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totalRandum - the reason she seemed bipolar is because she has been let down by so many people, she's not really sure how to act in these kind of situations. Which also gets explained a little more in this chapter. Thank you for reading!

This chapter is half of my Prologue, so some of it will be familiar, but I added more to it. There's more in the beginning, plus I changed a few minor things throughout it.

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Loving you forever can't be wrong, even though you're not here, won't move on.
And there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody, it won't leave my head.
Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine, but I wish I was dead.
Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise.
No one compares to you, I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side.

Chapter Thirty-Four – Ghost of You

Once I got out of the hotel complex I wrapped my arm around my body, realizing I left my shirt back in the room. I could go back for it, but when I gave our engagement ring back he knew where I stood in our relationship. But I wasn't quite sure that's what I wanted, definitely not what I needed. I just wanted to run back in there and tell him that I didn't mean any of that, that I do love him. I was on an emotional roller coaster and didn't know how I should act. I've been let down so much that my reflex is to run. My father drugged me and killed my brothers, Stefan made me turn into his monster, Kol always did what he thought was best, Niklaus manipulated and threatened me, Jeremy tried to make decisions for the two of us. I never had a stable relationship with men, Damon was the most stable and that is telling you something.

I knocked on a door and compelled a young couple to give me a shirt, then told them to forget about me. I walked out of the motel complex and made my way away from it. Pulling the sweatshirt sleeves over my hands. I heard my phone ringing and looked at the caller ID – Jeremy. Shit, Jeremy, I didn't even want to answer. I wiped away a few stray tears running down my cheeks and I brought the phone up to my ear, "Hey Jeremy."

I tried to choke past the sobs that I could still feel lumped in my throat, "Where are you?" He asked me and I turned around to see the little motel.

"I'm-nowhere, I'm just walking around," I explained quickly into the phone and closing my eyes tightly, "What's wrong?"

He took a deep breath, "I just shot your brother," He admitted and I rubbed my arm again. "Kol compelled him to kill me, I had to shoot him."

"Yeah, I know he did," I snapped back harshly.

He paused for a long second before speaking up again, "How did you know?"

My eyes went wide and I put the back of my hand to my mouth, I didn't want him to know that I was with Kol. I cleared my throat and pushed my hair behind me ear, "Nothing. I just heard from Stefan," I lied and there was a long pause again.

"You were with him, weren't you? Are you with him right now?" He asked angrily and I started to pick up my pace. "Where is he? I'll kill him, did he hurt you?" He ranted and I shook my head.

I chuckled into the phone, "Jer, I'm fine. Yes, I was with him but I left, we got into a huge fight. No one is dying," I announced seriously and pulled at the sleeve of the sweatshirt I was wearing.

"I just don't like him," He retorted into the phone.

I rolled my eyes and let out a deep sigh from my core, "I know you don't, but I can take care of myself."

There was a minute of silence again, "Do you want to come over?"

I breathed out my nose and watched through his window as I walked past his house, "I don't think I can," I said staring at him through his window. "I'm already out front of my house," I lied and I could see his shoulders sink when I said it. "I'm really tired and I sort of want to be alone tonight, but tomorrow we can hang out."

"Okay," He said softly into the phone, "I love you."

I took a large gulp and went to say it back, but for some reason I couldn't find the words to get them out. There was an awkward pause and I cleared my throat, "I'll see you tomorrow."

I hung up the phone and watched him in his room, he looked down at his phone then threw it across the room. I heard the bang and I closed my eyes quickly, I didn't mean to hurt him like that. I vanished away from the Gilbert House and appeared out front of my own, I walked in and heard Damon and Stefan downstairs.

I walked down the stairs and Stefan was standing outside of the cellar and handed Damon a bottle of water. "What's going on?" I questioned making my way over to them and glancing into the cellar and I saw Damon locked in there.

"He's compelled-" I cut him off quickly before he could explain. I honestly didn't want to hear about it again, "I know he is."

I spun around on my foot and started to walk away, "What's wrong?" I turned and shrugged to him but he pulled my arm and pulled me back over to him forcefully and I tried to yank myself free. "What happened to you?"

"She was with Kol," I heard Damon explain and I cringed at his name. I took a deep breath and looked up towards Stefan's face, he looked displeased. "What do you think happened, brother?" Damon's sarcasm bounced off the cellar walls and I wanted to lunge in there and strangle him.

