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Language Warning in this chapter, just a heads up...it's not too bad though.

Bella POV

I still couldn't look Edward in the eye so I kept my head down as I continued.

"By the time August rolled around I decided to stay a few more weeks with him. He wasn't heading up to Seattle until the 20th, so I thought we could drive up together. It wasn't until the first week past that I realized I never got my period the previous week. So I got worried, I was never late or early, always on time. I waited it out a day until I just paniced. So I called Jacob over, I had to tell him."

Four Years Ago

I sat anxiously on my couch, waiting for that stupid doorbell to ring. I was waiting so hard that when it did ring I jumped in the air. I took deep breath and answered the door. Jacob stood there, smiling. He immediately pulled me against him in a passionate kiss. I pulled away quickly.

"I've missed you," he said, heading to the couch.

I couldn't help but smile at that.

"We've only been apart for a few hours," I teased.

He just shrugged and sat down, me next to him. It was quiet for a minute and then Jacob kissed my shoulder. He moved up to my collar bone and then started going at it on my neck. I still got goosebumps all over my body as he pushed me down and started kissing my mouth. We got really into it until his hand slid under my shirt and rested on my stomach. I jerked up and scooted away.

"Bells? What's wrong?" he asked, running his fingers through his shaggy hair.

I wrapped my arms tightly around myself and looked down.

"We need to talk," but then remembering what those words meant, I rephrased. "I mean, I need to talk to you."

I glanced up and he was all ears.

"Tell me. Is everything all right?"

I shook my head and bit my lip.

"Do you remember that night? At the lake, when we first...?"

I trailed off, hoping he would remember. He nodded indicating that he did.

So I continued. "Well...you didn't...I mean we didn't...n-not protected..."

My words jumbled. I couldn't say it. But when I looked up his eyes changed suddenly. They weren't happy or wild. In fact they were...childlike. Scared. Young. He knew what I was trying to say.

"Jacob...I think I'm pregnant."

With those words his eyes changed again. Confused.

"Pregnant?" he tried to the words out and they didn't sound right.

I nodded slowly and cupped my flat stomach. How could this have happened?

And then his whole face changed.

"Well, you said think, so it's not for sure? Have you gone to the doctors yet?" he asked, thinking up solutions already.

I shook my head. "I don't need to, I just know."

"Well take a test! We don't know anythig yet!" he almost yelled.

I sighed. "I don't need a test! I just know, okay?"

He blew out a breath, he knew I was right.

"God Bella! How could you have let this happen?" he said, his voice getting louder.

I shifted to the defensive. "What? Me? How is this my fault! You're the one who couldn't wear a damn condom!"

There...I said it.

"Condom? I thought you were on birthcontrol! Isn't that what everyone is doing now? You didn't say anything!"

"Birthcontrol?" I yelled. "Why would I bet on that? It was my first time Jacob!"

I balled his fists up like he was going to fight, but then they unclenched.

"It was mine too! You can't expect me to know all that shit!"

Who didn't know all that? You always wore protection. How could we have been so stupid? Every other time we were covered, but the first we never even thought about it.

I buried my face in my hands.

"What are we going to do?" Jacob asked, his voice a whisper.

I just shook my head.

"It's not like I can give up college," he said.

I looked up this time. His face was serious, but still college like.

"Excuse me? Jacob, I can't raise this baby on my own! I still have college too!"

I scrutinized my face. "Bella, you can't just ask me to give up my dream! I have to go to college. I can't just drop out! I'm on scholarship there!"

What about me? "So you want me to drop out? I need help, this is your baby too!"

He looked at me seriously now. "Bella, there's other options here."

I rolled my eyes. "Like adoption? I don't have the strentgh to give up my baby! Jacob...honestly."

He shook his head. "I didn't mean adoption."

It took me a minute to realize what he was talking about, but then it went very quite.

"Are you saying....you want me to get an....abortion?" The last word came out a whisper.

Jacob nodded. We both looked again at my flat stomach. And then I explode.

"How the hell could you ask me that! I would never do that, ever! This is our baby Jacob!"

