Okay, wow. It's been like two weeks since I last updated this. Sorry about that, loves! I hope you're all still interested. I don't own anything.

Logan yawned and blinked sleepily. "I'm tired," he murmured softly, leaning over to lay his head on James' shoulder. "Why did we have to get up so early?"

"Because," James told him. "We want to get to Disneyland nice and early so we can go on as many rides as possible the next two days. Sound good, Logie?" He turned to look at his friend and dropped an arm over his shoulders, pulling him close. He didn't want to think about the fact that they were driving.

Always in tune to his friends' feelings, Logan met James' gaze. "Are you still scared of driving?" he asked sadly. "Did you know that it's a lot safer to fly? That's why plane crashes are always on TV and stuff. Because they don't happen a lot and when they do it's a big deal. Car crashes happen all the time, ever day."

Because there's a bunch of idiots driving, James thought, flinching slightly at Logan's words. In one way it was comforting to hear Logan talk in the familiar know-it-all way that he used to drive them crazy with before the accident. On the other hand, the subject matter was not easy to listen to. James forced a smile anyway and nodded. "Makes sense to me," he said, praying that Logan would be satisfied with his answer and move on.

Carlos jumped into the conversation before Logan could say anything. "Hey, Logie." he said, glancing at James. "What do you want to do when we get there?"

"Well," Logan said thoughtfully, totally forgetting his earlier subject of interest. "I want to see everyone and ride all of the rides. I've never been there before though so I guess we have to just wait and see. We have to watch the fireworks tonight though. I love fireworks."

"Fireworks are awesome," Kendall agreed with a tiny smile. "And thanks to James we're going to see some really crazy ones tonight. New Year's Eve fireworks are always the best and this year, we're going to be in Disneyland."

"So we'll see the best of the best!" Logan said eagerly. "Right?"

"Right," James said, sighing in relief because any conversation was better than one about car accidents. If only he could do away with the barely contained panic that constantly threatened to send him closer to the edge. "Tell you what," he turned to Logan, hoping to forget his fears. "When we get there, we'll see Mickey and Minnie and Donald and-"

"Not Goofy," Logan interrupted "He's too tall and scary."

"I'm tall though, Logan." James said, suddenly having the ridiculous fear that Logan might be afraid of him.

Logan rolled his eyes. "Yeah, but Goofy is a dog with really big teeth. You're a person and you have normal teeth. It's okay. I know that you and Carlos and Kendall will keep me safe. Even from Goofy. And you don't need to be afraid because I won't leave you alone this time."

Kendall shared a pained look with Carlos, both of the boys knowing that another change of subject was needed. The last thing James needed was a reminder of the disastrous zoo trip. "Anyway, when we get there, we'll take a look around and see what we want to do first. We can find some characters and ride some rides and then get lunch. . ." he trailed off to take a deep breath in the midst of his digression.

"And when we're done lunch, we can have more fun, right?" Logan asked.

"Right," Carlos said with a nod. "We'll have fun all day and then watch the fireworks at night, then head home for the night and come back again tomorrow."

Logan peered out the window at the blue sky. "It's a perfect day for going to Disneyland," he declared after a while. "It's sunny but it's not too hot or too cold. I like it like this, it should be like this every day, don't you think, James?"

Amused, James laughed a little. "I wish, Logie." he said quietly. "That would sure make planning things a little easier. Ever since he had bought the tickets, he had been afraid of what would happen if the weather was less than fantastic. Los Angeles could be fairly warm even at the end of December so he hadn't been worried about the temperature as much as the possibility of rain ruining everything. He was glad to see that the sun looked like it was going to be around for the next few days.

They drove in a comfortable silence for quite some time before Logan looked at Kendall, driving in the front seat. "Kendall?"

"Yeah, Logan?" Kendall glanced in the rear view mirror, his eyes automatically going back and forth between James and Logan to make sure they were both okay. "What's up?"

"Is Mommy taking care of Buddy?" Logan asked.

