Chapter 36

Bella's point of view.

"Wha...Wha...What are you talking about?" I stuttered.

How can he be leaving? Where is he going? All these questions kept popping in my head. What if it was my fault that he is leaving?

What if I made things worse by asking him about his past? God why am I so stupid?

"I'm leaving Bella." He repeated.

"Why? Where? "I asked frantically. This can't be happening.

"Bella, my mom is alive." He said.

What? This was very confusing. He said his mom was dead.

"Edward, you said your mom was dead."

"Bella, remember the day you asked me about it?"

I nodded. How could I not remember it?

"Well, that day I went to Carlisle. I felt that I could finally talk about so I asked him to tell me everything he knew about that day. He told me that my mom told...no begged Carlisle to not tell anyone she was alive. Not even me.

She told him that I deserved a better life and that my mom was a monster for ever letting my dad abuse us. Carlisle told me that my mom convinced him to make a death declaration.

He convinced everyone including me that my mom was dead and so she fled the country for a while. Carlisle basically broke his promise by telling me this.

He feels awful for ever agreeing to it but he couldn't hold it in when I finally asked him.

Carlisle said she lives somewhere in Oregon. I have to see her Bella."

'"Why did your mom want to pretend to die?" I asked.

"She didn't believe that my dad was dead. She also thought that he would have someone get her even if he was dead, so she did it to protect me and herself even though there was no danger." He looked so heartbroken. I went up to him and I hugged him as tight as I could.

"So you're going to go get her or what?" I asked while still holding onto him. He let go though and he sat on a patch of grass beneath us. I sat down to and he pulled me so I was in his lap.

"Yes, I am going to go attempt to get her but there are no guarantees. Carlisle said she's as stubborn as a mule once her mind is made up. I need to see her." He said he sounded like he was desperate and his face looked so sad. I had to let him do this.

"When will you be leaving?" I asked.

"Today. I will drive to Portland Oregon. I waited so I could say goodbye to you." He said.

My heart shattered. He was leaving.

"How long?" I asked.

"About a week at the most. Bella, I'm sorry, I love you, but I haven't seen my mom. I need her to be a part of my life." He said. I realized at that moment and by the longing in Edward's eyes what I had to do. For him. I needed to stay strong right now.

"Edward I understand and I love you enough to let you go. I would do the same to see my mother again to. I don't want you to be worried about me, I will be fine." I croaked. I realized silent tears were pouring down my face. Way to go Bella! So much for being strong. Edward hugged me to his chest and my tears soiled his shirt.

"Bella I promise you. When I get back, It will be just you and me. No more of dealing with the past, I'm ready to let go. I want us to be normal now. I want you to be happy. I love seeing you smile, it is the best feeling to see you smile. Especially when I am the one to make you do it. I will miss you while I am gone. Bella you are my life now. I love you and I always will, Never forget that because I won't. I am always with you. Forever, But right now I need to leave so I can see my mom, I just needed you to know that." He said it with so much love and conviction I melted in his arms.

I reached up and I kissed his lips with all the force I had causing us to fall back onto the grass.

"Oops." I said.

Edward chuckled and then we continued. I loved him so much. When we stopped Edward was staring at me intently. I stared back but then his phone vibrated. he flipped it open and began talking.

I assumed it was Carlisle by the way Edward was speaking. When he hung up Edward sighed and got up while helping me to. He pulled me in a vice tight hug.

"You have to go don't you." I assumed.

"Yes." He said while gripping me tighter.

We held like that for as long as we could till Edward sighed and let go. He looked at me and he caressed my cheek trailing his hand down until his palm was cupping my neck then he grabbed the lamb necklace and he came closer and kissed it.

"Goodbye my Lamb. I will forever be your protector. I Love you and I will see you soon." He murmured before brushing his lips against mine and then he began walking away.

I did to. I walked to my car and I watched Edward drive away. Once he was gone I broke down. I was a wreck. It felt like a huge hole was punched through my chest. I couldn't stand it.

I crumpled and I leaned all the way so I was in the fetal position on the seats of my truck. I cried and cried. I know he loves me but I couldn't see why I was so emotional. It wasn't like he was leaving me. Maybe I was going crazy.

I would miss Edward but I promise myself I will last one week and not show any weakness. For Edward. This thought made me stronger and I straightened up and I could breathe a little. The hole was still there but I would not show any weakness.

I got myself together and I started to drive home. The drive home took about a good ten minutes. It was probably about seven. When I got home Emmett was staring at me.

I was probably guessing it was because my hair was a mess and my eyes were red and puffy. Emmett pulled me into a hug.

"Don't worry he will be back soon." He said.

"How do you know?" I asked.

"Alice. She didn't tell me everything just that he was leaving for a while."

I nodded.

"Did you and dad eat yet?" I asked.

"No, we were waiting for you." He said.

"Well what do you want to eat?" I asked.

"How about tacos?" He asked.

"Sure whatever you want." I told him.

"Want some help?" He offered.

"Yeah, you can start cutting the lettuce."

"How do I go that? you want it in whole slices like hamburgers have them or little chops?" He asked dumbly.

"No, Emmett I will take hamburger slice's of lettuce since were making Tacos." I said sarcastically.

He smirked and he began cutting the lettuce in little chops. It took a total of thirty minutes till the Tacos were done. I then made cookies for the group. I ate with Charlie and Emmett while the cookies baked.

When the timer was up I pulled them out and I bagged them up. Then I told Charlie and Emmett goodnight. I went to bed that night feeling the hole penetrate my chest again.

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