I only own Cephera and Seraphina.

Thanks to:

Eowynofgallifrey: yes much darker then I expected to go when I started this fic. But sometimes bad shit happens.

Mika Cheshire: I hope you continue to enjoy. :)

Kathalla: as cool as it would be for Loki to run and save her, this instance it would have been a bad idea. :p

Lady moonscar: I am unsure if your review means you like or don't. But yes very intense and will be for a few chapters.

I have a confession! When I wrote her memories I was watching the walking dead and later listening to Kelly clarksons darkside. So the dark themes are a little fueled by those and also because nothing in life comes easy.

Chapter 36

Cephera vaguely saw the red heads approach. Everything was hazy around her. Natasha took her face between her palms and forced her to look at her.

"I know you barely know me, but you need to understand that bad things happen to good people. Sometimes they mean for it to happen, and sometimes they don't. Everyone has something they are ashamed of, somethings take away from their soul. But you need to also know that it doesn't shape who you are. You choose who you become." she waited for Cephera's eyes to focus on her.

"I've killed people." the sound of her own voice scared her. She sounded distant. 'I almost killed my sister.' her mind screamed.

"No one goes through life without dirtying their hands at some point. Especially someone who has lived as long as you. No one expects perfection. I spent a lot of my life hurting a lot of good people, and a lot of bad ones. In the end letting it define me did nothing but take over my life. Made me uncaring and cruel. I figured there was no going back for me so I might as well just continue what I knew. I was wrong. I woke up and realized I wasn't really living I was going through the motions I had set forth from childhood. I made a conscious decision to change my path after someone helped me see passed my misdeeds. Fight this." she took a deep breath. "You'll mourn what you've done, you'll never forget it but use the memory of it to stay in control.

Cephera was shaking all over. She heard her but was finding it difficult to apply the words. The feeling of being undeserving of love or happiness slowly creeping in. She killed people, she almost killed her sister. And then the voices started.

'Kill, feed, more power.' they whispered from the back of her mind. She shook her head and covered her ears.

"Make it stop." she said in barely audible whisper. "Make it stop!" she yelled. And in a moment Loki was at her side and her sister was with him. Her sister wrapped her in her arms and whispered in her ear.

"I forgive you. What happened was not your fault. Don't let this ruin you." she said her arms in a tight grip. She heard a blast in the distance. The Chitauri where still coming. She wondered what happened to the chitauri that had been in the room. Was Tony fighting alone?

Loki turned her face to him. "I trust you. You proved to me a long time ago even a human can be a strong magic user. You may be an anomaly but you where given this gift for a reason. Channel that power. Learn to use it, not it use you. Focus on what you want it to do. You are stronger then you give yourself credit for."

Having them both nearby was distracting. She could sense their power and she badly felt the urge to take it from them but she clenched her hands into fists. She would not hurt them. She wouldn't hurt anyone. Not ever again. She mentally apologized to those innocent people she did kill. She silently cried for their souls.

"Go. Finish your battle. I'll be fine." she said pushing them both away. "The Chitauri will not stop until we are dead or they are." she continued.

"I'll stay with her." Natasha said keeping a firm hand on her shoulder. Cephera watched them go. She needed them to go. They where a distraction to her.

She shivered and her whole body was trembling the harder she tried to fight the urge to detach herself from Natasha and run after the nearest magical aura. Her dark voice still playing in her mind as Natasha tried to talk her off the ledge so to speak.

A noise of movement made her look up. A chitauri was coming through the room door. She felt Natasha stiffen. She hesitated to let Cephera go. The hesitation did not go unnoticed by the alien as he aimed his weapon their way.

Natasha made a quick decision and took her hand from Cephera and rolled forward across the rubble and kicked her leg up knocking the weapon just as it went off.

Cephera watched as if in slow motion as the magical energy came toward her but pivoting more toward the ceiling. Her head felt like it might split into two as she found herself on her feet without thinking. She jumped upward and took the blast to her chest as she wrapped her arms around it.

As the power absorbed into her body her lips parted in satisfaction and she lost all control.

Natasha turned only to see Cephera land back on her feet and crouch low. Her violet eyes where on her watching her movements carefully. Cephera made no move to attack her which was a relief but her eyes, such a dark violet they looked black and no pupils could be seen, told Natasha that Cephera was lost.

When a Chitauri flew by the open gap blown in the room Natasha watched Cephera's head snap to view it. In one swift movement but no faster then she could normally move, Natasha saw Cephera jump over the rock and debris toward the alien.

Natasha ran forward after her and tackled her to the floor. Natasha wasn't sure what to expect. She was half afraid to touch the girl but she only growled and tried to strain from agent Romanov's grip around her waist.

Natasha easily subdued her to be pinned to the floor. Cephera flung herself from side to side trying to remove Natasha from her but the shield agent held her down in a well trained grip.

She grabbed the cuffs she always kept on her from her back packet and forced one around the small girls wrist and one around her own. Cephera made no attempt to use her magic against her which Natasha found strange. She had been under the impression she could use magic like Loki.

Tony landed inside and Cephera barely twitched. Tony's mask opened and he looked down toward them both. His eyes fixed on his friend and he frowned.

"Not doing so good is she?" He said. Natasha shook her head returning his frown.

"The Chitauri?" She asked.

"Some of them got away. There wasn't as many as you would have thought." He looked grim. Amongst all the shit going on he didn't seem to have anything witty to say.