Thanks everyone for your reviews. I know I didn't do so great in the last chapter but today I feel much better and I am ready to write. Tomorrow I will be starting to school again. Just like many others, so I wont be able to write whenever I want to. I'll be busy with school and also work but that doesn't I wont update my story. Any way please enjoy the story and review! Lots love for ALL of you. Aremi -
Chapter 36
As we rode closer to Rohan I couldn't help but feel antsy. The strange look that passed over Gandalf's face when Legolas was holding my hand was bothering me. It was important that to me that he was comfortable with the relationship. Well, if you call what Legolas and I have a relationship. Actually now that I think about it I don't know what we are. I mean everything went kinda fast.
I knew I was in love. I knew he loved me, well I think he does. So what does that make us? Its not like we have talked about it. God, I already kissed him but I don't know if we are together. I'm such a slut!
" We are almost there!" Gandalf said over his shoulder.
I looked up and saw Rohan. It was bigger than I expected. The city was built up a hill, that was so cool. I wonder what would happen if you went rolling from the very top of the city to the very bottom. That would so totally cause and migraine.
" Edoras and the Golden Hall of Meduseld. There dwells Theoden, King of Rohan." Gandalf said. We had stopped riding just before we reach the gates. " Whose mind is overthrown . Saruman's hold is over Kind Theoden is now very strong." Gandalf finished and we approached the gates. I held on tighter to now Gandalf's grey cloak.
Once we are inside I wished we didn't come here at all. Everyone was dressed in black even the children. The city was cold of what seemed like fear or sorrow. What ever it was sure wasn't colorful. The city seemed dead. I quickly looked up feeling someone was watching me and I was right. A woman in the Golden hall was starring down at us. It was Eowyn.
" You'll find more cheer in a graveyard." Gimli said behind Legolas.
" You're right." I said looking back at the people. They all looked up of whatever they were doing when we passed by.
As soon we get on the top of the hill we get of the horses and head for the entrance of the Hall but before we could get in guards come out of it and block our way in.
A man who I think his name is Hama speaks. " I cannot allow you before Theoden-king so armed, Gandalf Greyhame… by order of- Grima Wromtongue." The red head man said.
Frowning, Gandalf's nods he gestures to us to give up our weapons. I swiftly tuck in my necklace before any of the guards could see. I hand over my sword and other 2 daggers on either side of my legs, the guard I handed my weapons to seemed surprise I even had weapons. I turned to watch the others gave up their weapons and smiled as Gimli reluctantly gave up his axe. I was laughing inside knowing I got away with not giving away all my weapons. The dagger that was made for me was hiding behind me tucked in carefully so it wouldn't appear like I had anything there. All those times of hiding stuff from my mom sure paid off. Hey I love that dagger I couldn't bring myself to be apart from it.
Hama gestured to Gandalf. " You staff."
" Hmm?" Gandalf glanced at his staff and looked back at Hama innocently. " Mm. Oh. You would not part an old man from his - walking stick."
It me all my will power not to laugh.
Hama nods and gesture us to follow him into the hall. Gandalf looks down at me and winks. We enter the hall. Gandalf bents as if he was a old weak man that really did need a walking stick. As we enter Hama bow to the king and then walks of to the side.
" The courtesy of your Hall is somewhat lessened of late , Theoden- king." Gandalf says.
" Why should I welcome you, Gandalf Stormcrow?" Theoden says weakly.
Goosebump went up my arms when spoke. The man looked so old and ugly. I was cut off guard when he sharply met my gaze. A slow grin came across his face. That's when I stopped walking. That grin scared the living hell out of me.
That was a nice trick you pulled.
Something in my head whispered.
" What?" I said out loud.
" Stop." I watched as some men started to attack but it didn't take long for them to be stopped.
You will be by my side or you will die.
"No." I covered my ears trying to block out the voice.
You believe that just because I havent gotten to you yet, that that means everything will be alright. The voiced laughed. You are dead wrong.
A slow painful stab was felt inside of me.
" Aremi, are you alright." I looked up to see Legolas holding me, concern was written all over his face.
" Someone is inside my head." I held tried to cover my ears tighter.
Oh I forgot about the elf. I need to get rid of him too. He is making you stronger, you little bitch. I felt another painful stab inside of me.
" No, please." I whispered softly.
They will die because of you! It's better though. You have no future with the elf anyway. He doesn't love you. He will do what you most fear about love. He laughed evilly.
" Be Gone!" I heard Gandalf shout.
The voice was gone.
" You must rest." Gandalf repeated once more.
" I can't. I don't want to." I held my legs to my chest.
After Theoden was brought back all I wanted was to be left alone. A servant showed me a room where I would be staying. Legolas wouldn't leave my side until Gandalf came and repeatedly asked him to leave. He finally left with an expression of pure frustration.
