Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters used in this story. Stephenie Meyer and Eric Kripke own them. I am merely having a little fun with them. I do not own Charmed either. Throughout my story some of Bella, Ian and Nick's powers may seem Charmed-like since that is one of my all time favorite shows also. So just wanted to put that disclaimer in here too…that I don't own it either!

Chapter 35

EPOV

As we headed to our destination, so many thoughts were running through my brain. I had calmed myself from my outburst because Charlie was giving me a look through the review mirror that said to hold it together.

And he was right.

I needed to hold it together…for Bella…for CJ.

The last thing they needed from me right now was for me to be weak. I always thought I was so strong…but I'm not. Weak…that is all I have been. No more. It's time for me to be strong for my family.

Family.

I could taste things I had always wanted and never dreamed I could have.

Wife.

Child.

Family.

They were all within my grasp if I could get my shit together. "Charlie? Can you go any faster?"

"Edward, I am…I am."

"How is she Edward?" Carlisle asked me from the front passenger seat. He came with us to monitor Bella's condition since she was the worst.

"She's still out…but breathing…barely. We just have to…hurry. Has anyone talked to Rose and Emmett?"

Charlie nodded. "Jasper spoke with them. CJ is…upset to say the least. The little guy is freaking out."

"Of course he is. Is mother is dying and he's not here to do anything about it."

"Yes, and he's picked up some bad habits from his father…such as blaming himself for things that he has no control over," Carlisle added.

I shrugged. I couldn't help it. I just feel that certain things are my fault. Especially when I act like an idiot.

But I had to push those thoughts out of my mind now.

All that mattered was my Bella. I had to get her to our son so he could save her.

Our son.

That sounded so damn good. I was going to make Bella see that I was good for her. I could be good for her.

I had not made up my mind 100%.

I'm not a monster. I couldn't be to have such a sweet boy as CJ as my child. I do deserve this. Deserve them…I helped to create him.

Bella started coughing again as she was trying to speak. I shushed her and put my finger to her lips. "Love, don't try and talk. You're too weak baby."

She shook her head.

Stubborn as ever.

"Edward…I…just…need…you…to…know…that…nomatter…what…happens…and…how…pissed…I…am at you…right now…I love you…always…have…always…will."

"Oh baby I love you too…so damn much. We'll figure this out."

But she had already lost consciousness again and I feared that she didn't hear what I had told her.

We finally arrived to the safe house and everyone started scrambling out of vehicles. I had Bella in my arms, carrying her bridal style.

CJ ran out and ran past me. He gave Dean a pained look and for the first time I could hear his tiny thoughts.

I can't save both of them at the same time. I have to save Mommy. I hope Daddy Dean understands. And I hope Daddy Edward doesn't think I'm a bad person if Uncle Sam dies because I was selfish and saved Mommy first.

I thought back to him.

CJ I would never think less of you, son. Please save your mother. She is our life.

Even with all the drama and the traumatic things going on, that little boy had the biggest smile on his face.

He knows. He called me son. Maybe he does love me.

We would be having a discussion once Bella was better. A family discussion…how could he not think I loved him? What exactly has Bella told him for the last three years? I still have so many questions…questions I hoped to get the answers to.

CJ went to work on his mother. "I'm gonna make it better momma. I'm gonna make the pain go away."

Carlisle was beside him encouraging him.

I could see their bond was strong.

Charlie was holding Bella's hand. I just stood back and watched my son work. He had his hands over her and the sparkling lights were coming from his hands to heal but she wasn't waking up.

"Why isn't it working?" Charlie asked Carlisle.

"Because she almost died…that's why. She's very weak. It's going to take a minute."

"Look, I love Bells, you know I do…but Sammy doesn't have a minute guys. What do we do?"

Carlisle moved and went to work on Sam some more trying to help until CJ could get to him.

"I have an idea. Why don't you lay Uncle Sam next to Mommy and then I can put one hand over each of them."

"That's brilliant little dude," Dean told him.

"No!!" I screamed. "Bella needs healed now. You can't take half of your power away from her. It's not right."

"It's not right to let Uncle Sammy die either you know? I know it's what Momma would want so I'm going to do it."

Well he definitely has his mother's stubbornness.

Dean brought Sam over and placed him beside Bella and CJ went to work. I was amazed at him. Sam came to first…his injuries were less than Bella's. Dean and Emmett helped him into the house while we waited.

Bella finally opened her eyes and started coughing and sat up.

Carlisle told her to take it easy. He explained she is going to need bed rest for several days to build back her strength. She was weakened to begin with by using all of the power that she was against Lilith and then her injuries on top of that had weakened her greatly.

I breathed a sigh of relief though. She was alive. My Bella was alive.

I scooped her up ignoring her protests and took her to the room in the safe house that Carlisle told me to so that she could get that bed rest.

I was told she would need to be brought blood and human food until she gets her strength back up. I will personally be taking care of her.

I placed her in the bed. But I couldn't leave. I lay down with her and cradled her in my arms. "Edward, you can go."

"Bella, I know you are pissed at me and probably will never forgive me…but please…I almost just lost you again…please let me hold you. Please let me stay?"

"Fine Edward…but I'm only allowing it because I'm too tired to fight you."

"Thanks love."

"Whatever, and don't call me that."

The door opened and the tiny little boy that I now knew was my own entered the room.

"So you know…don't you? You know you're my daddy?"

"Yes."

"And?"

"And what buddy?"

He bit his little lip and looked down bashfully. So much like his mother. But right now it was like looking at him for the very first time and I couldn't believe how stupid I was.

He does look just like a perfect mix of Bella and me.

So perfect.

"And…how do you feel about that? Do you want to be my Daddy? Do you want to get to know me? Why did you leave me and Mommy? Why didn't you come back sooner? Is it something I did wrong? Did you not want to be a Daddy? What can I do to make you stay?"

The flood gates opened and his shyness went away and he was firing questions off at me that I had to put my hand up and stop him.

"Whoa little buddy, slow down. I can only answer one at a time…and really I think we should discuss them later…at a better moment."

I nodded down to Bella so he would know what I was talking about.

"Oh of course Daddy. I'll just leave so Momma can get her rest."

He turned to go out the door. I climbed down from the bed and left Bella there sleeping.

I stood about 5 feet away from my son. "What did you say?"

"I said…I'll leave and let Momma get her rest."

"No, before that."

"Oh, I said of course Daddy. It is ok…if I call you Daddy…right? I mean you are my dad."

My face broke out in the biggest, most, magnificent grin ever known to man. I loved hearing that word from his lips.

"Of course it's ok!" I ran to him and scooped him up in my arms and spun him around. He was giggling. I loved that sound.

"Say it again."

"Daddy."

"Again."

"Daddy."

"One more time."

"Daddy…this is getting old."

"Nope, it will never get old. And I want you to say it often."

He wrapped his tiny arms around my neck and gave me one of the tightest hugs I think I've ever had in my life.

"I love you Daddy. And I know you have a good reason for leaving and being gone so long…I just know it. I love you so much Daddy."

"I love you too CJ, I love you too."

A/N…Okay guys sorry this is short but I barely got it out. And I don't have a sneak peek because I just have too much to do. I hope to hell you will just review because you love me lol. Next update Monday!