A/N: Okay last chapter ended up being longer than my usual one. But I hate leaving people on cliffhangers unless the chapter is already really long. Thank you for all of the reviews.

Height: 5'7''

Weight: 160 lbs

Chapter 35

It ended up being a long night for Rory. She ended up finishing the pizza and then went and raided the fridge. She silently cursed her diet, thanks to that they didn't have any ice cream. She really wanted some but she just didn't want to go out tonight. So she decided none of that tonight. She lay in bed and thought about what she could have done differently. Nothing really came to mind.

Scott had mentioned her recent obsession with weight as a reason but to Rory that was a bullshit reason. She had been laying it on a little thick about how happy she was about her weight loss but she was doing it to look better for herself and to an extent, him. She blinked back tears; she just had no idea what she had done to make him cheat on her. Hell just breaking up would have hurt but it would have been better than seeing him kissing another girl.

Rory checked the time; it was a little late but not too late. She threw on a skirt and decided to head to the store, she needed sugar and she needed it now. She went to the closest store that she could find and ended up buying a box of Ding Dongs, three pints of ice cream, and two bags of Oreo's. Was it all unhealthy? Yes. Did she give a damn? No.

Once home she grabbed a spoon and started eating her cookie dough ice cream right out of the pint. Her mind was screaming at her that it was too many calories but her heart and stomach here overriding her mind. She was hurt and needed anything to make her feel better. She looked at her phone and wondered if she should call her mother. But the wound was too fresh; calling her would only bring unwanted questions. Tomorrow would be better for discussing it.

All in all she ended up eating two pints of ice cream, half the Ding Dongs, and one back of Oreo's. In addition to the pizza she had eaten earlier she was stuffed now but she felt better. It took her mind off her now ex-boyfriend. How had she been so blind? She wished she could go back in time and fix it but she just couldn't.

There were empty wrappers all around her and she knew she should clean them up but she just didn't have the will tonight. She lay down on her side and closed her eyes trying to force herself to fall asleep. A little hard with all of the excess sugar in her system but she was eventually able to do it, after she had shed a new round of tears.

When Rory woke up the next morning she just lay there for a bit, staring at the ceiling. This hurt worse than Dean and Jess. At least with Jess she had seen it coming, at least somewhat and had been busy. Dean was bad both times but she had never considered going as far with Dean as she had with Scott and for some reason that made it all the worse.

Eventually her stomach growled, it was demanding some breakfast but she didn't feel like getting out of bed. Hell she didn't feel like leaving the apartment or getting out of her sweats or t-shirt. Of course no one would have wanted to see her anyway.

In her hurry to eat her clothes had become stained with crumbs, pizza sauce and grease, and ice cream. Her hair was all messed up and nowhere near the normally impeccable way it looked. Her face was red and tear stained. Her entire look was slumped. She just didn't feel good. This was worse than the time her grandmother had called her a pig.

Just then the bedroom door opened, Paris had returned from her night with Asher. She brought with her a box of donuts. She knew that Rory would need something like this in the morning and she knew they had no food in the house. Honestly, healthy stuff sucked when you were wallowing or in pain.

"Hey these are for you" she said opening up a box of a dozen assorted donuts. She also handed her a cup of coffee that she had gotten for her. Rory grabbed a chocolate frosted donut and nearly stuck the whole thing into her mouth at once. Paris looked at her but quickly looked away when Rory gave her a look.

"Bad night?" Paris asked. Suddenly wondering why she'd ask such an obvious question.

"It wasn't great..." Rory said sipping on her coffee. Paris had no clue what to say so she just nodded. She had never really been touchy feely so this was just hard for her to gauge.

"You'll find someone who really deserves you eventually" Paris said trying to make her feel better.

Rory gave Paris a weak smile. She knew how uncomfortable this was making her and it made Rory feel good that her friend was at least trying. "Thanks Paris. But I just need some time alone" she said grabbing two more donuts to make her breakfast complete.

"Well I'm going to head to the library to study" Paris said grabbing some of her books. "If you need anything just call me and I'll do what I can to help" Paris said figuring that her friend wanted some more alone time. Rory nodded at her.

"Sure thing, and have fun" she said munching on a donut. Paris once again left and Rory was once again alone. She let out a sigh and once again looked up at the ceiling. She knew that it was time to give her mother a call. She was going to find out sooner or later and it might as well be sooner. She had some alone time now. Knowing her roommates this could get very loud very quickly.

It was only nine; a bit early for her mom on a Sunday but it was worth a try. Rory took a deep breath and speed dialed her mother.

Lorelai was actually up that morning, she had trouble sleeping last night. She started going over her entire relationship with Luke. How she had really felt about everything that he had done for her in her life. In theory he should have gotten sick of her a long time ago but he hadn't. In fact he had stayed by her side and always tried to help her whenever he could. The only others who had those qualities were Sookie and Rory.