" Are you sure you don't have a headache?" Gandalf said.
" Yes, I have a headache. There! Happy?" I said angrily.
" There is no need for you to talk back."
" I'm sorry." I said.
After a few moments of silence I broke the silence.
" Gandalf, could you be honest with me?" I asked calmly.
" Of course my dear girl." Gandalf smiled.
" How do you feel about me and Legolas? Do you think it's a mistake what we are doing? Do you think there is a future?" I asked. I wasn't too sure I wanted to hear the answers.
The smile that was on Gandalf's face faded slowly.
" It's not my place to say." Gandalf finally answered as he walked to a window.
" Why?" I asked as I watched him closely.
" I'm not a family member or anyone of such importance." Gandalf sighed.
" You are to me. I see you as my 2nd grandfather. I actually make that 3rd. I forgot I have another grandfather in Mexico. I haven't seen him since I was 8 years old. Okay I see you better as 2nd grandfather since my grandfather in Mexico is never there for me." I smiled as his confused expression. " The point is that I see you as my grandfather even though I already I have one."
" Ah." I smiled and turned back to the window.
" Are you going to answer me then?" I crossed my legs on the bed.
Gandalf sighed again and walked sat down on the chair in front of me.
" It's hard to explain."
" So try." I said.
" Very well." Gandalf said. " I see you as a granddaughter I never had. I've told you this before. I guess I believe over protective of you, now that I know that Legolas and you are together."
I felt a 'but' coming on.
" But, feelings of over protectiveness aside. I don't believe it's a good idea for you to get involved with Legolas."
" Can you explain why?"
" You home isn't here, Aremi. As much as you fit in and love everyone here. You will never be truly happy here. I know this and I accept it. Once this is all over you will go back to your family and a world you belong." I felt my throat start to tighten. " You will leave here with a broken heart." Gandalf said sadly.
I was silent for a moment.
" What if I were to stay? I could stay." I managed to let out.
" You will still have a broken heart."
" What? How? I would be staying to be with Legolas wouldn't I?"
" Legolas is an elf." Gandalf said.
" Yeah I know that, Gandalf. I'm not that stupid." I said angrily.
" You don't understand, my dear girl." He laid his hands upon mine. " He will live for a thousand of years but, you. You will fade away and Legolas will be left behind. He will die of a broken heart, if he were to loose you."
" But what about the prophecy? The prophecy said I had to fall in love and give in before the end. If not, it wouldn't be fulfilled. I cant just fall out of love and fall in love with another with the snap of my fingers!"
The voice that had tortured me only a few hours ago came crawling back in memory. It had said that Legolas would do me wrong. That the fear I had about love would happen with Legolas. My blood boiled just thinking about it.
I had promised myself a long time ago that I wouldn't fall in love because I knew better but now I had broken that promised and I would get hurt just like the others. I couldn't let that happen.
I looked at Gandalf trying to find some answer then I saw it.
" You think I should distance myself from my Legolas, don't you?" I looked at him straight in the eye.
" Yes." Gandalf answered.
" Okay, I trust you." I nodded.
" Do you think that it's wise to listen to a old man that has never fallen in love?" Gandalf asked.
" Yes. I know that you are right. I mean I somehow let my guard down with Legolas but that doesn't mean I can't do it with someone else, right? I mean how hard is it to fall in love with someone?" I tried to force a smile.
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For the past hour I kept sinking around the Golden hall trying to avoid everyone. I didn't want to talk to anyone at the moment. The only person I could actually stand to talk was Gandalf and he was with Theoden in the tombs. Gandalf asked me if I wanted to talk but I felt it wasn't my place to be there.
I was standing in the middle on the hall when I heard light footsteps approaching. I quickly tried to hide behind one of the pillars before I was seen but it was too late.
" Aremi, why won't you let me close to you?" I was surprised when I heard Legolas' voice echo in the hall.
" Shit!' I hissed.
" Please, talk to me." Legolas said.
I took a few breaths and finally stepped out of the pillar and into the middle of the hall. Suddenly all the emotions that I was trying to forget came flooding back as soon as I saw him.
" Here I am. What did you want to talk about?" Asked without emotion.
" Why are you avoiding me? Why didn't you want me to be with you?" Legolas started to walk towards me but I backed away. As soon as he saw this he stopped walking and looked hurt. " What's wrong?"
" Nothing is wrong. I just finally realized some things." I answered.
" Tell me what's wrong." Legolas said.
" I already told you. Nothing is wrong. Why do you keep insisting that something's wrong?"
" I know you. Something was hurting you a few hours ago but I don't know what it was since you ran away from me." Legolas said upset.
" You don't know me Legolas! Do act like you do when you don't!" I said angrily.
" I know you better than you know yourself!"
" Oh really, is that so? What I'm I thinking now, huh?" I said sarcastically.
