A/N: Fair warning this is mostly a John and Lexie chapter. M RATING again, placed an M and End where they begin and end. I would permanently change it but I don't think it is as graphic as others I have read, nor do I do them often. But please let me know if you believe I should change it.
The reason I wrote this chapter is that I am still brainstorming if I should cut off the story and jump ahead a couple of years, but I promised a chapter, and this came to mind.
Guest: Yes, Lizzie is OOC. I guess I have read too many stories where Darcy was too nice, but Lizzie was mean. Not as bad as I write her mind you, but yea. Still brainstorming but I'm going to try my hardest not to let anyone down who wants to see James and Rose get there just deserts, so many ideas pop into mind I can't choose. If anyone has any suggestions as well, feel free to throw them my way.
QueenCeleste 349: Thank you for the note on Ingrid Michaelson, loved her! I'm happy you like my story and characters. I thought Lexie had enough heartbreak and wrote about the last obstacle that stood in her way, John's grandfather. Gina will be in later chapter's glad you liked her, I didn't want her to be like other Georgie's I have read about. I like the ones that show she is a strong individual.
IrishJessy: I know you want the girls to reunite, I will get there I promise. In this chapter I show that Jane and Lexie have at least made up, but it is subtle. But I am thinking of a way so that they may really bond.
Huge thank you's to all of you who read, follow, review, favorite my story. It keeps me writing and makes me very happy that others like my work. I hope you enjoy this chapter:)
Disclaimer: All rights belong to Jane Austen, I just borrowed her characters.
Ch. 35
Tonight they were celebrating their one month anniversary and although neither had said anything, both knew what tomorrow was. Even though it had only been one month and so much had happened, Lexie was extremely happy, and would have liked nothing more than just spend the evening at her house, and as far as John knew that was the plan. She had told him to dress formally and luckily he didn't press matters. Her plan was to take him to a restaurant, and then come back here.
When the guys left, the girls stayed behind to help her get ready. Lexie was wearing a black *.sweet lace patchwork dress slit neckline strapless off shoulder slim one-piece evening party dress. and her hair was in a nice intricate bun, Gina used a curling iron to curve her bangs more and used brown eyeliner instead of black to give her a more natural beauty look. She was hesitant of the length of the dress, it showed her scars and she was wearing high heels. All of them assured her that she looked beautiful, and they put makeup over the scars so they would not be so dark. It helped but Lexie was still reluctant and wore tights.
John arrived and was surprised to see that she was waiting downstairs. He saw that she wore a big sweater and that her legs were exposed, so when she told him if he liked, that she had made reservations at a restaurant, he was happy. He beamed at the idea, wanting to go out and celebrate.
As they were walking into the restaurant Lexie faltered, and he thought she might have tripped. Her heels were taller than usual, but she was staring at a group of people he recognized instantly. It was Darcy, Caroline, Lizzie, Jane and Charlie.
"We can go to another restaurant or back to your place if you like." He told her downfallen.
"Tonight is about us," she squeezed his hand reassuringly. He took off her sweater and his jacket and handed it to the host. He looked her up and down, and gave her a long lingering kiss.
"You're breath taking!" He said touching the charms on the necklace.
"Lexie?" She heard the happiness in Jane's voice.
She smiled and turned to face her. "Hello Jane." Jane came to give her a hug, and she returned it.
"Hello Charlie, Will, Elizabeth, Caroline."
"Alexandra," Elizabeth said calmly. Will just nodded, Caroline turned her nose up at her and Charlie came to give her a hug. She pulled away when his hand slightly went down her back. Only Will and John seemed to notice though.
Lizzie saw the new dress, shoes, brand name bag, and the necklace. Though she didn't believe Lexie was capable of it, the evidence was there before her. She saw the way John looked at her sister and could see that Lexie did not feel the same for him. She felt bad that Lexie was using him, and wanted to tell her to just return home if she needed to stoop so low to be 'on her own'. She noticed that her legs were exposed, and got a look at her calf, there were so many scars but it wasn't bad.
Caroline had an evil smirk thinking the same as Lizzie, though she loved that she believed the rumors were true. "I love your dress Alexandra, did you buy it at In Style?"
"Thank you, I honestly do not remember, but yes I believe that was the name of one of the stores."
"Ms. Bennet, your table is ready." She thanked the host and said goodbye to everyone.
"I will see you later, enjoy your evening." Lexie told them quickly and gave Jane another hug.
Lizzie was affronted that they didn't even invite them to sit with them, and also at the fact that they had been there longer than they had. She felt her hate of rich people grow a little more. They were always treated better and acted as if they deserved it.
"You look beautiful." He kissed her before he pulled out her chair.
"You're as handsome as ever." She returned the kiss quickly and sat.
"Thank you for doing this, I wanted to take you somewhere but I wasn't sure if you would have liked to."
"Next time you should ask." She giggled. "It's true I would have liked to stay home, 'just the two of us', but I will have you all to myself later." She smiled at him.
