Disclaimer: I am not Stephenie Meyer and therefore I do not own Twilight or the wonderful characters I screw with.

Warning: Quick note, as a general rule I don't write too much smut, especially in any amount of detail, first and foremost because I write my stories with the intent of being posted to ff dot net more than any other site and as such I try to keep it to the rating of an M and not MA or NC-17. That being said, there is a little in this chapter and it is slash, so... don't read if you don't go for that.

Chapter 36 – Animals (Seth)

The back of his head hit the brick wall and he let out a soft groan. He wasn't supposed to be doing this. He should have been going to his next class or going to the library to study or any number of things other than letting Austin Marks go down on him.

Austin had been the only guy he'd ever come out to, because Austin was safe. When Seth had been in his early teens and first started to realize it wasn't girls he was into, he'd spent weeks in Forks trying to find someone to talk to. Austin was a year older than Seth and had been out in the town of Forks as being bi from the time he was thirteen, and in spite of that he was still the popular high school jock – guys still hung out with him all the time.

Over four years after Seth had first met Austin and he was still Seth's primary... buddy for when Seth needed some sort of release. He tried to avoid reaching out to Austin for as long as possible, often times he'd even convince himself that he could go without altogether for months at a time, but then there would be times like now where Seth desperately needed something other than his own hand. And this, was all because of the phone number that was in his wallet and burning a hole in his brain. For the last week he'd woke up every morning swearing to himself he was going to throw it away, but every night by the time he went to bed it was still in his wallet – still uncalled.

Austin's nails on his nipples brought him back to the now as Austin's mouth wrapped around Seth's dick. Seth groaned again then knotted his hands in Austin's hair, encouraging him on. Austin's tongue pressed against the underside of his cock as his teeth raked over the top. Seth let out a shuddering breath, his legs shaking slightly from the intense rush that the pain and pleasure mixture brought on.

He hated that about himself, hated that it took pain to find any amount of enjoyment, hated that it took a guy for him to truly find any real pleasure.

Seth let go of Austin's hair, feeling sick with himself. "Stop."

Austin pulled back immediately but looked up at Seth darkly. "You came to me, remember?"

"I know, but this is wrong."

Austin sighed and stood up. "It isn't. You do realize there are well over a thousand species of animals that practice homosexual behavior and ours is the only one that bellyaches over it."

"I didn't know you spoke dog," Seth griped in aggravation. He knew Austin's feelings on the subject but Austin didn't get it. Austin's parents had both been proud when he'd come out, bought 'My son is bi' bumper stickers and had spent a lot of time guaranteeing fair rights in Forks High School. Seth had lived a completely different life than Austin. His mother had died when he was young and he could barely remember her so he couldn't be sure how she would have felt, and he'd only been ten when his father had passed but he had seen his dad's opinion on anyone who wasn't straight – or Native American, but that was another issue altogether – plus he'd seen the derision that both of his older sisters had for gays and lesbians.

Austin snorted, placing his hands on Seth's neck so that his thumbs rested at the base of his ears. "It is alright to be gay, Seth." He leaned forward, kissing Seth.

Seth closed his eyes and once again tangled his hand in Austin's hair, letting him explore his mouth.

A minute later, Austin pulled back murmuring, "Let me make you feel good." Then he dropped back to his knees, once again wrapping his mouth around Seth's cock.