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(Chapter Thirty-Three)

The day was finally over and I could finally take a easy breath until next week of finals which was going to be the very last week of being a college student. I gathered up my personal belonging before slowly making my way out into the crowded hallways.

"What a day." I said to myself as I followed my usual route to the front of the campus where I knew Haldir would be quietly waiting for me underneath the pine evergreen trees. I managed to survive Bio lab, got my recommendation letter from Mr. Green before he gave me a tight hug and encouragement of staying myself as I walk into the sunset as a university grad. My English class final was just a paper drop off, so I didn't need to stay very long before I dragged myself off to go study for my physic's final.

The day itself had waned into late afternoon but the sun was still out with partial cloudy skies. Nonetheless, it was still beautiful so I guess I should be happy that I was still alive to witness it. Haldir was sitting on one of the wooden benches when I found him. He smiled warmly upon me as I approached him and took a seat next to him.

"Hi." I smiled. "Thanks for picking out my outfit this morning." I added with a slight laugh while beckoning with my hand. "I've gotten a lot of comments on how well it looks on me."

"No problem." Haldir replied. "I just don't like seeing you panicking when you're under a lot of stress. Its not healthy for you or your brain." He lightly tapped me on the forehead with his finger. "So are you ready to go home?"

"Yeah, I'm ready to go." I replied cheerfully. We got up and started walking in the direction of home. We walked in silence for a while. I didn't know really how to stir up a decent conversation. Anything I thought would be good to talk about with him I'd figured it would be just silly and stupid because he wouldn't' know what I was saying. So I just kept quiet for most of the time and waited. I lifted my eyes up at his face when he wasn't looking at me. It seemed really funny that it had only been only two months since he came back into my life and yet, I still treated him like a stranger at time whenever we were alone.

"What is wrong with me?" I said to myself. Its not like he doesn't know me at all. Hell, I told him almost everything that was to know about myself. Even the rape, I had told him out of anger to prove a point when he wasn't listening to reason from anyone, not even me. Then again, perhaps it was because I had lost my memories of the time we had spent together and all the experiences that I had gone through with the various elven people. My brain instinctively told me to take things slowly with him because he was still a stranger in a strange world, and yet my heart kept telling me to just let things go with the flow and see how they would turn out.

"Haldir? What do you think about my world? Is it a bad place?"

He glanced down at me with a mildly amused expression and smile. "What makes you think that this is a bad place? Its a very different world with different life events going on that is only natural. I miss my own world with what I'm familiar with, my people, my brothers and all, but what can I do? I can only adapt accordingly and pray that I'll survive."

"Then I guess it must come to you naturally to be able to do just that." I replied. A few people that recognized me as we passed by the various shops that I normally go to, waved at us with kind smiles and hellos before continuing on with their business. I thanked god that they weren't as judgmental as Mrs. Bisset towards him. I felt something warm touch my hand at my side. Looking down, I found he had wordlessly taken a hold of my hand within his own. My heart swelled with an unknown emotion that made tears prick my eyes, but I didn't let him see them since I kept my head down.

"Look up there." He suddenly said in a whisper when we came to an abrupt stop underneath a tree. I glanced up to where he was pointing at and found a pair of red robins nesting within the budding leaves of an cherry oak tree. They were chirping away at each other while the male came and went with small twigs or fluffy material in his yellow beak. Haldir laughed happily as the pair burst into a full song. He squeezed my hand. "But there are still somethings within the natural parts of this world that still brings a smile to my lips and reminded me of home. Its within these moments that I take a moment to thank the Valar for allowing me to be with you so that I don't feel so lost and alone."

"You're never alone." I heard myself reply breathlessly as I gazed deeply into his grey elven eyes. He smiled again, this time with more tenderness that had my heart skipping beats ever so often before he looked back up at the singing robins.

"You do realize how much love I hold for you within my heart, yes?" He asked me after a long moment. I didn't reply because his unexpected comment had made me lose my train of thought for a second. He let go of my hand and instead wrap his arm around my waist before planting a kiss upon my brow. "I don't ever what to lose you again as I did when Galadriel was forced to send you back here without your memories. When you were gone, I had slipped into a deep depression that took me two full months to over before Celeborn deemed me stable enough to return to my warden duties. It was like my heart and home was never the same after the brief interactions that took place between you and I. So the more that I'm here with you, Acadia." Haldir turned his head towards me with his small smile. "The more I want to stay with you as something other then just a friend."

The wind started to pick around us. Pulling my coat tighter around me, I began walking again. "Then why don't you? I mean, I know that you have a choice of whether or not you want to go back home or remain here." I said as he caught up with me easily. Lord, what am I doing? Asking him to stay with me when he'd be better off with his own people and world. "But only if you want to, Haldir." I quickly added to avoid any confusion between us. He raised an eyebrow. My face grew red as I stumbled over my words. "With me of course. I wouldn't mind you being with me. It wouldn't be good if you became unhappy because of us being apart."

"Then what would you do if there was a possible chance of me being able to return to home and I wanted you to come back with me?" Haldir's fair voice became sad.