Everything that every person had ever said to her about Luke started replaying in her head and she wondered if there wasn't some truth to what they said. It was weird, she'd go out and date people but she never really looked at Luke in a dating sort of way. But she was opening her eyes a little bit more and wondering if maybe a date with Luke would not be the worst thing in the world.

Okay it could end crashing and burning and she'd never get Luke's coffee again but was coffee really worth not giving someone a chance? Especially someone who was nice to her all the time, tried to make her feel good, and was always there for her. She drummed her fingers on her stomach. He also wasn't turned off by seeing her gaining weight. That had to count for something too.

She was broken out of her thoughts when her cell rang. She smiled seeing that it was Rory, probably calling to tell her how awesome her dating life was and that she had lost another five pounds. Well she did have to be happy for her.

"Hello daughter of mine how was the date?" she asked in a chipper tone. So chipper that Rory almost hung up the phone right there.

"Mom…" she said in a pained voice giving away just how bad the situation was. Instantly Lorelai sat up in bed. This could be bad, really bad. Had he tried something with her? Why did her daughter sound so hurt?

"What's wrong?" Lorelai asked mentally getting ready to get in the care to drive to Yale. "Are you hurt, did something happen?" she asked in a panicked tone.

"Mom…I'm fine…I mean…not fine it's just…Scott…Scott…well he was cheating…on me" she said in a quiet tone, holding back her sobs. Lorelai's heart broke for her daughter. It couldn't be a good feeling being cheated on.

"Aw honey…I'm so sorry. How are you holding up?" she asked her daughter. Rory was in the process of stuffing another donut in her mouth.

"Not great" she admitted her mouth half full of donut.

"Why didn't you call me last night?" Lorelai asked.

"It was too fresh. I just…I had to think it over and I just needed time to process. It wasn't a good night" she said plainly.

"Well I wish you had called me, what did you do? And how did you find out?" Lorelai asked wondering how bad it really was.

Rory sighed, she didn't want to admit it aloud but she was going to have to. "I went over and found him kissing a blonde girl and well…I broke up with him and started wallowing. I mean this was a guy I was considering, well you know with" she said just putting it all out there. Lorelai was actually a little surprised that she hadn't gone all the way with him. Sure it was Rory but her eyes had gotten so dreamy and it just seemed like she was at that moment where the time was right. She was thankful her daughter was her daughter now.

"Oh honey…some guys are just going to be jerks. Be happy you found out now and not later. Do you think you'll get back together with him?" she asked nervously.

"No! I'd never go back to a guy who cheated on me. It wasn't like this was a moment of weakness where I might consider it. But he did it for two weeks. I just…I can't trust him. He's not worth it" she said, she was fuming now.

"Okay, I understand. You'll be fine. You just need to relax a bit. I know that you'll be fine. Do you need anything?" she asked her daughter. She was prepared to drive up there right now if she asked.

"No, I mean…Paris has actually been a big help. I just thought I should tell you. I just feel like there's something wrong with me. I mean why would he cheat on me, what did I do?" she asked her mother hoping for an answer.

"Honey listen very carefully to me. There is nothing you could have done to prevent this. Some guys they just can't stick with one girl or they won't care about your feelings. You just…need to wallow for a bit and move on. If he cheated on you then he's not worth it" Lorelai said in a gentle but firm tone. She actually wanted to walk to her daughter about Luke but she was in not state for that conversation.

"I know…I just guess that I'm sad that it ended like this" Rory admitted sighing.

"Well you'll find another guy at one point. At least you gave him a shot. Just remember not all guys are like that. One day you'll find one that makes you feel good about yourself, helps you, treats you right, and does everything he can to make your day better…" Lorelai said trailing off as she realized that she was describing Luke. Had she really been that blind for so long?

"I hope I do find that guy one day…" Rory admitted now feeling more depressed because she thought Scott had been that guy but she had just been too foolish to see it. "I'll talk to you later" Rory said sadly hanging up the phone.

Lorelai tried to stop her but it as to no avail. She debated calling her daughter back but she needed some space right now. If she wanted to talk then she'd call. Otherwise it would be best to leave her alone for the moment. She'd give her a call tonight and see how she was. God her head was starting to hurt, between this and her thoughts about Luke it was starting to get too much. She needed something to eat. Of course her kitchen was mostly barren, she should have probably gone to Luke's but she needed some time away from him to think. So two strawberry pop tarts for breakfast would have to do.

Rory ended up just laying there for a while. After a bit she decided to get up and watch TV. There was nothing good on but it was better than the silence. At least this could keep her distracted. She was lost in whatever she was watching when her stomach growled. She checked the time and was amazed to see that it was already noon.

Once again she didn't want to go out so she did something she hadn't done in months, she ordered Chinese take-out. She ended up ordering a normal order for herself and her mom, which was really enough for about 4-5 people. But she was hungry and she deserved it. She was going to try and heal her broke heart with food. At least that's what her stomach and part of her mind planned to do.

Another part of her mind knew that she should be sticking to her diet but she didn't care. She had a hunger that needed to be fed and she was going to do whatever she could to make it better.

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