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EPOV

I know I shouldn't have left her alone. I rushed back to her room as fast as humanly possible. I burst through the door to find my angel shaking uncontrollably with sobs erupting from her chest. The wailing was beyond anything I have ever heard from a human. I could not imagine the emotional pain that she was going through. I wished Alice could have warned me but there was such confusion in Bella's future and Alice could not predict that this would be her actual reaction.

"Bella, I am here. It's going to be ok."

"It won't be ok Edward...You...just...don't...understand..." She was beyond right. I could not understand what she was going through. She has been trying to forget the pain she left here in Forks and was doing so well. What would happen to us now? Would she ever recover?

APOV

"She is really suffering Carlisle. Isn't there anything you can do for her? Drugs! There has to be a drug." I would do anything for Bella. She was already my sister, if not ready to admit she wants to marry Edward. Would this be a time to change her? Maybe if Edward was willing to change her, her heart would not break so much.

"There is nothing I can do for her Alice. We all love Bella but this is something that she will have to deal with." His face was sincere. I knew how much we all cared so much about Bella that if there was something we could do, Carlisle would find a way to do it.

"What about changing her?" I turned towards Esme hoping for a comforting solution to the problem we were all facing.

"She is in pain, real physical pain Alice. If she is changed, it may be something that never leaves her body. She will freeze in form, yes she will heal, but something like this may not be something that she will be able to forget. We don't really know. Most of us remember the moments we were changed. The pain we were going through. Do we really want this to be the memory that she remembers? Connecting the process with James betrayal and the miscarriage of the child?" Esme always had a way to putting things into perspective. I didn't like her answer, but she was right. We don't know how Bella will handle the change or Edward for that matter. Bella has already made up her mind that it is what she wants, even though she still fights it. Edward wants it, but not now.

"Can't we just leave her here and let someone else deal with it? Isn't that what doctors are for?" My head tore towards my sister and if I was not fully concentrating on Bella and Edward, I would have ripped Rosalie's frozen heart from her body.

"Rosalie, why do you have to be so selfish?"

"Died that way I guess" A small smile on her face. She could only focus on herself in these types of situations. Carlisle walked to her side and gently laid his hand on her shoulder.

"We are family, and we do not leave family in times of pain."

"Ugh, she probably deserved it." Anger flowed through my body. It took everything I had inside of me not to attack my own sister. She was always so mad that she did not have children while she was still human but there was still no excuse for her to treat Bella the way she does. I walked up to Rose and stood eye to eye with her. Not my normal, joyous, behavior.

"Rosalie, I understand you do not like Bella but your thoughts are going to make me want to hurt you and unlike Edward, you would never see it coming. Never speak of Bella that way again. Do you understand me?" I was even surprised at the anger that I was feeling towards her. Bella had only been around for a mere weeks, Rose has been my sister for years, but my love for Bella was just as strong, knowing what was coming in the future.

"Alice, you need to back off. I don't really want my sister tearing my wife apart right now. Come on Rose, let's get you something to eat." Emmett would have been the only one who could have held me back from letting my true emotions show towards Rosalie.

"Emmett, take her far enough where I won't be tempted to follow you." Watching the flashes of decision go through Rosalie's mind tempted me to chase her down and throw a boulder at her when she least expected it. My mind trailed off into the room where Edward's pain was evident as him mind turned with the many paths he might take. Destroy the beast that had hurt his love or allow the monster to remain free. Knowing Edward, the latter would never happen.

"Carlisle, if there is nothing we can do to stop the pain; we need to take care of the cause of it. If we don't, Edward will and may not be as careful as we need him to be." Carlisle's mind was spinning with rational ideas that were typical of his caring demeanor. Lead James to the police and allow them to take care of the situation seemed to be the most common future. Nothing that would make Edward feel as though things were appropriately taken care of.

EPOV

Nothing could prepare me for this. My angel is suffering right in front of me and I feel helpless. She sobs in my arms as I control the anger in my body. One wrong move and I might throw Bella off the hospital bed in order to take out my boiling frustration on the wall, the car, the road, and then James fragile body. Authorities would never be able to make identification when I was done with him. He would regret the day he…

"Edward?" Her soft voice broke through her sobs to pull me from my vengeful thoughts. I looked down at her pale face and longed for the crimson color that at one time had caused the venom in my mouth to turn my attention towards the pooling blood in her neck. It was something that I now longed for to bring out Bella's beauty. She looked worn, hurt, in pain.

"Yes Bella. I'm here" I reach for her face, caressing her soft cheek, slowly lifting the tears that streamed down.

"Edward, I…am…so…sorry!" She turned her body aggressively toward me and threw her arms around my back. Her hands gripped as she dug her fingers into back. A human would have cringed in pain from the strength that she was using. Her face hid in my chest as her sobs grew louder as she apologized throughout the heaving. I smiled slightly; hiding my amusement that this feeble human would apologize for what she thought was hurting me as her nails dug deeper into my back.