"You have no idea how much this means to me Lexie," he reached for her hand and kissed it.
"I'm trying for you John, I thought this would make you happy."
"Extremely." His smile grew when she lit up. "Do you have any other surprises?"
"Yes." She laughed, "…um I know it's only been a month, I know it isn't a long time but I find that I am the happiest I have ever been. I have opened up, not only to you but Anne, Mary, and Hurst. I see that I am changing, and sometimes it hurts to feel and I hurt more, but it is a bittersweet feeling. Like-" she sighed defeated and closed her eyes as if in pain.
He grabbed her hand again. "I make you feel happy; beyond the moon and in doing so, I not only bring out the good feelings, but you feel the bad ones as well. However you wouldn't change anything, you'll take the bad with the good."
The smile she gave him, made him fall even further if he had thought it was possible. "Yes, I love you so much."
"I love you too." He said staring into her eyes.
She felt a tear fall down her cheek and he wiped it away with his thumb. She leaned into his touch and kissed the palm of his hand. She smiled again and giggled.
"I forgot what I was saying…. Oh yes, even though it's been a month, I got you a gift." She said unsurely and took out the package from her purse. He smiled and accepted it. "If you don't like it I can get you something else." She said as he opened the small box.
He stared at it, and delicately took it out to study it better. It was a silver pocket watch and the detail was incredible, there were music notes all around it, and swirls, it looked like something she drew, and in the middle was a heart like the charm he had given her, but instead of a J it was an A. He opened it, and there was an inscription:
"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." Dr. Seuss.
He looked up at her, and he could tell she was nervous. "I wanted to get you a watch, but I've never seen you wear one, and then Anne and Hurst suggested a camera, but you have five. Mary suggested a book, but I didn't know if you read or not, and Gina suggested something music related but you have a whole studio and three cello's, a bunch of peddles, I wouldn't have known what to get you anyways, and I thought of my idea, but settled for a pocket watch." She bit her bottom lip.
He was about to say something, but she kept speaking. "It's silly I know; who needs a watch when we have phones. I supposed that a cell phone is like a pocket watch, and a calculator, a camera, you can watch YouTube, play games….Oh my God I just remembered Conan's iPhone commercial!" She started to laugh, "Sorry I know you're an iPerson," she giggled at her own joke. "It's just funny, we should watch it when we get back. But where was I…oh if you don't use it I won't be offended."
He loved when she rambled, he took her hand and brought it up to his lips. "I love it, it looks like something you drew."
She blushed, "Well when I started looking I was planning on buying one that caught my eye, and the clerk asked if I would like to have it engraved. Then the idea popped into my head and I asked if I designed something if it were possible to have the image engraved. He told me yes, yada yada yada, I went back the next day with everything I wanted. But he suggested the capital A, mine was a cursive one and it looked like a commercial at symbol. You know the at sign." She giggled.
"I will carry it always." She smiled and he couldn't contain himself, he stood up to move the chair so he could sit next to her instead of across from her. "I love you so much."
"I love you too, now you can carry my heart with you everywhere." She beamed at him.
"I know. I wish I had gotten you something." He said sadly.
"I have you; that is enough for me."
They enjoyed the rest of their dinner and even danced. She could see from her peripheral that Lizzie would stare at her, but John would spin or dip her when he saw her go into her mask.
Lizzie could not stop glancing at Lexie and John. Lexie's back was to her but she could see John. He was really handsome. She had not wanted to come tonight, Jane and Charlie were celebrating their one month anniversary, but Jane told her that Caroline had invited herself. In all honesty it was either this, or spend the evening with Billy. He had been at the house all day and her mother kept trying to leave them alone together. Luckily 'she had to help Jane get ready for her date.'
"Well your sister seems to be doing fine on her own." Caroline smirked.
"Yes, she seems really happy." Jane piped in happily.
"I am sure she is." She laughed and Lizzie had to count to ten.
"I believe she is celebrating her one month anniversary as well." Darcy said indifferently and the whole table looked at him shocked. He looked over the menu as if it were the most interesting thing in the world.
"May I ask how you are privileged with this information?" Lizzie asked him and he smiled at her, but then he went back to his cold demeanor.
He had been trying to defend her, but realized too little too late that no one knew about Lexie and John. He would have been happy to share the information with Lizzie, but that would mean betraying Lexie's trust. He was torn, Lizzie was willing to speak with him. If she had the fucking decency to ask me…Lexie's words from last night came to his head.
"Define dating." Caroline said failing to hide her smirk, and Lizzie glared at her. Luckily the waiter came and took their order.
Will was stuck in a horrible position, he wanted nothing more than to speak with Lizzie, but she was trying harder than usual not to look at him. At one point his hand brushed up against hers and she blushed. He did not realize that it was from anger, thinking that she liked it he would keep doing it. He began to think that she had a crush on him. Caroline was too busy speaking with Jane to notice, and when he tried to converse with Lizzie, she would interject.
