Amu's P.O.V
It had been a lazy day. The non-stop work I had been doing had made an obvious difference in the amount of paperwork on my desk. It was practically nothing but trivial requests of mating with stupid, cocky Alpha's to join our packs together. I was polite at first, but there are only so many polite ways of saying hell no.
I couldn't mate with someone I didn't love, even if it could help my pack. It was the one thing I wasn't willing to do. My heart thumped painfully at the thought, and I close my eyes and lean back. That was all I wanted. A mate, hell, someone to love me unconditionally. Why was it I hadn't found my mate yet? I was already so old.
'Don't you dare give up!' my wolf snarls in my head, with far more aggressiveness then usual.
'Why? My 16th birthday has passed. My 18th birthday has passed. My 20th birthday has passed. The only conclusion is that my mate died before I shifted and that is why I didn't feel-' I start.
'HE ISNT DEAD. Stop talking like that! You will find him and he will be ours. Forever.' she says, forceful at the beginning, but her voice softening at the end. I don't bother replying.
Thinking of my mate, I thought of the man in my dreams. I hadn't dreamed of him since that night, but still, every detail of it stayed with me. The way his arms felt when they were wrapped around me. The way that he smelt and the feeling of his breath on my ear. His sweet voice whispering those promises and the color Azure. Everything about him made me melt.
The question was, was he my mate? I had tried again and again to ask my wolf, but she said we would have to wait and see. It was so infuriating at first, but I had grown used to knowing that she hid something from me. Finally, I had just given up. I knew the truth would come out. She couldn't keep it from me forever.
I was broken from my thoughts when the phone rang. I groaned and stared at it. I didn't want to pick it up. It was hard enough getting the emails and letters asking if I wanted to join the packs together, but the phone calls were the worst. It was awkward and embarrassing.
For a second, I considered not answering it, but I felt something in me telling me to answer it. I picked up the phone and put it to my ear.
"Hello," I say in a soft voice. Please don't be another asshole, I chant in my head.
"Hello, Amu?" I hear a deep, velvety voice say softly. I gasp softly, goose bumps breaking out all over my body. His voice was so familiar, so familiar it almost hurt. My wolf was jumping around, obviously excited. What got her so worked up?
Realizing I hadn't replied yet, I shook myself out of my trance.
"Yes, who is this?" I can already tell I sound confused, and my cheeks heat up. Why can't I keep my cool?
"Ikuto, its Ikuto. Alpha of the Red Moon Pack." he says calmly. Ikuto? Then it dawns on me. The Alpha of my old pack. Duh. He used to watch as I got beat up and never did anything to stop it. Why was that only coming back to me now? Wait…Ikuto..could it be…no, there is no way he was the one from my dreams….
"Oh, hello, is there anything I can do for you?" I ask, more forced. He let me get hurt for his and his friend's fun. He isn't really someone I want to associate with.
"I need a favor. I wouldn't be asking this if this absolutely wasn't necessary, but it's about Yaya-" he starts, but I stop him. I don't care about any grudge I have against him, I will forget that if it has anything to do with my friends. Yaya especially. She has been through enough. A pang of guilt hits me. I should have stayed in better contact with her and Rima. What kind of friend am I?
"Is she okay? Oh god, did something happen to her?" I ask frantically.
"Calm down. Yaya is alive and unharmed…well, I wouldn't say unharmed. Kairi has informally rejected her. He has never said anything in words, but he pushed her away and that has broken her. She doesn't interact with anyone, she doesn't eat, and I don't really even think she sleeps. We need you to come here and see if you can help her. I fear for her life if you don't." he says calmly. Rage boiled inside me, and I felt something kindred about her situation and something that had happened to me. It was in my past, the part I couldn't remember. How convenient.
"I will be there before the end of the night if that is okay. Thank you so much for telling me this, Alpha Ikuto." I say politely. I didn't want him not letting me come because I let my past get in the way. He laughs into the phone.
