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35 – Illusion of a Perfect Date Part 3

It doesn't take long for Matt to push Jeff to the floor, completely pressing him to the floor, Jeff feels squeezed and he's trying to comprehend that the anger that's ravishing Matt's eyes is too real to be ignored, "Why can't I have a moment of peace, Jeff?" he snaps at him, making Jeff feel horrible on the inside, completely and utterly broken with the acidity in his voice. "Why?!"

"Matt…" Jeff whispers, trying to calm him down but Matt shakes his head and cups Jeff's cheek violently.

"Jeff, you know what I did for you?" Matt snaps, his voice burning with darkness and hate, thick and laced with detestation, "you know how long it took for me to get this clothes? To pretend that it doesn't matter that that place used to be mine and Ted's hangout and it won't matter that I'm taking someone there so shortly after he moved away? You know how hard it was for me to walk into the bathroom and see you paying more attention to a phone call other than me?"

"Adam had a car accident! I had to do what I did. We had to ruin our date." Jeff snaps at him, acid spitting with every word that left his mouth, "Maybe it's fate, Matty. Maybe we're not supposed to be together."

Matt laughs, that maniac bubbly laugh that fills Jeff up with fear and terror and before Jeff can try and move away, Matt presses him even harder to the cold, hard floor, "all I wanted is just one night—not even a day—for us to be alone together and you always have to bring your stupid friends into this mess. Why don't you care about me?"

"When you were gone, all I thought about was you! All I cared for, and breathed for was you, Matt! It's just this one time…" Jeff whispers underneath his breath. "Why is this so hard for us? Why can't we just have one night shunning the world? You know I want to ignore what's happening around me and just be in your arms, Matt. You know that I want that as much as you do."

"Then why can't we have it?"

Silence sinks through them and Jeff presses his lips to Matt's, both of them kissing and Jeff's tongue explores Matt's mouth and before they can do anything, Matt pulls them both away. "No, let's not do this. Not when you know that we're going to the same fight tomorrow."

Jeff reaches out for him, trying to press his lips against his again but Matt grips onto his shoulders, "I want you, Matt."

"Oh really? Or is just an excuse so we don't have to talk about this?" Matt says and he notices that Jeff's face drops and he knows the answer before Jeff can even say anything as he shakes his head, "you sometimes make me sick, Jeff. Why don't you love me? Is there something that's stopping you from seeing that I'm practically in love with you?"

"Because you don't act like it!"

"I love you, Jeff."

"I don't believe that! You keep making me feel bad for just anything. You make me upset more than you make me happy, Matt. It's not supposed to be like that, is it…?"

"Is that all?" Matt snaps at him and Jeff closes his eyes, trying not to scream at him right now but there's something that's making him say those words that he's saying, that force of anger that's burning up inside of him that's making him just explode.

"There is the fact that you're mentally handicapped. That's why you love me," Jeff spits out and at that, Jeff closes his eyes and he can't believe that he's said that and he doesn't want to see the pain in Matt's eyes and when he opens his eyes, all he can see is rage in Matt's eyes as Matt punches Jeff in the face, making Jeff feel like his thin blood vessels are ready to pop out of their bodies.

"And I'm in love with a druggie!"

Jeff punches Matt in the stomach, making Matt clutch onto his stomach as Jeff stands up and both of them tackle each other on the floor, Matt on top of Jeff as Jeff tries to struggle out of Matt's grip and both of their eyes are staring at each other, both of them are ready to rip each other's eyes out and both of them are just so fucking angry at each other.

"Maybe I should go date someone other than you, Matt!"

"Go ahead! I'll kill any guy you bring home anyways!"

"Enjoy jail then!"

Both of them are throwing punches at each other, angry beyond words and both of them just want this fight to be over and before Matt can say anything else, he's breathless, so breathless that he can barely breathe as he pushes Jeff off of him who's now on top of him and is throwing punches at Matt's chest.

"Get off me, Jeff!"

"Make me!"

Matt takes Jeff's waist and pushes him off towards the table, and the hear the sound of the glass vases ready to shatter but they don't.

Instead, my heart shatters, Matty.

"You know what, Matt?"

"WHAT?!"

"IT'S FUCKING OVER BETWEEN US!"

Jeff stands up and glares at him, coldly, both of their faces are plastered with rage as Jeff sprints to his room and as he goes inside of the room, he shuts the door and stomps his foot on the floor, "Crazy, Matt, I don't fucking need him!" he shouts to no one in particular and he stares at the black room that's making him sweat and all of a sudden, he's hyperventilating. "I don't need him! I don't need anyone!"

Jeff flops on his bed, his rage-filled face striping into a sad, pained tan face and his pink smile turns into a sad frown as he grips onto the covers of his bed, letting out a sob, "I don't need him. I don't need him. I…I…yeah…" he falls asleep with thoughts clouding his head and coldness residing and in the middle of the night, he wakes up and wraps his arms around his body and pretends that Matt's holding him before he nods off to sleep another time.

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X Sam.