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Clary's POV

When Jace woke up just his slight movement woke me up as well.

I felt like a brick. I felt stiff and heavy. That may have just been my heart.

"I didn't mean to wake you up. Sorry" he said

"It's okay. I don't need to sleep all day now do I" I joked lightly

"We could if you wanted" he said

The thought was tempting, but I knew that I would need to talk to Jon. Or at least get food soon.

"No, but I do want to just lay here for a bit longer" I said snuggling into him

"Anything" he said kissing me

Jace held me lightly for a little bit before I decided it was time for us to get up. It was time.

"Come on babe. I think it's time we talk to Jon." I said

"Are you ready for that?" he asked

"I really don't know, but I need to talk to him." I said

"Okay" he said sweetly.

I got up and grabbed his hands and pulled him close to me.

"I love you Jace Herondale" I said.

He looked up at me and showed me his smile that had me head over heals in love with him and said"I love you too Clary Fairchild"

Knowing that he loved me made everything easier.

When we walked out of our room we saw Alec curled up in the living room on a giant pile of blankets

I could tell by just looking at him that he was extremely stressed out.

"Hey guys" he said softly

"Hey Alec" Jace said

"Where's Jon?" I asked

"He went to take a nap in his room." Alec said

As we were about to go into Jon's room Alec jumped up from his blankets

"Clary.." he said facing me

"Yes Alec?" I said

"You know he feels terrible for what he did right?" Alec said worried that I was angry at Jon.

I thought about it. Really thought. Was I mad at my brother? I needed to make up my mind. So I did.

I wasn't going to be mad at him. He was my brother and he didn't really mean what he did. He needs help not another person against him.

I grabbed Jace's hand and squeezed it tight.

"Alec. I'm not mad, I just want to talk to him" I said as I was about to head into my brothers room.

"Are you sure?" Alec asked

"He needs help. Not more people against him" I said as I opened my brother's door

I thought what I would see would be bad. My brother wallowing in self pity.

I didn't expect this.

It's something no one expects. No one wants to see this. EVER.

~TRIGGER WARNING~

My brother was laying on the floor of his room unconscious with a giant slit up his left arm.

Blood was everywhere. I have never seen so much blood.

I didn't even know that there was this much blood in one person.

I heard someone scream, it took me a second to register that I was screaming.

Screaming so loud that I couldn't hear Jace screaming.

Was he screaming? What was Jace doing?

I couldn't see or hear anything, but the image of my dying brother on the floor. Covered in his own blood.

Jace ran over to him and wrapped a towel tight around his arm to stop the bleeding.

There was already so much blood. How could any one person produce so much blood?

I was still screaming when Alec came running in.

"What's going on?" Alec said before he stumbled back at the sight of Jon.

I leaned against the wall of my brothers room and scooted down on the ground still screaming. Or crying. I couldn't tell.

"Alec! I need you to call 911! NOW!" Jace screamed.

Alec ran to get the phone. He looked absolutely terrified.

I saw in Jace's eyes that he had tears streaming down his face.

Jace.

As I sat here crying Jace ran to my brother's rescue. He was just as close to Jon as I am. Jace was strong while I was truly weak.

"Jon. JON! come on. You have to stay with us buddy… you can't… you can't leave us… we… We're a.. a family… you... you CAN'T LEAVE US!" I heard Jace yell as he pressed hard on Jon's arm.

I kept muttering something under my breath that I couldn't make out.

I couldn't stop rocking back and forth. I couldn't stop screaming. I couldn't stop crying.

I couldn't stop.

I heard Alec talking frantically on the phone with 911. Alec was crying as well, but at least he was doing something.

I just sat there. Doing nothing while my brother was dying right in front of me.

The next few minutes were a blur. The ambulance people arrived and hauled the unconscious Jon out of the place.

I just sat there still muttering nonsense to myself.

"Clary." Jace said crawling up to me.

He looked at me with sad eyes. Eyes with numerous tears streaming down. Eyes that I loved.

He wrapped his whole body around me and held me as we both cried.

"Jace….he doesn't… he doesn't… Jace he doesn't.. he doesn't know!" I sobbed

"Know what?" Jace asked

"He doesn't know I'm not angry. This… this is all my fault!" I yelled

"Don't! Don't you dare blame yourself! This is no one's fault! He needs help! Just like you said! And we are going to give him that! I promise!" Jace said as he held my face close to his.

I could feel Jace's tears that had dampened his face.

"What… what if.. what if he doesn't make it?" I asked

"Clary. He will make it. He has to make it… he has to" Jace said putting his head down.

I realize that a Jace needed hope just as much as I did, so I gave it to him

"He will make it. He's too stubborn to die" I tried to joke

Jace smiled lightly and pulled me into an even stronger embrace.

"Clary?" Jace said

"Yes" I said scooting even closer to him.

"Clary, please... please..Don't ever leave me." Jace said sounding broken

We all were.

"Never"

As of right now I don't know if Jon is going to live or not. It could go either way, because I have a chapter written with 2 different alternate endings. It all depends on how evil I am feeling tomorrow!

Much Love~~AS