Mephitic Dreams - A Sesshomaru Romance
"This body no longer left like mine. It didn't matter that I held my breath with fear, but still I kept living on. I knew that food was no longer needed, that human feeling that forced one to consume to survive. Smells, things I never smelt before wafted on the breeze outside of the cave. My only consolation was that in the back of the cave my younger half went through pains of over poisoning. Something her body was no longer used to. My poor sister..."
"Has it always felt like this? Every time...?" Lore's breath was heavy and ridged. After giving her the life Rem cared for so much was given over, Rem was left bereft of feeling.
"You're lucky... The first time is always the worst. You already have this poison in your veins and can fend off the worse of it. I have never been so lucky. Whether it is the first time or the last, my body will always near death. This time I already carried most of the toxins negative aspects threw... you just have to bare threw the last dredges of pain.
"What do you purpose, sister?" Lore sat down that smug look never leaving her face. I took in one of the last deep breaths I would have to take.
"You want what I have, life. I am willing to give you that, but for a cost. You paid a cost for saving me, now you can pay with me for regain it." The bleeding had slowed and only the taste of it remained in my mouth. "Sesshomaru... if you want to live like a normal human, you have to prove to him that you are me. He has to see you and he does me. Lie, cheat, do whatever you have to, but in one fort night, if you have not become the human that you were and take away what is mine when given the open chance, you have to return here and give me back what I have clearly earned." I couldn't help but feel like I had sealed my own fate when she looked back at me with those confident eyes.
"And you, Rem? What of you? Do you enjoy being a Breathless One?" Even in the backlash of poisoning she had a biting comment for everything.
"I fell... lifeless." It was the only thing she could think of to describe the feeling that Lore had felt for so long. "I pity you... having to have lived this way. I do feel sorry..." Lore spat on the ground, her convulsions becoming less and less.
"Save your pity." In this lifeless empty body Rem felt the emotions in Lore voice. Where before they had been as void like she was now, they had the power to convince with emotion.
"So... if you are no longer what I am now, I have everything you had?" Lore nodded, fighting with the life she now carried, Rem's life, to refrain from moving against her own will. Something that she had always been in control of. "No wonder you wanted out of your own body. So free from everything that it's painful, it's like I'm going to pass the wheel at any moment. I am afraid..." Rem realized that she spoke frankly like Lore had before and understood why Lore had hated her so much. She was amazed that this hatred couldn't have giving life with the power behind it all.
"You have to hurry. Sesshomaru will turn the world upside down for me. He will worry. Go!" Rem turned her back and fiddled with the odd trinkets that adorned the cave so close to the Estate. She wondered how she had never felt Lore before this, but she already knew. Together their existence cancelled each other out; Never knowing truly of the other, but always aware.
"It won't be you he turns the world apart for anymore. It will be me." Rem knew she should be angry, in the moment if she had been herself she'd have beaten Lore with every ounce of power she had. But now there was nothing. Rem could not even weep. "I hope you enjoyed your life Rem. I will enjoy the rest of it for you..." Lore stepped into the light and cried for things she did not understand. Even the light loved her, it lit her whole being up like a beacon of hope and there Rem stayed; in the shadows.
Alone. Completely alone. And if things went in Lore's favour Rem would be this way for eternity.
"You are too cruel Fate. Too cruel to people." And Rem sat down in the chair Lore had occupied with fingers laced together.
"The light is so warm... these sounds are so... hollow though. I cannot smell the things I did once. I feel vulnerable. I feel that at any moment I will die here..." Lore stopped outside the gate and leaned on the place Rem had only hours before, unaware. "It can feel deaths little harbingers in the shadows, but I don't know if my time is now or not, before I would have known. Before I knew I was not able to be carried away by them. I am afraid of what I can no longer see." Unsure of things as simple as balance on the earth and feel of pebbles underfoot that when the little toad demon and servant of Sesshomaru came to her she almost jumped out of her skin.
"Rem! Where did you go? Why are you out here like this?" He pulled at the clothes Rem had once worn and Lore yanked them back. She knew this little demon was Sesshomaru's favored servant, but she hated it when pulled at her. Jaken's little hands were too similar to Hell's Pallbearers.
"I'm sorry. Forgive me. I have felt unwell. I think I need to rest." Jaken returned his hand to his side and puffed up with 'Rem's' lack of politeness then stalked off and waited by the door. Lore couldn't understand how her sister allowed this little demon's gangly and gross fingers ever to touch her, but for the sake of taking back like, Lore would make do.
Such a beautiful estate... Lore passed the Inner gate and gazed with new eyes what things she would enjoy.
"Take heed, Lore; I will be watching you. If for a moment, you destroy the happiness in that home once you enter it, I will take back what I have temporarily gifted you with and make sure neither of us can live."
"Already used to such a delicate art are we? Get used to it, because you will have a long time to enjoy it, sister." Lore stepped through the threshold and into the estate, Sesshomaru was not waiting for her. You seem to put too much faith into your little demon, Rem.
"Jaken. Where might I find Sesshomaru?" Jaken paused a moment and watched Lore with a glance of appraisal.
"Perhaps in his study... Why?" She did not answer and took towards the stairs. To Lore, Jaken was not someone she had to compete with, just Sesshomaru.
As Lore walked down the halls she did not know, she stopped at an open door. She could no longer feel impressions left by people just by touching them like she could before. Having lost her faculties to Rem, she would have to maintain the aura of Rem until she could mimic her without fail. Research was need.
"The room which you will sleep is the fourth last door on the left of the third floor. You will find Sesshomaru mostly in his study which is the last door on the same level. I will give you the basic to win like layouts and such, but the rest is up to you."
Lore scoffed. You're literally giving me everything I need to win. Fool. She took Rem's advice and proceeded to the bedroom then choked. The poison still had not run its full coarse so she would have to rest.
"This... this is your room? You sleep with him! The same room... have you no shame sister? Mother is burning even in hell." Lore pressed her-self to the wall, like everything in the room was a concealed weapon that could kill.
You will and sleep with the Lord of the West lands, a demon of frightening power and you do this without care? Do you not fear from your life here? There is no servants other than that little cretin... how do you eat, how you live with no contact with your fellow man? You have no contact with the outside world! Even while dead I never laid with demon! You cast you fate to the wind and survive? How!?
"Because I live sister, is why I do things you do not. You said so you're self, we are polar opposites, destined to forever to oppose each other. Do you know why I gave you that chance to live, not without confidence at all... Because I live and you do not. Where you covet I cherish with every breath. I gave you that task to be loved and live in the world as I can. Do you not know why? As you explained already you can do what I cannot and I can what you cannot. So me being able to live, survive and be loved in the living world, does that not mean you will just repeat the life you already had?
"I live, so you must die."
"I will survive while you will perish."
"And I will love Sesshomaru where you cannot."
Then why offer up your life at all? Why? Lore laughed at her sisters failing attempts to shake her nerve. Who is the fool now? And when Rem replied, Lore fell silent and suddenly as unconfident as Rem.
"Because... if he will love you than I have no reason to take back this life. And he he does not fall for you, then I will have all the motivation to find you. Destory yu and take back what is mine. I will be coming for you Lore."