Hi! So this chapter was done two days ago, but the editing was going on. So yeah, I hope now that it will be much better (grammar-wise). If there are still any mistakes, let me know!
And yes, Elena's and Jacob's relationship has improved a lot. And it will continue to improve now. The fight will be in next chapter, or the next, I don't know but I have started writing the chapter.
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SO, here it goes...
Chapter 38: Mistakes
The hard screeching of tires woke me up in a jolt. I closed my eyes again because they were burning.
"Urgh" I clutched my head in my hands, it was throbbing with pain. I looked down on myself and saw that I was wearing one of Dean's shirt and my short shorts. What the-?
"You're up" Dad said coming in from the door, a glass of orange juice in his hand. His expression was grim. Why is he looking at me like this?
I tried to remember everything that happened yesterday and as soon as I remembered I wanted to throw up. But I haven't eaten anything. My head was turning and an unsettling feeling was making its home in me. My throat felt scratchy, it pained badly. My whole body ached. And I know it was because of the imprint. And I hate it.
Don't remember him.
I sighed; tightly closing my eyes.
"Who changed my clothes?" I finally asked after the third time of trying to get my voice out of my system.
"Joe came by yesterday night, she did that." He said and I nodded my head. I looked around my room, trying to adjust my eyes to the view. My eyes were burning and watering.
"Where are Dean and Edgar?" I asked him. Dean never in my life would leave me in this condition. Where was he? And Edgar?
My Dad's eyes turned hard when he answered.
"To the Black's house." He said and I nodded.
Wait.
"They are WHERE?" I asked him and the more I force the voice out of my system, the more it burned my throat. I intended my voice to be a little stronger, but it came out like a squeak.
"To the Black's house; I never thought that Billy's kid would do this to you. He should be happy that I am not pressing charges against his son." Dad said but I can perfectly see that he was sad. Why wouldn't he be? It was his best friend's son, who caused his daughter so much pain.
"Dad, why did you let them go?" I asked throwing away my bed sheets and getting out of the bed.
"You are not going anywhere." Dad said in a firm voice. I walked to my dresser to look for my car keys.
"Where are my keys?" I asked turning to look back at him.
"They went in your car." He said and I glared at him.
"They took my car? My car?" I asked. Dean is so dead.
"Don't start with me Elena; you are not stepping out of the house." He warned me and I sighed.
"How did you all know?" I asked putting my hands on my hips.
"Joe, she let it slip somehow. You don't know how I literally had to lock up those guys in the house the whole night, they were frantic." He said and as he told me everything, I started to analyze the situation.
The conclusion is: Jacob's going to be dead. Werewolf or not, my brothers would kill him, nearly.
"Dad, let me go, please." I begged him. He shook his head. "Do you really want to get Jacob beat up by Dean and Edgar? Your best friend's son! Do you?" I asked him.
"He hurt my daughter." He said and I softened at that.
"He did, yes. But you can't always go and kill everyone who tries to hurt me Dad. All this would just make things worse. I have to go." I said.
"He doesn't deserve you." He muttered and my eyes watered at that. He doesn't deserve me?
"Please Pa." I pleaded him and he sighed at last and nodded his head.
"Don't make me regret this." He said and I nodded.
I went to take the orange juice from his hand but he pulled it back.
"It's not for you. I know your throat is hurting, it'll make it worse." He said but I took the glass from him anyway and gulped it down, letting is burn my inside.
"Nothing's worse now." I mumbled and before he could say anything I left the house.
My legs were wobbling, it was paining too much. But I have to get there soon. I know Jacob, and I know how he is with his temper. I don't want him to lose control and then do something he will regret for the rest of his life and for doing something I will never be able to forgive him.
I started running, ignoring the pain that shot through me. I still ran, as fast as I could. I wasn't at my usual speed, but I was still fast.
God, why didn't I take dad's car? I am so stupid.
Not more than a few minutes later I reached near the house, and that's when I started hearing the shouting voices.
So, it's already bad.
"How dare you? How dare you hurt her like that?" Dean's voice reached my ear. I took my last turn and I was completely able to see the scene playing in front of me.
Dean had Jacob by his neck, and was shouting at him. Jacob was just glaring at my brother, his hands balled up in fists. I remained back, not showing my presence to them.
"Get off of me!" Jacob shouted pushing my brother back. Dean is a tall guy; he almost matched Jacob's height and was just as bulky. He was strong, but Jacob is a wolf.
I shifted a bit to see Embry standing at a distance with Quil by his side. None of them dared to intervene.
Billy was nowhere to be seen. Edgar was just by Dean, glaring at Jacob.
"You don't mess with her!" Edgar shouted pointing a finger at Jacob. I have never seen Edgar so angry. "How can you do that to her?" he asked his voice going down a notch.
I just closed my eyes, trying to keep the feelings surfacing me buried deep down.
"It was not intentional." Jacob said calmly trying to make them understand.
"Not intentional?!" Dean said incredulously with a murderous glare and then punched Jacob straight on the face. The impact was hard, Jacob stumbled a bit, but I think it hurt Dean more than it hurt Jacob. I felt a stinging pain running down my body.
I just stood there, looking at Jacob.
He knows I am here.
I don't know how, he just does.
Standing here and looking at him, crushed me into pieces. How can he actually hurt me? Is there anything left of me anymore that he can break? Apparently, yes there is.
