Ch36
Emily smiled to herself as she sat on the sofa, waiting for JJ to arrive. No matter the urgency in the blonde's visit, she could always be relied on to take her time choosing the right cup of coffee. At work, the caffeine was a necessity, but when it was for pleasure, JJ would go out of her way to visit her preferred coffee shops.
When the doorbell finally rang, Emily could feel the nerves creeping in as she went to answer the door. A slightly frazzled looking JJ entered the apartment; retrospectively the brunette realised that suggesting caffeine when she was already in a state of panic might not have been the best idea.
"Hey, Jen..."
"Fuck him, Emily, and fuck this whole bullshit situation that I never asked for and you certainly never asked for and Henry doesn't deserve this and fuck, I don't even know what I'm going to do about access rights and custody and that whole crap, and..."
JJ's tirade was only silenced by the warmth of Emily's mouth pressing against hers as she found herself being abruptly backed up against the door. It wasn't that the brunette was belittling what she had to say, she just knew that she needed to ground JJ before her thoughts became anymore incoherent.
Feeling the blonde respond to the kiss, Emily's tongue delved into her mouth with greater urgency as her hands tugged at the ponytail that had long since given up being presentable. JJ growled from the back of her throat and ran her hands purposefully down the brunette's back until they came to rest on her ass. She squeezed firmly, pulling Emily flush against her as their tongues battled for dominance.
The blonde's legs parted slightly as she urged Emily closer, desperate to feel her pressing against her core. The brunette was only too happy to oblige.
"Please..." JJ panted between kisses "please touch me"
The begging tone of the blonde's voice took Emily back to their very first encounter in a Chicago hotel room. JJ was clearly someone who used sex to regroup when she felt like she was losing grip on reality. It was a way for her to feel. While it wasn't exactly the most emotionally healthy course of action, the ever logical brunette couldn't find any decent reason to turn her down in that moment.
"You want me to fuck you?" Emily breathed, her teeth nipping along the blonde's jawline.
"Yes...please..."
"Only if you look at me"
JJ's eyes opened at the command and she looked at the brunette confusedly.
"I don't want you disappearing" Emily explained.
"Believe me, I know exactly where I am" JJ rasped, reaching to unfasten her belt.
"You do, huh?"
"I do" the blonde confirmed, reaching for Emily's hand and sliding it into her pants "and I think you'll find my body knows exactly what I'm doing and who with"
"Fuck!" the brunette gasped as her fingers were surrounded by wetness.
"Emily..." JJ breathed.
The blonde cupped Emily's cheeks, a silent thank you evident in her eyes as she pulled her for a tender kiss. She could feel the brunette's fingers working their magic on her clit, and the sensations were overwhelming.
Emily returned the kiss, desperate to reassure the younger woman that she was safe. She only pulled back briefly when she felt the dampness of tears against her cheeks, before resting her forehead against the blonde's.
"It's ok sweetheart" she soothed.
"Don't stop" JJ begged "don't ever stop".
"I've got you, Jennifer. I promise"
JJ nodded and clung onto the brunette's hair, keeping her close. Emily understood, and made no attempt to move. She pressed her lips softly against the blonde's, her fingers continuing to circle her clit steadily. The blonde moaned softly into Emily's mouth, her whole body succumbing to the pleasure that the woman pressed against her was creating. The door handle pressed into her back, but she could feel nothing except the brunette.
She gasped as her whole body began to tingle, heat coursing through her as she clung desperately to Emily.
"I've got you baby, I've got you" the brunette soothed.
"Emily!" JJ cried out hoarsely.
Her head fell back against the door but she was oblivious to any resultant pain. She let herself be pulled into Emily's arms, and buried her head in the brunette's neck.
"Thank you" she whispered.
"Hey" Emily chuckled "you're always welcome"
"Somehow...somehow you always know what I need"
The brunette leant back to meet JJ's gaze shyly "I try"
The blonde cupped Emily's cheek "You exceed. Repeatedly"
"I love you Jennifer" Emily said softly, leaning in to kiss her gently.
"I love you too, I really do...but do you think we could move this to the sofa? My legs feel like they're about to give up on me"
Emily laughed and stepped back from the door, before guiding the blonde over to the sofa. Instinctively they migrated to one another and met in an embrace at one end.
"So..." the brunette let the word hang in the air.
"We should talk, huh?"
