A/N: Good Morning / Evening All. This is an all Bella POV Chapter. I really couldn't find a way to work in what I wanted to, while including Edward's POV, so I didn't. I doubt any of you will complain because you all seemed to want more Renee anyways, and she plays a part in the last half of the chapter.

Grtchn – have you been watching the new season of deadliest catch? It's been pretty good, but my heart was breaking for Phil on the first two episodes.

Anyways, I hope everyone enjoys!

*I don't own twilight, but I do own this piece of writing I like to call a story, and I own a lot of play-doh, most of which is ground into the carpet of my living room. LOL!*

Bella POV

Charlie left the next day and even though I was glad to have my alone time with Edward back, I think we were both disappointed to see him leave. He had gotten along so well with the entire family that it felt like he had always been with us. I tried not to dwell on the fact that he was leaving, choosing instead to focus on the fact that I would see him again in three months for the wedding.

It was only four days later when Alice was throwing her annual New Year's Eve party. Edward and I agreed to make any appearance for Alice's sake, but neither of us was really into it. We wanted to be in our apartment lavishing attention and affection on each other. It was even harder to deal with because I knew Edward had a bottle of champagne chilling at home and it was practically calling to me. Alice's party was just as big, if not bigger, than last years and shortly after we arrived, we located Emmett and Rosalie in the kitchen chatting. "Happy New Year," said Edward as he hugged Rosalie and offered Emmett a quick brotherly pat on the back.

"I'm gonna go get us some champagne," said Edward as he kissed my cheek, headed towards the bar and I turned towards Rose and Emmett.

"So, how are you feeling Mommy?" I asked with concern in my voice. I looked up at Rosalie and she looked a little bit too tense for my liking. "Am I not supposed to call you that?"

"No Bella, its fine. I've been better. It's a little rough being the only sober person at a New Year's Eve party. If you need a ride home, let me know," she answered in frustration as I thought hard to recall a New Year's since high school where Rosalie wasn't piss drunk. I had no luck. I think besides her birthday, New Year's was Rosalie's favorite holiday.

"Don't worry baby, I'm drinking for two," said Emmett with a laugh as Edward came back to join us, with Jasper at his side. I took a quick sip of my drink and we all looked out to the mass of people gathered in the living room.

"I bet your missing your plaid pants tonight, huh Jasper?" asked Emmett as he punched him lightly on the shoulder.

"Dude, shut up. Alice cannot know those still exist. I have promised her that they have been destroyed," sighed Jasper as, almost if on cue, Alice popped up in front of all of us.

"Bella, Edward. I am so glad you came," screeched Alice. She had clearly been drinking since earlier in the day because her breathe reeked of Vodka.

"We're not staying too long sis," said Edward with a remorseful glance at his twin sister. "Bella and I have plans later."

"Oh come on, you guys can wait till after midnight to have sex," laughed Emmett as he took another sip of the beer he was holding.

"Emmett, shut up about my sex life or I will mention one of the many things I am still holding over you," laughed Edward as we all watched in shock as Emmett actually kept his mouth shut. Rosalie looked over at me in curiosity. I knew this would come back to haunt me one day and she would ask me about it. I feared that moment and I hoped she wasn't pregnant at the time because I don't think I can turn down any request while she was pregnant. If she called at two in the morning requesting skittles, I would probably go pick them up for her and bring them to her home, but I wasn't going to let her know that. She had Emmett for that now.

"Rose, Edward and I finally made it through that entire bag of wedding samples and swatches you sent home with me before Christmas. I'll drop them off later this week so that you can make whatever arrangements need to be done," I said as I cozied up to her and offered a hug. She looked miserable that she had to remain sober, and I suddenly felt her pain, so I put my drink down on the bar in solidarity for my best friend.

"Bells, make sure you bring your trousseau to the office next week for the fitting," exclaimed Alice so loudly that virtually the entire party could hear her.

"Thanks Alice," I groaned at her as I remembered that I still had to pick out the lingerie I was supposed to wear under my wedding gown.

"Don't worry Bells, I'll go with you on the weekend to get it straightened out. La Perla perhaps?" said Rosalie as suddenly all three guys turned around, now interested in our conversation. "Oh stop it. She needs stuff for under her wedding dress. None of you should even be interested except Edward," sighed Rosalie as she smacked Emmett upside the head.

"What baby? I was remembering you in your trousseau," said Emmett as he tried to cover his reaction unsuccessfully and we all laughed at his lame attempt.

"Is this something I get to see before the wedding?" asked Edward in extreme curiosity. He was practically salivating as he spoke, and Rosalie and I both responded at the same time.

"No."

I don't know why he was even so excited, he had purchased several hundred dollars of lingerie for me for Christmas from La Perla and it was at home, just waiting to be used, most likely tonight. We hung around the party until almost eleven and when Rosalie and Emmett declared they were calling it a night, we decided to head out with them. I felt bad for Rose though because Emmett had clearly had way too much to drink. Thankfully she was sober and could definitely handle him.

