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HSM belongs to Disney. Chapter's title comes from Rihana's song named the same way. Listen to it, it really inspired me to write this chapter!

Chapter 37.

PS. I'm still not over you.

Her eyes hold nothing but resignation. Pure and simple resignation. No regrets, no trying to apologize, no nothing. And that was what hurt the most. The fact that she wasn't even going to say she was sorry. The fact that they were done and she didn't care.

"Ryan, I…" she started, taking a step closer and reaching for him. He waited for her to continue. He waited for the longest time, hoping that there was a hell of a good explanation for what had just happened. Yet, she didn't continue.

"Yes?" he asked, stepping closer to her, placing his hands over her shoulders "Kelsi?"

"I can't do this" she whispered, refusing to face him, silent tears streaming down her cheeks and for a second, Ryan thought about pretending nothing was happening and let things continue the way they were. But he couldn't. He just couldn't. His pride, his conscience, his heart wouldn't let him.

"I'm sorry" he said, although why was he apologizing, he didn't know. It just seemed like the right thing to do "We're done"

"Ryan, I…!" she exclaimed, gripping the front of his shirt, still crying and he felt his own tears threatening to fall at any second. This couldn't be happening. After all they had been through… after the last marvelous, glorious, blissful year, that things ended that way… it just seemed so wrong.

"Goodbye, angel" he kissed her forehead one last time, thinking that he wouldn't be doing it anymore. Never again would he hold her close; never again would he feel her soft long curls slipping through his fingers; never again would he kiss her…

Way too over dramatic, aren't we?

Maybe. Maybe not.

He sat over his bed, a big ice cream's bowl on his lap while he watched a sappy movie. It was almost 2 o'clock in the morning but he couldn't go to sleep. Not yet. Too many memories waiting to haunt, confuse and torture him. So no, he couldn't go to sleep just yet.

A knock on his door bring him back to reality. He watched his door, knowing full well who was at the other side. He sighed. "Come in"

Sharpay peeked at the door, smiling slyly. Ryan smiled back, which she took as an invitation to join him. The girl sat next to him, watching him carefully and worriedly "I'm here for you Ry" she said, resting her head against his shoulder.

The boy smiled a bit. The greatest thing about Sharpay was how she never asked stupid questions, nor did she make sappy ridiculous comments. She was, had always and would always been there for him. She wasn't going to tell him everything was going to be alright (like his mother would) or that he needed to move on (resembling his father). She would just sit by his side and let him mourn and complain as long as he wanted. He loved that especial bound they shared. And, in moments like those…

"Thanks Shar" he whispered, letting tears fall for the first time that night "I don't think I will be going to school for a while" he informed her, a sad smile on his lips.

"Good thing is" she said, smiling sweetly "Christmas is almost here"

"Yes. Yes it is"

Kelsi found herself pinned against the wall and staring terrified at her ex-sister-in-law's eyes. She gulped, fearing what was about to happen. She closed her eyes and waited.

"Look at me" the blond ordered and she obeyed, way to scare to even think about not complying. Everyone in the school's hallway was looking at them, curious about the whole scene.

"Shar, I…" the brunette said, trying to gain some time to put her thoughts in order. However, the other interrupted her.

"Stay away from my brother" she hissed "don't even try to beg for forgiveness because you don't even deserve him to talk to you ever again. Understood?!" she hit the wall, just to make her point clearer and Kelsi stared at her, horrified and shivering.

"Yes" she said, nodding her head.

"Good"

Sharpay strolled down the hall, glaring at everyone who dared to look at her. So she was back to being the villain of the story. Who cared? She had it coming, right? She had warned her, hadn't she? If she had been stupid enough to ignore her threat…

Then she deserved everything that was about to come her way.

Sharpay sat on the cold floor of the stage, staring absent minded at the auditorium door. She chewed her lip, making it bleed a little but she didn't care. It was a nervous tic that she had picked from her mother and she couldn't stop herself from doing it every time she was thinking very seriously about something.

Like right now. She supposed she should be already heading home, since her brother would be most likely waiting for her, so they could talk. Ryan liked to talk about random things when he was depressed. Unlike her, who just liked to sit in silence and be left alone with her thoughts.

Problem was, she wasn't so sure of what should she tell him. She loved her brother and wanted him to be happy, so it was just plain natural that she wanted to kill Kelsi right then. However, she also realized it was partially her twin's fault that the other girl had looked for some 'distraction'. So, she was torn between supporting her own blood or the other female.

Well, in a way, she had already made her choice, hadn't she? She had threatened the brunette but what was she really wondering was what to do next. Should she leave her alone? Would ignoring her be enough? Or should she come up with the most brilliant evil scheme ever? Ah, revenge… did Kelsi really deserved it? And, even if she did, would Ryan approve?

The blond sighed. She should have known. She shouldn't have allowed them to get together in the first place. Real love can only hurt you. She should have protected her baby brother better. She was the only one to blame. She should have…

"Blaming yourself can't be healthy"

She snapped back to reality and stared at the boy standing in front of her. Zeke smiled a bit, getting closer to her and she rolled her eyes. Perfect. Just what she needed!