"Just Ikuto," he says casually, chuckling. My heart skips a beat and my cheeks heat at this. If his voice was doing this to me, then what would his presence do? Oh god, I didn't want to think about that. "I will see you tonight, goodbye strawberry." he finishes before he hangs up the phone. I drop the phone to the desk and hold my flaming cheeks. He was making me feel things that I hadn't felt in a long time. I can't remember ever feeling like this, but it was there in the back of my mind.
God, I need to start remembering before it drives me insane.
I walk out of my office, not paying attention at all and walk right into a familiar chest.
"Well, you could have just greeted me with a hug, no need to be rude." Yoru's voice rings in my ears.
"Sorry Yoru, im in a hurry." I say.
"Hurry? Where ya going?" he asks, leaning against the wall to his right and looking at me with his yellow eyes.
"Red Moon Pack to see Yaya. Apparently she isn't doing so hot. Kairi isn't rejecting her, but he won't accept her. It's killing her," I say softly. I see his face warp into a horror stricken expression before it goes back into a hard mask.
"You should just have her come here. We need you here." he says, his voice hard.
"What are you hiding from me?" I ask, staring him down. He won't meet my gaze.
"You told me how that pack treated you, and I don't ever want you to feel like that." he says, but I can hear there is only half a truth in it.
"Ikuto. You said I dated an Ikuto. Do you mean Alpha Ikuto? Is there any way that I would have forgiven him and given him a chance with me" I ask.
"I never said-" he starts.
"What are you hiding from me?! What am I forgetting that you know?" I yell, my frustration growing. He grabs the sides of my face and forces his lips on mine. My eyes widen, yet I am too shocked to break away. His kiss was soft, and warm, but the sparks were lacking. It was..nice, but it wasn't what I wanted. My wolf whined in my head. Yoru wasn't my mate, as much as I might wish he was.
I loved him but not like that.
He pulled away, hiding his face behind his bangs.
"I love you." he says, before he walks away. Why was this happening to me now! This was the last thing I needed. I bit my tongue to keep myself from crying, and hurried towards my room. Numbly, I pack all the clothes I would need. I don't know how long I will be there or what the weather will be like so I pack it all. I leave a note on my bed with instructions for Yoru, even though I know he won't need them. The pack can go without me; it's like a well oiled machine.
I go down to the kitchen and make a sandwich, grab an orange, a bottle of water, and some carrots. Had to make sure he had a balanced meal at least once a day. I make my way back upstairs and got all the way up to the attic. It used to be just a little nook that no one used, but Tadase soon made it his own. He completely renovated it himself and made it something beautiful. Something that fit Nade so perfectly it was a shame she never got to see it. I see him lying in bed on his back, a bottle of nameless alcohol clutched firmly in his hands.
It has been this way for a long time, but it was understandable. The love of his life was dead. We thought his wolf would go dormant, but we got the exact opposite. His wolf was angry, and wanted out. He binge drank to numb himself so his wolf couldn't take control. The only time he let him out is when rouges entered the territory. Then he killed and killed everything that got in his way.
"Tadase?" I ask softly.
He turns his head towards me and looks at me with dull, red eyes.
"I brought you some food," I say softly, giving him a small smile. He sits up, his whole form wobbling, but he steadies himself in time.
"Why so early?" he asks as I set the tray down on his lap and he picks up the bottle of water.
"I have to go to the Red Moon Pack. Kairi, Yaya's mate has indirectly rejected her. He won't reject her, but he won't accept her and she is letting herself waste away because of it." I repeat tiredly. He might be numb for the most part, but he still loved his family. We were his family.
Tadase frowned. He puts the tray to the side and tries to stand up, but he nearly falls down.
"Where do you want to go?" I ask, as I put his arm over my shoulder. He points to a vanity and we head over, most of his weight on me. He slumps onto the stool ungracefully and reaches his hand over to a small, wooden box with beautiful purple roses painted all over it. His hand skimmed the surface lightly, like he was afraid to break it, before he pulled it towards him. When he opens it, I realize whose it was. The memory had slipped away from me, that's how long it had been since I had seen it.
