I don't know why I'm just having a lot of pregnant Maura feels today
"and the little train said Choo Choo!" Jane hooted, her impression of a caboose making their daughter Izzy giggle with laughter. Her little brown ringlets shook to and fro as Jane jumped around her room, imitating a train. It was a nightly ritual for them to read a book before Izzy headed off to bed. Maura used to sit in with them but she no longer could sit comfortably on the carpeted floor of their daughter's room.
"Mommy! Mommy! Maura-mama says no jumping!" Izzy said, with an accusatory glare. She knew her mommy was only kidding, but if she had to follow the rules, everyone did.
Jane burst out laughing and nodded slowly, Izzy was right. She sat on the edge of the little bed and smiled down at her little miracle. She couldn't even believe that they were expecting another one so soon. But, Jane knew that Maura had always wanted to bear a child, even if it meant stretch marks and swollen feet.
Izzy scooted over and patted the side of her bed, looking just like Jane when Izzy came to sleep with them.
"Take a load off mommy, I know you had a rough day" Izzy said softly, running her tiny hands up and down Jane's back.
"Where'd you learn that, little bug?" Jane laughed at the expression that someone must have taught her daughter.
"Maura-mama said that if she ever makes you upset, just to tell you that because you love my little dimples. Plus, you rub her back that way when she sick of the baby" the child said with contempt.
Jane was amused by Maura's subtle tactics for calming her down. It was true, she did love Izzy's little dimples. But, the way that her daughter spoke of the baby had Jane a little concerned.
"Little bug." Jane started. She saw little brown eyes look defeated as Izzy realized she'd been caught. "Are you not happy to have a little brother or sister? Your Mama and I are so excited, you get to be-"
"A big sister. I know. But you'll have a new baby to think about. I'll just get left in the corner like Bass." Izzy admitted with tears in her eyes.
Jane felt her eyes well up at the sight of her baby crying. She was at a loss, she didn't know what to do. So, she whispered that she would be right back and kissed Izzy's head. Izzy just rolled over and faced the wall, refusing to make eye contact with her mommy.
After a few minutes of tension filled silence, Izzy finally heard her door open and a soft voice rang out.
"Isabella Maria Rizzoli, you'll always be my baby girl." Maura said, using Jane as an anchor as she knelt down on the plush carpet. She scooted as close as her belly would allow her, dragging her fingertips down her daughter's arm. Eventually, Izzy rolled back over, her face full of shame.
"I'm sorry", she mumbled at her mothers. She knew deep down that they would always love her, she just didn't like sharing.
"It's okay baby girl, you just need to talk to us about these things okay? Don't let them get too big in your chest, or we end up like this" Maura said motioning towards a still sniffling Jane- who promptly tried her best to look like she wasn't as hurt as she truly was.
"Okay. Do you promise that I'll always be your little Izzy Bug?" big brown eyes stared at the two women who both nodded.
"Always. You'll always be our Izzy Bug" Jane said, kissing her wife and daughter on the nose. She stood up and offered a hand to Maura, who stood up as gracefully as she could manage at 36 weeks.
Izzy just smiled and settled into bed with her teddy bear and tortoise stuffy. The two parents flicked on the night light and walked out of the little girl's room, leaving the door open a crack. They walked over to their bedroom where Maura had been meditating before Jane had asked for help. They slid into bed, and Jane protectively wrapped her arms around her pregnant wife.
"You'll always be my baby too, kay Maura?" Jane nuzzled her cold nose into Maura's hair and sighed.
"You'll always be mine too, Jane" Maura sighed, life was so good for her.
"and soon we'll have another baby to add" Jane thought to herself, smiling against her wife's head.