The drugs in his system kept Robbie in a constant state of calm to the world however the world swirling within his own head was a battle wrapped up in a war, covered in chocolate sauce. The world of his mind took the form of Europe during World War two. Robbie himself was sitting down in a trench with Clayton looking him over, instead of being looking like Robbie he looked like a older man with a doctor's uniform. R was near by and looked like a greaser out of a 50s movie. Somewhere around here was Travis and Matthew, Matthew was the only alter who remained resembling Robbie. Travis came over with a rifle in his hands, he looked like a high school football player from the ninwties.
"I cant see any one but they keep firing motor shells towards the middle, hoping that we don't launch an attack but they're probably planning something big as well. I bet they're trying to find a way for the darkness to break through the drugs."
"Why don't we let Robbie try that?" asked R as he came over to them
"It's worth a shot Robert," Clayton stated and Robbie nodded closing his eyes and trying to focus, the second the drugs wore off he'd take control, hopefully.
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"I love Robbie I just want what is best for him and telling you about this will just destroy you and in turn him," said Jade turning away from Tori who just moved so she was in her line of sight again.
"You're wrong, I'm stronger then you think, stronger then he thinks."
"I took his virginity Vega and he took mine," Jade snapped turning away from her again, this time she froze at Jade's words.
"You're lying. It wasn't a lie though was it, it wasn't him either it was an alter or something else." she tried to explain to herself as Cat stepped forward to take her friend's hand, squeezing it softly. "Right Cat, just an alter?"
"Yeah," she said softly false cheer pushing through.
"An alter yes, but Robbie's body, my body. This ring Tori, this promise that Robbie gave to me if you guys were only a a few weeks later we'd be married but now and you'd have to deal with that. Robbie is a great man, he'd take care of me no matter what and where would that leave you Tori?"
Tori turned to look at her, reached over and took Jade's chin moving it towards her, making her look her in the eyes.
"You called me Tori, we have one thing in common Jade and that's Robbie. I love him so much that it hurts. It hurts me to know what you two did, it hurts knowing that I cant have him like that anymore, but it hurts knowing that I might not see him again," the tears were running down her face as well as Jade's as well. "I don't care that you love him too, I'm happy that you love him. He needs all the love he can get right now we will deal with what kind of love we all have for him later. I got a text from Beck a little while ago," she said letting go of Jade's head. "They have Robbie downstairs in the mental ward he's being pumped with enough drugs to keep him out until his medical work gets here and we get the drugs that can make him better, make him Robbie again."
"You didn't live with it Tori," said Jade softly wiping away her tears, "Robbie can't control it, it has evolved into something so much more powerful then he can take. He tried to kill me, he tried to kill you and he almost succeeded in killing himself. I'm so scared right now," she said as the pair of girls gathered in a group hugging each other and starting to cry all over again.
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The mind is a strange and unknown place, where wars are fought and won every day. In the less creative it's done in different ways, either a flip of a coin or simply releasing certain chemicals in order to make us think and live. Creative people have a whole world inside of them, the alters within Robbie's mind were at war and thanks to Hollywood Arts and everyone Robbie's imagination was vast and endless. However it's still a normal brain, while the drugs were keeping Robbie's body at bay the darkness tapped into the chemicals that function the body. A new type of biological warfare. Dopamine is a chemical in the brain that is responsible for sending pain signals, if the darkness was trapped in a dead lock with Robbie in here he still had ways of making it hurt out there. If he could distract Robbie with the pain, pull at his friend's heart strings, maybe he could be the one getting out again. Turning at looking at the darkness Jade who was carrying a tank of Dopamine he nodded.
"Slam it down and release it," he said plainly, without a nod of acknowledgement or anything darkness Jade did what she was told.
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"He looks really messed up doc," comment Andre as he stood with Beck and Doctor Ewell looking into Robbie's room. It was fully padded and Robbie lay in the middle of it, still aside from a few twitches.
"We cant risk taking him off the drugs until we know what concoction his normal doctors gave him for the DID," Dr Ewell said shaking his head.
"How long will that take?" Andre asked as a nurse came in to talk to the doctor. Before the doctor could answer him Robbie's vitals shot through the roof and he began to scream.