Edward and I managed to get home just before eleven thirty and for a moment I thought Edward just wanted to get comfortable on the couch, drink our champagne and watch the ball drop from Times Square. Unfortunately, my assumptions were wrong because when I climbed the stairs to our room to get changed from my top and skirt, he had already brought up the champagne, as well as lit some candles in the room.

"Do you have something in mind Mr. Cullen?" I asked seductively as I walked into the room and kept my eyes on him. He strolled slowly across the room, swept me up into his arms and laid me in the center of our bed. "Don't you want me to get into something more comfortable?"

"Yes, I do. I want you to be in nothing. That's comfortable right?" asked Edward as he pulled my shirt off over my head and tossed it towards our closet.

"Yeah, that's comfortable," I said with as a breathless sigh as he began kissing my neck softly at first, then with more fervor. I could feel his hands moving to the waist of my dress, searching for the zipper so he could pull it off of me, which he did only three seconds later. I slipped my hands between us and started to unbutton his shirt haphazardly. When each button was free, my hands immediately went to his shoulders and quickly started pulling the shirt off of him.

"In a hurry are we?" he asked as he pulled back and leaned on his knees. I reached eagerly for his belt, but he pushed my hands away. I was lying in front of him in just my bra and panties, and he was still half dressed. I was getting frustrated.

"Not in a hurry per say, just eager," I replied as I decided to taunt him a little bit and I removed my bra seductively. I watched his eyes widen in lust and anticipation and then he reached his hands tenderly up the sides of my legs to slide my panties off of me. Edward leaned forward and placed small kisses across my stomach down towards my thighs, where his hands still lay. I looked up at Edward and his messy hair was now falling over his eyes, which were alit with fire and desire. "See something you like?"

Edward just nodded his head and began unbuckling his belt as quickly as possible, jumping off the bed and pulling his pants and boxers off eagerly. Before I even realized it, he was back in his previous position on the bed, on his knees leaning back on his ankles, looking down upon my naked form. He bent forwards towards me and we started kissing frantically, his hands running all over my body as I began digging my nails along his back and I moaned in pleasure when his tongue began licking my breasts. The moment his lips wrapped around my nipple, I was arching my back in pleasure, because his fingers were now between my legs, gently rubbing my wetness.

"Fuck," I groaned in breathless anticipation as Edward slipped one finger inside of me and used his thumb to rub my clit. As his movements sped up, my body began thrashing below him involuntarily. It was sheer pleasure and pure hell at the exact same time. I wanted so much more at that moment. "I need you," I panted as Edward released my breast and leaned back to gaze down at me.

"What do you want Bella?" he asked as he reached his hand between my legs and started to tease my clit. I gripped the bed and murmured quietly to myself, trying to express myself. "What do you want Bella?" he asked again as he slid two fingers inside me and began pumping his hand swiftly.

"You," I shouted out loudly, but Edward didn't stop his movements.

"What was that sweetie?" he asked as he bent towards my face and kissed me gently, still finger fucking me, moving quicker now.

"Fuck me," I screamed out, not really caring if all of Chicago could hear my declaration. Even though Edward and I had had sex since my father left, it was always loving and gentle and I wanted it hard and rough all of a sudden. It took Edward only a moment to position himself between my legs, his hard cock resting right against my entrance. He grasped my thighs in his hands and thrust himself into me quicker than ever before. I shrieked in pleasure through my clenched teeth and Edward immediately stopped, and a scared look crossed his face.

"Did I hurt you?" he asked tenderly. I shook my head in disagreement and wrapped my legs around his waist to pull him further inside me. Thankfully my yelling didn't scare him off because he began pumping into my wet slick pussy as hard as he could. I began chanting his name as his thumb began encircling my clit, making me tense up and prepare to cum for him. I glanced up at Edward and he was completely focused on my pleasure, which made me all the more excited. As he bent forward and kissed me harder than I thought possible, I was suddenly overtaken by my pleasure and began to shudder uncontrollably from my orgasm.

Edward's hands moved from my wetness, to grip my ass and he was lifting me from our bed at a slight angle as he kept pounding his cock inside of me. The position I was now in provided me with another release as Edward deepened his movements. He started panting , moaning and cried out my name as he released inside me, with a big grin overcoming his face. I couldn't help but smile right back at him as he collapsed beside me on the bed and began covering my lips in gentle kisses.

'"I love you," I said sweetly as I rested my head on his chest and listened to his breathing calm down slowly.

"I love you more. Happy New Year Bella," he replied with a satisfied smirk on his beautiful face.

