jadeMK11: That's what the kidnapper's saying…and the heart is all the evidence James has of it. Illse'sPurpleSummer: Such a sad situation. As if this family hasn't gone through enough. Esha Napoleon and cathy: Thank you!

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"Shark week is like the best week ever created," James declared as he snuggled closer to Mindy. The both of them sitting up on their bed, their eyes glued firmly to their television. Tiffany had taken Connor, Tryg and Amber and the twins to the park, which left Chelsea and Elizabeth with Mommy and Daddy. Elizabeth was resting comfortably on Mindy's chest, chewing on Lammy's face while alternating her gaze between the TV and Chelsea, who was on James's lap. "Like really it's just…you know I used to want a pet shark really really bad. I still kind of do actually."

Mindy giggled loudly and kissed him. "You think so too?"

"Mhm. I saw Jaws and was like that's it. I needed a pet shark that would eat people."

She frowned a bit and reached up to gently pet his face. "Weren't you afraid of the shark eating you?"

"No. I would have been it's shark master." James nodded firmly and accepted the kiss she gave him greedily, sliding his tongue into her mouth all too eagerly.

"Daddy!" Chelsea looked back at him and tugged at his shirt until he stopped kissing Mindy to look at her. "That's" she pointed to the shark on the TV "a shark."

He immediately grinned and nodded. "Yes Princess! That IS a shark!" He gave her a big kiss and she immediately shoved a marshmallow in his mouth.

"Watch!" she ordered while nodding her head. "Watch sharks Daddy."

James nodded along because he was too busy trying to chew the marshmallow in his mouth to respond verbally.

Mindy giggled and kissed his cheek while playing with her daughter's hair affectionately. "The princess knows Daddy is whipped to her."

"Daddy is whipped to all his lovely ladies." James kissed the back of Mindy's hand and looked at Elizabeth, who was actually glaring at Chelsea. "Lizzie?" He reached out and gently touched his daughter's cheek. "What is it Lizzie Bear?"

Elizabeth continued to frown and reached over so she could smack Chelsea's arm. "MY da da!"

Chelsea's eyes narrowed and she gave Elizabeth quite the dirty look. "No, that's MY daddy!"

"No no no!" Elizabeth waved Lammy around and shook her head. "No no no!"

"Yes! MY daddy!" She hugged James tightly to prove her point. "My daddy. My best daddy."

Mindy shook her head and gave both of her daughters big kisses. "He's both of your daddy and he loves you both very very much." She smiled at James and gave him a big kiss. "And I love him."

He grinned and gave her a kiss back. "I love you more Baby Doll."

"No, I love YOU more."

James was screaming. He didn't know at what point he started and he didn't know how long he had been doing it now. His screams had attracted all kinds of attention and several people had come in and seen the heart in the box he was holding. Nobody could get it from him though. They had tried but he had lashed out so badly that everyone was too terrified to be anywhere near him. This was Mindy's heart. His Baby Doll's heart. Keeping it in his grasp was not a good thing because it was driving him more and more insane by the second. But he couldn't let it go. No he couldn't let it go. This was Baby Doll's heart he had to keep it. Baby Doll's….she was dead. It wasn't processing inside of his brain. This wasn't real. It couldn't be real. His Baby Doll wasn't dead this couldn't be fucking happening.

"Jamie where are you?" Mindy asked as she came into the house. She had been out doing a radio appearance and had been bombarded by the kids but no James. That made her frown in confusion. James was almost always right there waiting for her when she came in the front door and when he wasn't it was usually because he was doing something with one of the babies. But all the kids had come running, with the exception of Elizabeth, who had been carried to her by Tiffany. "Jamie?" She looked around and went upstairs to check their bedroom. "Jamie are you up here?"

James's instincts were to call out to her and let her know where he was. But he forced himself to keep quiet and stay hidden, his eyes lighting up automatically when she came into the bedroom and didn't see where he was hiding.

"Jamie?" She frowned and pouted her lower lip when she didn't see him. "Jamie where are you this isn't fun-"

"Shark attack!" James sprang out from his hiding spot and snaked his arms around Mindy's waist, lifting her up in the air and jumping on to the bed with her, him taking most of the impact before rolling on top of her

"Waaah! JAMIE!" She shrieked as he began nomming all over body. "Jamie!" She laughed as he lifted up her dress and nommed on her stomach. "Sharks live in WATER Jamie!"

"I'm a LAND shark Baby Doll!" He gave her a huge grin that made her melt instantly and she kissed him hard, wrapping her legs around his waist and her arms around his neck to get him even closer.

James was crying harder while repeatedly banging his head against the walls of the stall he was still in. The force he was doing it would have knocked any other man silly but not only did he have a harder than average head but he just wasn't capable of feeling anything beyond the horrible sensation inside his chest. The instant he saw the heart in the package that had been it. He had been done. If anyone had thought he had snapped before they had only seen the tip of the iceberg. Everyone said Elizabeth was his heart and really they were right. That baby had him so much it was unbelievable. But that didn't mean Mindy didn't have his heart as well and the little pint sized rockstar had been his world. Had been…had been…the words were foreign and horrible but now they were the truth. His mind was refusing them with all of its might. It wouldn't accept them, COULDN'T accept them…there was no world without Mindy. She never believed it. She had always been open about the fact that she believed he would be just fine if anything happened to her. What did she matter to him? He wasn't Annabelle or Mark. Annabelle had been his "light" and he had survived after losing her. What would it matter if she died?