He would also keep glancing at Charlie and Jane. Caroline had come to him earlier and convinced him to come on their date tonight.
"William," she batted her eyelashes at him and placed a hand over his arm while he tried to read the paper. "Charlie is taking Jane out to celebrate their one month anniversary, and I was hoping you would join us."
"Shouldn't it just be him and Jane?"
"Yes, but you know how he is, he believes he has found an angel again, and I am afraid of him going to the next level with her."
He lowered his paper and looked at her questioningly.
"She is a nice girl and everything, but I do not think she feels the same way Charlie feels about her."
He kept looking at her expecting more.
"Maybe she does, but did you see her costume last night? Does it match her 'innocent' personality at all?"
"Every girl was wearing those types of costumes." He said defensively thinking of Anne and Lizzie, but then he remembered Mary's costume.
"Well it is the style, but I am truly worried about him. You know what a big pushover he is. Look just come to dinner and observe them, if you believe her feelings for him to be true, then I will listen to you."
He glanced at them. Jane was speaking with Caroline and Charlie, but he noticed Charlie kept looking away. After the tenth time he glanced at his direction, Lexie was dancing with John, her back remained to them. He knew what Charlie must have been thinking, his thoughts were not too far from his. But Charlie had a girlfriend, and he wasn't the type to have a wandering eye.
Caroline and Jane went to use the restroom, and Lizzie stayed behind choosing to stay rather than be near Caroline.
"If you would like to know about your sister, why do you not speak to her?" He ask loud enough for her to hear him.
Lizzie's eyes flared up and he could see specks of yellow in them. She was about to answer but Charlie spoke.
"Do you think it was rude of us not to ask them to join us?" He said looking at Lexie and John.
"No, of course not. It is nice that you at least considered it." Lizzie said and continued eating.
They left the restaurant too busy being happy to acknowledge Darcy and his group. They arrived ta her place and Sawyer went upstairs without saying anything.
"My grandfather is coming down tomorrow, and I was wondering if you would like to have dinner with us." John informed her.
"Does he know about me?" She asked hesitantly.
He grabbed her hand and ran his thumb across her knuckles. "No, I thought you would have wanted to tell him like with Jenny and my grandmother."
"I. Don't. Know." She took in a deep breath, "After what Thomas said I am afraid that he will not like me, and all of my little confidence is shattered." She said looking down.
He lifted her chin up with his fingers, "All that matters is that I love you." He kissed her.
"I know, but- this is hard to say. I cannot come in between you and your family John. I won't do it, I think about Ashley and the Burton's. The Bennet's," she said with venom. "I get so angry and hurt. I can't do that to you."
"Are you saying if my grandfather does not approve of you, you would leave me?" He asked hurt.
"We would still be friends." She grabbed his face, when he turned away. "You understand don't you?" She pleaded.
"Just because I understand does not make me any less angry or hurt. I love you, isn't that enough?" He said standing to look out the windows.
She stood and followed him. "It is more than enough, more than you will ever know. I know how important your family is to you. I don't want you to have to choose, I'd rather just leave."
"I know he'll love you as much as I and the rest of my family do." She wasn't convinced, but tonight was about them, she just smiled and nodded.
-M-
"Close your eyes." She told him and he complied. He felt the bed shift and knew she had gotten off. She came back and straddled him, and he felt something go over his eyes. He smirked at her. She didn't say anything she just kissed him. Slowly at first and then more demanding, then she started to undress him and he felt a pull in his groin.
Although she was barley touching him, when her fingers would brush against him, his breath hitched. "Lexie" he breathed.
"Shh," she placed a finger over his lips. "You always take such good care of me; let me take care of you." She kissed his neck and he placed his hands on her upper back to touch her exposed skin.
"Mmm. You always take really good care of me." He could feel her smile against his neck.
She scooted lower and admired his muscles. She gently traced each line with her fingertips and leading down to his happy trail. She grabbed the belt and stopped. She pushed him back so he could lie down. Her fingers barely touched him as they made their way back to his belt. Every nerve of his body was intensified, and he just wanted to stop her and rip off her clothes.
She kissed along his waist and he felt all the blood rush to his member, and she chuckled against his skin, causing him to moan. She quickly unbuckled his belt and slowly pulled down his pants, stripping him naked. Her fingers traced every inch of his body except the one place he needed her to touch him. He tried to grab her.
"Stand up." She said huskily. He complied and waited, the seconds seem like hours. He heard her unzip the dress, she came up to him but didn't touch him. Although he couldn't see her, he could feel her and grabbed her, "Lexie please, you're driving me insane."
"Albert Einstein said: The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. I am only repaying the favor from the last time." He could hear the smile in her voice.
"You know I could quickly overpower you." He told her huskily, holding on to her arms. He tried to kiss her but she kept moving her head.
Eventually she kissed him, peppering kissed down his neck to his chest. Her hands traveled south and she grabbed him and softly stroked him. "Maybe that's what I want you to do," she whispered in his ear. "Maybe I want you to lose control and do whatever you want to me. Show me what you were thinking of doing to me last night."