"What is your problem huh?" Jacob said pushing Dean back again. He was getting angry, too angry for him to control himself.
"You made my sister Cry!" Dean shouted. "You hurt her so bad. Did you even look at her? I looked at her! I saw how broken she was, and all because of you! What did you do?" he shouted, his voice matching the thunder of last night. He pushed Jacob back into the wall. Jacob started shaking.
It is not good.
"Jacob come on, dude. Stop." Embry said to Jacob, coming by his side, trying to get his shaking to stop. "You know what will happen if you lose control." He whispered.
"Get away" Jacob said pushing Embry away.
"You really have to stop pushing me dude, or it's going to get ugly." Jacob threatened Dean.
"What are you going to do, Boy? Shout for help?" Dean said and that time I realized that we are too much alike.
"No, actually it will be the opposite." Jacob said with a deadly look.
"Your threatening is not going to work here." Edgar said taking steps closer to Jacob. "You messed with the wrong girl." He said and Jacob pushed Edgar hard. Edgar composed himself and then went to punch Jacob in the face. His fist almost touched Jacob, but Jacob caught his fist instantly, I can perfectly see that his hold was painful. He is losing control.
"How dare you?" Dean launched at Jacob, and Jacob was about to punch Dean.
That's when I intervened.
Jacob's fist was about to make contact with Dean's face when I came out of nowhere using my super speed and caught Jacob's fist in the middle.
"Easy boy" I said with my voice and eyes void of any emotion.
"What are you doing here?" Dean shouted at me.
"Don't shout at me." I said in a monotone. He gave me a death glare. Really?
"Go home Elena, Now!" he shouted again.
"Don't order me Dean." I said to him and he looked at me unbelievably.
"Elena Katherine Celeste Anderson, you are leaving right now." He went all full-name on me. I heard Quil mutter something about my full name.
"Don't do this Dean, I am fine okay." I said to him, knowing he is not able to think clearly right now.
"You call this fine?" He said looking at me from head to toe. I don't even know how I look right now. "I am going to kill him." He said and went again for Jacob.
"Whoa!" I said coming to stand in front of them, my face towards Dean and back to Jacob. I can feel the heat rolling off of Jacob and it was making everything worse.
"Calm down Dean, please." I said to him softly.
He grabbed me too hard by the arms. "You are leaving, right now." He said looking me dead in the eyes.
"You are hurting her." Jacob said trying to me get me out of Dean's grip.
"Stay out of it." I said to him, turning slightly to look at him.
"Elena I-"Jacob started but I cut him off. I looked him straight in the eyes, and I regretted it that moment.
Just by looking in his eyes, reminded me that how much I love him, how much he hurt me and how he broke me.
"Save it Jacob." I said and I was surprised at how lifeless my voice sounded. He raised his hands, I don't know why. To touch me maybe. I was frozen.
I could not move neither was I able to stop him. His hand was too close to my face.
"Don't you fucking dare touch her!" Dean pulled me to him.
"Don't tell me what to or not to do, she is my-"
"-Nothing." I completed his sentence, my version of his sentence. "I am your nothing Jacob." I said and these words stabbed me like thousands of knives but I welcomed the pain because it is the truth only.
Jacob looked at me with wide eyes, his expressions horrific.
"How dare you say that?" he snarled at me, grabbing me by my arms. He is the one hurting me now. "You are my nothing? Nothing?" he said again. Dean was about to shout but I beat him to it.
"Let me go." I said freeing myself from his grip and looking at him with hateful eyes. "Yes Jacob, I am your nothing. I think you proved that pretty nicely last night." I said coldly. He started to shake then, and pretty badly.
"We should leave Dean." I said turning to go away. Jacob was not going to hold it in together for long.
But one look at Jacob and it was clear that I will not be able to get my brothers to safety fast.
He has to stop.
"Jacob, brother control yourself please." Embry said coming near him but one look from Jacob and he went back.
"Elena" Embry looked helplessly at me. I know what he was pointing at but I am not going to do it. I am not going to touch him.
"Get yourself in control Jacob." I said to him.
His knuckles were turning white. He is going to lose it for sure.
"Elena" Quil whispered and I looked up at the ceiling, cursing this moment.
"Get back Elena!" Sam said coming out of the nowhere.
"Like that is going to stop him." I muttered and then looked at Jacob.
"Stop it right now Black. There are people here." I said to him angrily. He just glared at me.
"What makes you think that I care about them?" he asked me and gave him a deadly stare.
"Of course you don't, but I do. Even a scratch at them Jacob, and believe me, you'll never see me again." I said to him, meaning every word that left my mouth.
This just fired him up more.
"Not such a wise choice of words." Quil commented.
I was getting tired of Jacob's drama.
"Come on guys, we are leaving." I said to Dean and Edgar and motioned them to get down the porch steps.
We only reached a few steps away from the stairs when Jacob jerked me around by grabbing my wrist. I yanked my hand away from him.
"What the hell is your problem?" Dean asked him. I sighed. It's just getting worse.
"You stay out of it. It's between me and her." Jacob said like there was no argument valid after his statement.
"She is my sister!" He shouted.
"Calm down Jacob." Sam said to Jacob.
"Don't try to come in between this Sam." Jacob said. What does he want?
"I am so out of here." I said unbelievably walking away.
"You are not going anywhere." Jacob boomed.
"Are you going to try and stop her?" Edgar asked Jacob.
