Chapter 37: Power Of Guilt

"Miles!" Nick panicky called out as he held her body up slightly only for her whole weight to be held by him as her head swung back unconsciously, "Oh, GOD! MILEY!" He called then helplessly looked up at Joe.

Joe was in another world as he was desperately trying to connect with someone through his wireless earphone attached to his ear, "Zac! Zachary, can you here me?"

Nick looked back at his wife not knowing what's wrong with her, "This is my entire fault, Miles! Please wake up." He muttered trying to wake her up, but she never gave any kind of response. "Joe, help me!" He cried out as Joe glared at him.

"Nick! Be quiet!" Joe said but Nick ignored which made Joe sigh and pull out his gun still waiting for a response from Zac. "Let's take her inside, Nick; this will be a lot safer!" He said but Nick didn't move so Joe took a breath and helped him up balancing Miley's body between them both.

He made a full circle around them watching if there was someone near as Nick held Miley close to him getting all soaked with her blood. They then quickly moved towards the house again. Once inside and the door was closed behind them, Joe called out for Demi.

Demi appeared from the top of the staircase and a loud gasp erupted from her mouth at the sight, "What happened?"

"God, I don't even know what is wrong!" Nick sat down on the floor and pulled Miley up placing her lifeless body in his lap. "Miles, please wake up!"

"I'll get the doctor to check on her!" Demi quickly ran to where she knew the doctor was tied up.

"Joe?" He heard through his earphone and quickly replied,

"Zachary! You hear me?"

"Yes, Joe, everything alright?"

"No, we need you to send us the forces now and an ambulance. Miley is a mess."

"Alright, man! The forces as planned or more?"

"No, as planned is good!" Joe nodded, "Quick, dude."

"Done, Joseph."

Zachary. He was a CIA agent, the only one who actually accepted their message and replied to them when they asked for help before going to the damned house. And to be honest, he was the only one expected to reply. He said he'll willingly help them. He spoke to the manager there and he somehow convinced him it was worthy and it'll save a lot of time, efforts and forces.

He was not convinced at first because they actually came up with something less complicated than him, of course it was still a stupid risk, but what is CIA job but risks?

He didn't cave in and give the order to do this until Zac told him they'd do it anyways with or without his help and Zac was going o help them anyway too. And for him knowing Zac, for him knowing Joe and for him knowing Nick. He knew there was a high possibility they'd make it, so, there they were…

So far, everything was going less complicated than expected for them. Getting into the house. Getting rid of the men, Alfonso, and Olivia herself. The first true obstacle was the situation right now with Miley bleeding to death and the high possibility to get attacked in the Garden with maximum number of free security guard of five.

"Don't worry, Nick. They're coming, she'll be fine."

"She's still bleeding!" Nick realized with wide eyes, "I can't stop her bleeding!"

"Move!" Demi growled as she stuck a gun at the back of the man's head as he moved in front of her.

"I'm not checking on anyone!"

"You'll be killed at this instant then." Joe screamed impatiently as the doctor groaned and knelt down close to Miley to at least stop her bleeding.

The doctor opened his mouth to say something but didn't as his eyes widened and he stared panicked at Nick whose eyes flew to the top of the stairs and the doctor fell to the floor dead.

"Easy!" Olivia said holding up her gun.

"How in the hell did you-" Joe spoke directing his gun along with Demi towards the girl.

"I'm trained, agent Joseph! I'm as stupid as that pig Alfonso!" she interrupted him.

"Olivia! Miley is dying." Nick stood up and almost begged.

"Should I care? Besides, the man is already dead, and she may follow him soon."

"Olivia-"

"Don't you dare speak to me again! You think I'm falling for you? You're an idiot. I don't love you stupid head. I only don't get dumped, Nicholas. I dump. Understand?"

"My wife is dying and you think I'd care for your shit!" He screamed at her.

"Fine, we can put an end for your worry." And before they could process what she meant, she directed her gun towards the unconscious body of Miley on the floor,

"NO." the three of them screamed and quickly jumped in front of her and the gun shot echoed around the large house that the outsiders hear it clearly.