-End-
He lay awake, stroking her hair; she had fallen asleep on top of him long ago. Though he was exhausted from their 'exercise', he was too deep in thought to fall asleep. He was worried about his grandfather meeting Lexie. He worried if he would be able to look past her disorder. He understood Lexie's reluctance to stay with him. In her mind she had already destroyed two families with her existence; he wouldn't give her another reason to hate herself.
That was the one thought that scared him, would he be able to let her go? Though it had only been a month, he was head over heels in love with her, and it seemed like each day he fell deeper and deeper. He knew if he lost her, there was no going back. He could never have this with her again. Could he stand someone else holding her this way? The thought of anyone else touching her made his blood boil. The thought of her looking at another man the way she looked at him, made his chest hurt.
She stirred and inhaled deeply, she snuggled closer to him and her hand caressed his chest. He turned them around to the side. Her eyes remained closed, but her hand went to caress his face.
"Tell me what's wrong." She said sleepily.
"What makes you think something is wrong?"
She shrugged. "I felt it." Even though it was dark, he could see her eyes open. "Tell me."
"I was just thinking about us."
"Your grandfather?"
"Yes." He sighed. "I don't want to lose you Lexie."
"You'll always have me for a friend." She said sadly.
-M-
He sat up, and ran his hands through his hair. She slowly sat up and placed a hand on his arm kissing his shoulder. He pulled her on top so she straddled him and kissed her feverishly. One hand going up and down her spine the other holing her face and slowly broke away pulling her bottom lip with his teeth.
"Will I still get to kiss you? Will I still get to hold you in my arms?" He caressed her face. "Will I still be able to touch you?" His hand went to her breast and lightly squeezed it, "Make you feel good?" His hand went in between her thighs and her hips bucked into his hand when he reached her sex. She was already wet, just for him.
"John," she whispered his name, he pulled her back and their lips met. He turned them over and kissed her neck and breasts. His other hand continued messaging her folds.
"You are mine!" He broke away.
"Only yours John." She caressed his face, and he pushed her legs further apart. He kissed her and slowly entered her. They moaned into each other's lips. When he started to move she opened her eyes and put her hands to his chest to stop him. "We still need to use a condom."
"It feels so good," he kissed her. "Just a while longer," she kissed him and her arms wrapped around his neck. He moved again, and her moans and the new sensation were starting to unravel him. He felt her tighten and stopped, pulled out, and reached for the nightstand. "Turn around on your hands and knees." She complied.
He slowly entered her and then pulled her back to him as far as she could comfortably go. He began to move slowly one hand holding her and the other at her breast. One of her hands went over the one that was holding her and held his hand, and the other went to the head board to help support herself. He picked up his pace and went harder when she started to push herself back. He was close but he wouldn't let go, not until she did. The hand that was at her breast went down to her clit and rubbed it. He felt her tightening and then she threw her head back and moaned his name, going limp in his arm. He released and bit into her shoulder to muffle his yell. He waited until they caught their breath to pull out and then he lowered her to the bed. He discarded the condom and went back. He pulled her to him, her back to his chest.
-End-
"Yes." She whispered, he had barley heard her.
"Hmm?"
"You'll still be able to do all of those things, until you don't want me anymore." She said quietly, and then she was breathing heavy.
He buried his nose into her hair and inhaled deeply. Even though he knew she was asleep he responded. "I am always going to want you. You are mine and no one is going to take you away. No one."
Sunday:
Someone was knocking on the door and he felt the bed shift. But he didn't open his eyes, hoping it would stop. He felt her pull away from his arms and then she got up. She didn't answer right away, the knocking kept going.
"Yes?" She asked sleepily.
"I-um. It is ten and you um your medicine." He heard Sawyer.
"Really? Ok thank you Sawyer. I'm just going to get ready, would you like breakfast?"
"No thank you I already ate. I am going to the gym and for my jog."
He felt the bed shift again and she went back into his arms. "Are you awake?"
"Yes, but I want to go back to sleep." He kept his eyes closed.
"I know I wish he hadn't woken me up. This was the latest I've ever slept I believe." She giggled running a hand through his hair.
"Just let the sleep take over." He pulled her closer to him. She caressed his face and gave him a chaste kiss.
"No, I'm awake now. You sleep though, I'm going to take a shower and get ready. I love you."
"I love you too." She kissed him again and just held his face.
"Thank you." She quietly said.
"For?"
"Never saying 'me too.'" He opened his eyes, and saw her bright smile, love written all over her face. She closed her eyes and leaned in to kiss him, his favorite image.
Lizzie could tell that Jane was in high spirits this morning as they made their way down to breakfast.
"Mom, I was wondering if you could take us to the mall? I want to get Charlie something for our anniversary."
"Did he get you anything?" She asked excitingly.
"Yes," she pulled up her sleeve and showed her a charm bracelet. There was a horse and the letter J.
