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Chapter 39

So there on the screen was the man who single handedly can take any happy moment away from me at a moments notice, the interview was about him clearing his name from all alleged allegations against me and his lawyers are working around the clock to assist?

How can he even be allowed to around humans? He should be tossed in a cage where they can poke him with stick and study medicine on him.

What the fuck is that even suppose to mean? He raped me, this was a fact one concluded in court which resulted in him being sentenced to jail?

He got out on a fucken technicality but the fact remains he was sentenced to prison the fucking low life piece of shit.

"Shut the fu….front door!" I moaned trying to not cuss.

Edward burst out laughing even in the obscurity of the situation.

"Don't worry about any of this inconsequential bullshit okay? You are here in hospital and we have our beautiful babies safe and healthy" Edward smiled sitting down and grabbing my hand in his.

It was true I had just spend literally hours in labor giving birth to our beautiful babies and Edward had led his team to victory in the Stanley cup.

"I am sorry that you didn't get to fully experience the feel of bliss after the game" I smiled.

"Nothing could ever compare to the feeling of seeing our beautiful babies being born from the most amazing woman alive"

"You are so corny but I love it"

"And I love you Bella, that will never change" Edward said as I drifted off to sleep.

I woke with a start and panic when I didn't see Edward or my babies the room was void of them.

I fell out of bed and rushed outside and then there he was, my wonderful caring husband standing in the nurse station with my little angel on his shoulder while the sisters weighed my babies one by one, all the while drooling over the beauty of my husband cradling out babies, woman were suckers for that shit, I know I was, seeing Edward there holding the babies made him look even more handsome than possible.

"Hey beautiful" he smiled as I walked over and I took my little boy from the nurse.

"Morning" I blushed and then I peppered kisses all over my little angels head while I waited to say good morning to my little girl asleep in her daddy's arms. I stared at the beauties that was my babies and I watched them breath and it felt so wonderful, as I could see the shadows their long lashes cast on their cheeks, or how they would make little fists with their hands when they were hungry, they were so similar in their movements, Renesme would suck on her little fist when she was hungry and CJ would suck on anything he could get his hands on literally, the first time I fed him I was attempting to wind him when he started sucking on my hand while I patted his back, when I switched him to my shoulder he would suck there, he was a very hungry little man. I found the marvel of these little beauties filling our life's so fascinating and tiring, they took turns to cry and turns to eat, and heaven help us when they decided to eat at the same time!

The doctor cleared us all fit a day later and we were heading home, I was freaking the fuck out, but thankfully Esme has promised to help out as much as possible , the idea was great and it sucked.

Why? Fuck if I know, I just wanted my space to try and cope with my little angels alone first, yet I was scared of messing up big time.

"You ready?" Edward asked as I was packing the last of our belongings into my bag, the two sleeping babies were safely nestled away in the carry chairs, Edward had not left our side for the entire time we were at the hospital and he was attentive and loving, he was the reason I felt confident that we as parents were going to cope just fine with our babies.

"What are we going to do with all these flowers?" I asked looking around the room at the hundreds of flowers, it got to a stage where they had to stop delivering the flowers to our room and just keep them on display in the foyer of the hospital.

"We could donate them?"

"Really? Okay that would be a fabulous idea" I smiled and then he left to speak to the nurses to donate the flowers to which ever ward they saw fit.

The whole family came out for my departure from the hospital and I was thankful, Edward had to get special permission from the hospital for our guards to stop right in the entrance of the hospital as it was media frenzy since I had gone into labor.

"Okay, lets roll" Emmett Joked grabbing my bag as we made our way out, Rose was in love with Carlisle Junior or just plain Junior as he was now being called and Nessie is the pet name for my little angel Renesme.

"Hop in" The nurse said persistently as she insisted on pushing me out of the hospital in a wheelchair and then we were in the bright light of day being assaulted by the flashing lights of cameras and questions from the press, luckily Emmett and Edward made swift work of getting my little ones safely buckled in and then I was being helped into a seat.

"Wow" I laughed as we were all tucked away in the SUV and heading home.

"That is an understatement" Edward bellowed obviously frazzled by people pushing and shoving around our little ones.

Nessie woke up on the drive home and I panicked, was it safe to take her out of her chair to feed her? Should I leave her to cry? What the fuck was I suppose to do?