"You sounded pretty desperate when you called"
JJ blushed "I'm really sorry for interrupting your evening with Morgan, I just didn't know what..."
"Hey, it's ok, honestly. I wouldn't be here if I didn't want to be. I will always be there for you when you need me, you know that"
"I do, and it means the world to me, Em"
"So what happened with Will?"
JJ's body tensed visibly as she began explaining the argument from earlier. Emily sat in silence, letting her vent, and squeezing her hand reassuringly when she felt the blonde needed encouragement.
When she finished, the two sat in silence for a few moments.
"You know I'm not afraid of him, right?" Emily asked softly.
"Emily Prentiss isn't afraid of anyone" the blonde replied with a smile.
The brunette scoffed "But I'm serious Jayje. I don't want you worrying about me and what he might do when it comes to deciding what's best for you and Henry. If you need me to stay away so that you can have time with Henry, or even if you want me to go and collect him from Will myself, then I'll do it"
"I'm not letting you throw yourself under the bus here, Emily"
"And I wouldn't be. I just need you to understand that his threats change nothing for me. I love you and I want to be with you, and Henry is a part of that for me. Whatever custody arrangement you guys come up with is none of my business, but I don't want you thinking you have to hide me away for fear that I might lose my job or find myself hit with a restraining order"
"But your job is your life..."
"It was" Emily interjected quietly.
"I'm sorry, that was..."
"The truth for years? Jayje, it's ok. We both know I lived for the job for a very long time. That is, until someone gave me something more important to live for"
JJ cradled the brunette's chin and pulled her in for a gentle kiss "I love you, I just don't want you throwing away everything you've worked for for me"
"For you and Henry" Emily corrected "and believe me, I have no intention of throwing anything away"
"But what if he tells Strauss?"
"You think she's going to be willing to let another agent go when she's already lost you?"
"And you're willing to bet on her approaching things with logic and reason?" JJ asked with a raised eyebrow.
"You're right...but I'm willing to bet on myself in a fight with her"
The blonde laughed "Yeah...I'd back you any day"
Smiling, Emily pulled JJ against her so that her head rested against her chest, tucked under her chin. She stroked lazily up and down the blonde's arm as she sat in contented silence for a while.
"So, there's something I need to tell you" the brunette broke the silence nervously.
"What?" JJ's head shot up so that she could look the brunette in the eye.
"Nothing serious, I promise" Emily reassured her "it's just...well...Morgan maybe knows about us"
"Maybe, or actually knows, Emily?"
"Ok, he knows. I swear I didn't tell him, Jen. He just pieced some things together over the past few months and I wasn't about to lie to his face"
JJ exhaled and leant back, thinking things over.
"How did he react?" she asked after a while.
"Positively. I mean, he wants me to be happy. He knew I was hurting before, and so long as we're good to each other, then he's all for it"
"Meaning he'll kick my ass if I hurt you again"
"I...probably"
JJ took hold of Emily's hand and began playing with her fingers absentmindedly.
"You know...I think I'm ok with him knowing"
"Yeah?"
"When the only other person who knows is Will, and he's intent on doing whatever he can to fuck this relationship up, it's good to know we have someone in our corner. I don't mean that I'm ready for everyone else to start knowing our business, but Morgan's different"
"Thank you" Emily kissed the top of the blonde's head.
"For what?"
"Your completely rational and accepting reaction"
JJ laughed "You make it sound as though I'm not always rational"
Emily knew better than to reply, and instead just pulled the blonde into a tighter embrace.
"I take it you're staying here tonight?" she asked after a lengthy pause.
"If that's ok?"
"Of course. Maybe we could...move this to the bedroom?"
"I like the way you think Ms Prentiss. But first, I need to give you something"
Emily looked on in confusion as JJ got up and crossed the room to where her bag was, pulling out a cellphone.
"Umm Jayje...you know I have one of those, right?"
JJ rolled her eyes "Yes. But this is a burner phone"
Emily raised her eyebrows.
"I don't know how much we're being watched, or what's going to happen when I start with the Pentagon. But I'm damn sure that I'm not going to stop seeing you, or my son. So this is how we communicate from now on"
"I'm impressed...maybe my girl will make a good spy after all" Emily winked and stood up to take the phone.
JJ blushed and bit her lip.
"What?"
The blonde shook her head "It's stupid"
"You like when I call you my girl, don't you?"
"Maybe..."
"Then how about I take my girl to bed"