(song for this scene – NF- Paralysed)
"There's something between us… even if you don't quite recognise it right now in this moment that you're acting like a bitch.. I know you feel it" Logan had told her.
Veronica's mind kept running through the highlights of their confrontation in the library. History had just repeated itself, the Other Veronica had apparently been smart enough to keep her investigation hidden but she hadn't known enough about the pranks and the torment that Logan had caused in the year since Lilly's death. She'd had a blank slate, a blind spot for the boy who had been the only thing familiar for her… and he had used that to twist the truth by trying to make her believe the story that everybody else knew.
Sheriff Mars had been wrong. That her father had deserved to be ousted from office and that Veronica had stabbed all her friends in the back. Lies…
"I'm in love with you Veronica…"
No, he was in love with a Bubble head, a bimbo version of herself who had been too naïve to know any better because she had never had experience of what a jackass he had been. She was furious with him, he thought that sentiment had blinded her to the truth about her father.
"I thought you'd finally come to your senses"
He couldn't be more wrong… he'd been the one to abandon her… she knew the truth and she would prove it once and for all. They had all underestimated the Mars family, they were going to regret that oversight.
Hottest Kiss of my Life Logan Echolls had shown his true colours… as much as that kiss had brought a rush of something that she didn't want to think about… they weren't going to be able to bridge this conflict. Not now. This is just who they were, a product of loss and grief… and the only language they spoke was anger and retribution. She didn't know how he was going to retaliate when the novelty of his little infatuation wore off.
Hell hath no fury like a Logan scorned…
He hadn't shown up for Newspaper class and she had been relieved, he probably still wanted to talk and she was trying very unsubtly to avoid it. Her article assignment made her wince, it twas almost the season to wish it wasn't the season. How could it be so close to Christmas already?
Duncan noticed her grimace and chuckled silently.
Maybe now Duncan was talking to her again she could get him to run interference with Logan? She needed some breathing space. The other 09ers had started to notice the friction between her and Logan, apparently their little romance at the dance on Friday had muddied the waters with Caitlin Ford and her little plastic posse. She had been glaring at Veronica ever since she had entered the classroom. Last thing she had remembered, Logan and Caitlin had been dating… she was sure that whatever had gone down during that particular break up would be burning up tumblr, facebook and the twitterverse. She'd love to see the Snapchats circulating about her now…
"A mistake? Please just give me a chance…"
Sorry Logan, I'm bitter and complicated… it's one of my charms.
He'd had the combination for months, ever since that bong prank of hers but he had never used it before now.
If I can't be happy… at least I can be drunk… she wouldn't even hear him out…
Logan had decided to enjoy a little happy hour all by his lonesome after the argument in the library. He knew he shouldn't be doing this although his moral compass was as broken with his heart right now. Breaking into Veronica's locker… there would be consequences, he knew that. He was fairly hammered now but he would have to be quick before Journalism class let out.
Let's get drunk and make mistakes… blame it on the alcohol… but sometimes when you are drunk, you can see better…
He wasn't getting drunk for the hell of it, he was getting drunk to numb the hell out of it.
There was a special place in Hell for Veronica… The Throne.
"I wanna get so drunk I never remember you again.." he muttered bitterly as he twisted the combination. "In fact… I'll probably get drunk until I don't know where I am"
She had broken him... they didn't work... not now... he wanted her to fight for them... he loved her... and it was going to crack his soul apart...
His parents were home tonight… he would spend the night in a hotel tonight to avoid his dad. He'd suffered enough for one day, he could take the beating tomorrow.
He needed to get wasted and be alone… he couldn't go back to his bedroom… not with the sounds of her still echoing in his head and the scent of her in his bedsheets…
"I was afraid you would say something like that"
All he knew is that she had put her bag into the locker to keep her belongings away from Caitlin and Pam's five finger discount before she'd headed to class with Duncan.
"This was a mistake"
That Diary didn't belong to this Veronica... it belonged to His Veronica… and it was the only thing he had left of her. Not that he even knew what to look for, he'd never seen it. Logan just knew he needed to read those words… he had to have some piece of them… there had to be something in there to help him get her memories of what they had shared together back.. some clue…
Some proof that the love they'd shared had been real…
"I abandoned you?"
He wished he couldn't feel anything...
He rummaged through the brown satchel until he came across a small green leather notebook.
Gotcha.
It wasn't until she got back to her locker during her bathroom break with the receiver from the trophy case that she realised that her Diary was missing and all she found was a note instead.
All you need to remember is that you hurt me. L