"Oh shit is he awake?" Beck cried out hitting the safety glass.
"No he's still out but his body is reacting to something, it looks like he's in serious pain."
"Get him out of there doc," screamed Beck but the doctor shook his head.
"I cant do that, we cannot take him off the drugs." Robbie pitched forward onto his knees before sliding forward, his both on auto pilot as he thrashed and jerked around. The monitor was beeping faster and faster.
"It's killing him!" Andre cried but the doctor wouldn't let him into the small room.
"How much longer can his heart take this? You're letting the alter win, we have to stop this right now," Beck tried explaining and finally the doctor nodded going to the controls and pressing all the buttons, soon the thrashing stopped and the beeping become steady.
"I lowered it but I don't know if it's enough to keep him out."
"How long until you get the," but that was as far as he got as Robbie slammed his fists into the safety glass causing Andre and Beck to jump back. There was a look of pure madness in Robbie's eyes and Beck knew that it was the evil alter back in charge.
"I'm going to kill him," the darkness sang out taunting the duo of boys before bracing his hands and slamming his head against the glass over and over again.
"It's safety glass, it cant hurt him neither can anything else it's all padded," the doctor explained causing the darkness to stop and step back for a second holding up his arm. They watched as he reached up and withdrew a needle from it, the monitor flat lined since it was no longer connected. Spinning it around he aimed it towards his throat and almost shoved it in when Beck tackled him, instead of freezing up Beck had pulled the door open and rushed inside, pinning his friend down.
"I wont let you kill my best friend," he shouted as he held him down. The darkness struggled but a male nurse came up and injected him with more drugs causing him to pass out again.
"We don't have much time doc," Andre said looking over at him, "Get us those files." Nodding the doctor took off.
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"So goddamn close," the darkness muttered as he walked to where darkness Jade had another tank, kicking it aside, "They wont fall for that again, but I took control over that brat. He should know now that fighting futile, I will win in the end, the more he fights the worse it becomes. We just need send him a message." Darkness Jade looked at him with a blankness in her eyes, "Go to him, get close then let the darkness consume you. Show him that I will kill everyone he loves unless he gives up."
Stepping out into the bomb torn battlefield darkness Jade walked slowly across the field towards Robbie, ignoring the blasts from all around her. Smiling she looked like a fallen angel and Matthew was the first one to see her walking over to where Robbie was sitting, trying to regain control.
"Jade's coming, you need to ignore her and just focus on getting control again."
"I don't know if I can take over, he filled my mind with all this pain I lost my grip for a second he got out again. Beck took him out this time, I feel like I'm losing my mind." Robbie cried out as Travis rushed towards and tackled the darkness Jade. Clayton crouched next to Robbie checking his pulse.
"How did you beat Henry? Do you remember that you accepted and forgave yourself? You have to accept that the darkness is a part of you that comes from your hatred of yourself, you need to forgive yourself and," but that's as far as he could get as a bullet slammed into his forehead knocking him back. It was a darkness bullet and because he wasn't a real person the he wasn't killed however the darkness began to spread trying to take him over. Peeking over the edge Robbie and Matthew saw darkness Stephanie firing a rifle at them, ducking as another bullet just missed them. Grasping at Robbie's pants Clayton gasped as the darkness spilled from the bullet hole like blood over taking him.
"You must fight through this Robert otherwise we're all as good as dead. Matthew, the only way to make it an even playing field is to let Robert get rid of all of us, for now. Robert you don't need me anymore, you're all grown up now, let me go." he whispered and for a second the darkness paused as Robbie looking into the older man's gray eyes and nodded.
"Thank you for taking care of me Clayton, I'll miss you." Smiling softly Clayton vanished. Turning to Matthew Robbie stared at him hard. "You and Travis need to take care of the darkness Jade and Tori so that it's just me and him, before that I need to talk to the last alter who is a part of me," he pulled Matthew into a hug before letting him go and turning to R.
"R you have protected me my entire life, saved me from my tormenters, from Henry and I will never forget you for that but it's my time now. I will stand up for myself, I promise you that."
"You cant get rid of me that easily Robbie, it doesn't work like that. Clayton is gone only because of the shot, the darkness absorbed him and will place him on the enemy side. You have to realize that Clayton was only talking because of the darkness. Honestly Robbie do you really think you're the one who was acting grown up, it was the darkness that ran away, the darkness that got a job, you're still just a kid and you need me, you need us."
