As a UK lass I have not seen the latest episodes (season 4) so apologies if this confuses what uv seen! There is a scene included in this chapter like before which borrows from the show but changes it too. I own nothing. (Also - dont kill me for this!)

Jane pulled back at Maura's gasp and saw her wide eyes staring over her shoulder. Jane turned to look in the same direction and gasped as she saw him. Casey. Elsie bounded up to him and sat herself next to him like the loyal companion she was. He greeted her with a smile and a pat before he looked up and immediately connected with the brunette's eyes.

Casey struggled over on his crutches "Jane. Hi...I didn't know you'd be here today."

Jane could feel the bile sitting near the top of her throat "I work here."

He nodded slowly before he noticed Maura stood nearby looking distraught "Hello Maura."

Maura didn't know what to do or how to react, she felt like bursting into tears, she felt like vomiting, she felt like hitting him repeatedly but what she did do, surprised herself "Casey, how are you?" she asked calmly.

"I'm...okay."

Jane turned to look at Maura, her voice having made her jump in remembrance of her presence. Now as she looked at her, her head was spinning her heart hammered against her ribs. "I'll...uh...I'll just meet you downstairs..." she felt like the worst person in the world but she couldn't speak to him with her there.

Maura swallowed her tears and tried not to let her face show the utter heartbreak she felt. "Ok." As soon as she reached downstairs she locked herself in the bathroom and sobbed until she thought she would pass out.

Jane watched Maura go and all she could hear was the roaring of her heart in her ears and she felt sick. A voice behind her jolted her back into the room.

"I'm sorry that wasn't much of a greeting."

Jane laughed softly and turned back to face Casey her whole body at odds with itself; his vision making her feel both sick and happy.

"Let me start again."

"Okay."

"Hello Jane."

"Hello, it's good to see you." Her nausea began to fade; she was glad to see him especially as the immediate thought she had when she saw Elsie was...

"I said I'd, uh, be in touch when I was ready." He avoided her gaze momentarily.

There was an irrational part of her that wanted to laugh at his avoidance "So, I'm guessing you're not ready." Her guilt began to fade as he reminded her of all the ways in which he kept doing this to her.

"It's complicated...I'm getting closer though."

Jane sighed silently "Okay, so why are you here?" I'm not a toy Casey.

"I need to talk to Sergeant Korsak."

Korsak awkwardly made his way over at the mention of his name "Hi Casey."

"Hi Vince."

Jane bounced on the balls of her feet "All right well. You know, I don't want to get between you and Korsak."

Casey opened his mouth to explain but Jane turned and left. Korsak threw him a sympathetic look and he hated it.

Jane rushed into the nearest bathroom and sank to the cold hard floor, all her conflicting emotions swirled within her, she crawled to the nearest cubicle and threw up.

After a couple of hours of pretending to be ok and trying to absorb herself in her work Maura sighed and plucked up the courage to and speak to Jane about it all. She arrived in the bullpen, however, and could not see the detective. She asked around only to be informed that the brunette had gone home sick. Her heart and stomach both sank and the nausea that she had felt earlier came flooding back. She made her way over to Korsak who glanced at her nervously. "Were you wanting to speak to me Vince?" the older man frowned at her "The day you arrived back to work?"

Korsak sighed deeply before nodding slowly. "You know I told you that he went in for the clinical trials, and I was looking after Elsie?"

Maura nodded trying to shut out the memory of that fateful Tuesday night when she went to talk to Jane and this whole thing started.

"He called for Elsie back...he didn't qualify for the trials."

Maura felt both relieved and saddened for Casey, she knew how risky it all was but she also knew how desperate he was. She left the BPD and found herself sitting in her car outside Jane's apartment unsure of what to do. She summoned up the courage and went up. When she reached the door she somehow felt that letting herself in was too much in this situation and so knocked.

Jane didn't want to see anyone but the knock at her door sounded so unsure that she prayed it was the pizza delivery guy and not someone she knew coming to check up on her; it certainly wasn't her Ma who didn't know the meaning of knocking and she doubted it was one of the guys.

When the brunette opened the door she looked completely broken and it killed Maura. It hurt even more, however, when Jane didn't move out of the doorway, making no space for Maura to go in.

Jane didn't want to see Maura in that moment, she had prayed she would have stayed at work and become so engrossed in what she was doing she wouldn't remember that Jane had said she would meet her downstairs, but this was Doctor Smarty-pants after all, of course she would have remembered. She wanted to see Maura even less than she wanted to see Casey in that moment, she had no idea how she felt let alone what to do. "I can't do this right now Maur."

"Do what?" Maura felt an irrational anger building up inside of her. She was hurt, of course, that as soon as Casey appeared again she was pushed onto the back burner but at the same time she had been waiting for it, expecting it. Wasn't that, after all, the reason she tried to stop this developing in the fist place? Despite everything that had transpired between the pair Maura was still her friend first and foremost and she had hoped that Jane would still see that.

"This...us..." Jane turned her back toward Maura praying that she hadn't already seen the tears rolling down her face. "This...affair."

The word shot through Maura like a bullet. "I came as your friend."

Jane turned back to face her but the medical examiner had gone.