It was the jewelry box that Nagi had made for Nade when he was in high school. It was her treasure, and she only put her most important things in it. It was filled with pressed flowers, a few pieces of colored paper folded up, a small stack of pictures, and some jewelry. Tadase carefully picked up the pile of pictures, and looked through them, before putting it beside him. He then picked up a small chain, and clutched his hand around it, before muttering something to himself.
"These were Nade's treasures." he says simply, almost like a small child. I nod my head carefully.
"Nade…Nade would want her to have these. She wouldn't want them to just sit and rot in a box. Give it to Yaya to remind her that Nade is always with her, and that someone always loves her, even if the world isn't treating her like it." he finishes. It is probably the soberest thing I have heard him say in a few years.
I reach out my hand, and he puts the familiar necklace in my hand, and hands me the picture. A small smile comes to my lips at the memories of the necklace. It was given to her a long time ago by a friend that had passed away while we were still Rouges. She had gone off after she got in an argument with her mate, and had been attacked. Little Lilia was killed quickly, her throat ripped out resulting in immediate death. We didn't know she was gone until we heard her mate, Lucius, screaming.
Just the day before, she had bought the necklace for Nade because she said it matched her hair perfectly. From that day on, she wore the necklace, until Tadase bought her a diamond necklace for her birthday. She put it away, saying that she would pass it on to the next person that needed it.
Since she was gone, Tadase had taken it into his own hands.
"Thank you, Dasey, it means a lot," I say, smiling lightly. He nods, and I lead him back to the bed.
"Tell her I love her." he murmurs.
"Alright, bye Tadase," I say, but he is already asleep. I slide the treasures into my purse, and head out to the garage. Wordlessly, I step into a ruby red sports car that I used for when it was colder outside, and drove away.
I had nearly forgotten how much time you had to think when you were on the road. I mulled over every word of Yoru's, every detail I knew about my dream boy, who seemed more and more like Ikuto, and the information that seemed more and more necessary as this day progressed.
'In good time,' my wolf murmurs, sounding happy.
'You don't know when good time is. A good time was yesterday. You don't understand how valuable that information is.' I hiss, almost feeling bad.
'One thing needs to happen before you remember. And it wont take long, knowing the trigger,' she says confidently, completely ignoring my harshness. I grumble, a scowl now etched into my face, until I hear my phone buzz.
I look at the ID and my scowl is replaced with a small smile.
"Hello Mama," I say into the phone.
"Hello Love! How are you!?" she asks happily. Why was she so happy? I wonder…
"Good, how about you, and Ami, and Papa," I ask.
"Ami is good! She just wrote a new song and Mama and Papa are going to let her sing it at dinner tonight!" Ami yells excitedly. Ah, now I know why Mama is so happy. She always loved helping Ami reach her dreams.
"Hello, sweetheart, how's the pack?" I hear Papa say. My smile grows wider.
"Great Papa! You must be busy lately!" I say giggling. He snorts in agreement.
"Well, I want to talk longer, but I can't! We will call you tonight or tomorrow! We just wanted to see how our little girl was. Love you," Papa says before the phone goes dead. The call brightened my day a little bit.
The best thing that had happened during the past few years was the rekindling of my relationship with my parents, especially my mother. It was hard. My mother knew I was her daughter, and she had her memories, but her mind was still damaged from all those years of compression. Her mental state was so fragile, and it broke down quickly. But we had built a pretty strong relationship, though it was hard to relate to each other. She loved me and I loved her.
That was all that mattered in the end right? If only the people in my life could see it like that.
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Ikuto's P.O.V
I felt like a moron pacing around the house, barking out orders to make sure everything was perfect. I had her room made up right next to mine; a door connecting them like it had been in her house. All her favorite food and items were bought and place strategically, so she didn't think I was an obsessive freak who aimed to please her every whim.
Wait….
That sounds about right. I am desperate to please her.