"Believe me, I can and I will." Jacob said too confidently.
"Have to go through us first." Dean said.
"Fine" Jacob said shrugging his shoulders and before I could realize what he was going to do, he swung a punch at Dean and the impact was too hard. I think Dean broke his nose. But that didn't stop him.
Dean punched Jacob in the stomach and Edgar got a hold of Jacob' arm, turning it at a weird angle. Edgar landed at a punch at Jacob but I think he just broke his wrist. Edgar is definitely not the one to fight.
Sam, Quil and Embry stood there, too shocked to witness all this. The three of them stood there, watching the other three people fight. And I watched all six of them.
Dean and Edgar will regret it later. Having a broken nose and a broken wrist will make them realize that fighting isn't always the answer. Power doesn't always solve anything. And when they come to their senses, they are not going to get any sympathy from me. None.
And Jacob was going to be killed by me.
It was getting too much; all these testosterone filled boys were too dumb to realize what they were doing. I just can't hold it anymore.
"Enough!" I intervened and grabbed Jacob's arm to get him away, he was too engrossed in fighting that he didn't realized I was behind him and he jerked his hand away causing me to fall on the ground, on my face.
I was too weak to balance myself. There was a stinging feeling on my head, I pulled up my head a bit and touched my forehead. Sure there was a bit of blood.
Awesome.
Just awesome.
They fight, and I bleed.
They stopped fighting.
Dean and Jacob rushed to get me up, but I held up my hand.
"Don't anyone of you fucking dare touch me." I growled while my face on the ground. I helped myself up and dusted off the dirt from my clothes.
"I am so sorry El-"I cut off Jacob by holding up my index finger. He looked at me with confusion all over his face, I wiped my face and then in a sudden moment I took a step forward and punched Jacob straight in his jaw.
He growled in pain. "Yeah, say sorry now." I said wiping away the blood from my forehead. How dare he think that I will let him get away with this? My hand was stinging pretty badly and I had light bruises forming on my arms due the constant grabbing of Dean and Jacob, to think i already felt like a train had run over me and now all this.
I took my time to analyze the three injured men in front of me. Dean's nose was bleeding, and Edgar was holding his broken wrist and Jacob had a bleeding lip. I felt horrible because even at this time, I felt like my first priority was to ask Jacob whether he was okay or not; because his pain was affecting me. Is that how an imprint's connection feels?
"I'll drive you guys to hospital" I said not looking at anyone of them. Of course I am angry. They never listen to me. Jacob is already healed by now. And me? I will be healed; I always do, in the end.
"Elena, I am sorry." Dean said coming to stand in front of me. I took out a handkerchief from his pants pocket; he has a habit of carrying a handkerchief everywhere.
I wiped away the blood from his face. "Don't give me the silent treatment now, please." He said looking at me and I looked up at him and sighed heavily.
"Why did you do this? I can take care of myself." I said and he smiled at me.
"I saw that but you are my baby sister; I have every right to do this." He said and I shook my head at him.
"Ed, all this proves is that you are definitely not the guy to fight." I said and he gave me a pained smile.
"Even I can fight better than you guys." I said and Edgar rolled his eyes.
"That guy over there is made of steel." He said and Dean somewhat agreed.
"I am sorry" Dean said running his thumb over the cut on my forehead. I could see the regret and pain in his eyes.
"It's okay Dean, I'm fine." I said and managed to give him a little smile.
Few moments with my brother and they make me forget the pain. But then again, not for long.
"Wait for me by the car." I said and Dean was about to protest but one look from me and they both went away without a word. They also know that there was no way I was listening to them now. Jacob was standing a bit far away, all this time, looking at me, scrutinizing my every move, my every word.
He walked towards me, and still, after everything it fastens my heart beat. My heart betrays me when it comes to him.
He looked at me from toe to head, taking in my appearance and I regretted coming out of the house in a shirt so large that it hung off one of my shoulder and the shortest shorts I own.
How can he still have the tendency to make me nervous? This imprint stuff is seriously messed up pretty badly.
"Sorry about punching your brothers." He said but he was not at all sorry. It was printed on his face.
"Yeah I can see exactly how sorry you are." I replied keeping my voice void of any emotions.
"They started it." He stated.
"You started it Jacob." I said and guilt flashed through his eyes.
"Elena, about last night, I never meant to hurt you." He said and I scoffed at him. "And I am sorry for hurting you now, I didn't know you were behind me, sorry." He said sincerity clear in his voice.
"That's the thing about hurt Jacob, sometimes it is unintentional but still it doesn't change the fact that the person is hurt in the end." I said shrugging my shoulders. He looked at me for a long moment before finally speaking.
"You said you are my n-nothing. It's not true right?" he asked with his hopeful eyes staring at me. Either I can tell him the truth that what I said was not true or I can lie and tell him that I meant it and save myself from getting hurt further.
"No. We are something Jacob." I said and his eyes looked hopeful. How I am going to break his hope. "We are strangers with a past." I said and all his hope erased from his eyes.
His eyes were hard again. Why is he getting so worked about this?
"We are friends Elena!" he said to me.
"Why are you so persistent about us being something? Why are you after making a nonexistent relation between us? Is it really that hard for you to ignore me?" I asked him and he took a deep breath.
"It pains me to stay away from you, Elena." He admitted and I can actually relate to it.