The next few weeks were filled with more wedding details, photography assignments and hours upon hours of love making with Edward. By the end of January, I had managed to arrange four more phone conversations with Renee, but none of them seemed to last too long. She was always either too tired or had an appointment or therapy to attend too. At first I thought it might just be that she didn't want to talk to me, but after talking to Charlie about it, he explained that she really wasn't doing as well as the doctors had initially hoped. He explained that Renee had told him that my phone calls were one of the best parts of her week though, so we continued with our calls. Edward had just gone off to a Tuxedo fitting with Emmett, Jasper and Carlisle, so I took a moment to give her a call.

"Hi," I said nervously into the phone as Renee answered.

"Hi Bella," she replied anxiously.

"How are things going?" I was truly stuck for conversation whenever I called her because I didn't want to focus on her cancer; I wanted to talk to her about her. I figured it might help her if I could take her mind off of it, even for a little while.

"Same old shit, "said Renee, sounding tired and in a bit of pain. "I did some therapy this morning, so I'm feeling a bit off. "

"We can reschedule anytime you know," I offered. I was genuinely concerned for her, and I had a feeling that before long, Edward and I would be making a visit to Forks to see her before the wedding. He had mentioned it after my last conversation with her, and it seemed like a good idea, but we just couldn't fit it into our schedule. From the tone of her voice, I knew it was going to have to happen sooner rather than later.

"No Bella, now is as good a time as any to talk. How are the wedding arrangements going?" she asked curiously. I explained to her that Edward was out for one of his final fittings and that we had finalized the cake design and flavors, the wedding bands and a few other minor details. Edward and I had sent her an invitation to the wedding after all, but she had to decline because she wasn't strong enough to fly. When she told me this during our last call, I was actually a bit disheartened. I hadn't actually expected her to be able to come, but part of me really wanted her to be there with us. "How is Rosie doing?"

"She's fine mom. She's only like 3 months along, so she's not showing yet. She should be showing a bit by the time the wedding comes along, so now Alice has to redesign her dress a bit. She always spends a lot of time in the bathroom puking though. I'm not exactly looking forward to that when Edward and I decide to have kids," I said with a slow groan.

"It's worth it Bella. Every single little stretch mark, odd craving, vomit session and pain is worth it when you are holding your baby. Are you and Edward planning to try soon?"

"No. We want definitely want a few little ones running around here, but I think we will revel in being an aunt and uncle for a little while before we start trying," I said genuinely. Edward and I actually hadn't talked about kids in a while, but I knew neither of us was ready yet. Things were too good right now. We talked for a little while more about what Edward and I had planned for the future and Renee started to sound even more tired, so we ended our call. When I looked at the phone, we had been talking for almost an hour, which was a record for us. I smiled contentedly at the phone before putting it back on the receiver and heading to the kitchen to start dinner. Edward came home only thirty minutes later, walking into the kitchen and handing me a big bouquet of stargazer lilies.

"I love you," he said as he offered me the flowers and swept me up into a big hug.

"I love you too. What's going on? How was the fitting?" I asked excitedly as I stirred the pasta sauce that was simmering on the stove.

"Eh, it was alright. Nothing special. People poking, pinning and measuring me. Alice joined us though, apparently she's a perfectionist in regards to our attire too," he said with a sigh. I could just picture Alice shouting at the tailors regarding their suits. I wish I could have been a fly on the wall for that face off. "Spaghetti?" asked Edward as he eyed up the pot I was still stirring. I just nodded my head in acknowledgement.

"I called Renee," I said quietly as Edward went to the fridge to get himself a beer.

"Oh. How did that go?" he asked with concern as he took a sip of his Guinness.

"She's didn't sound any better. Our conversation lasted a lot longer than usual, but she was so tired when we got off the phone, I thought I was going to start crying. Remind me not to call her again unless you are around," I said as my voice cracked a little bit.

"We should clear our schedules and go see her next weekend," Edward offered sweetly as he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead.

"I think you're right," I said quietly as Edward left to go check flight and rental car options. After dinner I called Alice and cleared my schedule for Thursday and Friday of next week. I knew I wouldn't have an issue with her; after all, I am marrying her twin brother in less than two months. I called Charlie right after I got off the phone with Alice, and he was pretty excited to hear that we would be visiting.

"You guys can stay here, and I won't even make Edward sleep on the couch or anything," laughed Charlie happily.

"Can you tell Renee we are coming, but don't make it seem like we are coming JUST for her, even if we are?" I asked Charlie nervously. I knew he didn't want to keep things from Renee, but I thought if she knew we were coming only to see her, that she wouldn't be interested in seeing us. She was stubborn like me in that regards. Charlie reluctantly agreed and Edward booked our flights online as we were talking.

"We'll be in Forks around dinner time on Thursday. Please don't cook anything for dinner. We'll order in. See you later dad," I said with a small grin. I was actually glad to be heading home. I wanted to show Edward where I grew up, maybe even run into some old friends, but I really wanted to see my mom. For the first time in many years, I actually missed her.