I cleared my throat and brought my left hand up to my forehead and rubbed it lightly, "Where's your ring?" Stefan interrogated and I looked up at him with wide eyes and he was staring at my hand, "I've never seen you without it for the last century."

"What ring?" I asked confused and looked down at my bare hand, the engagement ring was no longer in place. It looked odd without it, but I guess that's what happens when you have it on for so long. I could feel Stefan's stare down on my face so I looked up slowly, "The diamond one."

I took a deep breath and bit the inside of my cheek, "My engagement ring? You mean?" I mumbled arching an eyebrow and Stefan's jaw dropped, "What didn't think your baby sister could ever get engaged?"

He shook his head back and forth and leaned all his weight onto his opposite foot, "With who?"

I stayed completely quiet but Damon groaned from the cellar and I saw his face in the window of the door. "Isn't it obvious?" He chuckled sarcastically and I rolled my eyes at him, "She was with Kol and now it's gone, she's known him for over a century. Put two and two together, Steffy."

Stefan whipped his head around and gave me an accused look, "You were engaged to Kol?" Stefan asked me and I didn't make any eye contact with him and stared at the ground and played with my fingers.

I shook my head, "Not exactly. I don't want to talk about it, especially not with either of you," I looked up and started to back away. "I'm gonna go to sleep," I motioned my head towards the door but banged the back of my heel against the wall. I grunted out a slew of curse words before walking up the stairs. I got to my room and changed out of my outfit and into a pair of shorts and a T-shirt and laid down in bed. I stared at my ceiling until I eventually drifted to sleep.

The next day I woke up and got a shower, I changed into a navy blue dress and pulled a black cardigan on. I put on a pair of short, black combat boots and put on a little make-up and put some mousse in my hair. I walked down the steps and down to the basement, I walked over to the cellar and looked in at Damon, but he wasn't alone.

"Kassandra!" The other voice cheered and I rolled my eyes. "What a wonderful surprise that you're going to be joining us. Please, love, come in."

I rolled my eyes and opened the door, I walked in and looked over at my brother than back at Niklaus. I gave him a bitchy look and leaned against the wall and crossed my arms, "What's going on? Why are you here?"

He shrugged his shoulders, "Hmm, I'll ask you the same thing. Do you know where Kol has taken my daggers?" He demanded from me and I shook my head annoyed and rolled my eyes to the back of my head.

I swallowed hard, "No why would I?" I waved my left hand in the air obnoxiously and his eyes locked with my finger missing the ring, "Where's your ring?" I sucked in a quick breath and didn't make any eye contact with him, "Answer the question Kassandra. Where's the ring my brother gave to you?"

"Nik, do you really need an answer?" I whined and his eyes narrowed towards me and I hunched my shoulders over. "Your brother and I have gotten into a disagreement," I answered calmly and he chuckled, "I gave the ring back."

He leaned back against his chair and placed his hands folded behind his head, "So what? You don't love him anymore?"

"No," I answered instantly but we both knew it was a bold-faced lie. "But he no longer loves me either, not in the way I deserve," I let out an exhausted breath, I was sick and tired of explaining what happened between us.

He chuckled again, "And how do you deserve it?"

My lip flinched upwards into a snarl, "Not how he treated me last night, nor the past century. I can't have him doing this all the time, he's out of control," I answered.

"Well you aren't exactly an angel yourself, love," He winked and I pointed my finger in his face and Damon cleared his throat. Damon and Niklaus started to bicker back and forth about Elena and Caroline, being bad and forgiveness. "Come on, there must be a secret, it can't just be the sire bond. What is it? Compulsion? Manipulation? What is it you say to her?" Klaus asked Damon, surprisingly sincerely and I watched them both intently.

Damon smirked and leaned up from off the bed and looked at him, "I think this has something to do with a certain blonde vampire. I think you murdered Carol Lockwood and I think you're worried that Caroline's never going to forgive you."

"You've done worse," Klaus said and I chuckled.

I leaned over towards him, "Klaus, I can obviously vouch that you have always done worse than Damon."

He smirked at me and I diverted my eyes away from his gaze, "If I've done worse then you must truly be the worst of us all."

"Debatable," I said sharply. I turned my body to face him and raised my voice, "You are quite good with manipulation and getting to someone when they're in a rough patch. You sure know how to ruin someone's relationship, your own brother's might I add."

