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Chapter 36
The Reason
I woke up suddenly from a bad dream the next morning. When I woke up, I fell and hit the bed.
"Was I just levitating in my sleep?" I asked.
Yes you were. Unmei answered.
"I was actually talking to Gin." I looked over on the other side of the bed. "But he's not here. I guess that's why he didn't answer."
I'd say you were right.
"I love how he disappears." I said sarcastically.
He's around here somewhere.
"I figure so. They wouldn't leave for Karakura town without telling me, I'm sure."
They didn't leave. I can still sense them. Don't worry, your precious Gin didn't go off to war yet. Unmei teased.
"Ha ha, shut it."
Touchy about him, aren't we?
I rolled my eyes.
I saw that. Ok maybe I didn't actually see it, but I know you did it.
"So why was I levitating anyways? I'm in my underwear. What if someone came in and saw me?"
First of all, this is Gin's bedroom. I don't think anyone is going to bust up in here. If they did, I would imagine it would be one of three people. Gin, Aizen or Tosen. Two of them have seen you naked and one can't see. So I think you're ok. Secondly, since when do you have any shame about your body?
"Ok, ok. Never mind that. Why was I levitating though?"
Let me think of a way to explain this.
"So it was you?"
Yes. I have the option of shutting you out at anytime.
"What do you mean?"
I can completely cut you off from me which means we couldn't communicate. It's very peaceful not hearing someone else's thoughts. I don't like to do it, so I haven't. But you were injured and I needed to get in touch with the nexus so you could be healed. To connect with the nexus I need complete concentration. That means I have to cut you off. I thought doing this while you were sleeping would be the best. So I did. When connected with it, I'm almost put in a trance. Hence the levitation.
"So I'm vulnerable?"
Of course not. The nexus protects you. It puts up a shield around you. Messing with us in this state would be a death wish, because it is truly the nexus protecting us when I'm connected with it. Not only would their attacks not work, but they would make it mad. It would probably kill them instantly. I'm sure most wouldn't be stupid enough to attack us though. Since she nexus is protecting us, its immense spiritual pressure would be very noticeable. That's why I waited till Gin left. He wouldn't have been able to stand it. I'm sure Aizen noticed spiritual pressure. Don't be surprised if he asks you about it. Everyone around here could probably sense it.
"So I can heal myself?"
No, the nexus can. This isn't something recommended for battle. I need total silence to do this. But it can heal any injury; it just takes a little time. You should be all healed up though.
I got out of bed and could tell I was better. It didn't hurt anymore. I went to the mirror and took the bandages off. The wound was completely gone. There was no scar or anything.
"Well that was pretty handy."
I told you it protects its hosts. Speaking of hosts, I found some things out while I was connected to it.
"About what?"
About Raina.
"What about her?"
You remember yesterday when Sosuke was talking about me and what I was?
"Uh huh."
I told him I came from the nexus and he asked if I was the nexus given a sapien form. The nexus has no sapien form. But I did find out that Raina is more a product of the nexus that I'll ever be.
"What do you mean?"
As being a part of the nexus, I can connect with it. Raina can connect with it herself. Her powers also draw directly from the nexus. This explains why she is so powerful. When the nexus gave her a piece of itself, the piece actually merged with Raina's soul. If anyone is a god around here, it's Raina. I am surprised that Aizen doesn't seem to be worried about her. Maybe it's because he doesn't know the full extent of her powers. You and Renji are the only ones who know what she really can do. Even if Aizen does have the thing on Renji, he still wouldn't know. She hasn't really used her powers enough. I did find out that Aizen played a big part in Raina being so powerful. The nexus is neutral, but it's controlled by good. When it gave Raina her powers, it did so in order to tip the scales in our favor.
"So is the nexus bad now?"
No. You're not bad and you know it.
I sat down at the foot of the bed. "After yesterday, I wonder."
I thought you were feeling better about that.
"I was. But I don't know."
Go run to Gin, bet he could make you feel better. She teased.
"I know he could. And not in the way you're thinking."
Yea, yea.
I happened to notice some clothes and stuff sitting on the other side of the room. I didn't remember them being there last night. I went to check it out. It clothes for me. He had brought me some clothes and my bath stuff.
Aww how sweet, he brought you clothes and stuff so you wouldn't have to take the walk of shame back to your room in the clothes you wore yesterday.
