Internet Friends
A/N: This is a work of fanfiction. Businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental. I do not own any of the characters from Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha.
Chapter 37
Nanoha POV
Right after kaa-san left, I quickly switched on the laptop and logged on. She's online! Fate-chan is online!
RaisingHeartExelion: You there, Fate-chan?
BardicheAssault: Hi
RaisingHeartExelion: Hi back
*Silence*
RaisingHeartExelion: You… not coming?
BardicheAssault: No
RaisingHeartExelion: Not even for a bit?
BardicheAssault: No
RaisingHeartExelion: Why?!
RaisingHeartExelion: Hayate-chan told me that you got your memories back…
BardicheAssault: I think I did
RaisingHeartExelion: Then why?
*Silence*
RaisingHeartExelion: Do you doubt me?
BardicheAssault: Hayate told you, huh?
RaisingHeartExelion: Yes
BardicheAssault: I don't know…
RaisingHeartExelion: Why? How?
RaisingHeartExelion: I was never with her!
RaisingHeartExelion: It's not what you think!
RaisingHeartExelion: At least give me a chance to explain
BardicheAssault: I know. Hayate explained
*Silence*
RaisingHeartExelion: Do you not love me anymore?
*More silence*
RaisingHeartExelion: FATE TESTAROSSA HARLAOWN
RaisingHeartExelion: ANSWER ME!
BardicheAssault: I don't think I can trust myself with you any more…
RaisingHeartExelion: Hayate-chan and I have nothing going on!
RaisingHeartExelion: Never has been!
RaisingHeartExelion: We are just friends… and family…
BardicheAssault: More than friends, isn't it?
RaisingHeartExelion: Yes… but…
RaisingHeartExelion: We are closer than friends, but not the way you are interpreting…
RaisingHeartExelion: Please let me explain to you face-to-face…
RaisingHeartExelion: It's not what you think
BardicheAssault: It's not that
RaisingHeartExelion: Then what is?
BardicheAssault: I can't trust myself to be with you
RaisingHeartExelion: Meaning?
BardicheAssault: My memories are all messed up…
BardicheAssault: I still think of Jail as my father…
BardicheAssault: I still remember my anger towards you…
BardicheAssault: I still remember that… I'm supposed to kill you…
RaisingHeartExelion: But you got your memories back…
RaisingHeartExelion: You should know how I feel about you…
BardicheAssault: I…
BardicheAssault: I don't want to hurt you…
RaisingHeartExelion: Just as long as you give us a go
RaisingHeartExelion: I believe that we can work this out
BardicheAssault: I don't know…
RaisingHeartExelion: I love you
BardicheAssault: I know you do… I think
RaisingHeartExelion: You think?!
BardicheAssault: Nanoha…
BardicheAssault: It's not you…
BardicheAssault: Never has been…
BardicheAssault: It's me…
BardicheAssault: It's all my fault that you are in the hospital now
BardicheAssault: It's all my fault that you got stabbed in the first place
BardicheAssault: And I… had injured you badly when we fought …
BardicheAssault: Twice!
BardicheAssault: I don't think you will be safe with me… ever
RaisingHeartExelion: So? You didn't remember me then!
RaisingHeartExelion: It's different now!
BardicheAssault: I don't think I can do this…
RaisingHeartExelion: So… you are going to leave me…
RaisingHeartExelion: Again…
BardicheAssault: I am sorry
I just slammed the lid shut and swiped it off the table. I sat there and cried my eyes out. I hurts so much…
Now that Fate-chan is finally back, she is choosing to leave me again… Why?! Why?! Why is she always like that?! Is our love really that worthless?! I don't think I can do this anymore… I just can't take it anymore! If loving someone is going to be so painful… I'd rather not love in the first place…
For the next few days, I did nothing but cry. Ignoring everyone and anyone… including Hayate-chan and Vivio.
-0-
Hayate POV
"That fool! I wish I could strangle her! Why does she always choose to run away?" I said annoyingly.
"Because she's not very good at dealing with feelings." Signum replied.
"She's been this way since she was younger." Zafira added.
"And she thinks that this is the best option… Even if it hurts the both of them." Rein added.
"What can we do to turn this around? I mean… We finally got her back. Nanoha-chan almost lost her life again to get her back! And now she is choosing to leave her! I can't believe this!" I growled in frustration.
"Will meeting Vivio help Fate?" Vita-chan suggested.
"I doubt so, but it's worth a try!"
Vivio was all excited yet angry at the same time when I told her about meeting Fate. "
Hayate-baa-san, is loving someone always painful?" Vivio asked.
