The most intimidating people to show up at the party were definitely Ginny's older brothers, the two oldest if I was correct. They said nothing to me, but I could tell they were watching me from a distance all afternoon. It was annoying, but everyone else seemed nice enough.

I was inside, washing up a dish after lunch had been cleared away, while a stream of Ginny's brothers' wives came in and out of the house. I'd been introduced to them all at one point, but had not quite remembered all the names.

"Washing dishes by hand?" one of them asked me, stopping in the kitchen. Her accent was French, I could tell.

I nodded. "Yeah." I said. "I think they get cleaner that way."

"Fair enough." she nodded.

"Are you intimidated yet?" another asked, she was dark skinned and beautiful.

"Yeah." I admitted, drying my hands on a towel.

"Don't worry." the blonde one said. "It gets better. I promise. They all hated me at first."

I nodded. I appreciated that they were trying to reassure me that it would eventually be a good situation. I wasn't entirely convinced. I felt awkward and like everything I was doing was being watched closely. I didn't want to appear too close to Lily and Al, or they would say I was trying to take Ginny's place. If I was too distant from them, I was only in the relationship for Harry. "Thank you." I said.

"They'll warm up to you." she said. "They're truly all very soft men."

I laughed, and shrugged. "Hopefully." I said. I put down the dish, and went outside with them. I rejoined Harry, as he sat at a table with Ron and Hermione and chatted.

"Hello, Hermione, you look lovely." I said. Her stomach was large, but had a nice round shape to it.

She smiled weakly. "Everyone else keeps asking if I'm having twins. I'm massive."

"I don't think you are." I admitted. "I mean, my sister was larger. You're definitely pregnant but I don't think you look like you're carrying twins."

"Thank you." she said, and extended her hands to rest on her stomach. I could tell she was self conscious.

"Of course." I said. "When are you due, again?"

"First week of November." she said. "But I will probably go earlier than that. I had Rosie at thirty eight weeks, which I was told was early for a first time mother."

I nodded. "Early, but not unheard of. Are you getting sick of being pregnant?"

She shrugged. "Not really... I like it." she said. "I mean, give me two more weeks and I probably won't be as pleased with it, but I do enjoy it. It's kind of sad to know that I'm done."

"No more kids?" I asked.

She shook her head. "I don't think my career could handle it. You know what I mean..."

I did, so I nodded. I knew exactly what she was talking about. The pressure to maintain a prestigious career while also pursuing a family life. "Yes, I do."

"Is that how it is for Healers, as well?" she asked.

"Yeah. Most Healers have one or two children." I told her. "The only way I'll be having two children is if they're twins."

She laughed. "Yeah, I'm pretty sure I felt like that at one point, as well."

We talked a little more about her pregnancy, and it was nice to talk to her. I liked Hermione. I noticed Ginny had sulked off in a corner, by herself, without Margot. Dean was off, with Margot, talking to one of her brothers. The only person I remembered seeing Ginny with all day was Molly.

After that, Harry and I went inside to get her cake from the ice box. Molly had made the cake, which was chocolate with white frosting. We were the only people inside, and it was nice to be alone with him for a minute. Lily was with some of her cousins, running around.

"How's the party going?" I asked,getting out the plastic silverware.

"She's having a great time." he said, looking out the window at her. "She's growing up so fast."

I nodded. "Yeah."

"Did Ginny miscarry?" he asked, looking at me.

I nodded. "How did you know?"

"She had the face on." he said. "And she wants nothing to do with Margot, and she has barely said anything to Dean all afternoon. And he also looks upset. I could tell."

To be honest, I was a little jealous that he could tell that much about her just by looking at her. He knew her so well, and I had to remind myself that a ten year marriage was a really long time to get to know someone. They had been through a lot together, and sometimes I let my jealousy get ahead of me.

"Oh." was all I could muster, so I just nodded, and helped to get things together.

"How do you think the party is going?" he asked.

I shrugged. "Fine, I think." I said.

"Everyone's been nice to you, right?"

I nodded. "Mmhm."

We brought the cake and ice cream out, and served it to everyone. I tried to mingle without Harry at my side, but ended up back with him. I really wanted to make him proud by socializing with everyone, but I just couldn't do it. I did it for hours, but was done.

He understood, I thought. We sat at a table with Hannah and Neville for awhile, and I mostly listened to him talk. I had my eyes on Ginny, watching what she was doing without making it obvious. She stuck with Molly, mostly. I saw her and Dean exchange words that did not look so nice at one point, and felt a little bad, even though it was not really my place. Without saying a word to him, I knew Harry felt the same way.

We were alone in the kitchen, cleaning up after the cake mess. He laughed, and I turned around to see what he was chuckling about.

"What's so funny?" I asked him, turning around.

"Want to go snog in the pantry?" he asked, quietly, with a smirk on his face. I knew he wasn't serious.

I giggled too. "I think we're a little past that, don't you?" I asked. "We can do that in public, now." It brought back to me the memory of us at Jay's party, sneaking in the pantry for a few minutes of togetherness, and I laughed at our stupidity.

"Mmm, that's okay." he said, wrapping his arms around me.

"We should get back out there." I said.

"Probably."

The slider door opened, and one of Ginny's brothers came in. The single one, who came without anyone else and had been glaring at me earlier.

"I've got to get going." he said.

"Aw, already, Charlie?" Harry asked.

He nodded. "Yeah, unfortunately, it's already night time in Romania..." he said. "But it was a great party. She's a good kid... turning into Ginny, a bit."

Harry laughed. "Sometimes." he said. "They have the same temper, that's for sure." he agreed. "Charlie, did you ever meet Sadie?" He turned around, and gestured to me.