"That's not true R," started Robbie but R grabbed the front of Robbie's shirt and slammed him back.
"This is in your mind yet you're letting him win, why is that Robbie? It's because you're sucking weak, no one knows anything about DID but when it comes down to it it's all about you so take control and do something about it or do you never want to see Tori again? The real Tori, the strong girl who through all of your faults, through all of our faults she still loves you. You keep forgetting that but you cant, not anymore. I've been watching you two, I've been watching her and it pains me that you cant see how much she loves you. Man up and take contrl because you control him, not the other way around."
Seeing Tori smiling at him in his mind's eye got Robbie moving again but it wasn't just Tori that he saw, he saw his best male friends Beck and Andre, the hyper active Cat, even Jade smirking at him, they were a unit and R was right, with their help he could overcome this. Taking a deep breath he closed his eyes and everything around him slowed down the explosions, bullets, sound of war all stopped and then as if a nuclear bomb fell on him the world exploded, engulfing everything in white.
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Having moved Robbie from the padded room and tied down to a gurney with the medicine being pumping into his arm. His friends were sitting around him, most of them were all cried out. In the bed next to him was Jade who was on her side, not facing Robbie mainly because she didn't want them to see her cry. Tori was the only one who wasn't crying nor had she shed tears at all, she was going to be strong for him and for her, her hand clutching his hand. Beck was holding Cat, rubbing her back as she slept in his arms. Despite the drugs, despite passing out Robbie's body suddenly pushed upwards arching against the bed causing Tori to cry out in surprise, waking Cat and getting Jade to turn back towards them wiping her eyes. Twisting his body Robbie's eyes shot open and his hand squeezed Tori's tightly, his free hand, his left hand tore the needles from his body and made a fist swinging it down at Tori's arm. Andre caught on fast and leapt to hold onto Robbie's arm, he felt stronger then ever. Looking up at Andre Robbie's eyes almost got him to let go, almost. One eye, the left eye was pure black, the pigment had changed.
"Partial control is fine for now," Robbie started, "Shut up," he spat out talking to himself twisting and thrashing his head around. "I need to get more controll from the darkness, guys is there any more of my medication?"
"No, it wont work any way it's a prescription for from the before but nothing for this. This is going to take time, maybe months away from everyone in Pine Springs Mental Hospital," explained Beck who came to his friend's good side.
"I think I should then, at least until I get control of everything again."
"It's my fault," called out Jade getting Robbie to turn at look at her, half of his face in a sneer. "I asked for Matthew that one night and if I hadn't you wouldn't be in this mess."
"That's fine Jade, I never thought it was," "Totally your fault you selfish bitch," "Stop that," Robbie snapped at himself. "I wanted them to come out and if it wasn't for everything then I wouldn't know Tori like I do now. I'm sorry I couldn't be enough for you, me nor Matthew."
"You are always enough for me. I love you Robbie, as a best friend and as so much more."
Robbie half smiled, turning to look at Andre who was still holding his fist down.
"You are such an amazing friend Andre, I can tell you're going to be something special and all I can ask is for you to be happy." "That bitch Stephanie never cared," the darkness snapped trying to get more control stopping as Robbie bit his own lip. "We all cared about you, I'm so sorry about your grandmother, I don't think I ever apologized for her."
"Thank you Robbie," Andre smiled as Beck came over and helped Andre cuff the darkness' hand, "And I forgive you."
"Beck, Cat, you guys are so great together I just wish that I was better and that we could continue to grow together. I would gladly name you Uncle Beck and Aunt Cat to whatever kids I have," Tori squeezed his hand at that, "If only to keep you around. Beck thank you for everything, you are my best friend and I thank the stars for that every single day. Cat, thank you for always putting on a happy face it made some of the darker days a little brighter. Cat rushed and hugged him tightly for a second before pulling back and hugging Beck. Now Robbie turned to face Tori who was watching him carefully.
"Tori I love you, I don't want to take this next step alone. I also don't want to ask you to sacrifice your chance at fame and happiness by coming with me, staying with me," he was crying now, out of both normal eyes but she came close and kissed him.