"Hmm… Why do you ask?"
"Because Hayate-baa-san and Nanoha-mama always tells me how much Nanoha-mama loves Fate-mama. But all Nanoha-mama does is cry…" Vivio replied sadly.
"Sometime loving someone hurts too. You are a bit young to understand… Let's see… It's just like when you play at the playground. Are you happy?"
"Yes" Vivio replied with a smile. "How do you feel when you fall down while playing?"
"It hurts!" Vivio replied with a pout.
"So, will the pain stop you from going out to play again?"
"No…" Vivio replied with a confused look.
"Love is something like that I guess. When you are happy, you are on cloud nine. When things aren't going as smoothly, it hurts more than falling down."
"Does Fate-mama not love Nanoha-mama?"
"Well… only she herself knows the answer. How about you ask Fate-mama when you see her?"
"I don't think I like Fate-mama… She always make Nanoha-mama cry… And when Nanoha-mama cries, Vivio feels sad too." Vivio said.
I carried Vivio in my arms and said, "That's because you love Nanoha-mama."
"Even though Nanoha-mama had ignored you for the last few days, you know that she still loves you, right?" I asked.
"Umm! But I don't like to see Nanoha-mama cry. She looks like she is in so much pain. Even more painful than when Vivio falls down…" Vivio replied sadly.
"Let's just try to cheer her up when Nanoha-mama comes home, okay?"
"Umm." Vivio replied with a nod.
"Good girl. Let's go see your Fate-mama."
"Okay…" Vivio replied.
-0-
When I opened the door to Fate's room in the basement, Vivio all but hid behind Vita-chan.
"Vivio-chan, I would like you to meet your other kaa-san, Fate."
She looked at us questionably then stared at Fate by peeking out behind Vita-chan.
"Fate-mama?" She whispered.
All Fate did was to stare at Vivio.
"Did you forget you have a daughter?" I asked sarcastically.
Fate was dumbstruck.
"She looks a lot like you, doesn't she? Nanoha always says that Vivio has your eyes."
"I… She looks more like Nanoha…" Fate said with a smile as she walked towards us.
When Fate was standing in front of us, Vivio came out from behind Vita-chan and approached Fate. To our surprise, she kicked Fate in the leg! And it was a pretty good kick too! Her lessons with Vita-chan are paying off!
"That's for making Nanoha-mama cry!" Vivio said.
"Even the kid knows who the villain is." Fate laughed sadly.
Fate squated down to meet Vivio at her eye level, and said, "I'm sorry, Vivio."
"Do you not love Nanoha-mama?" Vivio asked. No reply.
"Nanoha-mama is better off with Hayate-baa-san! At least she makes her smile!" Vivio shouted and ran off.
I just shrugged my shoulders and left the room too.
Fate hasn't asked about Nanoha ever since that day when they talked online... Nanoha hasn't mentioned Fate's name since, but she cried every night when she thought we weren't around.
'This has to stop… but how?'
Thinking back to the past…
"I wonder…" I said to myself and an evil smile made its way onto my face...
"Hayate, what are you thinking about? You are scaring us…" Vita-chan pointed out.
-0-
A week after Nanoha-chan got back from the hospital. We were all sitting in the living room after dinner. Vivio was over with the Takamachis. We were all enjoying the luxury of another normal, non-eventful day.
I was all snuggled up to my love while waiting for Signum to bring Fate up from the basement. I whispered sweet nothings to my love, and she giggled like a kid.
Fate arrived but did not make her presence known. I was rubbing my nose affectionately against my love's when Signum cleared her throat to announce their arrival.
"Ah… Please take a seat, Fate."
Once my love realised that Fate was in the room with us, she just hugged me tighter and rested her head between my nape and shoulder. My hand hung across her shoulders protectively as I looked at Fate.
She looks annoyed.
"What do you want with me?" Fate asked crudely.
"What's with the face, Fate?"
"What are you doing?" Fate asked with a bit of anger showing.
"What do you mean by that?"
"Aren't you in love with Rein? What's up with you and Nanoha?" Fate pointed out angrily.
"Hey, chill. You did pass, so… why not?"
"What about Rein?" I extended my other hand and Rein came over without another word.
Once Rein was in my arm, I planted a kiss on her lips, and said, "Rein belongs to me anyway. She doesn't mind being 2nd."
"What?!" Fate shouted.
"Like Vivio said, I can make Nanoha happy. Why not? She deserves to be loved and be happy. I proposed and Nanoha accepted. We've been close to begin with. We just took a step forward and crossed the line. I should have done this way earlier. I am practically raising Vivio too. The Takamachis gladly accepted me." I replied as I planted kisses on Nanoha's head.
