This is the next chapter, yay! I'm aware that I havent updated for a while so I'll explain why. After finishing my exams, I took a week long break and didn't do anything for that week. So yeah, here we are with this chapter.
I must say though, after watching some of the World Cup, I'm ashamed to be English right now. They're playing ridiculously bad. I don't even like football but I can tell that they suck. England were supposed to be good at football :/.
Also this week, I found that reviwer of this story, KaijiShigeru, is someone that I know :D. We both like similar anime but some of our character preferances in said anime are different eg. in Bleach, everyone knows my favourite character is Rukia to a great extent. KaijiShigeru's favourite Bleach character is Soifon to a similar extent. It must be a coincidence but I also like Soifon and he also likes Rukia :P. This is a little unrelated but he published a story with the two of them as the main characters which I found amusing so you can check that out I guess.
This chapter is not short because I couldn't be bothered. This chapter's origin is from the Rammstein song "Führe mich" (Lead me). I'm currently in love with this song and seeing as though it's in german, I looked up the lyrics and found that they fit this story quite well (Seeing as though I do german myself, I knew some of it :D) Anyway, I guess you could say that it's a song chapter. The lyrics are underlined with their translations in brackets (also underlined).
Chapter 36
Lead me
Du bist mir ans Herz gewachsen
Wenn ich blute hast du Schmerzen
(You have grown in my heart
When I bleed you have pains)
I know that this hollow is inside of me now. I can't get rid of it and we're both the same. There's some sort of link between us as mine and its soul are practically combined. If it uses my body and gets hurt, I feel the pain. The opposite is also true
Wir müssen uns kennen
Ein Körper, zwei Namen
(We must know ourselves
One body, two names)
I'm a shinigami and a hollow hybrid of sorts. The only thing similar about us is the fact that we share the same body. It doesn't have a name as far as I know so I just refer to it as 'it'. I only become a hollow when I put the mask back on. Even then, I have no control over it. As a result of that, I lose myself in the process.
Du bist mir ans Herz gebaut
Zwei Seelen spannen eine Haut
Und wenn ich rede bist du still
Du stirbst wenn ich es will
(You are constructed at my heart
Two souls span one skin
And when I speak you are silent
You die when I want)
We have a sort of understanding with each other. When I'm in control, it isn't allowed to do anything. However, the same applies when it is in control. I know I'm the dominant one seeing as though I defeated it before but I know that it's strong so it could fight back. I can choose when it dies but that requires me to kill myself too.
Zwei Bilder nur ein Rahmen
Ein Körper doch zwei Namen
Zwei Dochte eine Kerze
Zwei Seelen in einem Herzen
(Two pictures, only one frame
One body, yet two names
Two wicks, one candle
Two souls in one heart)
We are practically the same. All there is to it is that we are two souls united in one body so we share everything including my body.
Führe mich (Führe mich), halte mich (halte mich)
Ich fühle dich (Ich fühle dich), (Verlass mich nicht) ich verlass Dich nicht
(Lead me, hold me
I feel you, (Don't abandon me) I won't abandon you)
She defeated me when I tried to take over so she's the one in command until she chooses to let me out. I can feel her when she's in control yet I can also feel her when I'm in control. Maybe this is what it means to have two souls in one body. She doesn't want me to abandon her. She needs my power so she can be stronger. I need her to live. Without her, I'd die.
I don't intend to abandon her either.
I guess this is a filler chapter of sorts seeing as though nothing happened. My reason for this is because I just had an idea while listening to the song so I thought I could share it with you all.
Anyway, 'til next time