"Well a little pain isn't going to kill you." I said shrugging my shoulders and then turned around to walk away.
"It isn't a little pain Elena. It's an excruciating pain, which makes it harder for me to breathe, which constantly keeps me worried about you. Even when I am sleeping I am not at rest, because I keep praying that you don't go out in the forest by yourself. That a leech doesn't get to you." He said and I stopped breathing for a moment. He was not supposed to say all that.
He has no right to say all that.
No way in hell.
"Well, it's your problem then." I said without looking back at him.
"No, it's my problem because I know it's hurting you too." He said and I clenched my fist. I am not going to have this talk with him.
"You can't walk away from me." He said.
"Watch me." I said as I started walked away fast. In a flash Jacob grabbed me by both of his hands, his hot breath hitting my face, and his chest heaving, and sweat dripping from his forehead.
"You can't Elena. And you know it too." He whispered in my ears.
"Why are you doing this Jacob?" I whispered softly looking at his face, memorizing his every feature. "Why are you so determined to prove to yourself that I belong to you when you love someone else? Don't do this. Don't do this because your inner wolf wants to claim me, because I can't live like this. It hurts me too much. If you want to let go, let go of me completely." I sucked in a breath saying all this. It was hurting too much, too much.
Please say you want me. Please say that you don't want Bella.
He let go of me slowly, confusion taking place in his mind. I regretfully smiled to myself.
"Good bye Jacob." I said and then walked away from him, again. I don't know why but I am hoping for a day, when he will stop me. When he will stop me from going away. When he will keep me tugged by his side and will never let me go. Will keep me safe by his side. The day when he will chose me. And that day can only exist in my dreams.
I ignored his voices, I ignore the pain, and I just walked to my car and started it.
"Don't ever do this again." I said to Dean in a deadly voice.
"Jacob deserved th-" Dean started but I cut him off.
"I was talking about my car. Never take my car." I said and then drove away.
….
"Imprinting sucks" Leah said and I readily agreed with her.
"Tell me about it." I said gulping down my orange juice. Leah and I were sitting on the roof of her house. Dean, Edgar and I made a fantastic entrance in the hospital, all of us looking beaten up. I was still better than them though.
I am not one to go the hospital but I had to get Edgar's wrist and Dean's nose checked. Edgar's wrist was thankfully not broken, Carlisle bandaged it nicely and Dean too was lucky to not have a broken nose. I got a little bandage on my forehead after a lot of persuasion from Carlisle.
"That punch was too nice." Leah said complementing me and I nodded my head in return. "Like it was totally out of a movie." She added and I smiled.
"Yeah, I tend to get a bit filmy sometimes." I said.
"He so deserved that." Leah said furring her brows.
"Yup, he did." I said my voice venomous. "Why the hell is there imprinting? Can't they choose their own freaking mates?" I said clearly annoyed.
"So true. All this imprinting business is so fucked up. I hate it." Leah said and I turned to look at her. There was so much bitterness in her eyes. But why?
"What happened, Leah?" I asked her in a soft voice. She lied down on the roof and looked up at the evening sky. It was like she was reliving a memory, not a good one.
"I love-d Sam," she said and I listened to her without interrupting. "We were this couple in high school whom everyone knew were made for each other. That would get married as soon as they were out of school and would spend the rest of their lives with each other." She said with a small smile on her face which soon disappeared.
"There is a big 'But' right?" I asked and she chuckled a bit.
"So big." She agreed. "Sam phased, Emily was in town. One look at her and then Boom! They are soul mates, meant to be with each other and I? I am left all alone to drown in my own tears." She said rolling her eyes but I was perfectly capable to look through her. She was far more damaged than she was letting on.
"Leah" I said softly to her and she shook her head still looking up.
"Every time any of the guys looks at me all I see is the pity that they have for me. I know I am a bitch, but they turned me into that! Tell me; is it so wrong to express my feelings? Is it so wrong to let out my anger to show them how I feel? And if I do that, I am being a bitch." She scoffed unbelievably. "Emily is the shy one, the quiet one; everyone thinks highly of her, I am not complaining, she is one of nicest persons but what about me?"
"Why do they always tell me to get on with it? Why do they keep forgetting that I am the one who lost everything? Am I supposed to smile happily in front of her, when I am nothing but hollow from inside?" She finished and a tear slide down her cheek, which she wiped away swiftly. I just sat there, tears streaming down my face, I don't know why but I wanted to cry, I wanted to let out my pain, but for Leah's sake, just to be her rock, I turned and wiped away my tears.
I pasted a smile on my face and turned to her side. I nudged her and she turned to look at me, the hollowness in her eyes hit me hard but I ignored it.
"You're a lucky girl Elena." She said and I looked at her confused.
"Lucky?" I said and she nodded her head.
"You at least have someone who will never give up on you, who will be there for you. You at least get to feel the imprinting bond. " She said and I knew that she was talking about Jacob.
"I thought you hated imprinting?" I asked her. "And, I am not lucky Leah. Can't you see what is going on in my life?" I said.
"Things will be better in the end Elena, for both of you. Spirits are holy, they make a decision for a reason." She said and I contemplated her words.
"There is a first for everything." I said furring my brows together. I don't want to talk about this.
"I am not even sure whether I'll ever imprint." she said and I shook my head.
"Come on Leah, you are making it sound like imprinting is everything! People who are not related to anything supernatural still find love, true love! And imprinting is just showing a path, not teaching you whether to take that road or not!" I said sighing.