"Oh, whatever." I picked up the stuff and walked to the bathroom.
I showered and got ready.
"I wonder why Gin doesn't think he deserves my 'companionship'."
Maybe it's because you're a good person and he's not.
"I think he's a good person."
Yea, because he's good to you. But that doesn't mean he's been good to everyone else.
"I haven't been good to everyone else either. I killed my best friend for crying out loud. I think he's a better person that I am."
You don't know enough about him to make that assumption.
"Maybe not, but he's good to me and that's all that counts. Shouldn't I be the one who gets to decide whose good enough for me?"
I don't know. Maybe it has to do with Aizen, since he wants you.
"I forget everything around here has something to do with Aizen."
It's his world. We're just living in it. Unmei joked.
"Yea, that's it." I laughed.
I sat back down on the bed. "Now that I can do whatever I want, I don't know what to do."
Me either. Why did you jump up this morning? Were you having a bad dream? Since I had you cut off, I didn't know what was going on.
"Oh yea, I was having a bad dream. I dreamed that Renji turned on me again. He picked the Soul Society over me once again."
Sure it wasn't a premonition? He's known for doing that. It wouldn't surprise me if he did it again.
"You know, it doesn't surprise me either. He's a soul reaper and he thinks just like the soul society does. He's one of them and that'll never change no matter how much he claims to love me. Why am I just now realizing this?"
Love is blind.
"I guess so. I couldn't see any of this when I was around him. I was too caught up in him."
Your love for him blinded you to the fact that he wasn't changing.
"I guess being here has let me open my eyes. It's benefitted me more than I thought."
I agree.
"Do you think this is the right side?"
For you, yes. Aizen is bad, but I believe he actually care for you. So I think this is the right side. If he does accomplish what he wants to, I think you will be ok. That's only if you play along though. If he asks you to be by his side when and if he does accomplish his goal, then it would be your best bet to do so. The Soul Society is still corrupt, even with central 46 gone.
"Central 46?"
I found that out when I was connected to the nexus. Central 46 was their governing body, Aizen killed them all.
"That sounds about like him."
Both sides are bad in this war. That's just my opinion. The Soul Society is supposed to be the good side, but they're narrow minded. When it comes to us, this side is better. We're accepted here.
"Yea, we are. I think I know my reason for being her now."
Between the two sides, we're on this one. But don't forget that we have our own side and it's the best side to be on. We're the good in this battle. We don't think people that are stronger than us deserve to die. We don't try to kill what we don't understand. We just stand against who threatens the world we live in.
"So that means…"
That everyone is the enemy. The Soul Society wants us dead. Aizen wants to take over the world. Depending on how he wants to rule will decide if that is good or bad.
"But if we wait that long then it might be too late."
It's never too late.
"How?"
We have the book, remember?
"Yea."
Don't under estimate the power that book has. That's why no one around here can touch it. If it got in the wrong hands, bad things would happen. There's a lot of spells in there that you haven't read over.
"Well it's so dang big; I can't read it front to back."
I know. There some powerful stuff in there. That's why Aizen need not see it.
"Gotcha! What about Gin?"
How did I know you would want to show him?
"Because he's important to me and I thought he might want to see it. I kind of want to take him to the nexus too. Just to show him how it feels and stuff."
I don't think you should show him them book. I don't trust him. I don't care if you take him to it. He won't be able to do anything to it.
"I just have to get him to leave with me without asking Aizen. I mean I got a spell to take us there. Those can't be detected, because I used them before and no one ever knew. Then Raina can send us back, I'm sure. I could even spend a little time with her. What about the spell I put on the house though? Would it see Gin as evil?
Maybe not if he's with you. I don't know for sure. But you better go soon. I think the war is going to start very soon.
"I need to see Raina before it starts."
Do you sense that?
"I do. It's…"
Renji.
"Where is he?"
Start running and I'll direct you.
"I just want to tell him to leave. We have nothing anymore. I can't trust him."
Let's go.
We finally ran upon him. Lee was with him as well.
"Kristen?" Renji asked.
Before I could say anything, Lee spoke. "Have you seen Miranda? I felt her spiritual pressure drop, then it disappeared. I haven't been able to get a read on her since."
I just ignored him. I couldn't even look him in the eye.
"I want you to leave." I said to Renji.