'And kiss her…and smell her…if at all possible lick her before she takes your inability to have children..' my wolf says dreamily, jumping around in my head. Moments like this I really realized how much we were alike…
'A car just entered the territory. Damn…that is one hot car. Wait! That car doesn't even come out until next year! How the hell-' Kukai mind links me. I chuckle lightly, and head upstairs. Both Rima and Nagi's mind blocks were up like usual, so I knocked on their door.
"Amu's here," I say softly. There is a sharp pain in my nose, and I fall to the ground. Rima didn't even seem to notice. She is racing down the stairs faster then I have ever seen the lazy girl go. Nagi looks down at me apologetically, and holds out his hand. I grumble, but take it anyways, rubbing my nose. All the anger in me disappears when an all too familiar heavenly aroma hits my nose, sending my wolf into a frenzy of happiness. Amu was close, so close that I could practically taste her.
I run down the stairs, the control over my wolf gone and his lusty grin taking over my features. I open the door and see her giggling on the ground. Rima on top of her, hitting her and scolding her. Her eyes meet mine and I feel like I'm falling.
Falling in love with her all over again.
Rima gets off of her, and talks away, but Amu's attention isn't on her. Her eyes are focused on me, and her face displays confusion.
'Give me back control, or you will do something that will make her hate me.' I say softly to my wolf. He whines, not wanting too.
'Just a lick, or a kiss, or sniff, or a little bite.' he says like a small child.
'Please.' I say, and he gives up his control and lets me have my body back. I walk towards her slowly, and her eyes rake down my body, making me shiver in happiness.
"How….?" she asks uncertainly, taking a few steps back. I grab her arm lightly, pulling her flush against my chest. Her eyes go wide and she gasps as she feels the sparks erupt. It felt so good to have her near, I could practically feel the power surging back through my body.
"Amu," I say adoringly. She sighs quietly.
"I-Ikuto?" she says, slightly tumbling over the words.
"MINE!" I yell, capturing her lips in mine. I don't bother closing my eyes. Her eyes stare into mine in pure shock. Then I see her eyes cloud over, as if she is processing information and I realize what is going to happen in a second. I close my eyes and savor this last moment before she comes to her senses.
A loud echoing slap resonates outside. My cheeks stings painfully, but I don't really care about it.
"You…after everything…you rejected me twice… how dare you kiss me?!" she sputters. I give her a small smile.
"Ill win your heart again, but right now, you need to focus on the mission at hand. Yaya doesn't know you are here, and I think she would be very happy to see you." I say, giving her a smirk. Amu's face heats and I hear her mutter something along the lines of 'Stupid Bastard' before she stomps off like a small child.
It was great to have her back. My wolf agrees enthusiastically.
It didn't matter what got in our way, this time Amu would be mine.
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Yaya's P.O.V
I never knew something could hurt as bad as rejection did until I met my mate. I was stupid enough to believe he would actually love me, and take care of me after Nade's death, but I was wrong. I was so wrong.
Pity. It was all out of pity. His kisses, his caresses, the sparkle in his eyes when he looked at me. All of it was a lie.
A beautiful lie.
I don't know what I have left. People love me, I know that, but I don't know how much longer I can do this. My wolf is nearly dead…my body is nearly dead…my heart is long gone.
What was the purpose of living besides some sick form of self loathing?
My dull eyes look into the cracked mirror, and what I see disgusts me. How pathetic am I? I let a boy ruin my life. Amu and Nade got formally rejected, yet they still bounced back. They still made something of themselves. You just sit here moping all day, praying for some sort of impossible miracle.
Pathetic. That's what you are. Pathetic and worthless. Just like my mother after she lost my father. I flinched slightly at the thought. She lived out her life in a sorrowful heap after Daddy died. I understand it more now, but I wanted a Mom that could actually look me in the eyes and wouldn't lock herself in her room for weeks, leaving me to fend for myself.
Yet, I found myself doing the same thing.
'I don't want to be alive anymore.' my wolf says, and I bite my lip until I draw blood. I couldn't agree with Yoka, my wolf, more. I didn't want to be alive either.