"I honestly don't know how to answer that question right now." I replied with downcast eyes. "But when we get to that point, I'm sure we might be able to work something out by then."

"If we have enough time to get to that point. Time in the eyes of a mortal is slow as each year passes, but what seems like a long time to you," Haldir pointed between us. "Is only a blink of an eyelash in my eyes."

"Where then does that leave us with?"

Haldir paused mid-stride as we got to the apartment door. He glanced upward at the sky for a moment as if asking it for an answer to my question before he turned his gaze back at me. It felt like forever before he finally answered. "It depends solely if you wish to bind yourself to me as my wife."

"Oh." I replied with wide eyes. I fumbled for my keys within my purse before my fingers located it in the main pocket. Pulling them out, I focused on getting the front door open before dropping the keys by accident. Haldir managed to picked them up before I bent over to do so. He gently placed it in my outstretched hand. My heart rate sped up irregularly.

"Kiss me." I whispered softly.

I didn't know what possessed me to say those two words but I could feel the pull between us grow stronger and within my soul needed more then just companionship. I needed love and tenderness from someone other then my godfather. Someone who I could turn to in times of need, someone I could just close my eyes and relax for a few minutes as the busy world around me just falls away from my mind until I felt at peace. The strong emotional peace I felt whenever I was alone with Haldir as the same feeling I had gotten with my interactions with Galadriel and her people.

Haldir's cheeks grew slightly red but he reached out and pulled me inside the house before softly closing it behind him without taking his eyes off of me. I felt like a special person that of all he could have picked to be with, he'd chose me despite my short-lived mortality.

My dream came back to me as I watched him slowly remove his jacket before tossing it on the sofa long with my things as well. "In the world of Middle Earth, here, or anywhere else, even in your world, things are possible as long as you keep wishing them to become real. You just have to believe with all of your heart and soul that they will come true."

I want this to become true. I want him to be happy and not sad anymore. I want to see him laughin and being himself without the haunting images of death and blood always hovering within his waking mind and sleeping dreams. I want to give him what no other being can give if only it means to see him smiling each morning down at me when I wake up.

Haldir slowly reached up a hand and caressed my cheek with his fingers as he gazed deeply within my eyes. "I was lost for a very long time before you came tumbling into my life and world, Acadia." He whispered softly as he leaned his forehead against mine. "Lost within my nightmares and feelings of mixed bitterness and resentment to the point I lamented at the possible thought that I'd never be able to see any hope coming forth from anywhere as the world became darker and darker with the growing scent of war and blood."

"Haldir," I shook my head at him. "You may be lost as I was when I came crashing down in Middle Earth, but you are never, ever forgotten by anyone." I touched the area where his heart was beating fast underneath my hand. "But in the end, you found me again and that is all that matters."

"You are the only one outside my brothers, Lord Celeborn and Lady Galadriel that matter to me. But you alone," He brought my closer against him until our bodies touched, his strong arms surrounding me like a secured blanket that was full of strength and promise of protection from outside harm. "Hold my heart entirely within your palms. I love you Acadia more then my own immortal life. I'd give anything and everything to stay here with you then endure an eternal separation that may cause me to slowly fade away or take a ship into the west until I became weary of the world and pass into Mandos' eternal halls."

"Shh." I placed my fingers over his lips to silence him. "Don't speak of such things while you still have me by your side right now. I'm real as your are real. Warm flesh and blood, I'm right here in front of you. So until you tell me to go away, I'll always be here for you." I promised. "Always until the very end, Haldir."

"That's all I want and ask for, my sweet love." He whispered before his lips touched mine in a tender kiss that had me falling against him. "Amin mela lle, A'maelamin, " (I love you, my beloved.) He pulled away for a moment to looked down at me. "But just to let you know right now, I'm still not forcing you to bond to me." He added with a short laugh. "I'll give you plenty of time to warm up to me and learn more about myself before we take it that level."

"But in the mean time," I laughed out loud while wrapping my arms around his neck as I stood up on my tip toes. "You havn't yet finish kissing me as I asked you to."

"As you wish, A'maelamin, I'll do anything for you only." He laughed while twirling me around before he set me on the sofa after pushing our things to one side. I laid back as he leaned over me, his musky scent surrounding me until I swore I'd have an big orgasm alone just by smelling his body. I must be one hell of a crazy girl to be wishing for all of this. I told myself with an inward laugh.

But then again, I didn't even ask for any of this to happen and yet by some higher power, perhaps even higher then God himself, made everything up to this point happen and here I was, being towered over by the most eligible male elf bachelor who had more skills with other things outside his bow and sword. Haldir slowly lowered himself on top of me, his elbows resting between my arms to hold his weight while he cradled my face between his calloused hands. "Are you sure you want me to continue to kiss you?"

I pulled a mock pout at him. "If you keep yaking at me like this, then I'm might just push you off and go off to my room." I replied. I was instantly rewarded with his usual smirk when amused before he bent his head once more and firmly kissed my lips until I swore with every brush and caress, I was seeing stars behind my eyelids as the shivering sensations of pleasure and warmth spread throughout my whole body. He pulled away slightly to bury his face against the softness of my neck, planting small butterfly light kisses that had me moaning out loud before he came back and kissed me again with small nips along my bottom lip. Everything was going quiet well until we both heard a hard coughing sound at the front door. Looking up in shock and horror as Haldir quickly got off of me and began dusting himself off, I found papa standing just under the eve of the front door with the most amusing look on his elderly face.