What she never got though was just how dependent he was on her. How much he really was clinging to her. He had loved Annabelle and Mark and had put Belle on a pedestal and had willingly ignored Mark's shitty behavior as much as he could so he wouldn't have to be alone…but it really just didn't even compare to what he felt for her. She was on a pedestal for him; she probably wouldn't have believed it if he told her but she was. Nothing she ever did was wrong. Not ever. A lot of people accused her of being a bitch and could point out a laundry lists of flaws about her but not him. Not for a single instant could he ever do that. His whole world revolved around her. She did nothing wrong. Not ever. When she had problems with other people, it was their fault and James hated them for not seeing what he saw when he looked at her. When they had problems, it had nothing to do with her. It was him. He was the bad one, he was the worthless one. It was him, not her. Never her. Never ever.

"Jamie Jamie ssshhh!" Mindy kissed James all over his face as he continued to tremble violently. It was around five in the morning and she had been woken up by his screaming. "Jamie baby ssshhh. No no Jamie please…"

James's entire body was shaking and covered in sweat. He had dreamed that Caroline was back in his body and was using it to hurt Mindy once again and there had been nothing he could do to stop it. The things he did to her…just the thought of it made him roll off the bed, landing hard on his hands and knees before pushing himself and stumbling into the bathroom so he could drop down in front of the toilet and gag violently into it. He threw up everything he ate that day, the bile burning his throat and the force of it making his eyes water uncontrollably.

"James!" Mindy rubbed his back until he was done throwing up. "James baby what was it? Was it Mommy and the hanger again?"

He managed to shake his head. "Mom had me…" it was hard to talk when he was so out of breath. "She had my body…she was making me hurt you again." He sat back and tried to breathe, shaking his head some more as she petted his hair. "I should have stopped her I should have made her stop-"

"Jamie it wasn't your fault," Mindy told him for what felt like the millionth time. "You didn't do anything wrong."

James tried regain his composure but then he saw the scar on her neck that matched his own. The scar he gave her. Sure it was Caroline in the driver's seat when it happened but it was his hands that did it and it was his mother that he had been too weak to fight off…it was all his fault. "I'm sorry," he croaked out, burying his face into her neck and trying to control his sobs. "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm-"

"James no!"

"Uncle James!" Natalya was completely scared out of her mind by what she was seeing. She had seen grief plenty of times; her family had had it's share of losses. But this…this was just beyond anything she had seen. James had backed himself into the corner of the stall, his face beet red and drenched in tears. The most horrible screams were coming out of his mouth. It sounded like someone was in there with him, killing him. Mindy's heart was still in his hands and he would not let it go. The people that had tried to get it had gotten hit. Hard. James obviously didn't even know what he was doing though. When she did manage to get a look in his eyes she saw nothing beyond the tears. It was doubtful he even knew where he was anymore. He was just gone. Completely and totally gone.

"Da Da Da!" Elizabeth was screaming and crying for James but nobody would let her near him. He hadn't once heard her during all this.

"I think we're going to have to sedate him," one of the doctors said.

"You want to get near enough to him to do it?"

"Well-"

Natalya couldn't take hearing anymore. This was all becoming way too much. She quickly retreated out of the room, hugging Elizabeth more tightly as she began to scream even more.

"DA DA DA DA!"

Unbeknownst to the sleeping Mindy, James was still awake and watching over her as she and Elizabeth were nestled comfortably on top of him. One of his hands were playing with her long hair and the other was resting on her stomach, where little Aiden was growing inside of her. Elizabeth was supposed to have been it for babies. When they had gotten together they had said she would be it because Mindy's body couldn't handle anymore. Mindy had nearly died during that placental abruption…her womb had been taken out…that had been it. Elizabeth was supposed to be their only child together. But now she had a new uterus and she was pregnant again, this time with his first boy in twenty four years. And there was so much he wanted to do differently this time. He knew Mindy believed he hadn't been excited about her being pregnant with Elizabeth. She believed she forced him into it and even when he told her she didn't really believe him. And with all the drama surrounding that time of their lives, he didn't get to fully bask in the glow of him being a father again.

This time would be different though. It had to be. He had his Baby Doll and she was having a baby once again. He was worried sick about her pre-eclampsia striking again but the thought of being a daddy again did thrill him. He had been despised by his own parents and when Cooper had been born he had taken responsibility as father, subconsciously because he wanted a baby because it would love him unconditionally. No matter how fucked up he was, no matter how worthless he was, a baby wouldn't see that. Not until it got older anyway.

James took the heart out of the box and held it in one of his hands, his other hand going over his mouth as he continued to sob. It wasn't just his wife that he had lost. That in itself had just killed him. But Aiden…if Mindy was dead Aiden was dead too. His unborn baby, who didn't even get a chance at anything had been ripped away from him. For what? What had been all of this for? What the fuck had his family done to deserve this shit?

The answer was quite simple really. It was him. It was his fault. In his calls the man had made it pretty clear he was mind fucking him. That meant he had done something to him, wronged him in some way…and his family had paid for it. Elizabeth had been spared but at the cost of her being sick and starved and Mindy and Aiden…it wasn't just the man that had killed them. He had killed them. He killed his own family.

Without knowing it he was on his feet again. He pushed his way past the doctors and nurses and security guards and went to the mirror ahead of him. He wasn't looking at his reflection. He couldn't bear to do it he hated himself so much. He kept his eyes locked on his wife's heart before using his free hand to smash the window, making sure to drag his wrists against the broken shards of glass as hard as he could.

"Mr. Lawson!"

James smashed his wrist against the glass again just as a bunch of hands grabbed him and pulled him away. He tried to fight his way free, his eyes catching the sight of the broken glass embedded in his bleeding wrist. He almost did get free but somebody jabbed a needle into him and the hands kept a strong hold of him as he went completely limp.