"Oh My GOD! That is beautiful. And it has only been a month!" She shrieked.
"I know I did not think he would get me something so I didn't buy him anything."
"Of course I'll take you!"
They were walking through the mall Kitty and Lydia ran off, and their mom saw a few friends, probably went to brag about Jane's bracelet. After going to several stores, they were hungry and went to the food court. She heard her sisters before she saw them and they yelled to say hello. Lizzie looked up and saw George and Mary King breaking away from a kiss. She just smiled and waved letting him know that she was unaffected.
"Did you girls have fun?"
"We would have but we ran into Mary King."
"I thought she was your friend?" Jane asked.
"She is but she kept throwing that she had a boyfriend in our faces. Making out with him in front of us!"
"She's just jealous that we got to go to the party." Laughed Lydia.
"It's not fair I'm prettier than her!" Cried Kitty.
"And smarter apparently!" Giggled Lydia.
"Yea! Can you believe she flunked a grade? She's 17 and a sophomore! I can't wait to tell everyone!"
Lizzie was somewhat relieved to hear that. She hadn't thought about the fact that he was with someone who was Kitty's age and he was either 18 or 19. He later texted her to see how she was doing and apologized for not going to the party, she told him it was fine. He would have been bored anyways she told him. He asked if Darcy had been his usual self, she told him yes the times she saw him. She mentioned that she was too busy ignoring Collins to notice or pay attention to anything else.
"Grandpa!" Nicky and Nate came running down the steps of the porch to greet him.
"Nicole! Nathaniel! I missed the two of you so much."
"We missed you to!" They said simultaneous. He looked up and saw his lovely wife and Jenny standing there with Noah. He frowned.
"Where's your Uncle John?" He asked the kids who were leading him to the house.
"Oh he's with Lexa! She's sooo cool, and pretty! And fun! I got to sleepover, and we played dress up and make up, and we danced and saw movies and she cookeded for me! It was fun, and I made new friends."
"She has a big huge ginormous horse and I ride it and pet it and give him apples, and I helpeded her make spapeggy." Nate told him smiling.
"I helpeded too!" Nicky said pouting.
"That's great." He walked up to his wife gave her a hug and kissed her. "I missed you my love."
"I missed you too dearest."
"Jenny! How's my great grandson?"
"Fussy as usual, I miss Lexie coming over. Those moments when she would watch him were like heaven." She said innocently. "Wouldn't you agree Mama?"
"Yes, the children just adore her." Helen replied. Mr. Drake raised an eyebrow but smiled.
"Is this Lexie the same Lexa, Nate and Nicky just mentioned; the same Lexa who has kept my grandson away from greeting me?"
"It is their one month anniversary Carl, you remember being young and in love don't you?"
"Love?" He asked astounded. "I am going to go rest, I had a long flight. Will you join me love?"
"Give grandpa a kiss, he's going to take a nap." The kids complied and Noah just cried, Jenny took him away to her room.
"Why has Jenny not gotten a nanny to help her with the kids?" He asked.
"She wants to be the one to raise them. The maids help here and there, along with John and I."
"And this Lexie girl?"
"You know her, Alexandra Bennet. She is in the same grade as John, at the top of her class, and plays the violin." He looked deep in thought.
"John's rival? The one with that vulgar family?"
"Yes. If you think about it, she is the one who kept John on his toes about his grades. If you remember he wanted to learn to play the cello after she started to play the violin." She laughed, "It seems like only yesterday."
"She is the one John is dating? And you allowed this?"
"She is everything a young lady should be. The kids love her, your grandson loves her, I-"
"They have only been dating a month! He cannot be in love!" He interrupted.
"So much has happened to that poor girl in the last month, and I can assure you he has been with her every step of the way. I can tell you he is deeply I love with her."
"Luckily I am here to put a stop to this nonsense! He needs to focus on school! He is too young to be thinking of love. I'll make him see reason!" He yelled.
"Carl, please you'll give yourself a heart attack." She said sarcastically.
"All the more reason John needs to keep his head straight. I will not live forever and he has a responsibility to this family!"
"At least try to contain your temper when she is here."
"What!?"
"John wants the two of you to meet. Look Carl whether you like it or not John is dating this girl, and you will be civil. Am I understood?" He nodded. "Carl?"
"Yes, my love."
"Good, now get some rest." She kissed him and left the room. He lied down but find he couldn't rest.
-M-
He walked into the restroom, it was foggy from the steam and he heard her humming. He opened the glass door and placed his arms around her. She fell back into his embrace, and his hands started to roam her body. She giggled and turned around when he tried to separate her thighs. She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him down.
"John we just had sex."
"I know but we've never had sex in the shower." He smirked at her and leaned down to kiss her neck.
She giggled again. "True, but I'm a little sore." She shied away from him, but he pulled her back.
"I'm sorry. Was I too rough with you? Why didn't you say anything?"