Kendall's hands tightened their grip on the steering wheel. Mommy. It was so endearing, yet so horribly wrong at the same time. His mother had wanted Logan to call her Mom since she had adopted him three years ago. But Logan had always been just a little too shy and uncomfortable about it. It was as if calling her Mom would make him too open to getting hurt all over again. He was fine as long as he kept the slightest bit of distance between himself and everyone else. Looking back, it had been that way since his birth mother died.

"Be careful what you wish for because it might come true."

The saying floated through Kendall's mind and he sighed. All he had wanted was to have Logan feel like he was a part of the family and that not everyone was going to leave him. Now, as he took another quick glance in the back seat, he had gotten just what he had always wanted, only it was some twisted version of his dream. He'd give anything to have the old Logan back, even if his hidden uncertainties were hard to see.

"Kendall?"

He jerked out of his thoughts and smiled for Logan. "Yeah, of course she is, Logie. Her and Katie will take good care of him, okay? You'll see him tonight."

"I wish we could have brought him." Logan sighed. "But I guess it would probably be too crowded and not safe for him since he's still such a little guy, right?"

"Absolutely," Kendall nodded. "Besides, he wouldn't like it anyway. Too much to see and hear. He likes it when it's just you and him playing together."

"Us," Logan corrected. "All of us."

"Yeah," Kendall replied softly. "Us."

Apparently satisfied, Logan went back to staring out the window at the cars rushing past. "Are we almost there?"

Carlos frowned, studying the map in confusion. "I think so, Logan." he said slowly. "Fifteen or twenty minutes maybe. Don't worry," he added with a grin when Logan frowned slightly. "It'll go by quickly and once we do get there, you'll forget all about the car ride. You'll see."

Logan bounced a little bit in his seat, anticipating their arrival. "Thanks again, James." he said, serious for a moment. "This is going to be so awesome and I can't wait!"

"You're welcome," James said, looking a little more relaxed now that he was armed with the knowledge that the car ride would soon be over. "I'm excited too."

"We all are," Carlos smiled. "Logan's right. It'll be great."

"I didn't say it would be great though, Carlos." Logan told him. "I said it would be awesome."

Carlos chuckled. "Okay then. It'll be awesome." He hastily redirected his attention back to the map and his job of navigation, but continued to listen to Logan's steady stream of chatter about all the plans he had when they got to Disneyland.

At last, they didn't have to wait any longer. "We're here!" Kendall announced as he pulled into the huge parking lot that was already, unfortunately, packed with cars. He drove aimlessly around, searching for an open spot, all the while inwardly panicking over just how easy it would be to lose Logan in such an enormous crowd. "Hey, buddy!" he called.

"Yeah?" Logan tore his gaze away from the window to look at Kendall.

"What's the first rule?" Kendall prompted.

"Stay with you guys." Logan answered right away. He took hold of James' hand and held it up for Kendall to see. "I will, see?"

Kendall released the breath he had been holding, wishing it could have relieved some of the tension that still tied a knot in his stomach. "Okay, good." He smiled as he pulled into a spot and stopped the car. "Well, I guess this is it."

James found himself being dragged out of the car and had to brace himself to stop Logan's excited dash across the parking lot. "Remember Logan," he said, half regretting his decision to buy the tickets in the first place because of the fear of losing Logan again. "Stay together. All of us."

"Sorry," Logan apologized, a little ashamed. "Can we go on those cool trains now?"

"Trams." Carlos said, pointing them out where they sat just in the distance.

Logan nodded. "Okay," he said dismissively. "Trams. Can we go on them now?"

James stopped him while they were still near the car and fiddled with the helmet strap. "Just being safe." he said patiently when Logan sighed and rolled his eyes. "We have to check it a few times throughout the day just to make sure it never comes loose. That's what Emma and Noah said, remember? They should know, they're your therapy doctors. They know how to keep you safe."

Logan blinked and stared up at James. "But so do you." he said innocently.