He freaked too. "Well maybe I don't want a damn baby now! I'm eighteen, my life is starting! I can't just give it up to raise some child I didn't ask for! We're not ready for this Bells, it's an easy solution!"

I shook my head and tears fell from my eyes. "I can't, and I won't! What happened to you wanting me, forever? I thought you wanted to marry me and be with me forever?"

"I do!" he cried.

I let a sob escape. "Then how can you be saying this? Don't you love me?"

He stood up. "Of course I love you! But I can't marry you, not now! Not because you're pregnant! I'm going to school, Bella. This is just...it's too fast!"

More tears streamed down my face. He wasn't the man I thought he was.

"So you're going to leave me here?"

He rolled his eyes. "Of course not! You have school too Bella, we can get an apartment together, okay? Just, it's just we don't need a baby, okay?"

I shook my head. "I can't go to school this way, Jacob."

That stopped him in his tracks.

"You won't come with me?" he whispered.

I shook my head slowly. He thought for a minute before answering that.

"Then we can't be together."

I looked up at him. "You're breaking up with me?"

"No, Bella. I'm saying that I can't be a dad."

He wasn't making sense.

"So it's me, but only if I kill the baby? What kind of sick person are you!"

I got up and more tears fell.

"I don't know! I just know that I'm not ready for this! I need to get my shit together first before I even think about kids!"

I'd had it. I pointed to the door.

"Leave. Get the hell out!" I screamed.

Jacob sighed and put both hands on my shoulders, trying to calm me.

"Bella, just calm down!"

But I couldn't. I pushed him off me, slamming him into the table and knocking the lamp off.

"Don't touch me! Ever!"

"Bella, just listen-"

"Get out!" I yelled.

He stood tall, not going to leave. "No, you're not kicking me out."

"Get out!" I yelled again.

"No."

"Get the fuck out of my house!" I screamed, so loud that it felt as if the world had gone still. We were both surprised at this. I had never yelled at him before and I could never take that back now. And this time, he listened.

Jacob stood up straight and silently walked to the door, leaving me there fuming. The door opened and he turned back once, a single tear in his eye, and then left. The door clicked shut and I fell to the ground in tears. Sobs choked their way from my throat.

***

Of course later that night I got my period, but I didn't feel better. I sent a note to Jacob that said "not pregnant" and nothing more. I didn't need to see him or tell him that it was alright, because it wasn't. I didn't need all that to know what kind of man Jacob was, one who wouldn't stick by me.

I left for school the next day and every day for a month he called, but I didn't asnwer. I deleted his emails without opening them and burned his letters without reading them. I had to get him erased from my mind. It was over...it was always over.

Tears had been rolling down my face the whole time. My body was shaking and these feelings ran through me. I hadn't thought about this story in four years and now it was all coming out. I took a second to calm down before looking back at Edward. He was just standing there, watching me.

"So this is what has been bugging you?" he asked.

I should tell him, right now. But why? It's over, he doesn't need to know.

So I nodded. "Yes."

Edward just shook his head. "Bella, how could you not have told me this?"

This surprised me. He was...angry.

"Edward, I just couldn't! It hurt too much. So I thought that if I moved here permanently, I could start over with everything! And then I met you, and you outshined everything! Jacob might have been my first love, but you're my true love! There is no doubt in my mind about that! It was like my heart was shattered and you glued it together with super glue and put a protective shield around it. I've moved on from Jacob, I lived without him but you...I dont think I could make it without you," I said, letting my voice get softer.

He had to see.

"But Bella, you lied! I mean, how do I know you're not lying about other things? That was a big lie! Is your name really Bella? Or are you some secret undercover agent spying on me?" he yelled.

Bingo. Got it. Right on the money.

Edward was waiting for me to speak, but after that last thing he said, I couldn't. So he turned around and left.

And just like that, another person I loved let me down. Left. Gave up.

No one said relationships were easy.

It seemed like everyone was letting me down these days...especially myself. I was letting me down, and sooner or later it had to come back for me.

Didn't it always?

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