Ch38: Time and Time Again
JPOV
Time was passing again, i could tell, but I wouldn't let me know how much.
i got the feeling that I was laying in wait, playing the part of struggling newborn.
Playing a part like I used to in camp when Maria-
i always knew this was a strategy to get what I want, what i want.
i knew nothing of a sort! I'm so stupid!
What is it i want? All i want is red and being here is subjecting me to sub par-
Now, now, don't play coy. i know exactly what i want.
Bella! Bella! Bella! i haven't seen her in forever and it's all My fault!
Calm down-
Forever! Forever! Forever! Days, nights! Years, seconds! The sands of time-
Blood thirst- vampiric sand- drinking and drinking.
It's only been five days.
oh, well how many more days till i can see her again? Can't I just kidnap her again? i want Bella! I want Bella! Why am I still sitting here?
Wait? When did I get into this room- Why is Esme talking to me?
Her emotions were caring, it was disgusting-
Be nice to Esme. She's a kind lady. Reminds me of flowers-
No, no, no!
Undisturbed by appearances, only caring about what's on the inside, emotional well being…
Too many long words! Why am I talking in riddles? i-
Sometimes I can't believe how pathetic i am.
so mean… i just want to see Bella.
Lucky, lucky, lucky.
And then Bella was in the room. I had heard her coming, but i hadn't. And she was talking to Esme, but she kept gravitating towards Me, slowly.
It took Bella an hour to move from one side of the kitchen to the barstool next to Me, all the while talking to Esme about school.
Her emotion was a steady warmth that made Me smile and me feel calm, centered.
There was a pause in their conversation and Bella turned towards Me.
"So Jasper, how is the change in lifestyle going? Kidnap anyone recently?"
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