I don't know how long I laid there lost in self pity. My sense of time was long gone, and I could go all day without realizing that more then five minutes had passed. I heard the faint creek of someone walking down the hall, but I didn't think anything of it, I just huddled under my blanket and let my eyes slide shut. My door slowly creaked open, and I open my eyes, only to have my heart crack a little at what I see.
Kairi's eyes bore into me with a mixture of hatred, pity, and disgust. My wolf just gave a pained whimper, too broken to even fight anymore. Her hope was long gone.
"The Alpha wants you downstairs." he says, tearing his eyes away from me. I nod my head. He shuts the door and I shakily get up.
You let your heart break in burn,
Hoping you will get love, in return.
You bend head over heels, but it's all in vain,
He doesn't care enough to see through your pain.
Your heart is dying, your blood barely red,
Agony and Hate whirling in your head.
He took what he wanted, before you could see,
That all he really was, was your agony.
I trudge down the hall, my body weak from no food, but still unable to keep anything down. It was a cruel thing. This whole situation was cruel, but I didn't have a choice but to deal with it. I would until I died, which didn't seem like it was all that far away. I start down the stairs, distracted, until my nose is finally hit with a familiar scent. I look up, and I see her smirking at me, Ikuto, Rima, Nagi, and Kairi by her side.
"A-Amu?" I ask.
"Hello there love," she says, her smile growing. A smile overtakes my face and I jump down the stairs into her arms, making her fall back onto the floor laughing. I hold her close, feeling happiness for the first time in a long time.
"I missed you so much," I blubber, tears going down my cheeks. These are from happiness for once.
"I missed you too, chicklet." she murmurs, stroking my hair.
You let your love, flicker and die,
Your life measured by the tears you cry.
Happiness is fleeting, but you can only hope.
It might just last, maybe you can cope.
"I will make this all better, honey, I promise," she whispers in my ear so silently that I know I was the only one to hear it. I nod, and she holds me tighter. I don't necessarily believe it, but I want to.
And that's the first step I think.
Roses are red, and violets are blue,
Chocolates bittersweet, and so are you,
You took me in and made me feel.
I believed what we had was actually real.
The roses, they wilted, the violets, they died.
You never bothered with the tears I cried.
So I sit here today in utter disrepair,
I gave away too much, and no one will share.
They see me as broken, they see me as lame.
They see me as nothing, but a mismatched game.
The roses, they withered, the violets rotted,
Our love was something that Fate never allotted.
Like the roses, I bleed red, like the violets, I feel blue.
And maybe one day I can hate you like I want too.
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I have had most of this written for quite some time, but I haven't had a chance to get on the laptop, which sucks. So here this is. THE POEMS (TWO SEPARATE ONES) ARE MINE AND PLEASE DON'T STEAL THEM. THEY ARE MY JEWELS AND I LOVE THEM. Anyway, tell me what you think. I love to hear what you think and I would love to read your stories if you ask me too! Thanks for reading and I love you all my adorable little piles of panda and rainbows! OH AND PLEASE READ MY LOVELY FRIEND Dorthia 'S stories. They are great and she deserves lots of reads and reviews because they are great!
RESPONSE TO REVIEWS.
XxxCatsOfTheShadowsxxx- I hope you enjoyed seeing Ikuto so hyper and excited to see her. Its so much fun to write like that. I'm glad you like the story and thanks for reading it. Amu has gotten her memories back, and I will go in depth next chapter! And hopefully, the Amuto will continue from this point!
ImDiffrentSoWhat- Yes, Nade will never be forgotten. Don't worry, Amu will be going Mama Bear on Yaya and Kairi will get in big trouble. The Amuto will only continue from here, so it will be wonderful! I have never thought of how much Kairi and Ikuto are alike! I might just have to do that.
Hopefully you won't hate me for what Yoru did to Amu before she left. Ikuto never forgets those little things to make Amu's life more difficult lol! Hope you enjoy this chapter!
Hitomi65- thank you! Glad you like it!