"I will never leave you Robbie, I love you too," she said against his lips and that's all the happiness Robbie could ever wish for."
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Slamming her locker close Jade couldn't help but stare at the empty locker next to hers. Rex's old locker now contained a chalk board with drawings on it but whenever a new student came in and tried to take the one that was right next to hers she'd scare them off somewhere else. Even with the baby bottle nips gone it still reminded her of one of her old best friends. Taking a deep breath she adjusted the cap on her head and straightened out her graduation gown before walking to go find the rest of her friends, pausing by the other locker that was cleaned out as well. Tori never came back to Hollywood Arts and that didn't make her as happy as she thought it would. Due to popular belief however the 'Make it Shine' locker was never removed even today it was all lit up. Quickly making her way to the Black Box Theater she discovered the others lounging about. Andre had broken up with then gotten back together with Keeko and they stood off to the side as Keeko tried to make sure Andre's gown was on straight, she had actually graduated last week from her own school but was still Andre's guest of honor. Beck stood off to the other side rehearsing his speech, as valedictorian he was expected to make an amazing one and couldn't help but laugh every now and then, Cat probably messed with it and added stuff in.
"We did it didn't we?" asked Cat who came up behind Jade.
"Yeah we did," Jade said thinking about what was next after all this. For the summer the gang was considering heading to visit Robbie, renting a house or something in Palm Springs so they could spend all summer with him. Their first year was going to be very hectic, Andre, Cat and Jade were all staying in the area. Andre was going to be completing his very first ever album, Jade was going to finish filming Blood Raid 3 and Cat had actually opened her own very successful bakery downtown. Beck was going away for a year to film a movie in New Zealand but there was always Skype and phone calls to stay close with Cat. Jade was moving in with Cat so she wouldn't be too lonely about everything. The bells chimed one last time signaling everyone that it was time to walk.
Beck's speech went off amazingly well, everyone was in tears by the end of it. As Jade stood up with the others waiting for her time to get her diploma she noticed a couple standing in the back watching everyone, smiles on their faces. It dawned on her who it was and when Helen called her name instead of going to her she leapt off the stage and actually ran over to her friends almost knocking Robbie over as she hugged him tight.
"God now I remember how you must have felt all those times Jade," came the voice of Tori full of cheer and humor, "I almost want to tell you to quit rubbing on my boyfriend."
Laughing Jade stepped back and looked directly into Robbie's eyes.
"Is it you?" she asked and he smiled.
"Yes it's me, I'm not alone but it's a lot better now."
Soon the others were upon the pair, Beck even had Jade's diploma in his hands as the others spoke with Robbie Tori turned to Cat.
"Hey Cat, do you think I can get a job at your bakery?"
"Oh course!" she said gleefully.
"Great, we're moving back and if we take some extra classes we can get our own diplomas next year."
As they all spoke they realized the graduating class was chanting something, "Make it Shine, Make it Shine" smiling Tori got up with Jade and Cat as back up singers and performed Make it Shine for the class.
Watching all of this go down Robbie sat in a chair in the back, the smile never leaving his face. A shadow of a hand touched him on his shoulder but he didn't need to look to know what was there.
"You lost, get over it," he said but the darkness couldn't
"I'm the biggest part of you Robbie, the moment you fail I will return."
"I will never let myself be beaten by you."
"And the others?"
"They're fine, not evil like you, like Henry"
The hand pulled away and vanished. Folding his hands on his lap Robbie resumed listening to Tori and his best friends in the whole world perform, one last time.
Sitting a few feet away under a tree was Matthew, Travis, Clayton and R.
"Do you miss the real world?" asked Travis to Matthew.
"We'll get our time," he replied softly, "Let's let him have his own time."
"The others wont listen, the new ones they'll try to take over again and again."
"We'll do our best," R said looking over at one of the new alters, five year old Reggie playing in the dirt, "It's all we can hope for."
AN - It feels done now so I'd like to thank everyone who read and who has reviewed, a huge THANK YOU to you guys. I really enjoyed writing this story and this world. All the positive reviews really got me to continue writing fanfics, I'm totally open to ideas especially for Rori and Rade stories, so if you have any send me a message.