"No, you weren't, but we did have sex five times." She gave him a kiss. "At the time my mind was too preoccupied." She smiled at him and ran her hands down his chest. She leaned on him and kissed him deeply. He wrapped her in his arms and pushed her against the wall. He lifted her up and broke their kiss.
"You're the one who bought a whole box of condoms." He gave her a knowing smile which grew when she squeezed her thighs. He loved how he could effect her with just a look, a touch. It was the same effect she had on him.
"To be used wisely." She smiled.
"You did not seem to mind." He pressed up against her.
"John?" He kissed her slowly and she wrapped her arms around him. They kissed for what seemed like an eternity and then her hand went between them and she lowered it, gently grabbed him and started to stoke him. She stopped to unwrap her legs from him and then her arms, sliding down his body and took him in her mouth. She stopped to force him against the wall and then continued. All too soon he found his release. "Happy?" She smiled at him.
"Not yet." His lips crashed down on hers and he started to play with her breasts. One hand made its way down to her sex and started to rub her. He kept at it until she cried out his name. "Now I'm happy." He smiled at her and she laughed.
-End-
They spent their whole day just relaxing and holding each other. Cuddling on the couch and listening to music, watching Netflix. They went to visit Aries with another bag of apples, and she encouraged John to ride a horse. He had never been on one and while Aries ran around the grounds, they got on another horse. She got on first and then he got on behind her. The trainer gave him good tips and soon they were trotting around. He enjoyed himself greatly. Not because of the activity itself, but because Lexie was having fun.
He had left early so that he may speak to his grandfather before she got there. She had stopped by the De Bough's and Anne, and Mary were going to help her get ready, since Gina had already left.
"John! My boy I missed you so much!" His grandfather gave him a hug.
"I missed you too Pa. I have so much to tell you." He said happily.
"Let us go to my office. So how is school going?" He asked unsure how to bring up the topic at hand.
"It is great, straight A's as always."
"I heard you missed a couple of days?" He said disapprovingly.
"Yes," John sighed, he knew. "Not so many that it affected my school work, I'm still the salutatorian."
"And your girlfriend is the valedictorian?" He questioned.
"Yes. Lexie is at the top, she always gets 100's on all her school work." He said looking off into the distance.
"I see so your dating your competition? That is not a good business move."
"She's not my competition. What do you know?" He asked a little annoyed.
"That you have only been dating a month, and you believe yourself to be in love. Of course this is just a fling right?"
John sighed. "No, I do love her with every fiber of my being." He smiled thinking of their day.
"John you cannot be serious. You are too young! You have a responsibility to this family, what are you going to do when you go to college?"
"I am serious. You do not have to remind me of my duty Pa, Lexie does it constantly."
"I see. Have you ever considered the possibility that she is only with you because of your money?" He asked hesitantly.
John became angry, but did not show it. "She is not like that!"
"John-" he warned.
"Do you know Thomas Burton?"
He looked up at him quickly. "Yes, how do you know of him?" He looked at him intently.
"He is Alexa's grandfather, her mother is-was his daughter."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I have met him and their whole family."
"But-" he stayed quiet trying to gather his thoughts.
John interrupted him and told him Lexie's entire story, not leaving anything out. He mentioned that they were sleeping together, but being careful, and that he knew without a doubt that Lexie was the girl he was meant to spend the rest of his life with.
"John you cannot be serious! Think of your children, what if they turn out like her?"
"There is nothing wrong with her! Did you not listen to a word I said? The Bennet's are responsible for that! They failed her time and time again. She has been through so much, I am amazed at how much love she is capable of giving. Even if they were like her I would still love them."
"John you are not even 18! You will go to college and you will take over the company!"
"Yes I know, how can I forget when it is all we ever speak of? I have known it since I was a child! Hell the whole town knows about what I am to become. But Lexie doesn't care about any of those things, she loves me for me, and I will not let you or anyone else take her from me!" He seethed.
"John I would never-" he tried amending.
"I know, please forgive me." He sighed. "It is just if you do not approve of her she will never stay with me." His pain was evident on his face.
"Really?" He asked intrigued but John couldn't tell if he was using this information to his advantage.
John lifted an eyebrow at him, in warning. "She knows that my family is important to me, but she cannot see how important she is to me. I love her Pa I really do, and I will not lose her. If you do not approve of her, she will still be with me, but she would never marry me."
"Marriage? Of course she would marry you the first chance she gets. I am happy I got here in time -"
"She has already refused me." He said with a small smile. He was right of course any other girl would have jumped at the chance.
"WHAT?"
"I offered for her hand, to take care of her after everything with the Bennet's occurred. She refused me, she cared enough about my family name. Look I am only asking that you give her a chance. Look past her faults and see the woman I see. For if you don't I shall never marry, nor have children until you have passed, and Lexie will accept me."
Sawyer pulled up to the drive way and looked at Lexie waiting for her to get out. She looked up at the porch and took a deep breath.
"Do you think I am too dressed up, or under dressed? He said to dress casually, but Anne said this was fine, not too casual but not too formal. What do you think?" He noticed her flexing her fingers, itching to touch her hands.