Riko Psycho- You are one hyper little sea panda! I love it! Hehe…I don't even reread over what I read…I spell check it and post it. I do have some errors, but I guess nothing major, but thanks anyways!
I really wanted Yaya to be a bit different then the cliché that she always seems to fit into. She is a lot deeper of a character then previously thought. I wanted to show the struggle she has to face to get her happy ending, if it ends up happy.
There is absolutely nothing in this world that I Hate more then stupid people, but second to that is when people over describe things. I don't care about their outfits. They are crappily described anyways so they shouldn't even try. The outfit you describes sounds like what I wear…I Kid, I Kid!
I love eyes. I don't really know why but I just feel like its an intimate thing to really look people in the eyes and I love using them to hint at emotions. They say they are the windows to the Soul.
No. I understand how confusing it can be about the whole 'forgotten memories' thing. It will be more next chapter with Yoru. So don't fret about that.
The kiss was small, but again, Yoru's POV will be next chapter, so don't worry.
Cant promise about the whole not killing other characters thing…sorry!…thanks for reading!
Warmheartxoxo- I'm sorry. I had to kill a character, and it had to be unpredictable. No one really seems to care about Tadase, but that's okay. He is a little bit of a brat lol. At least he isn't standing in Ikuto and Amu's way anymore.
16craftytigers- I am sorry I made you sad! I always love adding Ikuto's wolf in their. He is so funny and hyper. Thanks for reading! Enjoy!
PrincessSkylar- I am sorry you are sad because I killed Nade, but thanks for reading!
Rock'N'RollTwins- Hey. Totally understand the whole school thing. Blame school on why I cant update as much as I used to. Plus, its impossible for me to get annoyed with long reviews.
Im glad you liked the speech, I was hoping it wasn't over the top. I hoped to really show how deep his love was. Kairi…he pisses me off. Especially when you see how he treats Yaya. Kairi will be tramatized, I will make sure he pays, but im still not cruel. I promise you will be satisfied with the results.
I feel like such a bad person in a wonderful way! Making you stay up late and getting you addicted. At least it is to reading and not anything bad.
I'm so glad you review! It is flattering. I'm so happy you like my stories. I write them for the enjoyment of others. That makes me so happy that I can make someone else happy. I don't watch the Walking Dead, but I plan on doing so soon. I know all the characters, and I totally understand why you like him. If Daryl dies we riot, right? Night Kid!
InsertStupidNameHere- Hey, there is nothing wrong with getting caught on FanFiciton….or procrastination..or loving my stories! It is all lovely! I love your story! I don't know if I remembered to review, but I promise that I have read it! Thanks for reading!
Dragongirl2319- This is a little happier, but still its kind of sad. Oh well. Im not a happy go lucky person, sorry to say! Enjoy!
Nekogirl017- HAHAHHA WELL SAID. AMUTO PUPPIES WOULD BE SO GREAT THAT I MIGHT BARF UP RAINBOWS AND SPARKLES. Enjoy!
AmuxIkutolover- Welcome back my fun friend! Im glad you did well on your finals! Congrats! There are a lot of emotions flying around, and a lot will be revealed in the next few chapter. Most not happy, but the information is vital for the story. Don't worry about Kairi and his situation, he has some things coming. Things that he deserves. Amuto are back together (not as a couple but in the same building) YAY!
DON'T YOU LOVE GETTING CAUGHT UP ON FANFICTION AND ENDING UP GETTING NO SLEEP? I DON'T, BUT I DO IT ALL THE TIME. Its totally understandable. Who needs sleep anywasy. School sucks anyways. Anyway, enjoy school and this chapter.
BlueRose179- Hello my new reviewer or old that hasn't reviewed ever or in a long time! Thank you for reviewing. Your very lovely. This chapter is dedicated to you! Enjoy!
JoeyPNg-Awww I am very happy you like my story and Amu and Ikuto are reunited, it can only get better from here ( that is a lie, but a bittersweet one). Hopefully, in the end, it's a happy ending! BRO FIST! Goodbye friend!