I decided to trust my capable driver and pulled Nessie from her chair holding her the way the nurse had showed me and grabbed her bottle from the warmer, and all in all I was impressed at my ability to multi task so well with her little body held in my arms. My motherly instincts must have kicked in because as I cradle my little beauty I was instantly more alert to any an all dangers that could be out there that needed my attention in order to protect my little treasure.

Edward was beaming from the front seat as he watched me talk to Nessie softly and place little kisses on her mob of hair while she sucked hungrily on the nipple of her feeding bottle.

I tossed the baby towel over my shoulder and with a firm hold on her I continued to wind her successfully which made me beam like a lit lantern.

Maybe I wasn't going to suck to bad with being a mother.

Nessie finished her whole bottle before we reached home and was just dozing off again when we pulled into our drive.

"She is so beautiful" I cried watching her cradled in my arms while Edward came around to help me out of the car while I carried her inside so he could bring Junior in.

"Where is everyone?" I asked seeing no one around.

"I wanted our home coming to be a quiet and peaceful one, I promised them we would call if we do in fact need them" Edward smiled as he led me into our house as a family for the first time.

The nursery was done and I decided on placing both babies on in cot, so after I change and fed them I placed them in one cot and then I watched them sleep while I sat down in the rocking chair next to the cot, Edward took loads of pictures and the next feeding time we did together already working like a well oiled machine.

Our first nigh was organized chaos, we tried to have everything prepared but in the frantic state I was in I decided to just stay in their room, when their crying erupted I was startled and frazzled unable to focus any of my attention to just one baby. Edward came rushing in looking just as distraught carrying to bottles ready for the feeding, we bumped heads as we reached for the diapers and we then we ran into each other when we were grabbing for the wipes.

"Wait!" I yelled and even our little angels seemed to calm down.

"You take Renesme she fed last so she should be okay to wait so if you could change her so long while I feed Junior, then we swop?" I asked and demanded in one breath and then he smiled his dashing smile that melted my hear and very evidently his daughters as well as she calmed down in his arms while I took hold of Junior and fed the hungry little man that just could be fed enough.

Edward was an expert at changing diapers already and after he had changed Renesme he grabbed her bottle and started feeding her all the while singing softly to his little girl, I had a hard time imaging our lives without these little bundles of joy.

The days passed and I was getting use to the demands of my hungry growing little ones, I was a full time mom and at the end of each trying day, Edward would run me a warm bath and pop my ipod in my ears so I could just rest undisturbed, he would sit with the twins and watch them sleep, and then he would wrap his arms around me and hold me till the next feeding time came around.

Being a mom came easily, and I had happy and healthy babies that eat an exuberant amount but they were easy to please, Rose and Alice spent their days here playing dress up with the little ones and Esme would cry each night after she had dropped our supper off and had to leave.

Small things started getting me down, I would put the babies in one cot and then enter the room and they were in separate cots, It was infuriating because I have come to realize that they slept better when they were together.

When I would ask Edward why he kept moving them he would get up and make me some tea and tell me I am exhausted and confused because he didn't move them?

Was this all just my minds way of telling me I was tired?

I would put the little ones in their night wear and sock and cuddle them up in fuzzy blankets and then when it was their feeding times their socks would be gone and their tiny feet frozen cold, they would have thin blankets on them and not the fuzzy ones I wrapped them in earlier.

"We should remember to always put sock on their little feet" Edward smiled kissing me on the head.

"I did" I moaned a little too loud and then he gave me his sympathetic look again that said I wasn't fully aware of what the fuck I was doing.

It pissed me off so bad I wanted to hit something.

Edward had to head back to the office just after the twins had turned one month old and his hesitancy to leave me alone with them had cut deep and hurt which caused the two of us to have a major fall out and him storming out of the house.

"You are being paranoid, you are tired Bella!" He yelled

"I am not fucking paranoid, they are my babies and I will take care of them Edward, go to work"

"I just….maybe I will work from home"

"GET THE FUCK OUT!" I yelled a little too loud causing junior to cry from his room.

Edward stomped out of the house and then I was left alone with my two babies, I spent the day singing to them and feeding them, bath time was usually Edwards favorite but he was absent for this one and I bathed the little ones and put them to bed, making sure to cover them with a wool blanket and double checked to make sure they had socks on before I crawled into our empty bed.

I heard Edward talking to the twins about two in the morning and I crawled out of bed and when I got into the room he wasn't there?

