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Randy's eyes fought his own desire to open them. His whole body felt stiff. Even for an athlete he thinks he may have been sore in muscles he didn't even know he had. He started to rolled to his back then stopped feeling he wasn't alone in the bed.
"Good you're awake." Edge's voice reached his ears.
"How long was I out?"
"About an hour."
"Di…um…did all that just happen or did I dream it."
"I don't know what you think you dreamed?" Edge couldn't help but smirk running a hand over Randy's exposed side sending pleasurable shivers through the younger man's body.
Randy lightly shook his head then lowered it some his back still to Edge.
"Come on tell me…"
"Forget it…I'm sure I was delusional."
"And why you think that?"
"Because….wow…"
"Yes was interesting wasn't it?"
"I am not sure that would be the right word. Then again I am not sure what the right word would be. I could never see me doing anything like that…but I did…Just turning myself over like that…"
"You regret it?" Edge tried not to sound worried.
"I wouldn't do it all the time…but no…no regrets."
"Good." Edge leaned closer kissing Randy's shoulder seeing the skin already healing from where his nail gripped into them before.
Randy made a faint gasp sound feeling Edge's lips on his slightly sensitive skin. "Did that hurt?"
"No…was nice." Randy slightly shifted his body so her could turn on his back, his eyes closing at the discomfort. "That will take getting use to."
"Yes…sorry I should of warned you about turning. Let me fill you a bath it will help." Edge went to slide from the bed when Randy took his wrist. "Yes?"
Randy let go looking down. "Never mind."
"Randy please…"
"Well two things…" He looked back at Edge. "One what happened to your back?" Edge lowered his head he was so wrapped in what he was doing he nearly forgot about them. He turned to lay back next to Randy. He lightly placed a hand on Randy's chest.
"I had been a bottom & a submissive for so long…as long as sex had been part of my life I was always the bottom…When I started having the fantasy of us…of my taking you. Having you as my first in that way…well…" his eyes lowered some, as did his voice. "It felt wrong to me…like I shouldn't be thinking like that…wanted them gone…I wanted them gone because it is not a submissive place to want that power over another. I wanted it though…I wanted it over you…so…so I tried to discipline myself late last night…well more like early this morning."
"Discipline?"
Edge licked his lips with a sigh. "I lashed my own back to punish myself for even thinking of stepping out of my station in the group."
"I…I'm sorry."
"Don't be…"
"Why I stirred them in you…does that make me at all responsible for them?"
"No…I felt it was a lack in my own discipline. I was made to realize that with the change to the family…your addition to it…could cause changes within it. While I am still fully submissive to the others…you allow me to branch out."
"Oddly I feel honored…honored I am the one you picked to experience that with & the fact that will be something between us."
"Not fully…Christian does know…I told him. He is the one that talked to me & made me see there was nothing wrong in the way I was feeling."
Randy gave a light chuckle. "Surprised…I have a feeling he don't care much for me."
"He just worries you might try to take me away from him & Kane."
"No…he doesn't need to worry…"
"Well a few things you said during out session did make me wonder a bit."
Randy slowly turned again this time to face Edge. "Like what?"
"Well two things stick out more then anything…One when you just went from calling me Sir…to the title of Master…I still don't know if you fully understand the difference."
Randy lightly shook his head. "I said it cause it felt right…I re-remember you said Master is a stronger term."
"It is…Using our family dynamic…in periods of that mindset Taker is & always will be Master…all within the family answer to him. Even our extended family bow to his wishes. From there is depends on the person. Kane only bows to Taker…in those times me & Christian call him Sir or Master…unless Taker is there, then it is just sir."
Edge pauses a moment. "I know it is confusing to begin…you shouldn't need to worry…while to a point we still act our parts, we don't follow as strict as we used to. Just picture Taker at the top of the chain. Kane & to a point John are just under him. John does not act the Dom role often except the part that he always is a top to me or Christian. As for Sirs or Masters that would basically be just our thing…you need not even tell the others unless you wish to. If my brother opens his mouth I'll belt him one."
Randy lightly laughs not really seeing Edge hitting his brother over that. "OK…what is the second thing?"
"When you told me…that you're mine." Randy lowered his eyes, even with his tanned flesh Edge could swear he saw him blush. "Yo-you didn't mean it did you? It was a heat of the moment thing?" Edge was trying not to feel foolish.
Randy tried to lift his eyes back to Edge's face. His voice low from embarrassment. "I meant it…But I know I don't have you back…" His eyes lowered slipping from the bed ignoring the pain of his body. He tossed a robe around him as he left the room.
He didn't even give Edge time to reply to the comment. Randy reached the main bathroom walking inside & locking the door before starting the bath. The words felt right in the moment…he knew now they were a mistake…he pledged himself to Edge. In his heart he felt & meant it. He knew though that Edge could never return those same feelings…his heart & soul already belonged to two others. There was no room for him besides that of a playmate & friend.
Randy was so lost in his thoughts he did not even realize the tears that began to run his cheeks as he shut the water off. Dropping the robe he stepped into the water lowering himself down into it. Edge laid there for a few more moments after Randy had walked out, he hated the pained look to Randy's grey eyes. The fire that he saw in them before were now fading embers.
Did they make a mistake opening up so much to each other? He got up pulling a note pad from the nightstand. He wrote a note leaving it on the nightstand before he got up moving to his bedroom to dress before heading to look where ret of the family was.