He stayed quiet, this was more than he could handle. Last night and this whole day was an ordeal. He knew he couldn't tell her anything, about being with John. Had she been his daughter though, there would be no way in hell that John would have stayed the night or even be allowed in her room. But she wasn't his. Ashley refused him and his offer to take care of both of them. He should have listened to his father and Edward. But he owed it to Ashley to watch out for Lexie.
"Well? You must have some train of thought? You must have been to many dinners before with the Burton's."
"I um-it is fine, I agree with your friend."
She smiled brightly at him, and he smiled too. "Thank you!" She took another deep breath. "Can you walk me to the door? I find I cannot control my nerves."
"Why are you so nervous, the boy is obviously in love with you."
"I am meeting his grandfather, Thomas said he wouldn't approve of someone like me."
"There is nothing wrong with you!"
"That is what my friends tell me, but the world is not so kind." She took another deep breath, and he saw her tuck in her necklace. "Please?" She pleaded and he found he couldn't tell her no.
John heard the doorbell and quickly went to answer it, without running. He was trying to beat the butler but was too late. He was taking her sweater and she thanked him. He saw Sawyer nodding and then he left. He stared at her as she turned to face the hallway. Her hair was in a lose bun, and she wore a purple turtleneck with long sleeves. She had a high waist black pencil skirt, and black tights on with short high heels.
"Hi." She smiled at him and hugged him tightly.
"You look beautiful." He caressed her face.
"Are you sure? Anne told me this wasn't too casual but not too dressy."
"It is fine, why are you hiding the necklace?" He asked confused. She had started to expose it except at school.
"Well I don't want him to think badly of me."
"Relax darling, I told him everything." She tensed and panic filled her eyes. He hugged her tightly and she relaxed.
"Thank you." She took a deep breath and he led her into the living room.
"Lexa!" Nicky and Nate yelled simultaneously and came up to hug her.
"Hello Ms. Parker, Nate." She smiled brightly and hugged them. Nicky giggled and Nate kissed her cheek.
"Alexa, it is nice to see you again, I hope you will come by more often now that you are settled in." Mrs. Drake told her.
"Hello Mrs. Drake, yes well I must speak with Sawyer, so he may adjust his schedule first and plan." She went up to hug her.
"Lexie this is my grandfather Carl Drake. Pa this is my girlfriend Alexandra Bennet." He led her towards his grandpa, placing is hands on her shoulder.
"Hello Mr. Drake, it is nice to finally meet you. John has told me so much about you." She smiled gaining strength from John's touch and held her hand out.
"I wish I could say the same, today was the first I ever hear about you." His wife snapped her head to look at him and he saw John close his eyes in frustration. He accepted her hand.
Lexie smiled unaffected and shook his hand. "Yes I usually speak for myself, but I admit I was more nervous than usual especially after speaking to my grandfather."
To his own surprise, he found himself pulling her in for a hug. He saw her shocked expression turn into a big smile that made her glow. She gave him a half hug and he felt warmth spread throughout him.
"John told me you were honest."
"Blatantly at times," She giggled and looked at John. "But I never mean any offense of course. I just give the same curtesey I expect I suppose."
"Lexie, thank you so much for letting Nicky spend the night the other day, she will not stop speaking about it." Jenny said entering the room.
"Of course, it was my pleasure to have her." Jenny came up to her and gave her a hug.
"You have my leave to take them and Noah anytime you wish." She giggled.
"If you ever need a babysitter I have decided not to tutor anyone this year."
"I was actually hoping that you would tutor Nicky, she seems to have taken an interest in learning to play the violin."
"If she would like to learn I would be happy to show her. If she takes to it, you may speak with the school to change her schedule next semester. Mr. Hill-Mrs. Hill's husband teaches at the elementary. He is really great with children."
"Ms. Bennet may I speak to you privately?" Mr. Drake asked her as they walked back to the living room after dinner.
"I can assure you anything we speak of will be said to John later."
"Very well, but I wish to speak to you alone." She nodded and followed him. John looked back and saw Lexie walking off with his grandfather. He made his way to the library, it was a secret only he and Jenny knew of, the vent allowed them to hear what was going on in the office. It saved them both from a lot of trouble when they were younger.
"John tells me that he asked for your hand in marriage." He said looking at her. She sat perfectly poised and had an unreadable face.
"He did not ask, it was more of a suggestion." She stated.
"May I ask why you refused?" He sat and stared at her trying to make her uncomfortable.
"We are both young, the town would have talked. I want him to go to college, I do not want to hold him back."
"You could always go to the same college as him."
"Yes, but….I do not believe in fairytales. That is to say I try not to hope nor do I have false fantasies. We are still young and there are many things that can happen. I love John with all of my being. More than I could ever possibly describe. However I know I do not deserve him."
"Then why remain with him?"