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Zac narrowed his eyes and looked at the direction of the calm house as he heard the gun shot, he raised his hand towards the earphone similar to Joe's, "Joe?" he called and waited for him to connect with him and answer him saying it was nothing, but no response came, "Joseph!" he called louder.

"This can't be good!" He muttered to himself then turned to the men with him. "We need to be more careful, we don't know who's shooting inside, we don't know who is controlling the situation there. We will use plan B." he told them as they all nodded firmly. "Go on and good luck." He said as they divided into groups and started moving swiftly as some entered climbed trees and others hid in the bushes. As for Zac himself, he moved through the garden and managed to get rid of one of the guards as he climbed a tree and entered the house through an open window.

Once inside, he was able to hear some noises and he clearly recognized Joe, Nick's voices screaming with some words. There was a crazy feminine laugh and he assumed it was Olivia. He prepared his gun and carefully left the room to see Olivia's back at the top of the stairs directing her gun towards the guys.

Miley was on the floor being shielded with their three bodies, and there was a lot of blood.

Demi also was holding her left hand tightly in a desperate try to stop the burning pain of the hole in her hand filled with a bullet.

"Quit the whole bullshit, Olivia. You're going to get caught anyway! So, let us leave already!" Nick demanded screaming.

"You move one step and I'll shoot her head." She emphasized the word 'her' with a smirk not making it clear which 'her' she meant, but it was obvious that both are in danger. Especially Miley though.

"What in the hell do you want?"

"I want revenge! I don't care if I get caught I just want to see you tortured for the last time."

"Just shoot her already, Joe." Nick screamed.

"She'll shoot too!" Joe screamed back.

"There's already damage."

"Then it's enough."

"She's hurting us in anyway!"

And during their argument with loud voices, a bullet was already shot and their heads snapped towards the sound to see Olivia falling down the stairs with a yelp.

Zac appeared and once they realized what happened, the three guys ran towards her completely paralyzing her movement. She kept screaming and trying to escape angrily ignoring the pain in her side from the bullet that Zac shot towards her.

Soon, everything was done. The armed forces Zac brought with him controlled the situation completely. Everything was done. Alfonso and his men were walking shamefully handcuffed, while Olivia was carried in an ambulance to stop her bleeding.

Which left one though in Nick's mind; his wife who is slowly losing her life.

He quickly sat in the back of the ambulance with her as Joe and Demi were in another one. He held her cold hand automatically crying as he felt how cold she has become.

"Is she okay?" He asked hopefully.

"There's a faint heartbeat…" one of the paramedics said as they tried stopping her bleeding, but it didn't seem to work.

He looked at her oxygen mask covered face and let the tears flow out, "Hold on, Miles. We're almost there. You're going to be fine."

"She needs to be taken to the emergency room!" The middle aged blond woman announced worriedly to her colleague.

Nick's eye shot up wide as he took in the sentence then he closed his eyes praying hard that she'll eventually be okay! However, he doubted that, seeing the amount of blood she has lost.

When they reached the hospital, Miley was instantly carried to the emergency room leaving the going-crazy husband alone in the waiting room. He kept pacing back and forth not getting to rest until he was informed of something…

This was his entire entire fault; he let her get involved in his life. He shouldn't have dated her in the first place; he should have had some damn control over his feelings in the first beginning. He should have kept his feelings to himself.

And then, he was with her and he couldn't bear with the thought of her being around, or let her down in something, he even agreed to her joining him in catching Adriano the first time no matter how dangerous that was.

Then again, they both made it out together and spent a nice span of three weeks together in a holiday with their friends. Did he leave things as it is? No, he didn't. He went along hurting her with that mission of Olivia and being around some other crazy girl while being away from Miley. Couldn't he at least not tell her the nature of the mission? Couldn't he just skip the hurtful details? No, he had to be so damn honest.

And he came back –with a proposal!

