Love
Living without it had become bearable but now that she had had a taste of it again, she wasn't sre what to do. Quinn knew she loved him and had loved him for quite some time, it happened gradually over time and before she knew she was in love with him. By that time he made it clear he wanted nothing to do with her and she tried to share her love with someone else. She wasn't fooling herself, Charlie had some of Huck's character traits but not nearly enough.
She didn't love him.
This wasn't love, it was convenience. She could hold him at night, have sex with him but she didn't love him. Knowing what he did to Huck made it even worse and harder. There was no reset button she could hit for Huck or herself. If she could, she would, she never would have loved Gideon or Jesse. As she lay in bed next to Charlie thinking about the reset button that didn't exist, a part of her would have went through it all over again just to have Huck.
She would do anything just to have those moments when they were alone and everything seemed right and nothing was forced or awkward. Even though they were awkward and broken people, when they were together it didn't feel that way. Right now, laying next to a man that wasn't him felt wrong. It felt forced. It felt awkward. She didn't want to be alone and while she knew Huck loved her, would it be enough?
"What are you thinking about?" Charlie asked, he wrapped his arm around her waist pulling her close to him, she almost told him but decided not to.
"Nothing."
"You sure?"
"Yeah.