"We can leave now that I found you. We just need to find the others." He said as he walked over to me and took my hand.
I jerked my hand away. "I'm not going anywhere. I just want you gone."
"What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing. I'm where I belong."
"Where you belong? How could say that? You don't belong here. You're not like them, Kristen. They must brainwashed you into thinking that or something…"
He kept going on and on about me not belonging here and why I should come with him. It was giving me a headache. Like this wasn't hard enough without him begging. But I knew why I was here now and I had to stay.
"Stop!" I yelled and threw my hands up.
They stopped alright. It was like they were frozen.
"What did I just do?"
You learned something new. I was beginning to wonder when you would learn this.
"What did I do?"
I'll tell you later. Someone is behind you.
I turned around and Lee was inches from stabbing me in the back.
"It was him! He's the person from my premonition."
I'd move, because they're not going to stay like this for much longer.
I stepped out of the way. Not long after did they unfreeze. Lee stabbed the air.
"What the hell are you doing, Lee?" Renji yelled.
Lee looked at me. "How did you move so fast?"
"Why did you try to kill me?" I asked.
"Because you killed Miranda! You looked so guilty when I asked about her. You ignored the question and you won't look at me."
"You don't want to fight me, Lee. You'll lose."
"He's not going to fight you. Put your Zanpakuto away now. That's an order!" Renji said.
He acted like he was going to sheathe his sword, but then he flash stepped to me and drew it. I caught him and slung him away. He fell against a rock. I held my hand out and it glowed yellow. I sent an energy wave at him but he moved. It crashed into the rock and dispersed the molecules in it, leaving only dust behind. I materialized my sword. He charged at me again. He sure does like to run at things. I slung his sword away and stepped behind him. I kicked behind the bend of his knee and he feel to them. I held my sword to his throat.
"I told you that you would lose."
Game over.
I removed my sword and pushed him face first into the sand with my foot. I turned to walk off.
"So you can kill her, but not me?" Lee said.
I didn't say anything, I just kept walking.
"So is this it for us then?" Renji asked.
"Seems that way, doesn't it?" I responded as I stopped and turned around.
"It doesn't have to be."
"Yes it does. I'm not the same person anymore."
"It doesn't matter. I still love you."
"You wouldn't love this Kristen."
"Of course I would. My love is unconditional."
"Except when it comes to the Soul Society."
He exhaled loudly. "Not this again. I thought we were over that."
"We're not."
"I don't know what to tell you, Kristen. I've already apologized a million times."
"You don't have to tell me anything. The time for talk is over."
"What do mean?"
"It's not going to matter in a minute."
He looked confused.
"Let thee who waken from their sleep return at once to slumber deep."
He fell over and Lee laid his head back down.
Sweet dreams Unmei said sarcastically.
I walked away from them.
"Aizen should be happy; two more of the intruders are taken out. At least they're incapacitated and not dead. I couldn't kill my daughter's father."
They'll be asleep for a while.
"So tell me about that new power. Am I freezing time?"
It's an extension of your molecular manipulation. You are not freezing time. The proper name for what you're doing is called molecular immobilization.
"And what does that do exactly?"
It works on the molecular level by taking away kinetic energy from molecules and slowing them down to the point where they become motionless.
"So it only lasts a few seconds?"
It won't last long right now because it's new to you. Once you learn how to use it, it'll last longer and the range will grow.
"This getting new powers thing is cool."
You're not getting new powers. Your original ones are just growing.
"New to me!"
I figure Aizen saw that whole thing on the cameras. He will probably want to know how you made them freeze. That's just a guess. So get ready to explain. I see him asking about the immense spiritual pressure too. I know he had to feel the nexus earlier.
"I guess I'm ready as I'll ever be. Now I'm going to find Gin and tell him I know what my reason for staying here is."
I walked around till I could sense him. When I sensed him, I took off using his flash step to get to him. I made it in seconds.
"Whoa where's the fire Kristen-san?"
"I need to tell you something. I know why I'm here now."
"Oh?"
"The Soul Society condemns me for who I am. They want me dead because of my power. They want to kill what they don't understand. But no one is like that here. I'm accepted here. My power actually makes me special. This is where I belong."
Author's note: draconichero19 was Gin once again. I'm making up for that week I made yall wait by posting 2 back to back. Hope you like it and Review Plz!