"Bella, you are not hurting me. There is no need for your apology"

"No…Edward…I am…sorry…James ruined me…"

Red. I only saw red. Before I knew it Alice was holding my face between her hands. I was standing next to the bed while Esme lay in my spot holding Bella. I had flown from the bed hoping to find the creature who forced my Bella to think that she was ruined. That I would not want her because…Red again. A voice swirled in my head but it was hard to focus. I had to find him, KILL HIM…Edward …Tear off his arms and…Edward…no, I will not let it pull me from my revenge. He deserved what was coming and I would make sure he would never hurt another woman…Edward! Alice's honey eyes stared at me as the red faded.

"Edward! You need to snap out of it. There is nothing you can do to him that will make this better for Bella. You need to focus on her. Snap out of it!"

BPOV

In an instant, he was gone and Esme had taken his place. This confirmed my feelings. He must also feel as though James ruined me. Who would want me now? Not Edward. He wouldn't want to be with me, always having this memory. Used, abused, now stripped of a life growing inside of me. He stands there in anger, just trying to get away. My heart is breaking knowing that Alice is keeping him here against his will. I can't keep him here.

"Let him go Alice" The room froze with stares pointed at me. Even Edward turned. There was pain in his eyes. A pain I didn't understand but could only assume he was trying to decide how to leave me and he just didn't know how.

"Edward…just go…You…don't have to be here...go…" My body shook with grief knowing that this could be the last time I would see him. Esme held me tighter and I dug my head into her chest. I could not watch him go.

"Bella" His voice pulled at me. I wanted him so badly it hurt more than the news of the miscarriage. I wanted him to stay but I knew I needed to let him go. I am broken. Please, just don't say good-bye…please….

"Bella…"His voice was closer now. I felt Esme begin to pull away from me and I held on tighter. I didn't want my wall to go. I would be left too vulnerable and might beg him to stay. She continued to distance herself from me. I looked up to find her and I was left alone, everyone had left, except Edward. He stood in the middle of the room staring at me.

"Edward, please just go." I had to say the next part fast or I would never get it out. "Don't say anything else. You have nothing to feel bad about. We have only known each other for a few weeks and I know that it would just be easier for you if you just went on with your life without me. I am just a stupid human anyways and you shouldn't feel obligated to stay around. I will make it through this…" I was numb on the inside. I stared at his beautiful face knowing that I didn't deserve anything as precious. As much as I wanted to will my heart to stop, I just couldn't…I loved him. I loved this vampire standing before me and I had to make him feel as though it was ok that he didn't love me back. I waited for him to leave but he just stood there. His hands were in tight fists as he stared at me.

"I want you to leave, Edward" Was he waiting for me to open the door for him? Why was he making this so hard? "Edward, you don't have to stay with me. I understand. There is nothing you have to feel guilty about. I am letting you go." Slowly, Edward walked towards the bed. My heart began to race as he drew closer to me.

"Bella" His voice was stern.

"Edward, please don't. I'm sorry. You can just…"

"Bella!" His face was instantly within inches of mine and his eyes were intense. "I am not leaving you." He sat down and looked down at his own hands, which were folded together on the bed in front of him.

"I am sorry I reacted so harsh to your words. I do not feel as though James has ruined you." I watched as his hands twitched as he said James's name. I could tell he was trying to hold back his anger while he spoke. "I do not want you to ever…"he looked into my eyes "EVER feel as though there is something wrong with you. I am not leaving you now, nor will I ever leave your side. You are not just someone I could find myself walking away from. Bella…"He sighed and his sweet breathe hit my face. My eyes fluttered with a feeling of comfort and the blood rushed to my face "I wish you knew how much you mean to me. "He slowly inched closer to my face "I am the one who should be apologizing to you. My anger took over and I am grateful that Alice was there to stop me. I do not know what I would have done…" His words trailed off but his eyes held my gaze. At that moment, I was at a loss for words and raised my hands to Edwards face. He didn't want to leave, but defend me. This made him even more beautiful, something I didn't know was possible. I let my thumb gently caress his bottom lip. I watched as his eyes closed with the contact. He face softened and his body began to relax. The pain in my chest had vanished and I was becoming lost in the moment. I allowed the tips of my fingers gently move from his cheek bones down towards his jaw. My hands turned and grazed the frozen veins in his neck. They took their own path towards the top button of Edwards's shirt. His eyes remained closed as a sign of acceptance. Two more buttons made their way open and Edward's muscular chest came into view. I allowed my hands to caress the smooth skin and make their way lower towards his stomach. His eyes opened quickly which froze my movements. One of his hands found mine, but instead of pulling them off of his skin, his other hand was working on the rest of his shirt buttons. In an instant, his amazing chest was in full view and I could barely control the surge of heat that went through my body. He took both of my hands and pulled me closer to him by directing my hands around his back. He rested them there and his hands found their way around my back, gently resting them on the small of my back. He pulled me closer so that our bodies touched. Finally our lips met in a passionate embrace that pulled me from the painful reality that I never wanted to return to.