Nanoha-chan lifted her head up and smiled. 'Gosh! What a lovely smile.' I couldn't help but return the smile.
I nuzzled her neck lightly and said, "Just give me a few minutes to finish up here, then we can head back to our room, okay?"
Nanoha-chan nodded her head and returned to resting her head in between my nape and shoulder. Living the dream! A girl in each arm! Wow!
"I don't have much time to waste. I just wanted to tell you that we are officially releasing you. You are free to go wherever you want. I think Lindy wants to catch up with you before you disappear again." Fate just stood there and glared at me.
'If only looks could kill aye.'
"Oh yeah, the wedding will be happening next month on the 15th. You are free to attend the ceremony if you wish to. And you can visit Vivio whenever you want. I'm not going to place any restrictions. You are her kaa-san after all. Even though it's just by blood only…"
"Does Vivio know about this? How can she be alright with this?" Fate questioned.
"She's more than happy! She even gave us a hand in planning for the wedding. We have been a family since the day she arrived, and come next month, she's going to be my daughter." I replied.
"Nanoha… are you sure about this?! How can you be alright with this? You deserve better…" Fate asked softly.
"Why do you care? Didn't you decided to dump me yet again? I'm tired of waiting for you. I'm over it. I have shed enough tears." Nanoha-chan replied without looking at Fate.
Nanoha-chan cuddled my face with both her hands and turned my face towards her.
"Ne, are we done here yet? I want to go back to our room and continue from this afternoon…" Nanoha-chan said and she gave me a nice wet kiss right on my lips… just short of the tongue action.
"Mmm…" I moaned and dropped my hand to her waist to pull her closer for a deeper kiss.
Fate rushed in and shoved me away hard.
"Keep your hands off Nanoha!" Fate growled.
"Hey! What the hell is wrong with you?!" I shouted after crashing into Rein.
Fate swiftly scoops Nanoha up into a bridal position.
"She's mine!" Fate shouted and ran out of the living room, heading towards Nanoha's room.
-0-
Nanoha POV
"What the hell are you doing?! Let me go!" I shouted as I struggled in her arms.
Once we are in the room, Fate dumps me on the bed. I bounced twice before landing on the mattress. Fate started pacing.
"Are you done?!" I questioned.
"NO!" Fate-chan replied through gritted teeth. She looked like she's just about to pull her hair out.
"You know you are just acting silly now." I said as I got off the bed.
Fate-chan turned and pushed me back onto the bed.
"I need to get back to Hayate. Can I go?"
"Why?" Fate asked.
She stopped pacing and kneeled in front of me, and asked, "Why are you doing this to yourself? Is it because you are trying to hurt me?" Fate asked.
"I don't mind if you hurt me but why hurt yourself in the process?" Fate-chan continued.
"What makes you think I am hurting myself? Gosh! Get over yourself will you? Hayate is very nice to me. We feel for each other, so it's only natural."
"But she is already in love with Reinforce. She won't be able to love you whole heartedly…" Fate-chan said.
"Whole heartedly?! Been there, done that. It didn't work out, remember?!" I answered as I stared at her.
"Arrhhh… Nanoha… you can do better than that. You can do better than her!" Fate-chan semi-shouted in frustration.
"Are we done? I've got plans before picking Vivio up from kaa-san..."
"Do you really believe that she loves you?" Fate plead.
"Yes. Can I go now?"
When Fate-chan said nothing, I started making my way to the door. Just when I got my hand on the door knob, Fate-chan grabbed my shoulders, spun me around and trapped me against the door.
"I'm not going to let you leave like that…" Fate-chan said.
She lowered her head and tried to kiss me. I pushed her as hard as I could, and shouted "We are over!"
I tried the door again and failed. Fate-chan spun me around, grabbed my hand by my wrist and held it above my head against the door.
"Do you like, get turn on with this position? Cos this is the third time you are doing this to me…" I said.
"We are never over… As long as I feel for you and you feel for me… we will never be over…" Fate-chan said gently.
I stood there and waited for her to continue.
"I… I love you, Nanoha. I don't want us to be apart… I don't want to hurt you, but you got hurt repeatedly because of me…" Fate-chan said.
"What am I supposed to do…? I'm no good for you… but I can't keep away from you either… I can't stand seeing you with anyone else… You belong to me as much as I belong to you…" Fate-chan begged.
"Please… I really don't know what to do… Please tell me what should I do…" Fate-chan pleaded.
"Just shut up and kiss me already!"