Ok so here is chapter 36, hope you enjoy :-)

Chapter 36

Erin's Point of View

"I think Jay got hit." Olivia told us.

"What?" I cried as I became more hysterical.

Voight continued to hold be back as Amanda went to help her boss.

"I need two ambulance's to the warehouse on 42nd street. We have a GSW victim and another victim with a head injury." I heard Amanda call through her radio.

"Hank let me go!" I begged as I struggled to break free from his grip.

"No!" He scolded as he held me tighter.

"Let them help Alex and Jay, you have to trust them!" He tried to reason with me.

But I was beyond reasoning with. I wasn't allowed near my fiancé and my daughter who both had potentially fatal injuries and there was nothing I could do but struggle to get to them.

However the paramedics arrived quickly and in a blur I watched both Alex and Jay be whisked away.

"Come on we can follow them." Voight told me once they were gone.

"Rollin's Benson, you good here?" He called to the SVU team.

"Yeah were good, as soon as we are cleared up here we will come to the hospital." Benson replied.

"Ok come on kid." Voight whispered as he led me out of the warehouse.

I wasn't even aware of what was going on, it was like I was outside my body as we drove to the hospital. Voight kept shooting me concerned looks as we drove.

"Erin they are going to be fine." He tried to assure me.

"How do you know that?" I hissed.

"Because they are fighters both of them." He replied.

"I should never have let her go." I complained.

"Erin this isn't your fault." Voight told me.

"I know it isn't, its yours." I said harshly.

I didn't mean it of course, but at that moment in time I needed someone to take my anger out on. Poor Voight was just in the way. He fell silent as soon as I blamed him, which made me feel worse.

As we pulled up at the hospital I wasted no time in sprinting inside. I found the first nurse I saw and begged her for information.

"Excuse me a gun shot victim, and a kid with a head injury were just brought here!" I practically screamed at her.

"Oh yes they arrived about 20 minutes ago." She confirmed.

"Well were are they?" I cried as Voight finally caught up.

The nurse flicked through her computer.

"Are you family?" she asked.

"Um the man is my fiancé and the girl is my daughter." I told her.

"Their names?" She replied.

"What? Look can you just tell me if they are ok?" I complained.

"Jay Halstead and Alex Lindsay." Voight answered for me.

"Thank-you." The nurse replied.

"Ok well Jay was taken to surgery but I am afraid I have no updates yet. As for Alex she is in room 201, its just down the corridor." The nurse told us.

I was about to run down the corridor when Voight stopped me.

"Lindsay you need to take it easy." He said in his concerned fatherly tone.

"Hank I'm fine." I replied.

"Erin you have been racing around like a mad woman, you showed up at a dangerous crime scene alone and unaware of the situation and now you fiancé and daughter are in the hospital, fine isn't a word I would use. Please take it easy, its just not you we have to worry about now!" He fused.

"Hank I appreciate your concern but right now I am about as fine as I can be." I said as I began to walk towards Alex's room.

Voight simply nodded, but I knew he was watching me for any signs that I wasn't ok.

Walking into Alex's room and seeing her sitting up was one major weight off my mind. She was alive and awake. As we walked in she smiled weakly at us.

"Hi." She croaked.

"Hi." I whispered in response as I raced over and flung my arms around her.

"I'm sorry mom I didn't know Jay was coming after me." She began to cry as I hugged her.

"Is he ok?" She mumbled into my shoulder.

"Honey its not your fault you know Jay, he wanted to make sure you were safe." I assured her.

"But is he ok?" She asked again.

"Um the doctors are doing everything they can kid." Voight said as he walked closer to Alex's bed.

"Sean shot him didn't he?" Alex wined which sent her heart machine racing. It beeped furiously as the nurse rushed in.

"Alex you need to relax, you lost quiet a bit of blood and we don't want you getting over excited." The nurse scolded.

"Thanks nurse." I smiled as she left us alone again.

"Sean shot him right?" Alex asked, a little calmer this time.

"Yeah like he said, he got one last shot before we shot him." Voight confirmed.

"Why did he aim for Jay and not me?" Alex cried as tears fell from her eyes.

"Um… I don't know kid." Voight lied.

I studied his face carefully as he looked at the floor.

"Alex, honey why don't you get some sleep? I will wake you when we hear something about Jay, ok?" I told her.

"Ok." She mumbled.

I gave her a quick kiss on the head before turning to Voight.

"Can I talk to you?" I whispered.

He nodded in response as we left the room.

"Why did you lie to Alex?" I asked as soon as we were out of the room.

"Would you prefer I told her the truth? That Jay pushed her out of the way of the shot and ended up with the bullet intended for her?" Voight said sarcastically.

"He did that?" I gasped.

"Yeah he did, shoved her right out of the shot." Voight replied.

"He loves her like his own." He added.

"I know." I mumbled as the tears returned.

"I just hope he makes it." I said as I began to sob.

Ever the reliable Voight once again put his arms around me as I cried. I felt safe in his arms, much like I did when Jay held me.

"He will make it." Voight stated.

"T-T-Thank y-y-you Hank. F-F-For a-a-always being there for me. I-I-I know this isn't your fault." I stuttered as I tried to stop the tears.

"Hey I know kid, you were upset. Part of what you said was right. I should never have allowed her to get hurt. Or Jay for that matter." He replied.

Before I could reply Benson and Rollin's arrived.

"Hey how are they?" Benson asked as she gave me a hug. She always acted motherly towards me which was something I really liked about her.

"Um well Alex is fine, she's in there. Jay is in surgery and we haven't heard anything." Voight told her.

"I'm sure he will be ok." Amanda tried to comfort me.

"We will see." I mumbled.

Just at that the doctor approached.

"Miss Lindsay?" He asked.

"Yeah?" I whispered as I dreaded his next sentence.

LaFrancaise I'm glad you are enjoying now lol Hope I don't disappoint it means a lot that you took the time to leave such a nice review :-) However I think you made one mistake, nothing is like waiting for a new ep of CPD lol It's a long week especially when you see the promo for this weeks ep!

Until next time ;-)