"Jacob is so blind." She muttered looking away. I smiled a bit.
"Listen to me hard Leah" I said and she turned to look at me. "The guy you who will have in your life will the luckiest man ever. You are a jewel Leah, the one which is found in the deepest of the sea. Sam, he is not the guy for you, believe me. The guy whom will be yours will be different from the rest, maybe a normal man, who will give you a normal yet extravagant life."
"I know that I myself don't have any experience in all these, but I know people, and I know what they deserve. He'll make you forget your pain. He'll deserve you." I said and I swear that I meant every single word. Girls like Leah, are independent, capable of making their own choices. Leah's eyes were watery and through that she gave me a smile, an actual smile which will have a real man fall for her.
I am not saying that Sam is not a nice guy, he is amazing but not for Leah. Sam and Emily are way too perfect for each other, Emily being the shy one and Sam being the tough one. They complete each other.
Leah is more special than that.
"Come on" I said making her sit up.
"Where?" She asked a bit confused.
"We are going to jump off the biggest cliff in La Push" I said and she rolled her eyes.
"Like Jacob will let me live after that." She said and I glared at her.
"And do you think that I care?" I asked and she shook her head.
"But now is not a good time Elena, the weather is really on swings these days." She said and I sighed.
"Fine, then we are going to get a huge cone of ice cream and we'll eat it and will get ourselves fat!" I said and she chuckled at that, shaking her head. I smiled looking at her, I like making people happy.
"What are you two ladies doing up there?" Paul asked from the bottom and I smiled at him.
"Girl talks, Paul!" I said and he nodded smiling, he was a bit surprised to see me in this mood.
"Come on." Leah said and she jumped off the roof. She was amazingly graceful.
Paul adjusted the stairs for me.
"I think I'll jump down too." I said standing at the edge. Paul had one of those horrifying expression on his face.
"Don't you-"he started but I was already in the air. A tinkling type feeling filled my gut and I landed swiftly on the ground in a sitting position. I stood up and looked at them. Leah wore an impressed expression and Paul's face was blank.
"You really are filmy, aren't you? The whole batman thingy style." Leah said and I smiled at her. That, I am.
"I am an elemental, the coolest and the amazing-est." I said and Paul rolled his eyes.
"And the shortest." He said and I punched him playfully. They make me forget the pain.
"We should party." I said and they both waited for me to elaborate. "We are going to fight after all; we should celebrate before that, like we should go out or something." I said clearly not saying the part that 'maybe some of us can die so we should cherish our time together'.
"That's a good idea." Leah agreed and Paul was already nodding his head.
I locked one of my arms with Paul and the other with Leah and walked to the ice cream parlor, because when nothing is going right, you got to eat ice cream.
….
I was sitting alone in my room, until there was a knock on my door.
"Come in" I said and in came Dean and Edgar. I smiled at them. We haven't talked properly since they have arrived. I got up and went to hug Dean; he pulled me tightly against himself, giving me the hug I love.
"I missed you so much midget." He whispered and I nodded my head.
"Me too Dean, I love you so much." I said and I was starting to get a bit emotional.
"I am your brother too." Edgar said and I chuckled before hugging him hard. He smiled and kissed my hairs softly.
"You are as beautiful as ever." He said and I smiled up at him. I still smile, but it feels hollows. I still joke, but it feels meaningless. No matter how much I try, I just can't wipe away this hollowness from within me. This all is eating me from inside.
"Well it sounds a bit weird to hear you talk in an American Accent, though you are good at it, but I prefer the British one." Edgar said and I nodded my head. I love talking in my birth accent.
"So, how did you decide that you both had to come see me?" I asked them in British Accent and they both grinned at me.
My brothers are handsome, like seriously handsome. If I weren't their sister I would've a huge crush on them. I've seen the way girls look at them, or more like ogling at them.
"I told you that I would come meet you. My college is off for two weeks so I decided to come meet you." Dean said.
"And, I too wanted to come meet my dearest sister, of course Dean has to come and talk to my Dad" Edgar said rolling his eyes. "-And after a lot of persuasion he let me come, and that too for two weeks!" he said happily and I gave them a big smile.
"That's amazing." I said giving them a small smile.
"Don't be this way Elena." Dean said and I motioned him to elaborate. "Don't be so hollow, you think I don't notice but I can see how hard you are trying to smile. Don't be like this." He said and I blinked my eyes rapidly. I cry too easily nowadays.
"I am sorry Dean." I said shaking my head.
"Don't say sorry for getting hurt Elena." Edgar said as he brushed away my hairs from my face. "It's just that, we brothers have this thing to lose our mind when we see our baby sister so sad." He said tapping my chin and I smiled softly at him. I love him so much.
"That's right. No one messes with my baby girl." Dean said and I rolled my eyes at him.
"I am so not a baby" I said and they both chuckled at that.
"You are and you always will be." Dean said and hi-fived Edgar.
Kodo came in barking playfully and started running around my legs.
"I hate this dog." Dean said glaring at Kodo, and Kodo in turn growled at him.
"There, you spoiled his mood." I scolded Dean and patted Kodo on his head.
"Does this dog have a problem with males?" Edgar asked.
"Yes, yes he does." Dad said coming in from the door and I rolled my eyes at him.
"It's not that okay; it's just that you guys are not up to his intellectual level." I said and well that sounded dumb even to my own ears.