"I love him, and as long as he wants me then I shall be with him. I do have rules, should he ever tire of me, I only ask that he not cheat on me, and that he be honest with me. But that we remain friends."
"He told me if I did not approve of you then you would leave him?"
"Yes, but I recanted my statement. I do not believe I could ever leave him, I never wish to hurt him and I will do whatever I can to make him happy. I would rather be the one with the pain and heartache." She gave a sad smile. "I will never come in between your family sir but he would have to be the one to break it off. I am sure John told you the origins of my birth and my history with the Bennet's. Though I would not leave him, I know we could never be more."
"You must know he wants a family, someone to continue the family name, an heir if you will. If you could never be more, and he won't leave you, what then? Will you not be preventing his happiness? Do you not want to have children? To get married?"
"I never thought that I would want to get married, I always believed that no one would want someone like me. As for children, I do love them, but as you can imagine someone who grew up in my shoes would be hesitant to bring a child into this world. As for John believe I answered your question already. I suppose we would have to cross that bridge when we get to it."
"So you would deny him a family, all because I refused to acknowledge you?"
"He would be depriving himself of those things."
"He is just afraid of hurting you, afraid you will end up like your mother. He does not want that on his conscious, neither would I. What will it take for you to break his heart?" John wanted to yell, how could he say that to her.
"As I said I will never hurt him. He is a kind, compassionate man and I want him to be happy. I would never take my own life and he knows that. He has made me see certain aspects of life differently. I still see the world for what it is, but John…." She grabbed her necklace and smiled. He could see the love in her eyes. "I will speak with him, tell him all that was said and let him make his own decision. Thank you for being honest with me." She said sadly. "It was nice to meet you, and I wish you and your family the best in life." John felt his heart breaking already. He wondered how his grandfather could do this to him.
"Ms. Bennet please wait." There was silence and he held his breath. "Just know that you have my approval."
"Truly?" She asked astonished.
"Yes, I just needed to make sure of your feelings. I want the both of you to be happy I believe both of you deserve it." He cleared his throat. "I am sorry if I overstepped my boundaries or made you uncomfortable."
"I understand, you only want what's best for him."
John came into the room looking at his grandfather but went to Lexie and picked her up and gave her a kiss. She giggled as spun her laughing, holding her tightly. He placed her on the ground and went to hug his grandfather. Even Lexie came and hugged him.
"Thank you dear, you have made John very happy. I have to say I was worried when the three of you disappeared." Helen said to her husband as she got ready for bed.
"They really are in love," he said as he lied down. "Did you see how happy they were?"
"Of course, I have seen them together; I knew it before they started dating." She said confidently. "When will you learn to listen to me?"
He sighed "I wish I were around more. I was thinking once John graduates that we could all move back so that I may have a family to come home to every day."
"What about the house?" She asked worryingly.
"We will keep it of course, too many memories. I do not believe John would ever allow us to sell it."
"You heard everything we said?" She asked lying in his arms.
"Yes. I was so angry at him. I am sorry he said those things to you."
"It is natural, he loves you, and wants what's best for you. I do too."
He sighed. "Why do you think I am going to leave you? It hurts that you believe that I could ever hurt you."
She turned to sit up on her elbow. "In case you didn't know you are quiet the catch." She lifted her eyebrows at him trying not to laugh. "To the world you are handsome, smart, big, tall, sexy, and really rich. Girls and women have thrown and will throw themselves at you."
He was going to interrupt her but she placed a finger on his lips. "You know it's true, I'm actually surprised you've only been with ten girls before me, but that is not the point….The point is that-well in the words of Daniel Tosh, 'It's not me verses one skank, it's me verses every skank. You see how the scale shifts?" She giggled at his affronted look. "It's like I'm a mighty Spartan warrior, but there are all these Persian whores, that will eventually kill me'."
"Lexie-"
"He has a good point." She looked at him and turned serious. "If you would like to think of it differently, everyone tells me to be happy with you right now and not worry about what might happen. That is what I am doing. Of course I fear that you will leave me. Not necessarily for someone else but yes, it is in the back of my head."
"I told you to ignore that monster."
"I try, but it makes a valid point: 'Do. Not. Hope.' That fear keeps me grounded John. It is just a precaution, in case anything ever did cause us to part. It is a shield if you will." She said indifferently.
"You mean a wall! Lexie I don't like that, it isn't good to keep your feelings bottled inside. I want you to come to me if you have a problem, tell me what's on your mind, all your hopes and dreams, fears. I want to be your everything."
Her phone rang and she answered it. "Hello?-Yes, I know." She said downfallen and looked at him. "Ok, give me five more minutes.-Bye. Sawyer." She stated.
"You're leaving?"
"Yes, we have school tomorrow. Walk me out?" She stood and put her shoes.
"John, you are my everything, I do tell you what is on my mind at times." She kissed him. "But it is hard to just break 17 years of habits, I try though, I do try."
"I know, thank you. Just remember I'm always going to be here for you." He looked down and caressed her face.
She smiled, "I know."