#36
A/N: Just a real quick note here. I hope that you are all safe this lovely winter because where I am we got a foot and half of snow in the span of two days. And it stopped for two days and now we are getting more snow. So please be safe out there if you are getting crappy weather!
Also if any info in here is wrong I apologize I just googled it so.
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After five days of being on different drugs the contractions still hadn't stopped. I was scared beyond words and didn't know what to do.
"Hey kid," Tig said walking into the room with a cup of ice cream.
"Please tell me that's for me," I begged him from my spot in the hospital bed.
"Did you want some?" he questioned.
"Don't mess with me old man," I threatened him.
"Knock, knock," Tara said coming into the room.
"So what's the verdict here Tara?" I asked her.
"Well the drugs seem to not be working so we are going to try and do a couple doses of steroids to get the babies lungs more developed. I'd hope to get you to at least 37 weeks but it seems like this baby wants out at 28."
"Is there anything else we can try? Can the baby even survive at 28 weeks?"
"We've already tried our options. Right now it's making sure both you and baby make it out of this."
"But can the baby survive?" I asked again.
"At 28 weeks the chances are definitely higher than they would have been a week ago. The longer we can keep him in there in the better."
"So what do we do now? I mean after the steroids?"
"After the steroids, we go in for a C-section. I don't know how far you got in planning, but this is the safest way for both of you."
"I haven't had the time to make any plans. I didn't think I'd be pregnant long enough to even get this far," I informed her wiping at the tears rolling down my face.
"But you did Lela. And if all goes well you could end up with a healthy baby boy with no long term health problems. You did good Lela," she said smiling at me.
Nodding my head I grabbed Tig's ice cream out of his hands as he stood beside me holding my hand.
"I'm going to get things set up with the doctors. Do you need anything?"
"No, it's just a lot to process," I told her before eating a spoonful of the strawberry ice cream.
After she left I continued to eat the ice cream in silence.
"Do you want me to bring the kids by?" Tig asked after a few minutes.
"I don't know. Why can't I do this Tig? I mean millions of women do this every day around the world and I can't even make it to 29 weeks."
"But you still made it baby girl. That's something to be proud of."
"I'm so fucking scared. I'm doing this alone again and I'm scared."
"You aren't alone Lela," Tig tried to explain.
"But I am Tig. Do you see my husband anywhere? Did he suddenly gain the ability to become invisible and I didn't know?" I asked getting angry.
"If I could get Happy here I would but I can't."
"Would you really though Tig. He's only in there because of some club shit. Can you just leave?" I asked.
"I'm not going to leave you here alone Lela."
"Either get the fuck out of my hospital room or so help me god I will fucking call fucking security," I told him calmly.
"Fine. I have to go to work anyways. But I'm going to be back," he grumbled grabbing his sweater and walking to the door.
When he left I broke down. I wanted nothing more than for this to be some fucked up pregnancy hormone infused nightmare my mind had come up with.
Three magazines and two cups of ice cream later my cell phone started to ring.
"Hello?" I questioned picking up without looking at the caller ID.
"Are you okay?" his low voice asked.
"Looks like your gonna have a new baby in a couple days," I told him.
"What?"
"None of the drugs are working so hopefully I can get a couple doses of steroids done and then I go in for a C-section. By the end of the week we'll have a baby," I told him rubbing the bump.
"I'm sorry I can't be there Lela."
"I know you are Hap. You always are. Look I have to go a nurse is here call the kids if you can," I told him before hanging up.
Rubbing my face I started taking deep breaths to calm myself down.
"Your father is a real complicated guy kid," I mumbled to the bump.
"You okay baby?" Gemma asked coming into the room.
"Yeah uh just got off the phone with Hap. Tig call you?" I asked forcing a small smile.
"Yeah he did. He's worried about you baby, said the kid's coming out a bit early," she replied sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I'm just getting tired of the bullshit. I'm tired of the broken promises and the false hope."
"It's all in the life baby. It's never perfect but it's the life we chose," she replied.
"I know. I just never saw life happening like this. I never thought that I'd be a mom or be married or do anything other than strip and the porn. But then everything changed and now I'm here and family history is being repeated."
"What are you talking about? You've made a life and a family for yourself, something your mother never did."
"She had three other kids after me Gemma. She had me when she was 19, biggest mistake of her life something I heard every day I was with her till I went and lived with Tig. I was there when she ended up in the hospital with the older two. Whether I like it or not I seem to be following in her footsteps. I took care of her and those kids every day to make her see that I could be loved and then I left and I got with Hap and like fifteen years later I'm still trying to prove to someone I love that I deserve to be loved," I told her fighting the tears.
Before she could respond Vic came running into the room with a smile a pictures followed by Tig carrying Mia.
"Mama Grandpa says my baby brother is coming!" Vic yelled excitedly.
"He did did he?" I asked in surprise as I wiped my face with the palm of my hands.
"Are you okay?" he asked noticing them
"Of course baby. Seeing you and your sister always makes me feel better. How was school?" I asked changing the subject as he climbed on the bed.
"It was okay. I have to read though," he replied.
"I always liked reading when I was your age. I'm sure Grandpa can help you find a book you like, I have piles and piles of them," I told him as I ran my hands through his hair.
"Mama," Mia said reaching for me.
"There's my girl," I replied smiling at her as I took her from Tig's arms.
"Truce?" He questioned after I got Mia settled.
"Truce," I replied smiling at him.