"Blimey girl, you talk stupid." Edgar said and we all laughed at it.
"Come on, I have dinner reservations, you all have to get ready." Dad said and Dean and Edgar both went out to get ready followed by dad and I sighed alone.
I'll have to get ready and will actually have to go out of the house, when all I want is to just sit in my room and cry, or sleep.
But I can't let my Dad down. He is so eager to spend some time with us; I just can't break his heart.
"Come on Kodo, I have to get ready." I said and he walked out of the room. I took a quick shower and came out the bathroom in a towel. Where are we going? Because l have to get dressed according to it.
I walked to my bedroom door and yelled. "What kind of dress should I wear Dad?" I shouted and after a millisecond I got a reply.
"Um, it's kind of a big hotel, you know like the one we went in London with your Grandpa!" he shouted and I rolled my eyes at him.
"So, I have to dress fancy." I said and then closed the door.
I walked in my closet to the section where my fancy clothes were hung in white covers.
I opened the covers and looked at the dresses. In the end I ended up wearing a royal blue sleeveless gown that touched the ground. It had freckles starting from my upper waist to all the way down. I curled my hairs at the end, and then let them fall on my right side of my neck.
I applied the eye liner and mascara and a light pink lipstick and gloss. I avoided applying foundation. I looked in the mirror and took a deep breath. I was looking okay, but my eyes were dead. I wasn't feeling even a little bit excited to go out.
There was a knock on my door.
"Yes?" I said and Dean entered my room. He stood by my bed side and looked at me in the mirror.
"You are looking absolutely stunning, Ellie." He said and I turned around to smile at him.
"You are not looking bad yourself." I said looking at my brother who was dressed in a crisp black suit and a white shirt underneath and his gelled hairs.
"Ready to go?" he asked sticking out his arm which I gladly took.
Downstairs Dad and Edgar were standing. Dad was in a black suit too, wearing a black tie and light blue shirt. Edgar was wearing a grey suit with a black shirt underneath and his blonde hairs gelled back.
I let out a big breath.
"Never knew I have a Dad and two brothers with mirror cracking looks." I commented and they smiled at me.
"Well, I never knew I had a sister who is drop dead gorgeous." Edgar said and I muttered a thank you.
"So amazingly handsome people, ready to go?" I asked and then I looked at Kodo.
"Let me call up Joe, she'll take care of Kodo." I said and I dialed Joe's number.
"Elena, what is it?" Joe asked.
"Can you look out for Kodo, we all are going out." I asked her.
"I am so sorry dear, but I have an extra shift at the hospital today so I won't be home 'till late. Why don't you ask Emily? She'll be happy to help you." Joe said and I thanked her before calling Emily.
Emily agreed and said that I can leave Kodo with them for the time.
"Okay, so we'll drive to Emily's first and then to the hotel." Dad said and I nodded.
Dad and Dean drove in Dad's car and Edgar, Kodo and I were in my car.
"Gah, this dog won't stop looking at me." Edgar said shifting uncomfortably in his seat.
"Come on Ed, he is not going to bite you." I said rolling my eyes. Not after a few minutes I stopped my car in front of Emily's house. Dad pulled up behind me.
Just imagine, the four of us walking in all of our glory to Emily's house, I just want to see her reaction.
"Do we all need to stand like this?" I asked once we were in front of Emily's door. Edgar and I was standing in the middle with Dean on my right and Dad on Edgar's left and Kodo was sitting in between me and Edgar.
"Of course, we've got to intimidate people!" Edgar said cheerily and I just gave him a sour look.
"Coming!" Emily shouted from inside after Dean knocked for the third time.
There was a click and the door opened.
Emily just stood there looking at us with a shocked expression.
"Hey?" I asked and she snapped out of her reverie.
"You guys are-"Emily started but stopped.
"Amazing, I know." Dean finished for her and I nudged him with my elbow.
"Hey Em, can you please take care of Kodo? We all are going out." I asked and she nodded softly at me.
"Oh yeah sure." She said and patted Kodo's head.
"I am Lawrence." Dad said extending his hand for Emily which she gladly took.
"I am Dean and this is Edgar." Dean said nodding at Edgar.
"Why thank you Dean, but I could've done it myself." Edgar said glaring at Dean who just shrugged.
"Okay, we'll be going now." I said and pulled the two of them with me.
"Elena?" Embry said as he emerged from the forest beside Emily's house. "God, you look beautiful." He said as he walked to stand in front of me. I smiled at him.
"Thanks Embry." I said and Dean stood in front of me.
"And who might you be?" Dean asked Embry who looked confusingly at me, I just gestured him to let it on.
"I am Embry Call, Elena's friend." Embry said quite nervously. I would've laughed if I wasn't so down today.
"Come on Dean, we've got to go." Dad said and we all started walking towards our car. I waved Embry goodbye and he mouthed 'amazingly hot' to me. I just rolled my eyes and sat in the car.
This time, it was Dean in the passenger seat.
I started the car, and followed Dad, to wherever he was taking me.
"You are getting good at it." Dean said out of nowhere.
"Pardon me?" I asked.
"The whole façade thing, you are getting good at it." He said and I remained silent. "I never thought you would be able to hide it from even me Elena." He said and I looked straight ahead.
"You know when you were little, and at night you were afraid that someone was in your room and Dad wasn't home, you would come crying to me, and I would hold you in my arms, until you fell asleep." He said and I stopped the car, on the side of the forest.
