Hi back," she answered

"How long was I out this time?" I asked

"I don't know, maybe 6 hours or so," she said as she looked down at her watch

"Damn," I said

"Chris, what was the kiss for?" she asked eventually

"It was to say to thank you for everything you have done for me and because I wanted to," I answered

"Oh, well okay," she said and then she inch forward and our lips met again. This time lasted longer than before.

"Where are my parents?" I asked

"They're downstairs with the rest of your family," she answered

"They are all here?" I asked

"Yup, your Uncle came in here and checked on you and then went downstairs; then your Aunt came in here and fed me," she said

"Yea Aunt Esme loves to do the motherly thing, she likes to take care of everyone," I told her

"Yea I noticed that," she told me

"Yup," I said

"Can you get up?" she asked

"Yea I think so but I really don't want to go anywhere," I told her

"But shouldn't your parents know that you're up?" she asked

"I'm sure that they know, remember they have impeccable hearing. I'm sure that they want to give us some time to ourselves before they grill me," I told her

"Are you going to tell me what happened?" she asked

"Yes Bianca but I can't now, its like I told you its something that I have to show you and until I can control what the hell is happening to me I wont be able to explain what's going on," I told her

"You promise that when you are in control that you will tell me, I mean show me everything," she asked me

"Yes love, everything you will know everything and don't worry it shouldn't take me get it under control. I've been working with my Dad the last few weeks and I've been able to do things that I never thought was possible," I told her

"Good because I am tired of being the only one who doesn't know what's going on," she said

"Just trust me," I told her

"Okay," she said, and then she pulled herself up and lifted her leg over me and was now straddling me.

I looked at her with a confused look

"I'm going you some incentive to work harder and faster so that when you do have all your ducks in a row you'll have something to look forward to," she said then we began to kiss. It was so hard not let my hands travel all over her body. She didn't stop me when my hands were on her ass so I moved my hands to underneath her shirt and began to massage her breast. She began to groan into my mouth

"We have to stop before we go any further," she said

We were both out of breath, she was right. I didn't know if I had the energy to do it and I knew that it would piss my Mom off if we did it. She was all about respect her house and she always said that it would be disrespecting them if I had sex with a girl while they were under the same roof. I didn't understand it because they sex had every night, hell they would do it a few times a day. I've walked in on them enough times that it was drilled into me that now I knock before I enter any room expect my own, oh God I hope that they have never done it in my room. Anyways we stopped, it would only happened when she was ready.

We just laid there for a while; I was still sore and a bit tired. But I didn't want her to know that but luckily enough she fell asleep again so I was safe to nod off with her yelling at me for it.

When I woke up I looked over at the clock and saw that it was 4 in the morning and that Bianca was still asleep so I went back to sleep, thank God it was Saturday because I really didn't want to go to school and this meant that I could spend the entire weekend with my family and Bianca without any interruptions. I had finished all the homework that was due while we were driving to the forest yesterday, it was a light workload because of the fact that it was a half day. I woke up at around 9 in the morning, I lifted my hand up and opened the curtain a bit and saw that it was an overcast day, which meant that none of us would have to stay in doors and we could all actually do something.

I looked back down and saw that Bianca was still asleep, I took some of the hair that was on her face and pinned it behind her ear.

"Wakey, wakey; eggs and bacon," I whispered in her ear

There was a huge grin on her face, she leaned up and planted a kiss on my lips

"How'd you sleep?" she asked

"Quite well, how about you?" I asked her

"Great, I felt so safe, I wonder why?" she asked herself as she tapped her chin with her finger.

"Dork," I said to her

"Pretty much," she responded and then we began to laugh

"Are you hungry?" I asked

"I could eat," she answered

"Okay, well I think that its time that we go downstairs and see my family so that they don't think that I am dead," I told her

She nodded, she got up and I followed. My body was sore so it took my a while to get on my feet, she was really patient with me I knew that she wanted to help me but she resisted and left me do it on my own. Once I was on my feet, I took the plate that was on the table and followed her out the door, she took my hand without hesitation and we walked downstairs. Everyone was downstairs talking, as soon as why hit the last stair all the eyes turned on us. My parents and Uncle Carlisle and Aunt Esme were the first to reach us and they hugged me. As soon as they let go of me the rest of my family came over and hugged me as well.

"Umm, we're both kinda hungry," I said as Alice let go of me

Aunt Esme and my Mom quickly went into the kitchen, I didn't mean that I wanted them to make me something to eat, I just wanted them to let go of me so that I could get myself something to grub on. Alice and Rose took a hold of Bianca and took her into the living room; it looks like they were going to grill her.

It was just Uncle Carlisle, my Dad and I left in the center of the room

"How are you feeling son?" asked my Dad

"Good for the most part, I mean I am a little sore but I'm okay," I answered him

"Do you remember anything that happened?" asked Uncle Carlisle

"Everything," I said

"Wow, what was it like?" asked Dad

"Awesome, I mean at first I was scared because I was in control but then it when I made the first step I wasn't in control, do you get what I mean?" I asked

They both nodded

"Well you probably want to know why I wasn't able to speak to Jake and Uncle Seth," I presumed

Dad nodded

"I honestly don't know I mean I could listen to everything that they were saying but I didn't know how to talk to them, as to why I couldn't speak at all, it was because it felt like my throat was really sore and it felt like it was closed off," I told them

"What do you think Carlisle?" asked Dad

"My theory is that his other form has developed completely, its like that of the development of a child at first it is only able to do very basic task and once to start to grow it is able to do more and more, maybe that is why you were able to speak or could project your thought while Jacob and Seth were speaking to each other," said Uncle Carlisle

It made a lot more sense than anything I could ever think up of, it also gave me hope that I could be able to speak not just verbally but with my mind, it would awesome if I was a telepath.

"Bianca, Chris you're food is ready," said my Mom from the kitchen

I looked over at Bianca and saw that she was heading my way, she extended my hand which I took gladly and we headed into the kitchen and sat at the table and began to dig into the food that my Mom and Aunt Esme had made. It was simple yet very good

After we finished our food, Alice and Rose took Bianca again and they said that they were heading to the mall. I thought that I saw the fear of God in Bianca but I knew well enough that you never wanted to get in the way of Alice and Rose when they were on a mission.

Eventually Dad and my Uncle joined me at the table

We talked some more; he gave my Dad more theories that he could play with in his head. I guess it was the whole military strategist that was showing its face but my Dad kept on asking question after question. They used to do this all the time when I was younger, I knew that neither one of them would never get tired of it, it was like they were playing a game of chess. But it was boring as hell to me so I went outside to see what everyone else was doing, Jasper and Emmett were wrestling as always, now that I knew about the family secret everyone didn't hold back what they were, so the last few weeks whenever I went over to the mansion I would see Jasper and Emmett wrestling, some times Edward would get involved but that really wasn't his thing. Emmett tired to goad my Dad into fighting but Dad would never get let Emmett get under his skin. Plus that and the fact that my Dad would probably kill him but Emmett has never been someone to back down from a fight especially one where he would be the underdog.

"Do you want to get a round in?" asked Emmett

"Nah I'm good Em, you would kill me remember I'm just a human," I said with a wink

He started laughing hysterically

'Well you are definitely funnier than your old man," he said

"HEY I HEARD THAT," I heard my Dad scream from the house

I just smiled, no matter how strange things have gotten, I knew that I had my family and Bianca. That's all I ever needed, I think.