Im having anxiety- thinking no one like the stories now lol- Just before we start is there anything you want to see?( I mean read) between any of the characters- because this is your story and I like to make sure that you enjoy it- love you all xxx p.s this is going to be flash back central lol of the past 24 hours.

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"Hey kiddo. Happy Birthday....... Don't I get a hug from my favourite granddaughter" Charlie said, he was very excited that it was my birthday. He handed me a poorly wrapped gift- it was Charlie- and I gave him a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

"Thanks Grandpa." I loved Charlie, he was one of the coolest 'humans' I know. Even though he's still on this 'need to know' basis he is still very happy to plod along with what ever happens. "By the way Im your only granddaughter" I said with a small 'fake' laugh escaping my lips- fake as in, I really wished it wasn't my birthday. I wished I still didn't have a weight of worry or sadness forever clouding me. But for the past 24 hours I've mastered the art of hidding it- and I intend to do this for however long it takes- Im happy- as I can be- as long as my family is slighlty oblivious.

"Yeah, well your my favourite..." He said hugging me again. "Bella honey...." He called as he walked through the front door towards my mother, I followed him after shutting the door and placed his single present on the floor under the piano, I had already recieved my gifts this morning off my family.

I took in a ragged breath and made my way into the 'party area'.

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Late last night....

"Nessie honey" two hands placed themselves on my back as I lay unmoved still faced down on my bed. I couldn't move, I lay silent and lifeless. "Please" pleaded the voice, I shuffled over to find both of my parents standing over me.

The just both stood there, staring endlessly..""I know, I know.....Dad im sorry about wrecking your car. I mean...." I knew he would be pretty peeved about the car, but I know that wouldn't be his major worry. He cut in- not harsh- but almost with a disapointed tone in his voice.

"Im not slightly bothed about the car Renesmee." Oh man, he used my full name., "Its you...." He balled up his hand and held them to his scrunched up face. I hated seeing him like this, my mother stood behind him now. Her hand resting on his shoulder.

"Dad......daddy" I said to him, nearly retching back the tears myself. Even though I felt like I was tumbling down into a endless dark pitt I couldn't bare to drag them with me, any of them..Alice, mum, dad, Emmett, Rose, Jacob, Esme, Carlisle, Jasper......anyone!. I think we see ourselves as one unit, and now Im standing out of line it is sending ripples to the others.

Do your fine face Ness, Fine face. I told myself. I had swept these feelings away before and been extremely happy with my Jacob and my lovely family, so why can't I do that again.....Oh yeah I forgot inside I feel like Im a cursed time bomb. Every little thing I do just drags everyone down. My jacob, he could have died tonight...again because of me. No matter how much my world revolves around him as he does to me. I would rather be gone myself than give them- any of them- more pain. From stories I've heard from Carlisle it seems like their lives were much less complicated without me.

When I looked at my mothers eyes, she was staring at something. But not my face, as I chased her eyes down to realize that she was looking at the locket. I then forced myself to sit up, now both of my parents watching me.

"You can sit down" I said to them both, gesturing to the free spaces on my bed. I knew that they could stand there forever but it was going to make me feel more comfortable. My mother sat closest to me- on the opposite side of the bed- and my father sat like me crossed legged, but was on the end of the bed. I took off the locket around my neck and handed it to my mother who instantly took it. He face showed concern- the same as my father- but I continued on with what I was going to say.

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When I walked into the kichen, Esme was icing some cupcakes- for the humans and wolves- and Seth was sat on the counter with his long legs dangling down. "Hey birthday girl" he called as I walked closer toward him. "How does it feel to still be seventeen" he now said with a big cheesy chin on his face. It was hard not to smile when you are near Seth. He is such as big puppy dog that you want to go over and stroke his hair and say 'Such a cute little boy'. So a little smile crossed my recently plain face.

"I dont know, what do you think. Do I look older?" I said joining in with his teenage fun. Esme had now stopped icing and was looking at us, he face lit up slightly she was obvious happy at something she was seeing.

He let out a howling laugh, "Do I" and we all laughed. It felt nice to laugh- for real at least, for the past 24 hours its been doom and gloom around here- thanks to me-.

"So let me guess. Is that you seventh cupcake?" I asked hitting his belly as I walked past towards Esme.

"Nope. But getting there" he said rubbing his belly in circular movements. "These cupcakes are damn great for someone who can't even lick the batter bowl clean. Esme you can cook for me every day" He saluted to Esme.

"I though she already cooked for you every day. We can't get rid of you." I said in more of a jokey tone. "So grandma" that even felt weird for me to say, even though it was true she looked like she could be my sister. "Do I get a cupcake? Or are they all for greedy guts over there" Seth shoved another full cupcake in his mouth. I laughed at him, he face bulged like a hamster.

"Of course you can have one" She picked up a pink coloured one and gave it to me, while I stuck my finger in the icing and scooped some up and then licked my finger clean she placed her hand on my shoulder very motherly before she continued to ice the rest.

on my way out I said to them, "Oh they are totally to ...." I stopped before I choked out 'to die for' possibly not the best words for esme to hear. She was already recovering from her dry sobs last night.

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Just before I began to explain to my parents what had happened, Esme and Carlisle walked in through my open bedroom door. Esme was sobbing uncontrollably- dry sobs- and Carlisle was holding her hand. His face to looked worried.

I must not have been out as long as I thought. Mom and dad must have just arrived with Carlisle and Esme trailing behind. "Oh Esie please dont cry." I hoped of the bed and ran over to her. She wrapped her thin arms around me and hugged me tight. "Im ok.....its ok" maybe not 100% true but close- kind of-. "Im sorry your hunting trip had to be cut short. It's very rude of me to interrupt your dinner"

Carlisle spoke, "You have no need to apologise my dear Nessie. We are more than willing to come home for any reason. Whether it is a situation like this or whether because you simply miss us" He gave a slight smile on that lask comment. I pulled one hand away from Esme and held it out for Carlisle. He held it with his other free hand and kissed it.

"Thank you. I suppose like my parents you want to hear " With my hands I created air quotes- "the story". I could hear everyone else standing outside- all apart from Jacob , I do regret sending him away. I wanted to nessel in his warm chest. He would be the only one I would want to cry with- "You can come and listen to. Emmett, Rose, Jaz, Alice" I also wanted Jasper to work his magic and give me some calming feelings.

They all gracefull came into my room and with that I began telling the full -painful- story beginning from me entering the car with Jacob, to the ending of when I took the necklace and my regret of being slighty horribe to Jacob but also Jaz and Alice. They listened very silently, my mother holding my hand on one side. Rosalie was holding my other hand crouched on the floor. My father had placed his hand comfortingly on my trembling knee, and just as I had wanted one unnoticed look at Jasper and my heart filled with calm.

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"They are totally great!" and with that I left, the rush which I had with Seth was wearing off and the true pain was entering again. I walked right past the room where everyone was. I was making my way to the bathroom when I passed the windows to the back garden. Standing over by the river were Alice, Jake, my father and Emmett. It looked like they were deep in conversation, as a brown blur caught my eye in the trees I saw that it was Sam. What was Sam doing out there?- He was only inside with Emily a moment ago?. I would have wondered this point further if I hadn't of heard a small noise echo from the library.

I peered around the door to find Charlie, the glass he had been holding had smashed into a thousand pieces on the floor but what worried me more was when I saw Charlies position. His whole body was tilted over the desk, one hand was grasping the desk while the other was grasping his chest.......

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Hey I hoped you liked this......?