"Papa!" I cried, getting to my feet before stumbling ungracefully against Haldir when my legs refused to hold me up. "I didn't hear you open the door." I glance over at Haldir but he wasn't looking at me since he was working on fixing his pony tail that had somehow become slightly undone. Hmm, I must have ran my fingers through his hair while I was going crazy under his kissing and touching.

"Yeah..." Papa replied slowly as he looked up and down at me and Haldir. "I didn't know that you two would be home so early so I let myself in. But upon finding the door already unlocked, I just opened it and found you two going at it like two young adolescences who had just hit puberty."

"PAPA!" I screamed out loud. "What kind of thinking is that? You should be ashamed of yourself for putting Conner and I on that category." My cheeks were burning bright red and it must have aided whatever joke he was thinking in his head because he let out a deep loud laugh as he bent over in a fit of laughter.

"I'm just pulling your legs, love." He replied with a hard slap against his thigh. "Yes, I did see you two making out but I didn't really feel it was right that I was standing there watching so I thought it would be best that at least I let my presence be known before I went to my room to give you two lovebirds some privacy before dinner. So with that said," He added cheerfully while holding up his brown leather briefcase that I had just noticed he was carrying. "I have some paperwork to take care of first before I get dinner going." Both Haldir and I watched him saunter away while whistling a merry tune to his bedroom before we finally head his door open and close behind him.

"Well at least that wasn't as bad as when Celeborn and Galadriel caught us in a heated moment." Haldir chuckled. I cast him my worse death glare. "What?" he shrugged his shoulders, hands in the air in mock surrender. "As far as I know, they were having just as hard time keeping straight faces on when they were escorting you to their talan."

"I think I quite remember that particular moment, Conner." I replied tightly between my teeth as I flashed him a hard smile. "Her facial expression was quite priceless and I don't think I'll ever forget that day when we shared our first kiss." I began to walk away from after grabbing my coat and purse, but he instantly grabbed a hold of my upper right arm and turned me around until I was staring up at him with wide eyes. "Haldir!" I cried.

He bent his head forward slightly until his mouth was next to my ear and whispered in a dark, seductive voice, "I'm not done, Acadia and you know it. We will finish what was interrupted by your godfather tonight when its time for bed. And I'm not taking a no as a reply for those pretty sweet lips of yours." He let me go and backed away for allow me to pass by as his charming smile came into view. "Oh, and Acadia?" He spoke up as I began to walk away with slightly glazed eyes.

"Yes, what is it now, Conner." I grumbled with a roll of my eyes. My savior had the nerve to laugh at me for a moment before he sobered up enough to put a serious expression on his fair face.

"Just to let you know that now that you are fully aware of my feelings, lust or not lust, I will not allow any male, immortal or mortal, to come as close to you as I have already. Understand?"

Now it was my turn to smile in kind as I felt a feeling of pride swell within my heart that I didn't allow to show on my face. "I never really allowed any other males to come close me anyway in the past. So I don't think you will be fighting for much competition anyway for your own information." I replied cheekily before walking away to go change into more comfortable close so I could at least take an hour's nap before dinner. "I"ll be sleeping for a little while if you wish to watch over me." I called back. I didn't hear him reply but I swore I heard him mumble something under his breath about how females always seemed to have the last word on everything. My skin was still hot from his body's head and my lips were still burning with the phantom kisses that he had marked until I swore that there was nothing else that left that wasn't his yet.

But at least he's willing to back away just short of asking me to sleep with him for now. I don't think I'm fully ready to commit to such a high responsibility of allowing a man, or elf, for that matter, to become one with me after the very horrible experiences that I had received from my father years ago. Once I had stripped out of my day clothes and put them away in the closet, I padded into the bathroom and firmly closed the door behind me, starting at my reflection in the mirror for a long, long time before I finally turned on the shower.

As long as it was only Haldir, I didn't really mind allowing him to make love to me like this for a while until the time came for me to give more then just my heart to him. It was going to be a big decision that was going to come with big consequences for the both of us. I knew that I would have to make the choice of whether or not I wanted to bind myself to him or allow myself remain separate from him until he was able to find a way to get back home to Middle Earth. So until either one came my way, I plan on enjoying every kiss, touch, laughter, tear and more so with him just as long as he was healing as well at the same time from the broken, sad and bitter elf that I had witnessed before my very eyes to someone who was strong in both mind and body to handle any difficult situation that came his way. I knew that my savior was strong enough to handle his inner emotions as he was able to put up with my foul mouth and mood swings when I was staying with him briefly.

"And I love you too, Haldir. I always had ever since I fell in love with you that first day we laid eyes on each other at the elven riverbank." I whispered to myself as I cleaned myself off in the hot shower. "I just pray that someday I'll be able to say it easily out loud to instead of like this when there is still so much uncertainty going on in both worlds."