He stood up annoyed, "You're not so innocent yourself, love. If I do recall what Jeremy said on our little road trip, "It takes two bodies to cheat", Kassandra," He stepped towards me and I huffed out.

"Shut up," I shouted back into his face and he shook his head.

Damon cleared his throat, "If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose. Otherwise, you're just not worth forgiving."

I glanced over at him and threw my head back, "I gotta go to the bathroom, I'll be back," I said and I walked out of the cellar. I walked upstairs and pulled out my phone, I scrolled through my contacts. I stopped and Jeremy's name then saw Kol's right beneath it, I went to hit it but stopped and closed my eyes. I hit the button and the phone began to ring, once he picked up and let out a sigh of relief, "Hey, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine, why what's up Kass?" He answered and I leaned against the kitchen counter.

I shrugged, "Nothing. I just wanted to hear your voice, Jer," I answered back. "What are you doing tonight?"

"Training with Matt, like usual," He retorted back and I smiled.

"Can I sleep over tonight?" I questioned hopefully and he paused, "I'll come over in a little bit or something. I just need to get my mind off a few things."

There was another break of silence, "You mean Kol."

I groaned out and leaned against the counter of the kitchen, "Fine, yes, I mean Kol, Jer. I just keep thinking about our fight. I need to talk to my boyfriend about it," I said harshly. "I'm sorry, I'm being a bitch."

I pushed myself away from the counter and tangled my fingers in my hair, "No. It's fine, how about when I'm finished training? I'll come over there and sleep over, okay?"

I nodded, "Yes, sounds perfect."

"Stop worrying about Kol, he'll be gone soon enough," He muttered matter of factly and I quirked my eyebrow, "What do you mean, Jer?"

I heard him quicken his pace, "Listen, I-uh need to go, but I'll be over in a little bit okay? I love you," He whispered quickly in the phone. "I love you too, goodbye," I replied.

I hung up the phone and walked back down the stairs, I walked into the cellar and Klaus had Damon pinned up against the wall and was screaming at him. "I don't know about any plan!" Damon let out and Klaus dropped him onto his feet and ran out of the cellar.

I walked out of the cellar following Klaus who was storming out of my house, a little too quickly for my liking. I needed to get to the bottom of what was happening, "What's going on Nik?" I yelled to the back of his head. He was freaking me out with how angry he looked when he had Damon strung up against the wall.

He turned quickly and pushed me against the wall by my throat, "Do you know what Jeremy is doing?" He screamed into my face and his neck vein popped out.

His eyes locked on mine and his pupils dilated, "He just told me he was with Matt training." I was forced to answer unwillingly, gasping for air.

He stared into my eyes, "Are you sure?" I nodded, "Well he lied. Kol just informed me that your boyfriend and his sister are planning to kill him with your other brother. Unless you want Kol dead, I suggest you come with me to stop them." He said letting me go and I grabbed my neck where there had to be a mark left behind and I ran up to catch up with him.

We walked down the street quickly, "What's the plan?"

He turned to look down at me as I kept my pace with his, "You can go freely into the Gilbert house. So you go in and lure Kol out so I can dagger him and get him out of harm's way. Make sure Elena and Jeremy don't get to him first, understand?" Klaus barked orders at me and I nodded in agreement.

We walked up to the house, the door was broken in from being kicked down. I heard screaming from inside, then a person in flames came into view. Kol. He fell over onto the ground and Klaus and I just stared into the house. "Kol," I whispered quietly and tried to go inside but Klaus grabbed my arm and pulled me back. "Kol! No!" I screamed louder and Elena and Jer appeared.

I looked over at Klaus who had tears welling up in his eyes after witnessing his brother's murder. I was choked up and tears started to blur everything in front of me and I placed the back of my hand to my mouth and started shaking uncontrollably, "What did you do?" Klaus snapped loudly towards Elena.

I ignored their conversation and stared at Kol's burnt and lifeless body. "We didn't have a choice, he was trying to cut off Jeremy's arm." Elena tried to explain herself and I just stared into the house not comprehending what just happened.

"Lies," Niklaus spit through his clenched teeth. "He never would've gotten inside if you hadn't of set a trap for him."

Elena stared back at him trying to act innocent in this situation, "You said you were going to put him down too."

