"Why do you have four brand new cells phones in your night stand drawer?"

"How—how do you know that?" He asks. His eyes dart from me to the drawer in question, then back to me again.

"Last time I was here I saw them when I got the lozengers…" I say.

"Oh." His eye is twitching ever so slightly. "I have a lot of… family overseas… so I have different cell phones and sim cards so it's cheaper to call them," he explains, and if it wasn't for that twitching eye I might believe him.

I'm pretty sure that he's lying, but I decide to drop it. "Oh, okay. I was just wondering, cause I can hardly keep track of one, let alone four. I should get home, Charlie's furious with me."

He lets out an almost inaudible sigh, and I see the tension leave his shoulders.

"Right."

He sneaks me out the back and to his car. I wonder how he'll explain him leaving again to his family, but don't ask.

The ride home is silent, and I find myself regretting asking him.

"Well… I had fun tonight," he says nervously.

"Me too. Sorry for bailing on the restaurant," I say with a smile.

He chuckles quietly. "I had more fun playing video games with you, to be completely honest."

If only he was completely honest about everything.

"Well, good night," I say before slipping out of his car. When I get to the front door, I wonder if I was meant to give him the chance to kiss me, but when I look back, his car's already driving round the first corner to take him home.

I let myself in with a little prayer that Charlie isn't too hard on me.

…

EPOV

I hated lying to her. This person that I am, so full of secrets and complications… it's not who I want to be, but sadly, it's the only person I can be in this world that I've chosen for myself.

Looking straight into her beautifully big, innocent eyes and lying to her was probably the hardest thing I've ever forced myself to do, especially after hearing her be completely truthful with me about her adoptive parents.

Hearing her story just made me want to pull her to me and engulf her in my arms. I wanted nothing more than to have held her while she cried, and convince her without a doubt that what she did was nothing more than an unfortunate accident. But I didn't.

It's so hard to keep her at arms-length when all I want to do is make her mine.

But the last girl I opened up to ended up betraying me and forced my family to move citys. After that I swore to them that I wouldn't get caught up with a girl until I'm at least twenty-one. After seeing what this dreary town of Forks had to offer, I'd thought that it'd be an easy promise to keep…

But no one could've predicted Bella Swan—least of all me.

AN; Today is a National holiday in NZ, so no work today for me, which meant that it was time to get my party on last night, so that's why I didn't update yesterday, since I normally update before I go to bed. Soooo, to make up for that, I gave you just a lil peek into Edward's head. What'd ya think? :)