This shit started freaking me out as the twins were awake, no socks and no blanket.

I panicked and grabbed my phone to call him.

"Bella?" He asked deep in sleep.

"Where the hell are you?" I asked

"The spare bedroom, you locked the door" He said from behind me.

"I didn't lock the door Edward!" I mumbled tossing my phone on the table as I put a new blanket over the twins.

"You did" he bellowed walking over to stroke their little heads.

"Were you in here just now?" I asked

"No, checked on them when I go home but I have been asleep the whole time? Bella go to bed I will look after them" he smiled sadly.

"I am not fucking crazy Edward!" I bellowed storming out of the room.

Was Edward trying to make me look like an unstable mom? And why was he doing this?

Nothing made sense anymore I was losing my mind good and solid.

Things went on this way constantly, Edward had Esme move into the house to help take the strain off me and he even moved into the spare room permenantly, the strain in the house was terrible.

"Why are you now staying in the spare room permanently?" I asked getting pretty tired of being alone.

"Because each night I come upstairs and each night I hope it will be different but each night the fucking door is locked!" he bellowed which made me mad, I NEVER LOCK THE DOOR! Just in case I need to get to the twins hastily.

I would dress my little ones and then wake up and they would be void of socks and a blanket, then everyone would look at me like I was a bad mother.

Then I insisted Esme dress them and then Edward would walk into our room and I would be clutching their socks in my hand, and the only reason he was able to walk into the room was because I had the lock removed, he still didn't sleep in the room.

Without any recollection of how I got them or even going into their room to take it off, I was starting to distance myself from them because I didn't want to hurt them or lose them the way I am losing Edward.

And they would constantly be in separate cribs and I would go on a screaming rampage only to get into the room and they would be in one crib again.

I was now doubting my own sanity, I ran through each event and tried to recall things but I was coming up short each time.

SO I jumped into my car and sped off at the speed of light almost taking the gate off the rails as I turned into the road.

I drove endlessly and tried to clear my mind of everything, and tried to figure out what was going on, but I came up clueless each time.

I stopped on the docks and just sat in my car staring out at the sea.

I sat there for a few hours but I was missing my little ones dearly so I headed home, and when I got there they were fed bathed and already for bed.

Esme and Edward were talking in whispers about me I suppose.

My relationship with Esme and Edward was on the brink of breaking.

The twins were being baptized the following day and Esme had to leave to make the food for the people, I wasn't attending the luncheon after because I was at logger heads with everyone including Jasper when he suggested I seek clinical help.

Edward helped me dress the twins and then we put them down for a short nap, they were cradled in their little blankets, socks on, while Edward snapped a shot.

"Come and have a cup of tea with me" he smiled as he ushered me out of the room.

We sat in silence as he made us both a cup of tea, things were really bad, so bad that we had not slept in the same bed in months; the most we say to each other is morning.

"We should go" he said following me up the stairs into the room carriers in hand.

I immediately noticed that Nessie was not lying next to Carlisle Junior and stopped in the door blocking Edward.

"You took pictures of them in the same cot covered and wearing socks just before we left the room?" I asked and he nodded.

"I left the room with you right after?" I asked and he huffed in annoyance as I was blocking him from entering the room.

"Yes!" he moaned finally.

"I have not left you side for one second since we left this room together right?" I asked

"Yes Bella for God's sake!" He moaned stepping past me.

"Then explain this?" I said as my blood ran cold at the sight of our little ones void of blankets and socks in separate cribs when we made sure they had socks, and were in the same crib.

"Fuck" Edward hissed as he looked between the two cots.

"It wasn't me" I cried

"No" he said shaking his head from side to side before he stormed out of the room coming back with his camera to double check.

"Fuck" he hissed again looking at me standing there tears running down my cheeks as I hastily put socks on the little ones again.

"I…"I started but he silenced me with a finger on his mouth looking around the room nervously.

I wanted to panic too but I didn't, I took Nessie and placed her in her carrier while he took Junior and placed him in his, he picked up the two carriers and I grabbed the camera and both the little one's bags as we made our way down the stairs, I rushed to the kitchen to find their bottles in the warmers, before I joined Edward outside.

"I am so fucken sorry Bella" Edward said his arms circling my waist as he pulled me close to him.

I had lost too much weight and I was bony but in lue of what was going down while everyone thought I was crazy no one cared.