"I was going to make him suffer ON MY TERMS!" Klaus screamed and I jumped away from the power in his voice. He grabbed my arm tightly in his grasp and I stood next to him still sobbing. "I'm going to burn this house to the ground and then when you try to flee for your lives, I'll kill you both without blinking."

"If you kill us you'll never get to the cure," Jeremy said stepping forward. "You'll never be able to make any more hybrids."

Klaus laughed to himself manically, "You really think I care for an instant about my bloody hybrids? I want the cure so I could destroy it, I would've killed you all the second we dug it up but now I'm just going to watch you burn instead!"

He grabbed his head angrily in pain and Bonnie walked up out of nowhere, "Invite him in!" Bonnie shouted sternly and they both gave her a hesitated look, "Do it!"

"Go ahead, invite me in so I can rip all your throats out one by one!" Klaus screamed. "Do it! Invite me in!" He pulled me into him by the waist, "DO IT!" He yelled. They all stared at him with terrified looks and all I felt was his fangs sink into my neck. He pulled them out slowly and pushed me into the house and I fell onto the wooden floor.

I grabbed my neck and could feel the blood sticking to my fingers. I glanced up at him in shock, "Why would you do this to me? I had no part of this and now you're just going to let me die!" My voice boomed throughout the house and I couldn't see anything around me through my fogged vision.

Bonnie ignored me and turned to Jeremy, "Let him in!"

"Come in," Jeremy muttered and Niklaus fell into the house. His eyes were dark and he was fuming. "Living room! Now!" Bonnie screamed and Jeremy and Elena ran into the living room and he followed.

He tried to run after them but ran into an invisible wall, he punched it with his fist multiple times. He tried to get out another way but he was boxed in, "Witch, you can't do this to me."

Bonnie walked over to him and stared up at him, "You have no idea what I can do now." She was more confident than usual – she was more powerful.

They all started to leave the house and Nik screamed at the top of his lungs, "I will hunt all of you TO YOUR END! DO YOU HEAR ME! DO YOU!" They all left me lying on the floor, dying from a fatal werewolf bite.

Jeremy came running back in a few minutes later and tried to grab my arm but I pushed him away from me. "Just don't," I stood up on my own angrily and put my hands out in front of me to keep a good distance from him. "Please just don't touch me right now," Jeremy watched me intently and I walked over to Kol's lifeless body and sat down on the ground next to him and I heard Jeremy leave.

I sniffled as quietly as possible, looking at Kol's face, which was burned, I could barely tell it was him any longer. I grazed my fingers along his cheekbone and started to cry harder. "Why did you do this to me?" I turned around to ask Nik as he kept punching the barrier.

"I'm not answering your pointless questions," He snickered.

I stood up from the ground and shook my head as I walked over to him. I took a deep breath and we locked our eyes on one another, "Burn in hell."

"It would be my honor!" He yelled after me as I walked out of the front door and into the cool air. I walked around aimlessly until I passed a familiar motel complex, I walked into it and went to a room. I opened the door and walked in, everything was the same since the last time I was in there. I walked into the bedroom and threw myself onto the bed and closed my eyes. I took a deep breath and it smelled exactly like I remembered. It smelled exactly like him, the sheets were still crinkled from him lying in them last. I walked over to his bureau and picked up a picture frame, it was one from when we first met.

The first night I met him, at the 1864 Founder's Party and his family was new to town or so I thought at the time. I wasn't a vampire yet, I didn't even know about them at that moment in time, he was just some boy whom I saw across the room. He walked over to me and introduced himself – Kol Mikaelson, he pressed his lips lightly to the back of my hand. He asked me for a dance, I agreed willingly. That's when they took the picture, I never knew he kept it.

I held it in my hand tightly and a teardrop landed on the frame, I took a deep breath. I went to place it down but instead I threw it as hard as I possibly could against the wall. It shattered against the wall and I sighed loudly. I turned around and looked down at the bureau that was full of colognes and liquor bottles. I swung my hand across the bureau and everything that was placed on top of it went flying.

I looked over at the bedroom table and noticed the diamond ring beside his bed. I walked over to the bed and sat down on the edge of it. "This isn't fair, this isn't what was supposed to happen!" I picked up the engagement ring and held it between two fingers and stared down at it. "Kol, you should still be here. You're not gone." I shook my head and placed the ring back down on the table and laid back on his bed and breathed in his aroma, "You can't be gone."