Remus' Diary
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4th October 1974
Moody's been pretty quiet for a while but he keeps looking at us like he's planning something. I met someone today at the three broom sticks. Her name is Amara and she's a werewolf too! I've never properly met another one (apart from the guy who bit me). We were having a few drinks there and Amara kept eyeing me. I felt some kind of strange magnetic pull to her, like I knew her. James noticed and gave me a knowing wink which I ignored. She was really beautiful the way she was looking at me.
"Don't be gay, say hello" Sirius probed.
"She's not looking at me" I shrugged.
"Yes she is" James smiled.
"Go and say hello before I slap you!" Sirius threatened.
"Fine" I caved, walking over to her.
When I reached her she gestured the seat in front of me. She wasn't a student that was obvious. She was wearing hippy kind of clothes and her hair ran freely done her back. Amara looked around my age.
"Hi, I'm Remus" introduced myself.
"Amara" she smiled but then she looked confused, "Do you go to Hogwarts?"
"Yes" I nodded.
"I didn't know they accepted werewolves"
My eyes must have bulged out of their sockets in shock. I didn't understand, I thought she was some kind of hunter. She just laughed lightly.
"I can sense you're a werewolf because I'm one too" she confessed.
Amara didn't look ashamed or secretive like I am. She actually seemed proud of what she was.
"Shh!" I tried to shush her.
"Why?" she shrugged, "Nobody knows, do they?"
Amara looked horrified and a little amused at what she'd discovered.
"You don't have to be ashamed of what you are" she said softly.
"A werewolf is a shameful thing to be" I reminded her, "We're monsters once a mouth"
Amara looked disgusted by what I'd just said.
"You poor thing" she sympathized, "Someone's got you totally brain washed. Listen to me, you and me are better then everybody in this room. We are superior! Not them"
Her way of thinking was completely alien to me. What was she talking about?
"We have a curse!" I reminded her, "How are we better?"
"We have a gift" she corrected me; "We have something powerful and wild in us. They should be scared of us"
I couldn't believe her. It certainly didn't feel like a gift and I'd had enough of this and wanted to leave.
"Dumbledore says that-"I began.
"Dumbledore says that" she repeated in a mocking tone, "Think for yourself!"
Anger boiled in my blood, no one insulted the man I owed everything too!
"How dare you!" I growled, "He is the finest man I know, he let me into to school-"
"But what about after school?" she scoffed, "When all your friends leave and get jobs. What will you do?"
Her words stung me deeply. I got up quickly and made to leave.
"What's wrong? Are you afraid of the truth?" Amara called after me.
I just continued until I sat down with my friends again. A stray tear ran down my cheek at her horrible words.
"Are you Ok?" James asked immediately.
I told them what she said and they looked disgusted too.
"Don't listen to her" James advised.
"But it's true!" I cried, "What's the point of me even getting an education?"
The others tried to comfort me but it didn't work. Amara had left the pub and gone outside. I have a sneaky feeling that I'd be seeing her again sometime soon. For the rest of the day we just hung out in the common room. I wasn't really listening to what they were saying as I was still thinking about the girl with the hurtful words. Am I living in some dream bubble that will pop when I graduate?
I hope not
5th October 1974
Amara wrote me a letter! I couldn't believe it when I was having breakfast in the great hall and this strange owl brought me a letter. I opened it up and read its contents in my head.
To Remus,
I'm sorry if I offended you yesterday but what I spoke was the truth. I'd really like to get to know you better as I feel I can be a good influence on you. Maybe we could write to each other or meet occasionally? I'd really like a fresh start.
Amara
I showed the letter to my friends and they were very much against it.
"She was horrible" Peter exclaimed.
"She thinks werewolves are better than everybody else!" Sirius exclaimed.
"This girl hurt you" James reminded me.
"She said she was sorry and it might be nice to have a werewolf friend" I told them.
Sirius and James looked worried; I think it was the 'I will be a good influence on you' part that was troubling them. I was touched by their concerns but I needed to think for myself. Did I want to be friends with her? She did insult Dumbledore and say horrible things but she apologized for that. I'd actually love to be friends with someone like myself. It filled me with joy. So I wrote back to her while my friends gave me worried looks.
"I just hope you know what you're doing" James said, wearily.
"Trust me" I implored them, "I'll still be me just with a werewolf buddy"
They nodded but they didn't look very convinced. It hurt that they didn't trust me but I brushed it aside and began to write to my new pan pal.
Dear Amara,
Thank you for request and your apology. I would love to write to you and meet with you occasionally.
From,
Remus
Short but well written, I thought as I tied it to the owl's leg and let it fly off. Later on I got a reply back, we were sitting in the common room when the owl flew over and perched next to me. Sirius' smile turned into a frown when he saw the owl. What's his problem? I opened the letter quickly and read it.
Remus,
I am glad you accepted my apology. Is there anywhere we can meet?
Amara
I hastily started writing a reply.
"What does she say?" James asked.
"She wants to meet me" I smiled.
"What are you writing down?" Sirius wondered.
"I'm telling her to meet me at the three broom sticks at midnight" I said as I finished and sent the note.
"Do you mean tonight?" James guessed.
"Yep" I nodded.
It was ten already, that meant I'd better be on my way. I got up and ran up to the common room to get my coat and then came down again.
"Can I borrow your invisibility cloak?" I asked James.
"Only if I can come too" James agreed, "When you meet her I'll wait for you at the passageway"
"Ok" I said as James went up to get it.
In his absence they were all suspiciously silent. Peter bit his bottom lip like he wanted to stop himself from saying anything. Sirius was humming a tune he didn't even like. I was relieved when James finally came back with the cloak.
"Are you ready?" he asked me.
I nodded and waved the others goodbye. On the way there James was a little awkward too. When we were in the tunnels I decided to speak out.
"You don't think I should be friends with her" I guessed sourly.
James just nodded.
"Why?" I wondered.
"We don't want her turning you bad. That'll all" James confessed.
"I won't" I promised.
"Ok" James believed me which felt nice.
When we reached the entrance James waited while I found Amara. She was exactly where she said she'd be. Amara was even more beautiful than before. She smiled at me when I approached.
"Nice to see you Remus" she smiled.
We talked for about an hour but I had to go back because James was waiting. She said we should make it a regular thing!
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