"Me too" I cried as he pushed me into the car, I missed the feel of Edward arms around me, the safety they held the promise of love that was there when he held me, he immediately took my hand in his as he started the car and I glanced back at our beautiful little ones and smiled, my first genuine smile in months knowing I was not a negligent mother and I was not crazy.

"I am not crazy" I laughed out loud.

"No, love you aren't" he declared

"I have so much to make up for" Edward said as tears streamed down his face, his shoulders started shaking and then there were gut wrenching sobs coming from him.

He pulled the car over on the shoulder of the road.

"Baby it is okay, I even thought I was crazy" I said climbing onto his lap, his arms going around my waist, as he rested his head on my shoulder.

"I should have listened and trusted, you are an amazing woman Bella, you know when your babies will be waking up and you wake in advance, you get their bottles prepared each time before they even need it, you handle them both with so much ease even when we all were against you" he sobbed

"I have been going crazy with that shit, but I am so proud of you for putting our little ones first, and that should never change, they should always be your number one priority Edward no matter what"

"I promise you that I will get this shit resolved, we are going find the fucker and I am going to kill whoever had the audacity to touch my little ones and hurt my wife, and I am going to take the rest of this life to make it up to you" He consoled….and then he kissed me…..and there were fireworks and stars and my whole body responded…until I heard my little ones wake up.

We drove while Edward kept on looking at his guards in the mirror like he was trying to analyze their moves even if they were in the car behind us.

When we arrived at Esme and Carlisle house ahead of schedule for a photo shoot I was once again nervous about telling them what went down and nervous because maybe they won't believe me?

We walked into the house and everyone fell silent as we entered but Edward kept walking and I followed him to the empty couch and sat down, junior was being fussy so I picked him up and kept him on my chest while everyone awkwardly mumbled their hello's, Edward picked up Renesme and cradled her too him, making extra sure we were all safe.

"We all need to apologize to Bella" Edward declared as his security team streamed into the room at his request.

"Well what are we apologizing for now dear?" Esme asked looking at me concerned, I have been lashing out at everyone a lot lately and he has constantly made them all apologize to me.

"Today we dressed the twins together I made sure they had socks on and were covered in blankets, both in the same crib" Edward said and everyone listened uninterested.

"I took Bella to the kitchen, I didn't let her out of my sight for a second, and then we went back to the room together, when we got there, the blankets were off along with the socks, and the twins were in separate cots" Edward said and everyone seemed to freeze.

"What the hell does that mean?" Esme asked getting up to pace the floor; the security guards seemed to catch on instantly and were already calculating plans in their head to search the house.

"We don't know, but what I know for a fact, is that someone is trying to make Bella look crazy" He said sitting down next to me and pulling both me and Junior against this chest.

"Oh my God, I am so sorry" Esme said coming to me and holding me close to her while she cried, everyone seemed to do the same.

"I cannot even imagine what you must have been going through" Rose said rubbing her big belly lovingly.

"I think we need to do thermal imaging, I think I know where this person is moving around" Marcel said and we turned to look at him.

"Behind each closet wall there is a space at the back, we found this when we did a sweep of the place, when Mrs. Cullen was doing the renovations the boards were open and they lead to the basement, it is kind of like a emergency exit from each room towards the basement in case of tornado's and earth quakes" He explained.

"Do you mean someone is inside the walls of the house?" I asked and he nodded I wanted to throw up so I pushed junior gently towards Esme and hopped off the couch, I heaved but I had nothing but tea in my stomach.

I sat down on the cold tiles my head against the toilet bowl and felt the electric current only Edward could stir in me when Edward ran his hand up my back.

"Someone spent night after night in a room with our babies; they could have been harmed or kidnapped?" I cried

"I know love, I know" he said as he pulled me onto his lap.

Then Nessie cried and I bolted out the bathroom and ran toward her in my paranoia, but she was safe and with Rose so I calmed down before I reached out and took my little girl from her.

"We should not let on that we know anything" Marcel said pushing his phone back into his pocket, all the security guards were gone and he stayed.

"Okay so we go to the christening?" I asked and he nodded as we all made our way outside towards the cars, we strapped our little angels in and then we were off towards the church to baptize our little ones, photographer forgotten.

"I promise you I will never ever doubt in anything you say or do, and from this moment forward I will keep you all safe" Edward promised and I felt relieved knowing that he had a renewed or restored faith in my ability to raise our children.