" Aremi, don't act like this." He quickly walked towards me and hugged me.
" Get away from me, Legolas." I pushed him away.
" Please tell me what's the matter."
" What's the matter is that everything is so confusing!" I yelled. I turned my back on him and took and deep breath. " Legolas, what are we?"
" I don't understand." I felt him approach me.
" I mean, what is our relationship. How do you feel about me?" I turned to look at him.
" I love you, I thought that was clear." Legolas said smiled as he grabbed my hand and kissed it and held it to his chest. " Do you love me?"
I took a deep breath knowing what I needed to do.
" No, I don't." I finally answered.
I watched as his face turned from happiness to hurt.
" Why are you lying to me?" He held on tighter to my hand.
I tried to pull away knowing I would burst into tears soon because I knew I was hurting him.
" I'm not lying." I heard as my voice cranked.
" You're lying. I could see it in your eyes. I could hear it in your voice."
" Legolas, let go." My throat was starting to close and hurt.
" I promised you I would never let you go. Do you remember?" Legolas asked.
" Yes I remember." I vision was starting to blur. " Legolas, I have to go." I tried to pull away but he wouldn't let me.
" When you told me you loved me, was that a lie?" Legolas asked angrily. His hold on my hand was starting to hurt.
" Legolas, you are hurting me." Tears were sliding down my face.
" Please answer the question, Aremi. I need to know."
" You know why I wouldn't tell you?"
He nodded.
" Its because it doesn't matter! We don't belong together!"
Before I could blink he kissed me. I tried to push him away but he wouldn't move. He kept on kissing me. I sobbed but he wouldn't let me go. All the pain and thoughts that were going through my head suddenly stopped when I kissed him back. He made me forget everything but us. He made feel like everything was alright when it really wasn't.
After running out of breath we ended the kiss.
" Amin mela lle." Legolas whispered in my ear.
My body sent tingles all over my body. He was what I needed but I knew I could have him. With the last ounce of energy I had, I managed to pull away from him. His fingers brushed against my cheek and I almost went back into his arms.
" We can't." I whispered.
Legolas opened his mouth to say something but before he could Gandalf bursts into the doors with a boy in his hands.
" Aremi, I need you to go down to the tombs. There is a girl who will not get off her horse. I need you to get her." Gandalf said. " Legolas, I need you to get Eowyn."
Legolas turned to say something to me but I quickly headed out of the hall.
" Gandalf has the best timing." I said out loud as I ran down the hill.
I spotted Theoden by a horse with the little girl still on top of it. I quickly ran over.
I smiled at Theoden.
" No luck?"
" Not all." He returned my smiled but it was forced. His eyes were red. You could tell he was crying before.
" You could head up if you want. We'll be right."
He hesitated.
" Are you sure?"
" Yes." I smiled.
" Very well then." He turned and left.
I looked up at the girl and was shocked by what I saw. This girl looked just like one of my cousins. She had the same dirty blonde hair and some other features.
" Hi, what's your name?"
" Freda." Freda said afraid.
" That's a pretty name. I once knew a Freda but she wasn't really nice." I wasn't lying about that. " My name is Aremi by the way, if you wanted to know."
Freda was only silent.
" Don't you want to get off that horse? I bet you are sore from traveling for along time."
Freda quickly turned to look at me.
" How do you know that we have been traveling along time?" Freda asked.
" Anyone could tell. You seem tired and your bother seems that way too." I said.
" Is my bother going to be alright?" Freda asked.
" Yes. He is being looked at just as we speak. Do you want to stay up on the horse until your bother gets better?"
" No." Freda shuck her head.
" So do you want to get off?"
" I'm afraid of jumping off and I don't know how to get off." She said shyly.
I couldn't help but laugh.
" It isn't funny."
I soon stopped laughing.
" Sorry, but I have the same problem. I don't know how either and I'm afraid to jump off." I smiled up at her. " But I could help you off the horse if you like."
" I would like that." She smiled.
I got her around the waist and pulled her off the horse. She gasped once I put her on the ground.
" What's the matter? Are you hurt?" I quickly checked her over.
" You are her. You are going to save us all." She pointed at me.
" What?" I asked confused.
She reached over and held my necklace.
" You are the Child of the Light." Freda said happily. " You are going to make everything alright."
" Wow, no pressure then." I smiled slightly.
" Can you fly?" Freda asked all of a sudden.
Oh wow.
" No I cant fly but I could do other things." I smiled down at her.
" Like what?" Freda asked jumping up and down.
" I'll show you once we are inside. It's cold out here and I don't want you to get sick." I grabbed her hand and the reigns of the horse and headed to the Golden Hall.
" I'm so happy that you are here. I always knew the Child of the Light was going to be beautiful."
Wow I really like this kid.