"I've known you since you were born, you cannot hide from me." He said softly taking my hands in his, forcing me to look at him. "I saw you yesterday Elena, I saw the pain in your eyes, and today when you woke up, and you masked your pain so well. You smiled, you laughed, you joked, but you are not you." He whispered the last part. "Since when did you start hiding your tears from me?" he asked with a slight smile and that's when my tears fell down from my eyes.
He pulled me into a hug.
"Things are different now Dean." I said into his coat.
"Of course they are, but remember one thing Elena, you are a special girl." He said the thing which mom used to tell me every time, that I am special girl.
"I don't think so." I said pulling away.
"Not the Princess, not the troll
They just tumble and fall
They may live in a castle
But Elena's the most special." Dean sang the poem he made for me when he was in sixth grade. It is one of the most ridiculous poems I've ever heard because I am a princess and I have a castle too. The poem doesn't make any sense, but yet I love it so much.
"That poem is ridiculous." I said smiling.
"No it's not, see it made you smile." He said and I rolled my eyes at him. He wiped away my tears.
"So, should we go now, we're getting kind of late." He said.
"Of course, Brother." I said and started the car.
The dinner went well. As I thought, dad picked out the biggest hotel in Port Angeles. It was nice and maybe the food too. I don't know because I wasn't hungry, and it was not me. I was feeling extremely tired also. We talked and caught up on our lives; of course I excluded 'certain' parts of my life.
"You guys go on, I am gonna get Kodo." I said as I waved goodbye to Dean, Edgar and Dad.
Finally, I was to myself to drown in my own thoughts. I don't know what I did all day. I only remember the part consisting 'Jacob' in the whole day. The entire day when I was with Leah or even my family I kept thinking about Jacob. I never let it surface because it wouldn't have been nice, for me.
I stopped in front of Emily's house, the lights were off. I checked my phone and looked at the time. It was a quarter to twelve. Of course, they are sleeping.
I sighed and got out of the car. The heels were hurting me. I am not a heels person. I gripped the car with my right hand, and pulled off my heels with the left one. I placed them in my cars and walked to the front door.
"Kodo" I whispered lightly. I knew that he wouldn't be asleep and I really don't want to wake up Emily or Sam.
"Hey" A male voice said and I jumped back startled. I looked to my right and saw that Jacob was sitting on the grass with Kodo lying silently beside him. What?
Jacob, for once, was fully dressed and was even wearing a hoodie, a grey one. I walked down the porch stairs and to the place where he was sitting.
"I am here to take Kodo." I said keeping my voice simple and plain. He just kept staring at me. I walked a bit ahead so that I was in the line of moonlight. Jacob's eyes were sparkling with something. The way he was looking at me…he is not supposed to look at me like this.
"You look beautiful." He said and there was sincerity in his voice. Why is he doing this?
"Thanks." I said shrugging my shoulders.
"Come on Kodo." I said to Kodo who was lying pretty far from Jacob but he was quiet. His front paws were crossed and his head was high. Then I looked at Jacob and saw…blood? On his hand.
"He bit you? Again?" I asked kind of shocked. What is up with Kodo?
"Yeah, some dog you have here." Jacob said shaking his eyes.
"I am sorry. Come on Kodo." I said in an angry tone to my dog. Kodo gave me a look, a look which was asking for forgiveness. Like hell he is going to get it from me.
"It's okay, we settled it." Jacob said and I looked at him confused. Settled it?
"We went for a run, there was lots of growling, but I think things will be at least bearable between us." He said shrugging.
It was strange. They sorted things out? I know Kodo doesn't like Jacob, and I know it's because Jacob hurts me and Kodo is fully aware of it. Kodo just looks out for me. He is smarter than any other dog and some people also.
"That's great." I said and then walked towards Kodo. I patted his head affectionately and he got up to nudge my cheeks with his nose.
"The fight is the day after tomorrow." Jacob said and I shifted my head to look at him. His hand was almost healed.
"Okay" I said and then got up.
"We have to be at the mountain top by five in the evening." He said and I just nodded my head.
"You have to get your brothers and Dad out of the town." He said and I don't know why but I was kind of getting irritated. Or maybe I was just hurt, and it has been a long day and I have to stand here and talk with the guy who is responsible for all the pain I am going through, just fantastic.
"I know what I have to do." I said and then turned around to walk away, because I don't know how long I will be able to control myself around him. He alters my emotions to a level which I have no control over. Standing there and looking at him, aches me. It pains me so much I can't even describe.
I love him so damn much.
So much.
"We've got to talk to sort out things." He said and I turned to look at him standing up. Talk?
"We've got to talk? The nerve you have to say that." I said fairly calmly.
"Why do we always keep fighting?" he asked irritated.
"You should answer this question yourself Jacob, you know that better." I said and he shook his head.
"I know I am an ass, okay?! I know I fuck up things! And I am sorry for that. I never meant to hurt you Elena!" he said standing up and I kept looking down at the ground. After a minute I turned and started to walk away with Kodo by my side because I just can't fight with him anymore. It's draining me too much. The hollowness inside me was growing with every passing second.
"Don't you walk away from me!" Jacob said spinning me around and Kodo growled at him. I tried to ignore the feeling his touch sends me. It was like electricity sparked through my whole body. The connection is too strong yet so weak.