And of course she said yes for marrying the love of her life. She committed to his shitty life. She agreed to be with him throughout his complicated life style getting one step closer to death everyday he spends at his work in the CIA field.

And he stupidly let her. He let her ruin her life.

How selfish was that of him!

Maybe if he didn't let her get to him and convince him to give them a shot, if he didn't cave in so quickly, if he was not that week, if he didn't fool himself saying they'll be fine, if he didn't dream so far that they'll be as good as a normal family, maybe then, and just then, Miley would be in her father's house in Italy with just him and her in the house living her life to the fullest with her best friends including Selena as she forget all about him.

"Ugh! I'm a fuckin jerk!" He gritted his teeth punching his fists hardly to the waiting room walls!

"Hey, hey! Nick, she's going to be fine!" He didn't even know when Joe came but he was there holding his shoulders trying to make him sit down and calm.

"She's not!" He screamed, "Did you see how much she bled? She lost a lot of blood, Joe. She was as pale as a paper and as cold as ice. She's dying!"

"Nick, they're saving her in there. Miley is strong and she will be fine."

"How do you know? How do you know that?"

"Because," he took a deep breath, "she loves you."

"Sometimes, it's not all that matters, Joe."

"It always is." Joe shook his head and smiled softly at him, "Why do you think she fought? All those times, she fought to get with you in the first place, she fought to save your relationship during the Adriano thing, she fought to not let Olivia get between you, and she fought harder and harder to stay with you after the wedding incident, this all is because she loves you."

"She won all those battles. But, you don't live your life winning all the battles and getting through every obstacle you face. Some time, you gotta drop and fail."

"God, Nick, don't be so damn negative." He rolled his eyes.

"I'm only being realistic." He muttered bitterly.

Joe sighed but said nothing.

"You know if she gets out of this fine," Nick started again.

"Yeah…?"

"I'm divorcing her."

"What?" Joe narrowed his eyes.

"I can't keep being selfish like that." He shook his head.

"Selfish? And this is not selfish?"

"No, Joe, this is me protecting her."

"Protecting her from what?" he said as Nick's words were only nonsense to him.

"From me." Nick spat, "I'm doing nothing but put her life in danger. See where did I bring her? In an emergency room fighting death! No, I'm not going to put her life in any more danger."

"Nick, you're not speaking in the right state of mind, you-"

"I've never been so sane, Joe! This is a hard reality check for me. It was wrong from the very first beginning to ever get with her knowing what influence on her life this could make."

Nick was desperate. He was confused. He needed someone to tell him he's completely wrong, that Miley only wants to be with him and that he won't be able to make it alone without her, that she won't make it without him. He needed someone to disagree with him. Someone who wasn't Miley of course. Nor did Joe work for the job as they're friends and he'd want him to stay with her, but he was his best choice right now, even though he won't completely convince him, but his inner mind needed the closure right then. He felt guilty.

"Nick, you're talking nonsense. You can't just get a divorce. What about the baby?"

The word hit Nick hardly –the baby. How can he forget about this? He completely forgot that his own wife was pregnant with his own child. He was so concerned about that mother and wither she'll make it or not that he forgot there was even a fetus inside of her.

"Oh, God!" His eyes glistened with tears, "I'm horrible. How can I forget this?"

"It's fine, Nick, you were worried about-"

"I'm a bad husband. Bad father."

"Nick, it's not like-"

"I'm the worst. I don't even deserve any of –"

"Mrs. Adams?" A man in his middle forties entered the waiting room of the hospital interrupting the panic attack that hit Nick hard upon realizing it slipped his mind that his wife was pregnant. The doctor looked between the two men standing there waiting for confirmation that they were there for his latest patient to be able to tell them the news of her condition…

A/N: This chapter is dedicated to 'ele' who has been supporting me on Twitter constantly :) thank you :) Also thanks for everyone who read and review :) But seriously, you guys get me over the 200 view for every chapter, and only 4:7 of you comment? Is it bad? If it is plz tell me also :)

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