:] Just wanted to say Merry Christmas!!! I hope you have your having an awesome Holiday Season!

Chapter 37

Jacob's POV

I smiled at her as she was restfully sleeping. Sleeping NOT dead. Carslile had given her some medication soon right after she awoke from her...death. So she was pretty much out cold.
I still don't know how that happend but...she was here. With me..with us. I guess its safe to say I believe in miracles. She had been asleep for almost 12 hours now.
I waited inpatiently for her to awake. The sun was starting to rise and I was so tired. I couldn't even remember when was the last time I slept.

I was sitting on an arm chair..ready to pass out. I put my elbow down on the arm of the chair and rested my head on my hand.
My eyes felt like weights..they just kept on getting heavier and heavier.... until they were finally closed. I shifted my body a little, trying to get as comfortable as possible.
I groaned and moved a little bit more. This chair is so uncomfortable.

I wiggled a little more in my chair. "Oops" I said as I hit the floor. "J-Jacob" Nessie whispered. Was she waking up?
I got off the floor and fixed the chair and went by her side. Her eyes slowly opened and she smiled at me. "I'm alive" she whispered.
I nodded and held her hand. "You are Alive. And lets try to keep it that way" I chuckled.

She smiled, "What happend? I heard a noise" She asked. I smiled widely. "Well....I sort of..you know. Fell" She rolled her eyes and laughed.
But then her jaw tightened and she stopped. "My side...it hurts" She said.
"Well youv'e been through alot" I said as I lightly brushed my hand on her cheek.

"Awake are we?" Carslile said as he entered the room. Nessie nodded, "How are you feeling?" Carslile asked. "My side..its hurts" She said.
Carslile nodded, "Well you did suffer through alot of major injuries" He said.
"Like what?" Nessie asked. "Youv'e broken 4 ribs, you fractured your pelvis and suffered from internal bleeding"

Nessie raised an eyebrow, "Gosh what isn't wrong with me?" She chuckled. "Your going to be on alot of bed rest"
"Am I going to be able to walk again?" Nessie asked. "Well according to my caculations. Because of your vampire side I'm sure that you will heal you in no-time" He said.
"Thank God" I said.

"You will be just fine in maybe in a couple months or weeks" He said. "How will I get around? you know If I need to get up?"
"Well I was thinking of bringing a wheel chair from the hospital" Nessie sighed and nodded. "And what about the baby is he okay?" Nessie asked.

Carslile smiled, "He's doing just fine. Iv'e been running some tests and his excess growing is slowing way down"
"Really? can...I see him?" She asked. Carslile nodded, "I'll go get him" He said before leaving the room...

"Have you seen him yet?" Nessie asked me. I shook my head no. "Iv'e been with you this whole time" He said. "Oh. Then I guess Rose has been taking care of him?"
"Of course" I sighed. "I can't wait to see him" She smiled. "Yeah" I smiled and kissed the top of her head.
"I can't believe we're parents now" She chuckled. "Ha. One minute I'm dancing in our underwear..and the next I'm changing diapers"

She bit the bottom of her lip and smiled. "Your going to be an excellent father" She said. I sighed, "Eh..I don't know-" "Your going to be just fine" She inturupted.
"Fine. But I just know your going to be the best mother in the entire world" I said, "Thanks" She replied.

I looked deaply into her eyes. They were warm and calm once again. They were not blank or lifeless anymore.
But still the memories of her..dead haunted me and I knew they would,for as long as I lived. The mental pictures were hell and I never wanted to think them again.
I could never forget them though. They were in my memory and never going to erase.

"You know....I was really scared" I admitted. "Scared?" She said. "I really thought I lost you" Nessie brought my hand to her lips and kissed it lightly.
"I know. But heaven can wait. I'm need here. I am Here" She stated. "I know! and I'm so happy your are...but" I didn't finish my sentence. "But what?" She asked.
"What if you weren't? What would I do?....How would I live without you? How would I take care of our baby without you?" I said.

She sighed, "Well all that thinking is all behind us now. I'm here" I half smiled, "I know...I know" "And I'm here to stay. Forever and ever" She added.
There was a light knock on the door. "Can we come in?" Edward asked. "Sure come on in!" Nessie said.
Edward opened the door and in his arms was him. A little baby boy. Our little baby boy.

Nessie's face lit up like a little kid that had just arrived at Disney Land for the first time. Bella and Carslile also entered the room with Edward. They all smiled as Edward gently handed the baby to Nessie. Tears fell from her eyes as she lightly brushed his cheek with her fingers. "He's s-so b-beautiful" She cried.
The baby stretched in her arms and opened his little eyes. Nessie and I smiled widely. His eyes were like emeralds.

"His eyes are green" I said. Bella smiled, "Just like his grandfather" Edward sighed and smiled too. "Grandfather..." He groaned. "Ha Ha Ha. Edward's a grandpa!" I joked.
He rolled his eyes. "Whatever" "Anyways...so what are you going to name him?" Bella asked. Nessie shrugged and looked over at me.

"What do you think? we should name him?" I asked her. She looked down at him and then at Edward and back at me. "Hey- How about Masen?" She suggested.
I smiled as did Edward, Bella and Carslile. "Masen...You know. Like dad" She said. I nodded and reached over for our Masen. "Masen sounds just right" I said as I cradled my little baby for the first time. He was so light..like a feather.

Though, he still felt very sturdy. His face was pale and beautiful like Renesmee's. His eyes beautiful and green and his hair was long, thick and dark.
He smiled at me and reached out and touched my face. His hands were warm and soft. Nessie looked at me and smiled. "He has your smile"

I didn't really understand my feelings. I already loved this baby so much. I felt as if I was now really ready ready for any challenge that headed our way.
I was ready to protect and love him. I was ready to make him my pride and joy. But now I didn't understand how I could have hated this little thing that was lying in my arms and smiling at me.
I didn't understand how I had put it in my thoughts..that this little thing was a monster. Something that I could never love. But now in this moment he sent warmth in my heart.
I was ready to be parent. I was ready to love him. He was my baby. He was our baby. Our little Masen. Our son. Our little bundle of happiness and joy..

Aww little baby boy Masen! :] And once again MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! ;D