"Babe, slow down." I warned Rob. The roads were slippery and the snow was creating a sheet of blindness. Rob was speeding down US-23 at 70 miles per hour. "Seriously, slow down." I said. Was he nuts?
"Relax, I'm fine." Rob snipped back at me. He was tired, jet lagged and hungry, but that was no excuse for his chippy attitude.
"Don't get pissed at me," I said rolling my eyes, "You need to eat and go to sleep."
"Why do you think I'm driving so fast? I need to piss and eat before I pass out."
"I can tell. But don't be stupid, I'll drive if you want." I offered.
Rob chuckled, "We would be better off walking."
"Fuck you," I shouted, "Really, Rob. Fuck off." I crossed my arms and closed my eyes, "Wake me if we get there."
"If?" Rob asked.
"Yeah, if you don't kill us first."
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RPV
Kristen needs to chill out. I'm not even driving that fast. But does she not understand how exhausted I am? She is sleeping whenever and eating what ever the fuck she makes me get her, and I am staying awake making sure people aren't taking pictures of her. Stocking us or worse..
I have so much fucking shit on my mind that I can't sleep. I feel like there is so much to do before the baby comes and there isn't enough time in the world..
I see our street and I turn on my indicator. Man, these roads are really bad. She was right. I drive down the bumpy road and up our driveway. Wow, our house looks absolutely gorgeous in the snow.
"Hey, Kris." I said quietly, waking her up.
She began to stir.. "Mmmm." My wife looked absolutely breath taking, her cheeks were flushed and her lips were full.
"Look, were here."
She sat up straight and her beautiful green eyes widened. "Oh my gosh. The house looks so beautiful!" Kristen gushed.
I took her hand and kissed it softly. "You look so beautiful."
That took Kristen by surprise, "I thought we were fighting.."
"I don't want to fight. I'm sorry, I'm just tired."
"I know."
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RPV
Kristen and I sat on the couch cuddled underneath our blanket next to the fire place. We had a roaring fire and were sipping on hot chocolate. "Mmm, this is perfect." Kristen hummed in my ear. I pressed my lips to her head and hugged her closer to me. "It sure is."
I woke up hearing sounds of a crackling fire, we fell asleep. I peeked through the curtain out to the lake and I saw the snow covered beach and frozen water. The snow was still falling fiercely. We were going to be here for a while.
I picked up my phone which sat on the table beside us and saw 2 missed calls from my mom, no doubt wondering if we made it home ok, and 3 notifications of emails. This never stopped. Emails from Ruth of magazines and interviewers asking for an exclusive. I always responded the same. No. No one was going to get an exclusive of our personal life. Kristen keeps agreeing with me, saying she doesn't want any exclusives either, but I feel like she might crack after the baby is born.
My stomach growled for food, dang I was hungry. I tried to sit up without waking Kristen, but I saw her eyes open. "Morning, beautiful." I whispered.
"Mmm, morning. Were hungry." She crocked.
I laughed, "When aren't you?"
Kristen rolled her eyes, "Meanie."
"Sorry," I apologized insincerely, "what would you two like?"
Kristen thought for a second, "Well here is the real question, what do we have to eat here?" she asked giggling.
I sat up straight, "Good question, babe." I said getting up, "Lets go check," I told her extending my hand to help her up.
Kristen and I walked hand in hand to our light blue kitchen, she perched on one of the stools while I rummaged thru the cabinets and fridge.
"Well," I said after a few minutes, "We have some water bottles, expired eggs, and month old lunch meat."
Kristen stuck her tongue out at me "No thank you." I thru the eggs and turkey in the trash, "I agree with you there."
I sat next to her on the other stool, "Wanna go out?"
Kristen groaned, "No.. its cold."
"But you and I both need to eat, suck it up mommy." I joked. I stood up and walked behind kristen, I wrapped my arms around her and rocked her back and forth. I hummed an unfamiliar tune to her. I hid my face in her neck and left sweet kisses in between my song.
Kristen turned her head away from me, "What song is that?"
"Beside you." I whispered.
She laughed, "No its not…"
I smiled, "Sure is. Its Marianas Trench's song."
"Well I've never heard it." she said rolling her eyes, "But I kinda like it. What are the lyrics?"
"Here, come with me."
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KPV
Rob led me up stairs to the third floor, the music room. He sat me down on the plush chair in front of the piano. He kissed my forehead, "I heard this song about 2 months ago when I ran out to the grocery store, and I've been practicing on that cheap shit piano app." he laughed and collected his thoughts, he always gets nervous before playing. "I kinda wish I could have written a song like this for you, but I'm working on it."
He took a deep breath and pressed his fingers down. Magic flowed thru him and onto the white keys,
When your tears are spent on your last pretense
and your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense
when its in your spine like you've walked for miles
and the only thing you want is just to be still for a while
If your heart wears thins I will hold you up
and I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
Robs angel like voice sang with such passion and honesty that it brought me to tears.
When your overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
when the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud
If your heart wears thins I will hold you up
and I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you
The second Rob's fingers stopped I leapt out of my seat, "Oh my gosh." I cried. I slammed into his side and wrapped my entire body around him. He held me close to him and kissed my head over and over again.
I looked up to my husband who was trying to hide his tears. I wiped one away with my thumb and sat up to kiss his lips.
"I meant every word." he whispered.
"I know you did." I said, mimicking his tone.
We both laughed at our current state of emotion, "We are such saps now." I joked.
"Tell me about it." Rob said sniffling away his tears.
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I hope you enjoy this chapter! :)
Ive decided that after the next chapter, I'm going to fast forward to Kristen's 9th month.