"Why? Why should I not, when it's the only thing that you have ever done to me!" I shouted back at him. He looked at me with a pained expression.
"Elena" He took my hands in his. "I don't deserve you." He mumbled with his eyes down.
"No, you don't" I forced the words out of my mouth. He looked up at me, and for once he let me see his vulnerability.
"I don't know what to do." He whispered and I looked into his eyes. I saw how helpless he was and the war he was at with himself. My heart ached for him so bad; I want to take away all his pain. But nothing drives me madder than being so near him but still unable to help him.
And I can't take it anymore.
I walked to him and placed the palm of my right behind his neck and the left on his clothed chest, and hugged him to me. My chin placed firmly on his shoulder. His hands went to my waist and pulled me to him tightly. His hold was too strong, but I didn't complain. He hid his face in the crook of my neck and his hot breath chilled me.
I let my tears flow as I hugged him. The pain was lessening and increasing at the same time. Lessening for the fact that I was so close to him and increasing because there was still so much distance between us.
"I am so sorry El." He whispered to my neck. No one has ever called me 'El' and I know that now I won't allow anyone else to do so. This name is given to me by Jacob, he owns it.
"Why do you make things so hard?" I mumbled on his shoulder. He sighed heavily.
"I don't know." He replied. "There is so much going on and I don't know who to share it with. I don't know what to do." He said softly and kissed my neck ever so lightly. This gesture made me feel a thousand different emotions all at the same time.
I was about to let him go but his grip got firmer.
"Don't go." He breathed on my neck. I shivered.
"Why is to so hard for you to let me go?" I asked him the question I was dreading to get an answer to. I hope he doesn't say it's because of the imprint.
"You are a part of my life." He said and that one sentence made me so happy that a few more tears leaked out of my eyes. His life. Yet, we have to go through all this.
"Is it that hard? To make a decision?" I asked. He pulled me a little closer.
"I love her." He said and I can't even describe the pain I was in when those words left his mouth.
"Do you?" I asked letting my tears get soaked in his hoodie.
"She is the first girl I ever had that kind of feelings for. It's not that easy." He said.
"You don't love her." I said more to myself then to him.
"You can't be so sure." He said and I smiled sadly to myself.
"You are right, I can't be. But it's true that you haven't met any other girl aside her." I said shaking my head. But I was sure. Jacob doesn't love Bella. He may fantasize Bella, but not love her. Love is different. For me, Bella was a proving point to Jacob. Like he can't let Edward have her. Like if he let go of Bella, Edward will win. It's not love.
Or maybe it is, but I am seeing it the way I want. The way, it will make things easier for me.
"So what is this between us?" I asked. He stopped breathing for a moment. "Because I am sure we are not friends. Friends don't make each other feel this way." I said holding onto him tightly.
"I don't know what we are, I seriously don't." he said and I was a bit disappointed by his answer. "The imprint-"he started.
"It's a mistake Jacob." I forced every word out of my mouth. My heart was constricting so much that it was actually physically paining me.
"Spirits don't make these kinds of mistakes. They never have before." He said removing his head from my neck to look in my eyes. And I don't know why, at that moment, I was completely vulnerable in front of him. I was too broken to get my guard up. I kept looking in his eyes. The chocolate colored eyes I have fallen in love with.
A tear slid down my cheek and Jacob was stunned but soon it was replaced by hurt and pain.
"There is a first for everything." I said shrugging lightly. "Maybe the spirits decided to experiment with us first, 'let's see how the fate of two completely unsuitable people for each other put together results in'." I said with a small smile. Jacob never returned the smile, his expression was grim.
"Mistakes happens, you just have to deal with it." I said and before he could wipe away my tears, I kissed the corner of his mouth and pulled myself out of his grip. I ran to the car and get in. Kodo remained silent. I somehow started the car. I looked in the mirror and saw a man standing with a broken expression on his face, the man I love, the man I can't have.
I was hastily wiping away my tears while driving; it was getting hard for me to see. After five minutes of driving I stopped and clutched my abdomen. It was paining too much. Physically, emotionally I was becoming a wreck. I don't want to cry but the tears weren't stopping. I was losing control over my body.
Jacob did break down the wall I had built around my heart only to build it back much stronger this time. I don't know what lies ahead in our lives, but I was pretty sure my future was in darkness, complete and utter darkness without even a single ray of hope or sunshine.
I somehow got to my house and silently walked to my room. I went straight to change my clothes and then I sat in the corner of my bed and sighed heavily, trying to get my emotions in control. My head was hurting so much.
The fight is about to start. And I don't know what I am going to do. Patrick has trained me over the days and I have gotten my powers in control but what about the pain that I am in? How will I fight with it?
It's easier to fight with the people you hate than to fight with the people you love.
I sighed heavily as my eyes watered up.
A paper was sticking out from beneath my pillow. The note was in scrawny handwriting. I pulled it out and read it.
Why is he doing this to me? Why is he being the ray of hope? Why can't he just let me go? Why can't I let him go?
"Mistakes are not to be dealt with. They are to be corrected."
-Jacob.
A/N: Yeah, this Jacob dude is totally in love with Elena, if only he will accept it. And he will, in the next chapter maybe, I have it all figured out. But I think that a big step is coming. SOMETHING BIG is going to happen and maybe I will talk to one of you about it. For suggestions. You can get a hint from the summary ;)
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