They stood in perfect silence, waiting for the other to say something. Finally, Sharpay snapped at him.

"I don't have all day, Zeke. So please state your business and leave me alone"

A cold answer but the one expected. The jock had known all along that she couldn't play nice forever. She had let her guard down for a while; seeing her brother being so damn happy had made her think that maybe (just maybe) she could achieve the same level of absolute bliss. But now, seeing him so heartbroken, had made her realize that, by opening her heart, she was making an invitation to misery and suffering.

"You know why I'm here"

Of course! Stupid little boy had became really close to Kelsi, hadn't he? It was natural that he would try to say something in her defense. Well then, sides had been already taken. So good Sharpay hadn't been forced to chose, Zeke had decided for her…

"Now you are defending her?" her voice was full of sarcasm and venom. Oh, but she liked this. Building her old wall, back to the safety of her shelter. Yes, that was good. Oh yeah, something good might come out of all this mess…

"Shar you know things aren't like they seem and if she could explain him…"

"There's nothing to explain" she was getting enraged. Oh, but the sensation was so welcome! Hello old Sharpay! Goodbye nice-acting one! "She betrayed his trust. He gave her his heart and how does she repay him? By going away with some other guy, like a complete sl…"

"Sharpay!" Zeke exclaimed "she's not the only one to blame and you know it"

Well yes, but it was easier this way, blaming everything on Kelsi! It made her feel way much better. It made everyone of her previous fears about Ryan getting hurt completely justified "Did she ask you to come?" she wondered, crossing her arms over her chest.

"I'm here on my own accord. I…" he bite his lip and broke eye contact with the female.

"Yes?" she asked, a bit curious.

"I guess that I want you to help them overcome this because… because…" he was getting nervous and Sharpay noticed. What was he trying to say?

"Because?"

"You're a nice person Shar. You can help people to be happy. You are not good only to make people miserable"

Oh, he had made everything about them, hadn't he?! How much Sharpay despised him for that! Always thinking that maybe, just maybe, she would give him a shot! As if the fact that Ryan was dating a no-one would somehow magically change her into believing…

Oh, there's no need of that. You already think…

No time for stupid conscience! It didn't know a thing about her! It was all wrong and she would show it! It and everyone in this world that…!

"That's just plain ridiculous" she stated, standing up "I only look after myself. Ryan breaking up with Kelsi works better for my future plans so, no sense in getting them back together" she shrugged and started walking away "you need to stop thinking so highly of me, Zeke"

"I won't give up on you, Ice Princess" he said, not facing her "eventually, they'll get their happy ending and so will we"

She huffed, although she could feel some tears fighting their way to her cheeks. "There's not such a thing as 'happy endings'" she laughed, a very sad and heartless laugh "seems like this time 'prince charming' won't be saving 'damsel in distress'"

Or will he?

It was snowing outside. He watched the small snowflakes and smiled a bit. Back in Albuquerque, it rarely snowed. But there, in Rhode Island, it snowed every winter. He had always thought Rhode Island was a nice place to live. So full of live, of people, of everything. He missed that place. Sometimes, he regretted so much that they had moved to New Mexico…

But then again, if they hadn't moved, he might never have met the love of his life. Oh, wait a second, wouldn't that had been a good thing? Well, yes, because if he had never met Kelsi Nielson, he had never fallen in love with her, asked her to be his girlfriend, got cheated by her and he wouldn't be feeling like crap just now.

So maybe, moving to Albuquerque hadn't been that good.

He was glad his mother had decided them to go to their old home on Christmas. He knew he wouldn't have been able to stay at Lava Springs. It just held too many memories for him to bear. He needed time. Too much time. Way much more time than he was actually going to get. Eventually, he was expected to go back to school and then, guess what?

He would be forced to face Kelsi. He just couldn't run away forever.

Or maybe he could. He was filthy rich, wasn't he? He could ask his parents to get him transferred to another school, where he could start a new life…

But that would be cowardice and he was not a coward. When the time came, he would face her. He would be ready.

Because he really didn't have any other option.

It had been two days since Christmas and now he was sitting in front of the big window of the living room, watching the snow fall. It was so peaceful here. Couldn't he stay there forever? Forget about everything? Pretend that nothing was wrong?

"Mr. Evans?" the maid called for him and he looked at her, absent minded. She handed him an envelope "this had just arrived for you"

He nodded his head and the woman left. He watched the envelope fearfully, having recognized the handwriting. How had she found his Rhode Island address? What was she, a strange sort of stalker? Did she think it was funny to torture him so much? Her memory hadn't left him alone for single minute and now she actually send him a letter like… like… like nothing had happened? Who the hell did she think she was?!

He tore it open and took out the letter. He wanted to destroy it right then, but hold his impulse back. Truth was, he was a bit curious. So, he took a deep breath before actually starting to read it.