James bit his lip and forced a smile, giving the strap one last tug to make sure it was secure. "From now on I will." he said under his breath. Then he gripped Logan's hand firmly and let Kendall and Carlos lead the way. His breath caught in his throat and then quickened a little when he saw the throngs of people waiting by the transportation system that would take them into the park. "Kendall?" he whispered, unable to keep the fear out of his voice.

"It will be fine, James." Kendall promised him quietly. "We're all here to keep an eye on him this time."

"But there's more people this time!" James pointed out. "A lot more."

Carlos stretched up to see over the crowd. "It looks like we'll only have to wait ten minutes or so." he told Logan. "Logie, there's going to be a lot of people in the park, even more than right here. You have to be really careful, okay? All of us do." He looked at James and then added in a rush. "If you do lose us, then stay right where you are. Don't talk to anyone unless they work in the park, okay?"

Logan looked a little annoyed at being told yet again to be careful but he only nodded and smiled at Carlos. "Okay," he said agreeably. "I promise."

Soon it was their time to board and Kendall handled their passes, watching Carlos and James anxiously as they both held tightly to Logan to avoid losing him in the shuffle. Once they were settled, sitting down on a bench seat, he was able to breathe a sigh of relief. "Okay, that part's over with." He glanced over at his friends to see Carlos pointing out the window to show Logan the passing sights and James looking around them as if their fellow passengers were all kidnappers. "James," he said softly.

James looked away from another group of teenagers that were staring at Logan and Carlos and brought his tortured gaze around to meet Kendall. "Hm?" he asked

"Just relax," Kendall told him. "We're going to have a great time today and tomorrow. Try not to worry too much and just enjoy yourself, okay? You deserve it. We all do."

The panicky feeling inside of James died down a little bit and he returned Kendall's smile. "Thanks," he whispered before turning to reply to Logan.

Soon, they came to a halt right outside the park gates. "Okay," Kendall said, turning to Logan after looking at the signs. "It looks like we're in Downtown Disney right now. There are some shops if you want to buy anything for Mom, Katie or Buddy or anyone else. Or would you rather do the fun stuff first?"

"Shopping is boring," Logan decided quickly. "We can buy stuff tomorrow. Let's go do fun stuff today." He tugged James toward the sign that read Disneyland, completely missing how happy it made it friends to know that he at least recognized the word. "Look!" he cried, pointing to flowers that were planted to look like Mickey Mouse. "It's Mickey!"

"Whoa," James stared at the flowers. "I wonder how long that would take." He shook his head. "Man, I can't believe the detail they've put into this place. It's ridiculous. But very cool." he added when Logan gave him a disapproving look.

"Yeah." Logan nodded. "Hey, can we get ice cream for lunch? Mommy isn't here so. . ." he trailed off when he saw Kendall shaking his head and grinned sheepishly. "Okay."

"Trust me," James said. "Your mom would find out. That's what parents are for. Among many other things of course."

"All right, buddy." Kendall caught Logan's attention. "That way it's called Fantasy Land and it probably has the rides you would like so do you-"

"Wow, look at the castle!" Logan interrupted Kendall and pointed to Cinderella's castle that led the way to Fantasy Land. "Let's go there!"

"Sounds like a great idea to me." Carlos told him. "We'll get lunch in a little while. A real lunch. But we'll also get ice cream later so it'll all work out."

James gripped Logan's hand tightly in his and took a deep breath. He replayed Kendall's words over and over in his mind. They were going to have a great time. He was going to enjoy himself with his best friends.

Logan started walking but stopped when James wasn't following him. He walked back and gave a gentle tug on his hand. "Come on, Daddy."

A/N. Return of the Angst Monster! I've missed him a whole lot. I've missed you guys too. Anyway, the epicness has begun because Disney and everything about it is epic. A big big big big thanks to my best friend EpicInTheLibrary for helping me out with Disneyland. It'll be epic because of her. Until next time!