"No." he said, finally looking at me. Meeting his eye was harder than I thought it would be, but I did it. For a second.

"Hello." I said, trying to sound genuine.

"Hi." he said. "Well, anyways, it was great. I'll see you around, Harry."

"Alright."Harry said. "Nice seeing you."

Charlie let himself out.

"That was weird." Harry said. I just nodded, and we went back outside for the rest of the party.

That night, after everything was cleaned up, we sat on the couch, pigging out on left overs. Everyone had left an hour before, and thankfully, Molly had taken Al and Lily.

We were exhausted and feeling lazy, so we sat on the couch and ate. "I'm getting old." he groaned, rubbing out his shoulder.

"No, you're not." I assured him. "It was a long day, and we did a lot and you're still recovering from the accident last month."

"It's not just that." he said. "It's that my youngest child, my baby is four." he said. "I'm old."

I sighed. "I know." I said, running my hand through his hair. "It's fine."

"And Ron and Hermione are starting all over in a few weeks." he said. "They're so lucky."

I nodded. "I'm sorry." I said. "I wish I could give you that right now."

He sighed. "I want it badly." he admitted, looking me straight in the eye. "It's been ten years since I've raised a baby with someone else."

I leaned my head against him. "You'll get to again..."

"I know." he said. "But...in two years I'll be really old. More than halfway to forty, Sadie. That's... pretty old to have a newborn."

"And you'd, what, have a toddler instead?" I said. "You won't be too old, I promise. Everything is going to work out for the best."

He sighed. "Yeah." he didn't sound sure.

"I'm sorry." he apologized. "It's just that I miss having little kids."

"I know." I told him. "But my career..."

"A career isn't everything." he argued.

"To me, it's a big deal. We've been through this before." I countered, exasperated.

"I know." he sighed. "I'm sorry..."

I hugged him. "I love you." I told him. "And I can't wait to have a baby... but now is not the time."

He just nodded, and whispered that he loved me back.

I was both nervous and excited about going to Hogsmeade the next weekend. I was excited to see Jay. We had exchanged a few more letters over the last month, and I felt that brought us closer together. After we had gotten to know more about each other on parchment, I wanted to see him in real life.

But I was nervous to see Teddy. I had never gotten a return letter from him. Harry tried to convince me it would be alright, but I was doubtful I wanted to go, really. I didn't want to ruin what could have been a nice family lunch, but Harry insisted that I go.

"You're going." he said to me. "And you and Teddy will get along. I don't care if I have to lock you two into a closet somewhere until you get along, I've had enough of this."

"Look." I said, getting frustrated at him. "I've sent a letter and tried to sort stuff out."

"I know." he sighed. "I've let it go on for far too long."

Saturday morning came quickly. My stomach was full of butterflies as we got dressed, and I slipped on a cozy dress. I helped Lily get dressed, and we ate a light breakfast. We were not going too early, so as to give the boys some time with their friends before we came for lunch.

"Excited to see your brothers?" I asked Lily, as I helped her with her hair.

She nodded. "I miss them." she said. "And I will be at Hogwarts all by myself. They'll all be grown-ups when I'm at Hogwarts."

I brushed her hair, but didn't know what to say to her. "You will be okay." I told her.

She nodded. Around eleven, we went into his office and got a portkey to Hogsmeade. The portkey was a book from his office, so we all had to hold on tight. He held Lily in his arms as we spun around.

We landed on the train platform at Hogsmeade, and I was a little nauseous from the ride. It was very cold here, as it was farther north than his house. The air was biting, and felt almost as if it might snow.

We huddled together as we moved into the town. Everywhere I looked, we were surrounded by Hogwarts students.

I looked for a familiar head of curly, chestnut or blue hair among the crowds of kids. Jay's red-brown hair would be harder to spot, but I knew that bright blue, or any unnatural color that Teddy might be sporting, would be instantly obvious. And hopefully, they would be together.

It only took us about fifteen minutes to find Jay, who came bounding at us with a smile on his face. He had a shopping bag in his arm, but managed to give Harry a hug. "Hello." he said to all of us, grinning.

He gave me a hug next, which made me feel really happy. "Thanks, Jay." I said. I knew it was a big step for him.

"It's good to see you, Sadie." he said, before greeting his siblings.

"Have you seen Ted?" Harry asked, his eyes still scanning the crowds.

"Well, he was at breakfast."Jay said, shifting uncomfortably. His gaze flickered to me briefly, then to the ground. I wondered if Teddy was even planning on showing up.

"He'll be here." Harry said, trying to convince us, and I was sure, himself. "He has probably just lost track of the time."

I nodded at him. "Yeah, of course." I said. "How's Quidditch going, Jay?"

He started telling us about how great his team was this year, and how they would definitely be winning the Quidditch cup. He was very happy and animated, which made for an easy distraction, at least for me. I saw Lily begin to twitch, and thought she might be cold. It was very chilly in the park we were standing in.

"Here, why don't we go get everyone a table at the cafe and I'll go find Teddy?" Harry suggested. I nodded, and grabbed Lily's hand.

We went to a small cafe on the other side of Hogsmeade, far away from most of the students. He made sure we were all set up with drinks and bread, before leaving again to look for Teddy.

Author's Note: This was a hard chapter to write, and I'm not sure I like it that much. But the next chapter is pretty dramatic, with the Teddy and Sadie conflict finally coming to a head. I just want to thank the people who have reviewed for the last couple of chapters. I was in a bit of a rut and getting so few reviews... all of this support has really convinced me to keep writing. I'm working on replying to all your reviews and should be done with that by tonight. Keep reviewing!