Dear Ryan,

How are you? I sure hope you're alright. You probably wonder how I found out you were in Rhode Island. Well, your mother told mine and she told me. So, I figured I might as well write you this letter. It is meant to be small, but, who knows? There are so many things I want to tell you…

I've missed you at school. Those last few days before Christmas break were pretty dark. Did I ever tell you how your smile seems to light up the whole world? Or at least, my world. So, I guess I missed your smile. And your jokes. And your laughter. And you.

Everything reminds me of you, you know? I remember every hallway where we talked, where we hugged, where we kissed. Did you know that you're the most talented kisser ever? Not that I have that much experience, but I don't think I could find a better kisser.

On Christmas' morning, I expected your sister to show up and kidnap me again. Last year was fun, don't you think? But I guess that was silly, right? After all, why would she? We're not together anymore. As the matter of the fact, you don't even wanna talk to me, or see me. But hope dies last, doesn't it?

There are so many things I wished had been other way. I'm not talking to Michel anymore, just thought I should let you know. Not that I think you would actually care, but…

I missed going to Lava Springs to spend the holidays. It's a very nice place, on summer or winter. But then again, every place I'm with you it's really nice.

I know, you're probably thinking I'm being stupid telling you all this stuff. Well, I know I am, yet I don't care. I have nothing left to lose. I don't have enough pride to care about it. It would be nice that a sincere 'I'm sorry' could erase everything, but I know that's not happening. Still, I'm writing, because I believe… (a tear had erased the last few words)

I started a new song. I like it, it's very bittersweet. A bit heartbreaking, but I like it. I might be adding it to the musical. It's called 'when there was me and you'. Clichéd, isn't it? Oh, just you wait 'til you listen to it…

I love you, Ryan Evans, whether you believe it or not. And just so you know, I wasn't cheating.

This is getting longer than I planed. I guess that what I really wanted to say was ' Merry Christmas!' and 'happy New Year'. Hope my letter reaches you in time. And if not, 'happy belated New Year!'

Hope to hear from you soon.

All my love,

Kelsi.

PS. I'm still not over you.

He started at the letter for the longest time, rereading it hundreds of times until he finally knew it by heart. It seemed like she hadn't been thinking straight when she wrote it, because it wasn't very coherent, but it seemed to come from her heart. He sighed. What was he supposed to do? What did she expect him do? Damn! Why did everything seemed so complicated?

Her words danced through his head, making his heart ache. He closed his eyes, feeling even worse. He wanted so bad to put everything behind them. It wasn't just her fault and he knew it. He had been cold and detached. What did he think she would do? He had been a proud fool, thinking she would endure his indifference. He was an idiot and he deserved what happened. But…

It just seemed so hard to 'forgive and forget'. And it was way too much easier to let her take all the blame.

"Ryan, what's going on?" Sharpay let her brother drag her to his room and sat on his bed, eying him worriedly. He seemed deeply troubled and by each passing day, she couldn't help to start hating her ex-sister-in-law for causing her twin so much misery.

"I got a letter"

He didn't need to explain. Sharpay knew who had sent it and understood why was he so disturbed. It was natural, wasn't it? God knew what that woman had written to him! Oh, she was killing her as soon as they were back home!

He handed her the letter and she started reading it. She sighed. Fact was, she had grown a bit fond of Kelsi and it was so hard to hate her. She was such a charming, caring, innocent girl. And, after reading this letter…

"And she says, 'I'm still not over you'. Ja! Like that would mean anything!" Sharpay looked at him, finally realizing he had been rambling angrily the whole time "as if she really expected me to believe it! Does she think I'm an idiot or something? She's still not over me! Well, guess what?!" he was lacking of air supply and paused for a second to breath. His twin sighed and shook her hear "guess what?" he repeated and Sharpay interrupted him.

"Neither are you"

Why did the truth hurt so much?

Did it make sense? Umm… I really don't know. I hope so, but I'm not that sure…

So, hopefully, you don't hate me? I promise everything would work out for the best! Don't worry about this two love birds, as Zeke said, they'll have their happy ending (just maybe not with each other… LOL)

So, leave your opinions! And, well, people, I've finally caught up with the first movie! So, I'll be needing your help. I've just realized my translating skills aren't that bad but I still can't catch the whole dialog. So, can someone pretty please help me with the following dialogs:

-Sharpay's and Gabriella's (and I guess Troy's' too) 'conversation' after Shar had signed up for the musical's audition.

-Sharpay and Gabriella talking in the lab.

-Ryan and Sharpay after Ryan sees Troy trying to decide if he wants to make the audition or not. Also their conversation at the computer's place.

-Sharpay being all sarcastic after Taylor invites Gabby to the decathlon's team.

-The only 'dialog' that Kelsi and Ryan share before he and his sister sing.

-Sharpay kinda 'yelling' at Kelsi.

-And finally, conversation between Troy, Gabriella and Kelsi.

I know, it's a lot but I really need it. I can catch most of it, but there are some words I really don't understand. So, if you can help me, let me know and I would be asking you about those words, okie?

Thanks a million people! And also, thanks for reading! See you soon!